I needed caveman time today after a rough week. With red going through whatever she is going through and working with little one and everything that has been happening. It made for let's say a busy week.
But cromagnon time wasn't available because the big ole white biker guy that I share gruntanese and other mean and evil attrocities with has been mia for over a week now. So there is concern there for sure. But he isn't on the police radar so either he has escaped freely or something has put him down. Hopefully I will catch him before I head out next week.
Yes, I call the cigar shop a modern day cheers because that is what it is. We have the odd couple aka Paul and Jimmy C. The outcasts me and Charlie. The need to be put in a mental hospital ones that shall not be named to avoid them showing up. The rich guys. The legal squad of Ryan and Steve. Beer professionals of Rick and Ed. The I never give a fuck because I got money Eddie. And other assorted characters. lol It is informative, educational, extreme comedy and wtf moments all the time.
So today's highlight featured Big D aka Big Nasty or Danny the father. And his son in law Lil Nasty or Richard. It is great to see them two because it is always funny and fun when they come in. The first time they came in they had us trying to cover for them being at the cigar shop by saying they were still waiting in line at the harley dealership with us all in the background. Their wives showed up later on and it was hilarious. We still laugh and pick about that over a year later. But if they are in town and see Smalls (me) vehicle they are coming in. lol They have such a great relationship. Big D truly sees him as his son. They ride harleys and smoke cars together. And Richard and Bid D's daughter are expecting their first baby after they moved into their new house earlier this year in rdu. I am happy for them. Man we laughed at the stories of D and being the manager of a pharmacy and Richard being a raleigh cop.
Some well needed and deserved laughs today. Add to that the unexpected gorgeous titty pic from the hedo group and conversation early on in the week. The week wasn't completely destroyed.
Otherwise...
Female parental unit in the hospital.
Ru is working herself to death.
Child at school laid hands on Tereze and got dealt with.
Looking forward to L.A. and Nashville.
Still haven't figured out my other destinations quite yet but it is coming. lol
And with that I am going to leave you to the start of enjoying your weekend
As Picard would say...
ENGAGE!!
Saturday, June 10, 2017
Thursday, June 08, 2017
The Roller Coaster Malpractice
It has been a fucking week. Filled with moods, attitudes, some enjoyable conversation and some fucked up convo.
So Redman definitely encapsulates that all in
The I DON'T GIVE A FUCK protocol is in effect since people have said that and shown that.
I am still in shock that I had a non kill them all dream. But it was about Cupcake and I. And I haven't seen or talked to her since she got upset with her feelings and love for me. But we were hanging out and she owned something like a burger king and I went in and she took me in the back and we ended up in a bedroom. We had great sex as always with her thick, sexy curvy ass and of course her squirting drenched the whole room. Ended up at a wedding, funeral or some gathering with her family the next frame and I was walking past them all to head back to the room to wait for her to fuck and smack her big ass some more. Got back to our marathon fuckfest sessions and that is where I no longer remember or it ended. But yeah that was really fucking weird. The only correlation would be the tits that this girl going to hedonism showed me. (not like I have been tits, ass and pussy pics like I should) But hell I don't even know this chick. I commented she will have a great time and wish I could see the titty unveiling in hedo and she gifted me with a wonderful view.
little one is still dealing with everything. It would be good to help or have the answers all the time. But there is also the need to let them do it on their own and deal with it because as I have seen with her as well as red they have to do it where their brains can handle and process it in their own world fashion.
I worked out some more trips. Haven't decided on some of the ones to round out the year yet but working on it. Seriously considering going back to Amsterdam and England. But I have to figure out some new adventures also so D.R. is one for sure and not sure about the rest yet. Oh yeah, Italy is still doable as long as it is not in august.
Planned some stuff for my birthday but that looks like a clusterfuck so thankfully my overthinking allows for me to adapt and overcome. So we will see how this plays out and where I land.
Watched wonder woman so there will be a review of that coming seperately.
