Beats thump
Give way to callous thought
Revocation of resemblance
To concerns lost
The black and blues
Hues of anger
Concussive revelations
I am the darkness
That was sought
Careening through
Emotions and feelings
Angered at their cause
Borg like mentality
Transmuted to Pudding soft
Origin
Where art thou
Too much has been lost
Scorch the universe
Stain existence with
The presence of the return to
What I am
Stand within the flames
Drinking gasoline
Smiling brightly
Return from misrepresentation
Fabrication of soft infestation
Necessary cleansing
The only available application
For tis I
Apocalypse
The representative of
Light and Dark
I am the
Evil Mark
from the chocolatezeus collection 4/19/15 (c)
Sunday, April 19, 2015
Dynamic, Decisive Disregard Equals What Must Be
Realization. It came as a crushing blow. Even though it was foreseen a long time ago.
The one thing that I vowed not to allow to happen occurred. I became soft and weak. Has becoming a widower and interactions with the humans made me this week? Smdh. Shame, shame, shame.
I let feelings get in the way of being. Let the concept destroy what should and always will be.
Dominant. It is who and what I am. Always have been. Most of the time in the past without any effort at all. Naturally it has happened. I got away from actively doing what I need to do. Succumbed to complacency and fluffy things.
Yes, I treated the subs and slaves this way. There was nothing invested with them. Unfortunately the invested one is the one that I should have treated the same way as well. Left with the point of "make or break." It is my fault I slipped so badly in this way.
Time to drop the Nuke...
Throw the hands up and let whatever happens be the way
The one thing that I vowed not to allow to happen occurred. I became soft and weak. Has becoming a widower and interactions with the humans made me this week? Smdh. Shame, shame, shame.
I let feelings get in the way of being. Let the concept destroy what should and always will be.
Dominant. It is who and what I am. Always have been. Most of the time in the past without any effort at all. Naturally it has happened. I got away from actively doing what I need to do. Succumbed to complacency and fluffy things.
Yes, I treated the subs and slaves this way. There was nothing invested with them. Unfortunately the invested one is the one that I should have treated the same way as well. Left with the point of "make or break." It is my fault I slipped so badly in this way.
Time to drop the Nuke...
Throw the hands up and let whatever happens be the way
You....My Possession
From the convo with HQ about possession.
Males and men all seek to possess females in some shape or form. It really depends on what they want, the level of possession and the subject they are trying to possess.
Some females are possessed easily by fucking them well and giving them attention. I know I have had those types with the likes of Raven, boston cream, Nurse and more. Where you fuck them like they need and they won't forget. They want it and you so they crave it. You possess them now. They will do what needs to be done to get their fix. Even if it means finding a third female to have a relationship with so that you feel comfortable when you can't see me.
I have never been the pretty boy or anything else that would have females falling for me. But, I have had the sexy females and the females everyone else wanted with me and loving me. Even breaking down the ones that didn't want to show or have feelings. This was achieved through: attention, communication, probably that I am unique and the mystery of me. From the cupcake girl that everyone was wondering why she was kissing me and had to play with me first at swing parties to the virgin chick that kept coming back for more even when I told her to leave me alone and she can't handle me. She finally stopped when we tried to have sex the other year and she was boring me so much with the hesitation and everything that my dick went soft and I was like never mind. I never heard from her again. lol
Males will try to possess females for the moment. Or so they can say that they had them as one of a list. Or many other reasons. Most it is about the aspect of the chase and conquering. Then there is the point of moving on to something new. Which in this modern age also has transcended to females as well.
My possession is deeper since being married. It is about that connection. The way we interact. Being there for me. Through pleasure, service, fortitude, understanding and more. Where I am a part of her. her mind and soul. She feels, needs and craves me. That lock that is so strong and sturdy against the change of time.
When I say and claim her as mine. She knows and gives me that look. Knowing completely that she is all mine. That she will serve me fully and happiness will be by design.
Males and men all seek to possess females in some shape or form. It really depends on what they want, the level of possession and the subject they are trying to possess.
Some females are possessed easily by fucking them well and giving them attention. I know I have had those types with the likes of Raven, boston cream, Nurse and more. Where you fuck them like they need and they won't forget. They want it and you so they crave it. You possess them now. They will do what needs to be done to get their fix. Even if it means finding a third female to have a relationship with so that you feel comfortable when you can't see me.
