Today: My After Image

This morning, I walked into the minefield and detonated!

This morning I realized impossible is IMPOSSIBLE!

I gave hope and keeping the faith a try. Amended and created the Representative for the humans.


Regardless of the misinformation. I am not all teddy bear like, warm and cuddly or even care most of the time. I have heard that shit most of my life. And still it won't apply.

In my life there has only be one other time I felt that vibe. That knowledge that this was the one and the right time. So when it happened, I was more than skeptical. I was denying. But, I gave it the boy scout try. Only to find out it has and application like a L.A.W.  One shot, disposable ordinance. And it hit it's mark true to the prime.

I realized that what I wanted was the equivalent of winning the lottery within a pool of lottery winners, inside another pool of lottery winning. I wanted it all. The wife, submissive, adventurer, super freak and all. I was dumb enough to think this was a viable option. Just blind, dumb and ignorant of me.

Today reinforced the reasons why I analyze, ask questions and my brain won't stop thinking. To prepare myself for these things. So regardless of the realization. I will be able to return to the being that I am. The analyzed possibilities became a reality. One that I am not happy about, nor did I want to be. But here it is in full effect. The bombing run happened. And I got hit.

Wow! Is all I can still say. Even after all the thinking that this would happen.

The Borg always say, "Resistence is Futile!"

WELL FOR ME RESISTENCE IS THE TRUTH AND THE ONLY WAY!!!!!!!!