Time to hold on to the good conversation, the memories and being shown the "true colors" of reality.
Have a good one and plenty of muthafuckas to drink.
Oh wait, I think I got the muthafuckas covered daily so get your own drink! lol
So Redman definitely encapsulates that all in
The I DON'T GIVE A FUCK protocol is in effect since people have said that and shown that.
I am still in shock that I had a non kill them all dream. But it was about Cupcake and I. And I haven't seen or talked to her since she got upset with her feelings and love for me. But we were hanging out and she owned something like a burger king and I went in and she took me in the back and we ended up in a bedroom. We had great sex as always with her thick, sexy curvy ass and of course her squirting drenched the whole room. Ended up at a wedding, funeral or some gathering with her family the next frame and I was walking past them all to head back to the room to wait for her to fuck and smack her big ass some more. Got back to our marathon fuckfest sessions and that is where I no longer remember or it ended. But yeah that was really fucking weird. The only correlation would be the tits that this girl going to hedonism showed me. (not like I have been tits, ass and pussy pics like I should) But hell I don't even know this chick. I commented she will have a great time and wish I could see the titty unveiling in hedo and she gifted me with a wonderful view.
little one is still dealing with everything. It would be good to help or have the answers all the time. But there is also the need to let them do it on their own and deal with it because as I have seen with her as well as red they have to do it where their brains can handle and process it in their own world fashion.
I worked out some more trips. Haven't decided on some of the ones to round out the year yet but working on it. Seriously considering going back to Amsterdam and England. But I have to figure out some new adventures also so D.R. is one for sure and not sure about the rest yet. Oh yeah, Italy is still doable as long as it is not in august.
Planned some stuff for my birthday but that looks like a clusterfuck so thankfully my overthinking allows for me to adapt and overcome. So we will see how this plays out and where I land.
Watched wonder woman so there will be a review of that coming seperately.
Time to hold on to the good conversation, the memories and being shown the "true colors" of reality.
Have a good one and plenty of muthafuckas to drink.
Oh wait, I think I got the muthafuckas covered daily so get your own drink! lol
Wednesday, June 07, 2017
Poetic Moment: Closed Captioning
Closed Captioning
Each stripe
A reminder
That the iceberg
Must never die
Memories
Are the only tangible
things
That choose to reside
As I watch the empty
containers
Along with the cargo
ship
Fade beneath the
waves
The message flashes
brightly
My Batman symbol
Lighting up the
universal sky
Clearly I see
As I watch it all
burn
Standing in the
flames
Remembering when the
phoenix was born
Laughing
Those days are gone
Entrance
Cold and chaos
From the
chocolatezeus collection 6/7/17 ©
Monday, June 05, 2017
Poetry: As the Plot Thickens
I eagerly await
each and every communication
that you make
words that illict
smiles and grins
as our correspondence
brings
laughter
attention
connection
horny ramifications
The bliss of communication
the treasure chest of relating
on a scale that is
beyond relevant
each anticipatory moment passes
as I look through time's hourglass
happily waiting for
that next
further plot
of a journey down the yellow brick road
to a point where
we both want to be
the plot and joy
Thickens
in thickness and delight
from the chocolatezeus collection 6/5/17 (c)
each and every communication
that you make
words that illict
smiles and grins
as our correspondence
brings
laughter
attention
connection
horny ramifications
The bliss of communication
the treasure chest of relating
on a scale that is
beyond relevant
each anticipatory moment passes
as I look through time's hourglass
happily waiting for
that next
further plot
of a journey down the yellow brick road
to a point where
we both want to be
the plot and joy
Thickens
in thickness and delight
from the chocolatezeus collection 6/5/17 (c)
Sunday, June 04, 2017
Life Unscripted: A Practical Man
Taken from the title of a book called Boba Fett: A Practical Man.
Talked, laughed, dealt with things and laid things to rest.
There are times when you truly realized you are alone amongst the crowd and those people that you might know. You take your bearing, nod and move forward.
little one is a tad bit better but still got to deal with things going on and all the repercussions.