I have never been the pretty boy or anything else that would have females falling for me. But, I have had the sexy females and the females everyone else wanted with me and loving me. Even breaking down the ones that didn't want to show or have feelings. This was achieved through: attention, communication, probably that I am unique and the mystery of me. From the cupcake girl that everyone was wondering why she was kissing me and had to play with me first at swing parties to the virgin chick that kept coming back for more even when I told her to leave me alone and she can't handle me. She finally stopped when we tried to have sex the other year and she was boring me so much with the hesitation and everything that my dick went soft and I was like never mind. I never heard from her again. lol
Males will try to possess females for the moment. Or so they can say that they had them as one of a list. Or many other reasons. Most it is about the aspect of the chase and conquering. Then there is the point of moving on to something new. Which in this modern age also has transcended to females as well.
My possession is deeper since being married. It is about that connection. The way we interact. Being there for me. Through pleasure, service, fortitude, understanding and more. Where I am a part of her. her mind and soul. She feels, needs and craves me. That lock that is so strong and sturdy against the change of time.
When I say and claim her as mine. She knows and gives me that look. Knowing completely that she is all mine. That she will serve me fully and happiness will be by design.
Friday, April 17, 2015
There And Nothing Accomplished Again
Well with their daughter in tow. I honestly thought that something would get done. And then we came and got things together in the storage for dumping and yard sale. Got rid of half of the female parentals clothes in the garage. (remember that is only half her clothes in the garage now, not total)
And then I looked and there was nothing accomplished. Haha the joke is on me.
The stress. The stress. My blood pressure is higher than the high it is normally. The pain has decided to kick it up a notch. Ahhh this is the hot mess of relations with this humans.
Talking to someone that can understand my plight, pick at me and we laugh together. Makes it easier for sure.
Time to get back to the world. A stop at H mart in the ATL tomorrow on the way back to the beach.
This was definitely NOT the great adventure they sang in the Hobbit. LoL
Well, I better get some sleep for the road in the morning.
And then I looked and there was nothing accomplished. Haha the joke is on me.
The stress. The stress. My blood pressure is higher than the high it is normally. The pain has decided to kick it up a notch. Ahhh this is the hot mess of relations with this humans.
Talking to someone that can understand my plight, pick at me and we laugh together. Makes it easier for sure.
Time to get back to the world. A stop at H mart in the ATL tomorrow on the way back to the beach.
This was definitely NOT the great adventure they sang in the Hobbit. LoL
Well, I better get some sleep for the road in the morning.
Friday, April 10, 2015
Journey to the center of Hell
Let's start with a huge woosah! Because the parental units daughter is something else. I can't help but smh and say she is ditzy. Failed to tell me about her stopping in atl on the way to bama as well as on the way back. So I have to find accommodations last second.
The pain is something else. And seems to be building. Ugh! And it will only get worse when I get around thr parental units. But have to do something before things get worst.
I need an HQ intervention. Missing her little ass. An atidote to this mess most delicious and thoroughly.
And to top it off the parental unit's daughter's driving doesn't inspire comfort and relaxation. Like...at all!
The pain is something else. And seems to be building. Ugh! And it will only get worse when I get around thr parental units. But have to do something before things get worst.
I need an HQ intervention. Missing her little ass. An atidote to this mess most delicious and thoroughly.
And to top it off the parental unit's daughter's driving doesn't inspire comfort and relaxation. Like...at all!
Wednesday, April 08, 2015
Choices: Slaves, Subs and Others
Once I make a choice after thinking it to death. (lol) I go full throttle ahead until it shows that it was a mistake or the other party involved changes on me. That is just the way Zeus operates!
I have to say that the choices that I have made in the last 7 years have been 33 percent in good standing. I have made my mistakes in choices by not sticking to my picky standards and letting females have a chance in the equation.
But when I pick them and get that vibe, feeling and connect. Then it is on like popcorn. Well, at least once we do battle for a while and come together as a fighting unit. I do pick some tom boy, feminist, high intelligent super freaks! And honestly, I am very happy with my 33 percent of the best of the best. They bring me peace, excitement, unforgettable moments and memories.
The slave column. I am batting absolute zero on this. From one that is off in lala land and I think her brain is broken. To the one that was under consideration and ... Hey wait a minute that one's brain was broken as well. Is this some kind of trend? lol I doubt it but the stats on this show that it is.
And the Sub predicament. One golden goose that works and has minimal issues when it comes down to it. Even though there is an aspect of perplexity. Then there was the one that I spoke to and attempted to educate to even decide if she was worth vetting. Only to turn around and say she is with a Dom one day after asking about her educational assignment. Plus the one that has a dynamic but kept the hinting that we could work it all out and she was showing hella interest. Oh, and I have been informed that I missed some others as well since I don't mind read or interpret hints that well. To be honest NOT AT ALL!
I always say, "step up to speak and say what you want and mean."
This journey has been interesting to say the least. Enlightening most definitely.
Complex Simplicity is what I want and need.
