SPLF, Corona Shit and US Imprisonment

It has been a while as I bankhead bounce to Big Boi's "Kill Jill."  I have to say a profound thank you to the DJs that have been rocking it since the US imprisonment started. Mostly been jamming to a lot of San Antonio DJs like my fellow brat Dj J Millie. Much respect!

SPLF

South Plains Leatherfest wasn't the same because of the international travel ban and then the government hyping up the hysteria about corona. But as real troopers we went on and missed those that couldn't come or chose not to.

I didn't attend as many classes this time opting to do some non classroom education. And it went hard in the smoking section indeed. Leather history, talking to title holders, presenters and everything.

There was a light bulb go off moment for me as well. As I realized that I was being asked about and talking about CTX to people. How the hell did I get here? I am not a founding member. I am security. But as the girls and sunshine have said I am recognized now because of what I do there. I am the Dark Lord that remains in the darkness until it's time for Order 66 dammit!  So this is a new ride for me. So yes, I acknowledge that the girls and sunshine were correct. (there you go)

One of the most memorable parts was a classed called SHELF LIFE a conceptual, theoretical discussion by Master Skip and slave Rick. This wasn't a class but a discussion about the shelf life or term of relationships and dynamics in D/s and M/s.  I don't know what drew me to attend things but I was glad that I did.

Shelf life made me think about what I consider failures in relationships and dynamics. Because to me I chose them to be a permanent part in existing. I had to come to terms with the fact that they had a choice and that things just had a shelf life with them. It was hard with red but I realized that after she made her choice. But it truly did not come full circle until I sat in that classroom discussing this topic.  Because the term life of a relationship did not denote failure or it not being successful. I had to fully embrace and understand that finally.


corona

So this mess was created at unc chapel hill by the us government and people at that school as a chinese scientist was there observing. Combining samples of sars, ebola, h1n1 and others together from ft dietrich they came up with a new biological weapon..

This was then taken by the scientist (same one that died after announcing it was loose) to wuhan china to be worked on

And apparently they have had this thing loose since somewhere around august or so without saying anything.

Now we have the government here deciding to vote on removing constitutional rights, making sure that panic is in full effect and effectively created martial law.  So quarantined and in the house and told to stay there as the government gives themselves a 45k raise this weekend.


Now I am just going to jam to DJ Dark Knight and get my chair dancing going some more. Be safe and there will be more to come...

Poetry Moment: Destiny Unknown

Destiny Unknown

time has passed

intrigue has become more than

juicy lips

thick, sexiness

nice tits and ass

lightning connect

time revealed things

that ended up being

most evident

the laughter shared

the carnal desires greeted

as bonds grew through

classics, cartoon and kung fu history

billowing smoke lifts

vision of succulent lips

fill the air with each plume

as we etch unforgettable moments

into the flames of connectivity

leaving our mark

upon eternity

parted lips

lust that tasted so decadent

melted carnal elegance

leaving scorched ether

evident

from there to here

every bet would have been lost

no road map drawn

just a demilitarized zone

know that we have breached the

unknown

there is only

adventure

experiences

unrestricted possibilities

to submerge into

now we are

in our own zone

from the chocolatezeus collection 3/2/20 (c)

Uber Bedürfnisse and Alles

It has been a hectic one as this year flies by already. Feel like I am on the shinkensan and increasing. About to have a flashpoint paradox shortly.

Through much analysis and thought processing some things have been handled, prepared for and still on the drawing board. Each hour, day and week there are a number of things to deal with. Work, Ru, girls, my people and everything have taken it's toll. And especially the medical stuff that I have been dealing with.

The anniversary of Big Ma dying passed last week and still reeling from Bruce from the cigar shop dying unexpectantly.

But this time last weekend I was still on R&R. And I enjoyed it fully. The young lady served and was of service plus we had a great time. Cigars, museums, eating and just clowning. Exactly what the Mad, Evil Doctor ordered. So I am much appreciative of her, our adventures and company.  she made Houston a great time!

Hung out with my Ru while I was in Htown as well. We had time to chill, talk, handle some business and be our usual Life Unscripted selves.

Well...