Ru might be working or might be traveling to party. You never know with my fellow Road Warrior.
Tigger is her usual grump ass self.
red is doing exactly what she does.
As for me. I reached a nexus between the multiverses.
Started some great conversations with ssc which have been informative, funny and interesting. A good getting to know each other period. And it is always fun to laugh at things and talk.
Hell, I even had an in depth conversation with kat yesterday. Hell, I don't think we had anything that in depth since way back in the swinging in MD days. But I did have to get on her ass about the excuses she came up with about not being involved in the lifestyle and all. Another female that I have known with a totally fucked up past and experiences.
Checked out pop tart since she is working at Brooklyn cigars now. At least she can let them medium size titties hang out there versus the shop I go to. Looks like she still got a bunch of shit going on in her life with her damn neighbors son and all as usual. Unless she is going to show me pussy and titties then I am not interested in hearing it.
Hmm, that made me think about when I use to get my needed titty, nipple and pussy pics from the ones I am with.
Sitting in Davis and Son tobacconist one day and I realized we had the widowed section going on between rich, the new nj guy and myself. We all had wives die. The new nj guy wife just died this year after moving down the end of last year.
I can say that I have truly seen the differences in life, people and dealing with them over these years. And it took me a while to understand fully how important my process of dealing with people had to be tweaked and fortified. But it truly has evolved into a better bear trap it seems thankfully.
I am thankful for the eye opening. The new adventure. The laughter. The closeness, intimacy and support I was able to provide. And most importantly the application of the things that needed to be. All those things helped and made for an interesting week.
And I saw how the same monkey is linked to every single female and trying to fuck them and claim being a dom while being sneaky about it. And some of the females are alright with this because it is attention basically. But that shows his and their level of application to D/s as well as relations. I just had to fucking laugh again. Especially when koffeecake said that he is always in her face if he sees her at an event and how creepy he is and wonders about his wife.
All I can do is be me and fully me. So if you are ready and able to handle non cotton candy type of thoughts, feelings and living then you know where to head to for a taste of reality!
Have a great day and enjoy next week.
Talked, laughed, dealt with things and laid things to rest.
There are times when you truly realized you are alone amongst the crowd and those people that you might know. You take your bearing, nod and move forward.
little one is a tad bit better but still got to deal with things going on and all the repercussions.
Ru might be working or might be traveling to party. You never know with my fellow Road Warrior.
Tigger is her usual grump ass self.
red is doing exactly what she does.
As for me. I reached a nexus between the multiverses.
Started some great conversations with ssc which have been informative, funny and interesting. A good getting to know each other period. And it is always fun to laugh at things and talk.
Hell, I even had an in depth conversation with kat yesterday. Hell, I don't think we had anything that in depth since way back in the swinging in MD days. But I did have to get on her ass about the excuses she came up with about not being involved in the lifestyle and all. Another female that I have known with a totally fucked up past and experiences.
Checked out pop tart since she is working at Brooklyn cigars now. At least she can let them medium size titties hang out there versus the shop I go to. Looks like she still got a bunch of shit going on in her life with her damn neighbors son and all as usual. Unless she is going to show me pussy and titties then I am not interested in hearing it.
Hmm, that made me think about when I use to get my needed titty, nipple and pussy pics from the ones I am with.
Sitting in Davis and Son tobacconist one day and I realized we had the widowed section going on between rich, the new nj guy and myself. We all had wives die. The new nj guy wife just died this year after moving down the end of last year.
I can say that I have truly seen the differences in life, people and dealing with them over these years. And it took me a while to understand fully how important my process of dealing with people had to be tweaked and fortified. But it truly has evolved into a better bear trap it seems thankfully.
I am thankful for the eye opening. The new adventure. The laughter. The closeness, intimacy and support I was able to provide. And most importantly the application of the things that needed to be. All those things helped and made for an interesting week.