Simple design and destiny.
I have to say that the choices that I have made in the last 7 years have been 33 percent in good standing. I have made my mistakes in choices by not sticking to my picky standards and letting females have a chance in the equation.
But when I pick them and get that vibe, feeling and connect. Then it is on like popcorn. Well, at least once we do battle for a while and come together as a fighting unit. I do pick some tom boy, feminist, high intelligent super freaks! And honestly, I am very happy with my 33 percent of the best of the best. They bring me peace, excitement, unforgettable moments and memories.
The slave column. I am batting absolute zero on this. From one that is off in lala land and I think her brain is broken. To the one that was under consideration and ... Hey wait a minute that one's brain was broken as well. Is this some kind of trend? lol I doubt it but the stats on this show that it is.
And the Sub predicament. One golden goose that works and has minimal issues when it comes down to it. Even though there is an aspect of perplexity. Then there was the one that I spoke to and attempted to educate to even decide if she was worth vetting. Only to turn around and say she is with a Dom one day after asking about her educational assignment. Plus the one that has a dynamic but kept the hinting that we could work it all out and she was showing hella interest. Oh, and I have been informed that I missed some others as well since I don't mind read or interpret hints that well. To be honest NOT AT ALL!
I always say, "step up to speak and say what you want and mean."
This journey has been interesting to say the least. Enlightening most definitely.
Complex Simplicity is what I want and need.
Simple design and destiny.
Wednesday, April 01, 2015
Boston Creams and Southern Cheesecakes
I have to say that things are positive. Which is saying a lot considering the parental units, life and all factors going on. Oh and my brain doing most of the damage with all the thinking.
But there are some things that make it worthwhile and give way to things to look forward to.
I look forward to this trip to Amsterdam. Hell I am looking forward to the trips planned Period! I see that they will be fun, exciting and very memorable. A lot of new things mixed in with some remember the time moments as well. Like Madurodam. lol
I am going to continue my first Shibaricon next month. I am looking forward to being in awe of the rope work of masters along with learning and applying. I need practice bad. Especially with someone else involved. lol
The birthday weekend will be fun I am sure. Along with laid back, relaxing and intoxicating. Plus the weekend before that will be an adventure as well.
So amid the Hell there are sweet times filled with boston creams and whipped cream topped cheesecakes. And I am very, very glad of that.
Because things with the parental units become increasingly more challenging.
Till the next episode...enjoy your just desserts!
But there are some things that make it worthwhile and give way to things to look forward to.
I look forward to this trip to Amsterdam. Hell I am looking forward to the trips planned Period! I see that they will be fun, exciting and very memorable. A lot of new things mixed in with some remember the time moments as well. Like Madurodam. lol
I am going to continue my first Shibaricon next month. I am looking forward to being in awe of the rope work of masters along with learning and applying. I need practice bad. Especially with someone else involved. lol
The birthday weekend will be fun I am sure. Along with laid back, relaxing and intoxicating. Plus the weekend before that will be an adventure as well.
So amid the Hell there are sweet times filled with boston creams and whipped cream topped cheesecakes. And I am very, very glad of that.
Because things with the parental units become increasingly more challenging.
Till the next episode...enjoy your just desserts!
Sunday, March 29, 2015
Life, Times and Dominant
As I hold my head. The throbbing remains from the parental units and everything else. Whew, I need that break!
I was revisiting rope ties. And was reminded of the rope class the week before I attended to downtown. (Yes, it shocked me I went down there as well. But it shows my interest in rope) Now, I am not comfortable or flexible to be tying myself up and most everyone was partnered up. But I did get my learn on. Plus there were two sexy white chicks and one sexy, curvy and young black chick. So I had eye candy displayed in rope. I definitely need the practice. Just don't have a real person to practice on. Oh well, will adapt and overcome.
As I played Gears of Way 2 again, I was really enthralled with the similarities with the game and life. How you overcome tragedy after tragedy. Clean up other's messes and try to stay sane while fighting every enemy that is known or unknown and seen or not seen.
After talking to Big T and texts with my god daughter. I miss the kids. Always different and interesting. But with energy and a different look on life. Hell, it is still hard to believe at times my god daughter is in high school. thankfully she is pretty and intelligent. Which thankfully separates her from her womb donor.
My adventures as a Dom continue to grow as I learn. I am comfortable with where I am in terms of education and the things that I want. I will continue to grow and experience. Only time will tell whether it will only be play experiences or more than that. But, I am thankful for those Doms and Masters that I have met and have shared information, as well as experiences. It has allowed me to understand, analyze and dissect things. Then put my perspective into place more effectively.