Guilty Pleasures

and

ACC Women's basketball tournament on deck

then

South Plains Leatherfest will be going down in Dallas. Ready to enjoy, learn and experience again. I hope I see that tall pretty Domme from Croatia again.

Poetry: I Am your Enemy Within

I Am Your Enemy Within

since the beginning

I have been the villian

males upset because I hang with the females they want

females thinking I am fucking eeryone beccause of

the females I am around

the jealousy seems to reign supreme

for no reason

year after year

the cyclical nature is retained

their criminal jealousy in flame

what are you afraid of?

Why do you fear my interactions?

Is it because you have no control?

Or that you have no communication of your own?

See

I am not chasing anyone

not trying to create a stable of my own

merelly doing me

females choose my counsel and company

something with you must be wrong

so I will just continue to laugh

as you make ignorant commands

grip tight on things and people you never had

all because of your self inadequacy

no worries

nothing will change

I will continue to be

Man of my own

as you label me

your antagonist in your journey

caught in a battle that is all your own

from the chocolatezeus collection 2/17/20 (c)

Poetry Moment: The Connect

The Connect

Aaron Hall reminding me

thinking of Me and you

How I want to give it to you real nasty

be my baby

light my day sunshine

Thoughts of those lips

deep passionate kisses

their warmth wrapped around me

give me that delight

from the first moments

when my eyes were open wide

touched by your eye candy delights

I just wanted to get to know you

let me show you what you been feeling and thinking

just open up for me

let us both delve nice and deep

into each others tumultous seas

from that beginning

never would have thought where it would lead

you know what I want

you know what I need

give it to me

we already entered into each other’s

mentality

looks that turned into intrigue

discussions that wet neurons

carnal desires released

all I asked you to do

was just be

be yourself

be as freaky as you want to be

release and be free

building block upon block

connect from the beginning

now intesified in strength

I am about that connect

the connecction that sparked from the beginning

the sparks now that burn like solar flares

let us burn eternity

you and me

connected

the way the connect always should be

the connection

the only important thing

from the chocolatezeus collection 2/12/20 (c)

To Just Be aka When I Am in the Mood relations

I have heard, witnessed and discussed a phrase that I females have been using for a number of years with it comes to relationships and trying to be involved with them.  That phrase is...

Let's just be and let things happen naturally. (or similar phrases with the same effect)

Honestly this seems like some passive attempt to be standoffish but still get what they want on the intermittent schedule that they want.

What is the point of this? Is this situational relationship lite or something?

I see it as this defense system employed to give a buffer so they can feel protected but like they are committed to something they don't have to really be a part of and is disposable.

People get hurt in this thing called life through relationships, dating and much more. And the maturity just doesn't reach part of the population to learn from what happened, apply realizations and still be productively involved with others.

There have been encounters in the past where the female says this and yet still claims we are in a relationship. But communication, attention and involvement are fleeting or nonexistence. And they are happy with this.

Through my experience I have come to understand this choice more and take it as it is. Just someone that wants the facsimile of a relation based on when, where and how they feel like being bothered. So three years ago when the light bulb went off I took it all in stride and applied the fix. I gave them what they wanted. Something that resembled a relation based on their interest after I asked if they were going to work on the relationship.  Giving them what they want doesn't seem to go over well. It seems to bring out the petty, vindictive, femme nazi side of them since you decide to facilitate the type of relation that they want.

It is perfectly acceptable to not want a or be in any form of relation or relationship. By all means I applaud those that understand, know and actively just do not get involved in anything relation wise. Like they use to say, just don't fake the funk!

Be honest
Be direct
With yourself and everyone else

Go ahead and just

Be

Submission: It is Not a tug of war

In this day and age of different ways, ideals and all there are some things that just remain the same..

Submission is one of those things.

Submission is the act of yielding to an authority. It is a choice to be made and done.


But, in my experiences I have been part of and witnessed things like:

• You have to make me submit to You
• if You do like this guy does then i will submit

In these examples and others it is not about submission. It is about control or lack there of. And that is fine. If you want control then be in control. Do not act like you want submission as you constantly doing anything and everything you can to be in and maintain control.

This is such an important part of things in bdsm and life. This need to have a tug of war because of fear, vanity and whatever else is just not necessary 

Either submit or do not submit!  It is just that simple. 