And I saw how the same monkey is linked to every single female and trying to fuck them and claim being a dom while being sneaky about it. And some of the females are alright with this because it is attention basically. But that shows his and their level of application to D/s as well as relations. I just had to fucking laugh again. Especially when koffeecake said that he is always in her face if he sees her at an event and how creepy he is and wonders about his wife.
All I can do is be me and fully me. So if you are ready and able to handle non cotton candy type of thoughts, feelings and living then you know where to head to for a taste of reality!
Have a great day and enjoy next week.
Tuesday, May 30, 2017
What is a Submissive to Me?
It is a common question and one that is asked a number of times.
For me it is someone that chooses to come under service, direction and leadership of another person. She can be the ruler of half the planet, a ceo or professor with 4 noebel prizes. When all of that is said and done she is the charge of her Dominant.
This is not something that is coerced or forced upon them. I personally question the use of the word submission when they want to be forced into doing it basically. This is supposed to be of free will and action.
It can be a hard or impossible ability for people. Because it requires trust, commitment and no longer only getting your way. An alignment of wills that basically females have been taught against doing in life from their conception.
Nor is submission something easy or immediate for most. It takes time, effort, commitment and growth.
It has taken my little one over a year to become mostly aligned because of life and the things that she was use to and how she is and all. It took understanding and seeing the goals that were set along with the goals that were achieved. And of course there is still a lot of work to do on the journey. But with effort, commitment and attentiveness we will keep right on moving.
Oh yeah, there have been the pitfalls. The fraudulent submissive, the topping from the bottom submissive as well as the burger king submissive (have it my way.) They have shown that I have to be vigilant against things like them trying to manipulate you to get their way or do things some other so called doms way and everything else.
So being a submissive to me is many things. Most are not the suck, fuck and play kind (even though I love those.) There are things like organizing files. Taking dictation and a lot of dicktation as well. Doing research for me. Trip planning and shopping. There are so many things that happen and will be in the submissive's domain of service. But most importantly is honor, duty, integrity to this house, our dynamic.
So there is my little answer for those that haven't asked me yet out of those that have. Or those that have and just want to verify.
For me it is someone that chooses to come under service, direction and leadership of another person. She can be the ruler of half the planet, a ceo or professor with 4 noebel prizes. When all of that is said and done she is the charge of her Dominant.
This is not something that is coerced or forced upon them. I personally question the use of the word submission when they want to be forced into doing it basically. This is supposed to be of free will and action.
It can be a hard or impossible ability for people. Because it requires trust, commitment and no longer only getting your way. An alignment of wills that basically females have been taught against doing in life from their conception.
Nor is submission something easy or immediate for most. It takes time, effort, commitment and growth.
It has taken my little one over a year to become mostly aligned because of life and the things that she was use to and how she is and all. It took understanding and seeing the goals that were set along with the goals that were achieved. And of course there is still a lot of work to do on the journey. But with effort, commitment and attentiveness we will keep right on moving.
Oh yeah, there have been the pitfalls. The fraudulent submissive, the topping from the bottom submissive as well as the burger king submissive (have it my way.) They have shown that I have to be vigilant against things like them trying to manipulate you to get their way or do things some other so called doms way and everything else.
So being a submissive to me is many things. Most are not the suck, fuck and play kind (even though I love those.) There are things like organizing files. Taking dictation and a lot of dicktation as well. Doing research for me. Trip planning and shopping. There are so many things that happen and will be in the submissive's domain of service. But most importantly is honor, duty, integrity to this house, our dynamic.
So there is my little answer for those that haven't asked me yet out of those that have. Or those that have and just want to verify.
Monday, May 29, 2017
Mad Max in the Thunderdome...week in revue
So it has been hot here at the beach. The northerners are down here and creating more accidents and chaos than the ones that already moved here. So yes, I have needed to just get in an interceptor and just ride around shooting and blowing up everything and everyone.
The week?
Well, the week has been interesting to say the least.