Moving forward is key and not always simple but it is happening. And of course I am severely dissapointed Black Beat won't occur this year at all. I was looking forward to attending again and some great classes. At least I got the experience last year.
And the experiences with the so called slave types have definitely shown me who and what to avoid.
Well, let us continue this lifetime Marvel comics edition of....
Journey Into Mystery!!
I was revisiting rope ties. And was reminded of the rope class the week before I attended to downtown. (Yes, it shocked me I went down there as well. But it shows my interest in rope) Now, I am not comfortable or flexible to be tying myself up and most everyone was partnered up. But I did get my learn on. Plus there were two sexy white chicks and one sexy, curvy and young black chick. So I had eye candy displayed in rope. I definitely need the practice. Just don't have a real person to practice on. Oh well, will adapt and overcome.
As I played Gears of Way 2 again, I was really enthralled with the similarities with the game and life. How you overcome tragedy after tragedy. Clean up other's messes and try to stay sane while fighting every enemy that is known or unknown and seen or not seen.
After talking to Big T and texts with my god daughter. I miss the kids. Always different and interesting. But with energy and a different look on life. Hell, it is still hard to believe at times my god daughter is in high school. thankfully she is pretty and intelligent. Which thankfully separates her from her womb donor.
My adventures as a Dom continue to grow as I learn. I am comfortable with where I am in terms of education and the things that I want. I will continue to grow and experience. Only time will tell whether it will only be play experiences or more than that. But, I am thankful for those Doms and Masters that I have met and have shared information, as well as experiences. It has allowed me to understand, analyze and dissect things. Then put my perspective into place more effectively.
Moving forward is key and not always simple but it is happening. And of course I am severely dissapointed Black Beat won't occur this year at all. I was looking forward to attending again and some great classes. At least I got the experience last year.
And the experiences with the so called slave types have definitely shown me who and what to avoid.
Well, let us continue this lifetime Marvel comics edition of....
Journey Into Mystery!!
Saturday, March 28, 2015
Thursday, March 26, 2015
Spoken Word: Only For The Moment
Only For The Moment
Lost in the flow
Ebbing
Blown away by
Feeling
Desire
Destiny
Cold hard truth
Reality
There may be
Nothing
Absolutely nothing
After this moment
Things could cease to
exist
Only to be left
Blue with
Memories
The flames burn
So brightly
When fed constantly
Fueled with destiny
But change comes
Is available
Looming like the
World trade
I smile
Smirk
Remembering the
Good times and things
While prepared
Waiting for the
crimson remnants
Of change
Moments
Moments are
Fleeting
From the
chocolatezeus collection 3/26/15 ©
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Spoken Word: Blank
standing in the torrential absence
encased in a decadent void
beholden to limbo
reach
reach
retracting
realization of what
is happening
tell me
show me
never mind
life is a blind fold
reaching into the cauldron
burning each cell
encapsulated
branded
everything is changed
purified by flames
melted
branded
marks remain
blueprint made
embossed trophy
forever displayed
encased in a decadent void
beholden to limbo
reach
reach
retracting
realization of what
is happening
tell me
show me
never mind
life is a blind fold
reaching into the cauldron
burning each cell
encapsulated
branded
everything is changed
purified by flames
melted
branded
marks remain
blueprint made
embossed trophy
forever displayed
It Is Not That Hard To Believe
As usual females make me question their available brain usage.
Chick asks me if I have kids. I answer no. She then is all shocked. Asks that dumb question, "are you sure?" Yes monkey bitch I am sure I have no kids.
Just because I am a black man doesn't mean I have to have kids.
I can't help it the black chicks killed them all.
I need to get paid for each time they do this!
Chick asks me if I have kids. I answer no. She then is all shocked. Asks that dumb question, "are you sure?" Yes monkey bitch I am sure I have no kids.
Just because I am a black man doesn't mean I have to have kids.
I can't help it the black chicks killed them all.
I need to get paid for each time they do this!
Monday, March 23, 2015
Sexy Chocolate: Chocolate Pi
Dedicated to that Sexy Chocolate. Always something else. Always unique.
Chocolate Pi
Dark, sweet chocolate
Mahogany divine
Wrapped up in a
delicious
Curvy
Mouth watering
Enchantment
Licking lips
Mind and eyes open
wide
Sensual seductress
Intellectual prowess
With that weird mesh
That has made her
The finest wine
Sweet creamy goodness
Leaving me craving
Needing another
Sexy Chocolate
Fix
Awarded with
Excellence
Fan favorite
MVP of relevance
A deep treasure chest
As she continues to
be
An original
Periodic element
Now I can smile
As I can fully
understand
The best meaning and
relation of
Pi
From the
chocolatezeus collection 3/22/15 ©
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