Cigars, Geechieland and the Expanse

Days filled with all kinds of episodes of Life Unscripted. So this most definitely has been another entry for the books.

I really like the Puro cigar lounge in Columbia, SC. They don't have much of a cigar selection but the people have been nice there both of these times that I have went. I sat up there this time watching the games, laughing and talking while having a drink and smoking. No stress or fuss. I look forward to going there again when I am ever in columbia again.

As a Man and Dominant there are always decisions to be made. Whether popular, wanted or them being happy/happy/joy/joy they have to be made. So I look at the long term and getting there at all times. Continue doing my cost/analysis majority of the time. The non glamorous side of things. There will be hurt feelings and emotions from things known, unknown and unseen. I have seen this through red and everyone else. The key remains to maintain that journey forward with growth.

It rained almost all the time in Columbia but I enjoyed the moments I had.

Watching the changes unfold can be like watching a soap opera to watching a documentary at all times. The ones that are friends one moment and then not friends the next. The ones that are jealous for no reason and those that are insecure. The facade that a Male Dominant is fucking and after everyone one bullshit and all. The real life version of the tv show The Expanse for sure.

But geedhieland was good to me. I spent time with babycakes. Enjoyed another wonderful cigar shop and got things done.

Getting Old is Not for the Weak...Surgeries and Everything

Surgeries scheduled and I just have to sit here, shake my head and laugh.  As we always say in the shop "Getting old is for the strong and not the weak."

Less than 10 days into the year and Life Unscripted shows who is boss. lol

A lot to put together for year. Plenty of things to manage.  A plethora of shit to deal with courtesy of the red and blue government gang members. No fucks given for any presidents or politicians and their families and friends.

I have to say this mess with the middle east is way beyond stupid. Either go over there and carpet bomb them back in the stone age or let them kill each other and stay out of it.

Oh well. making plans and getting things together on the calendar.

No chick to go with me on the cruise so I guess I am not going.

Have a good one.

Caveman...out.

Celebration and the Yin Yang of Things

Yesterday I went to the memorial for the judge.  There were at least 25 judges there, senators, congressmen and more. The police and sherrifs were deep as well. There was the judge's group of black female judges that graduated at the same time calling themselves the divine 9. It was a stirring showing of support and all that she had done in her life time as one of the youngest, black female judges at her position. Even people that she had ruled over in her court room attended. It showed how her life touched many. 

This whole thing inspired so many things. The realization of life. Celebrating the things and affects of life upon others. Missing Chocolate Doll, Big Ma, Unk and Aunt Numi. As well as love, relations and relationships.

Love

My love is as deeply as my apathy. I love with all my heart and disconnect when there is nothing there. Loving through all kinds of things except violations and the choice not be involved and maintain what we have. 

Caring and Support

This is one that has grown a lot over the years. I am and have been supportive of those that I don't know, in passing and those that I had no interest in. I also still supported those I loved and they choose their exit. 

It has shown to me more of the service aspect I have and apply. It just is not as compartmentalized as it use to be. And it is an enjoyable feeling to watch others as you give them support and caring. 

So what does any of this mean?

It means that I am the extremes. 

That as the girls have said, I have no grey area. 

I will ride with you until you choose that I shouldn't ride with you anymore.

Still the Evil man that is apathetic but gives love, caring, passion and support.

And these are just a few things from the vault. 

Do you see the yin and the yang of the Caveman now?

If not holla at me and we can have a discussion about...

Welcome to the Darkside Ride

Well back from Columbia. A nice quiet time. Things didn't go as planned but that is Life Unscripted. Had the Italian nachos at the same ole Chicago pizza place we found in Tennessee. And it tasted just as good as I remembered. Found a nice cigar lounge new year's eve to have a moonshine cigar and smoke one of My Cubans.

So after the startling news last weekend I had a good time relaxing and chilling. And had to add to that my cousin the judge dying from a rare cancer and things went along fine.

Memories:

I popped on facebook and it did the you had memories thing. And it had red on there which reminded me of get togethers after new year and holidays. Some good and memorable times.

Had to think about other new year memories besides the ones in the last couple of years. I can't really recall too much. Interesting!


Relation/Dynamic and gender research continues...