Discussions about why Dominants and Masters should let their submissives and slaves have access to their journals. Yeah, that would cave their little heads in reading that stuff. lol
The inability for submissives and slaves to be able to transition and process the differences from their adventures as the career female in their lives and everything to being a submissive or slave in a dynamic. That make me submit to you and everything were on the table again.
The evidence of relevance and importance was shown and put on full display. Almost like more episodes of the issues with the old teen dream thing came out.
Work was something else. Got a chick that is aloof along with a bunch of other misfits. lol
The horny sadist is way out of control! I am looking at chicks i wouldn't look at normally and thinking about fucking and beating them. smh
I had to spend time out in the country since my cousin was down as usual from Mass. I had plenty to eat and drink. I need to keep my alcohol level up you know!
That comfort need thing was evaluated, understood and put into it's vault.
Really ready to hit the skies here shortly and be on the move. It is past time with everything else that has been going on. Need something, so went back to my old way.
I definitely ate and drank well. And I am going to keep that going.
little one has been dealing with things so supporting her through her 1st dom dying and so many other things. As I told some folk this is the non glamorous and fun stuff but it is what has to and should be done. Take care of your charge.
Dating? lol yeah. There will be more changes in this area. But definitely have a lot of work to do.
And it is about time for two more tattoo's. Chocolate Doll and a collaring or dedication.
Half the year is gone and I am ready to get it over with and get a move on.
As Evil parts I will leave these right here...
I love you
Miss you
Need you
...ball is in your court
Back to chaos and destruction
The week?
Well, the week has been interesting to say the least.
Discussions about why Dominants and Masters should let their submissives and slaves have access to their journals. Yeah, that would cave their little heads in reading that stuff. lol
The inability for submissives and slaves to be able to transition and process the differences from their adventures as the career female in their lives and everything to being a submissive or slave in a dynamic. That make me submit to you and everything were on the table again.
The evidence of relevance and importance was shown and put on full display. Almost like more episodes of the issues with the old teen dream thing came out.
Work was something else. Got a chick that is aloof along with a bunch of other misfits. lol
The horny sadist is way out of control! I am looking at chicks i wouldn't look at normally and thinking about fucking and beating them. smh
I had to spend time out in the country since my cousin was down as usual from Mass. I had plenty to eat and drink. I need to keep my alcohol level up you know!
That comfort need thing was evaluated, understood and put into it's vault.
Really ready to hit the skies here shortly and be on the move. It is past time with everything else that has been going on. Need something, so went back to my old way.
I definitely ate and drank well. And I am going to keep that going.
little one has been dealing with things so supporting her through her 1st dom dying and so many other things. As I told some folk this is the non glamorous and fun stuff but it is what has to and should be done. Take care of your charge.
Dating? lol yeah. There will be more changes in this area. But definitely have a lot of work to do.
And it is about time for two more tattoo's. Chocolate Doll and a collaring or dedication.
Half the year is gone and I am ready to get it over with and get a move on.
As Evil parts I will leave these right here...
I love you
Miss you
Need you
...ball is in your court
Back to chaos and destruction
Relation poetry: Murder in the Relationship Degree
Murder in the Relationship Degree
Wait
Wait
Your upset?