Lately, there has been a plethora of situations that have come up. From feigned episodes of interest with no follow through. To episodes of interest while running away. And many other versions. Many of it reminded me of what happened with red  over a year ago now. That there just is a lack of interest. And it is seen as part of a disposable lifestyle for many. And much of that disposable positioning is due to past experiences, hurt and fear.

The thought process I have seen of we don't have to talk or communicate and everything will be alright. I have witnessed this from when I was with red as well as dc, philly and the twin this year.  This year they showed interest and then cowered in their own fear. They said they wanted to communicate and take it slow and then radio silence.

lol the research will continue. The entertainment value will remain as I read, talk and laugh at much of this stuff females think and act upon. But this is most definitely educational.


This year is going to be a ride!

From the recognition that I have received (and we know I didn't seek it or ask for it.) I have watched as individuals indulge in unnecessary jealousy and envy. Watched the blossoming of folk on their journey. And I am looking forward to sharing more time and space with many that I have met and fellow-shipped with.

All new steps in uncharted universes is where I am headed. I am still the quiet, fortress of solitude Caveman. Reality is somewhere along the line I became a responsible part of the community it seems. lol


It is time to finish up this bottle of Evan Williams bib and try to unpack a little.


Welcome to the new year and the beginning of a new year of Life Unscripted. Where will you be on this journey with me?

2019 End of Dayz

The last day of the year and as people have reminded me the decade as well.

This year has truly been one of the bigger Life Unscripted episodes. I went old school a bit and went back to traveling a little more like I use to. Explored food, places and individuals. Grew in many different ways. Solidified being Me, Myself and I even more.

Over the last two years has made me realize even more how much I miss Chocolate Doll and how far the bar of standard has been set for females since being married to her. The good ones like tigger are gone. The others have definitely left their mark in history with my interactions with them. But love, passion, desire and living love remains regardless of assasination attempts and negative things.

My girls have grown in their journies and lives. I am glad to have been able to watch and enjoy their growth. I sit back and look at the length of these two dynamics. Almost five years and almost two years. It has made me scratch my head without a doubt.


The Man
The Dominant
The Caveman


I have embraced and became more involved in the community more than I realized. Helping more and extending support. Even to those that were not mine or in my cue of interest. The trust in me given by individuals has been humbling as well as the recognition. But this is merely the beginning.with a lot more to do and have happen. As I step further into my journey, the community and the marks that I leave. I prepare for the ride.

So much going on and coming up in this new year. Hell right from the beginning I have a lot to deal with in the next couple of weeks. Along with everything going on with the parental unit, houses and his daughter the only thing to do is woosah and keep moving.

Preparations for conferences, cruise, trips, surgeries and all. Plus seeing what happens on the slave, girlfriend, sex slave and submissive front as well. Of course Life Unscripted will be at an all new level.


The Caveman of the House of Havoc rides the Dark Horse into the new year.


Happy new year to you and yours!

Memories of a Caveman's christmas

Sitting here with a Padron, kraken, ginger beer and my thoughts.

I haven't been in the christmas spirit in a long time. Well at the level of commercialized rhetoric, not at all.

christmas has had meaning for me most on two types of occasions.

First one.

The last christmas with Chocolate Doll. We came down here to Wilmington to spend time with the parental units and their daughter.  They were glad to see us, but I wasn't feeling being bothered. But I had Chocolate Doll so that was all that mattered.

Then the forecast came up for snow here at the beach. I had no desire to be stuck here with the parental units so we rolled out and went home. But everyone loved the gifts she picked out for them and personalized. Her smile was infectious as always. Got back to enjoy Christmas the Titan's way at home. And then the snow came down and I went out in it early to enjoy it.


Secondly.

Growing up on airbases while having your father be in the SP's brought about a different life. But when it came to holidays and especially christmas there were guys that had to stand post all night. Add to that the deployment of everyone to the desert shield operation during christmas also and I am honored to have been able to serve everyone that was there or came through. To give them movies, coffee, food and desserts. To brighten, support or ease their mind a little bit. This had the true meaning of christmas to me.


So today as I get my scrooge on and just chill. I look back and I am thankful for My Life Unscripted adventures in the christmas agenda.

Right now I am just ready for the season ending episode of the Mandalorian.

Enjoy your christmas