Even though you won’t
Open your mouth or
heart
And express yourself
Oh
You do express
something
Merely the bad and
the ugly
I guess the good
escapes your memory
Cue the Clint
Eastwood
Music theme
It is hard to believe
That in this day and
age
Alleged relationship
thing
That there couldn’t
be
Wouldn’t be
And apparently for
you and others
Shouldn’t be
This ability to
Converse
Enjoy and live
Actually have this
Relationship type
Thing
Instead let’s cheer
on
The
Pouting
Angry and snarling
Long distance center
learning
That is prevalent
And so relevant to
you
As the existence of
we
You keep
Murdering
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/29/17 ©
Wednesday, May 24, 2017
Poetic Moments: Definitive Time Displacement
Definitive Time Displacement
Moments
Where I wonder
If you are alright
Where have you been
Hell, if you are even
still there
The sands of the
hourglass
Have fallen so much
That there is only a
haze there
Bewildered by
This time warp of
Distance and
obscurity
As I hold my arms out
Beckoning you to join
me
To join
Us
Let the sum of these
parts
Be whole
Grab hold of this
life raft
Our life is worth
Living
Instead
I hear the words
Engage
And watch
The disappearance
Into warp again
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/24/17 ©
Havoc's Poetry: Destination Foreseen
Destination Foreseen
The moment
I stopped fighting
the feeling
Accepted what was
before me
I told you
I love you and wanted
you
As my wife to be
The checklist was
there
Each item checked off
Intelligent
Gorgeous
Weird and unique
Super freaky
Uninhibited
And the list went on
Your fear screamed at
me
As you back away
Fortified against my
Direct intimate
Revelation
See
I saw through
everything
The walls that you
keep
The fear that you
hold deep
The sabotage that you
seek
Through the fog
I looked at the grail
at the ending
Said that is where
I want to be
We need to be
But I left the ball
in your court
Something to love
Was the score that
would be
So I stand back
From my distant seat
Hoping you see
The beautiful things
That I have already
seen
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/24/17 ©
Monday, May 22, 2017
The Horniness is Out of Control: When it Rains it Creams
I am beyond fucking horny and I mean everything I see I need to fuck and beat!
When It Rains it
Creams
When It Rains it
Creams
The sound of the
pouring rain
Unearths visions
Your chocolate curves
upon display
Served to me fully
I know what those
droplets do to you
Churning chocolate
creamy goodness
I will take each
orgasm from you
Take more than you
want
More than you think
you can do
Fucking
Licking and massaging
Each impact
Frees you
I am going to make
you
Monsoon and typhoon
Internally
So I can watch the
damage
That I do to you
Your mind lost
In the ebb and flow
of
Earth shattering
Non stop
Orgasmic beatings
Each heave
You pay homage to me
Your carnal destroyer
Lips swollen
But open
Calling me to
Maintain this assault
On your rain torn brain
Hyper sensitive,
curvy chocolate body
As you curl up in the
fetal position
Feeing each drop
You hear me
Laugh among the
Stormy rain drops
I have no empathy
You will give me all
Every drop of carnal
desire and need
For this feast will
not cease
As long as the rain
keeps pounding
I will pound you
Mentally and
physically
Soaking
Eroticism
Until it drowns from
This meeting
Just think about it
What does the rain do
to you
Then realize
What the rain causes
me to do to you
Drip
Drop
Splash
Cream
Just you
Me
The rain and
Ultimate release
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/22/17 ©
Poetry: The Calm of the Vile Beast
The Calm to the Vile Beast
You
The comfort, peace
and pleasure
Of looking into those
eyes
Seeing the universe
swirl in them
That smile that moves
mountains
Calming even the
Beast of me
Breaking barriers
Making life solvent
Whether near or far
I feel you
Know your energy
For you feed me
And I feel you so
deeply
Your presence
Like the Big Bang
Theory
Even in the solitary
quietness
You scream so
eloquently
Love and passion
Your weapons against
me
Calming and sating
This vile, savage
beast
In the moments
Where I showed
Need
Your essence
Filled, supported and
defined
The comforts
I need
As always
You know just what I need
A small grin
A smirk even
As I return to
Being just
Me
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/22/17 ©
Spilled Ink: Demilitarized Relations
Demilitarized Relations
Aftermath of
Defended measurements
Standoffish encounters
We were gripped in
Love
Passion
Intimacy
Well until
The usual suspect
arrived
That feeling of
Overwhelming
Turned into
Casual acquaintances
Rubble remains
Where that fiery passion
Unwavering love
Would be
Replaced with a
Juxtapose
Of hit and miss
Type of
Relationship
Now
Love and relation
On the move
Like carnies
travelling
The circuit
In descript
Faded
Epitaphs
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/22/17 ©
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