Friday, March 06, 2015
Marvel’s Avengers: Age of Ultron UK trailer 3 OFFICIAL | HD
This is outstanding. You have James Spader as the bad ass Ultron. Which is so perfect. He sounds and can play the part of Ultron so well from the previews.
We have the set up for Civil War with Tony and Cap facing off on opposing sides and philosophies to set up the conflict to come.
Hulk vs Hulk Buster armor. Enough said!
And you have quicksilver and scarlet witch up in here.
But the best thing at the end of this snippet is the shot of the Vision!!
Yeah, I am ready to see and enjoy this!
Thursday, March 05, 2015
Remnants, Ramifications and Realizations
Yeah, it has been a full moon. Which means my damn Beast Mode has gone Super Nova! I need to be fucking HQ into a straight damn coma with plenty of beating and torture. All the while tied up and restrained.
I need that Sexy Chocolate Fix! And I need it NOW!!
Things have been rough and difficult lately. But as usual I stand in the middle of the hurricane and do what needs to be done.
The parental units seem to be getting worst. So I have to be prepared for whatever is next with that as well.
Plans are in place but are being held up a bit. As I work on crushing and overcoming the obstacles all that is left is time.
I am thankful for the relationship. It is a calm and a anchor amid the storms that have presented themselves. I just want it strengthened and deeper every way and bit possible. It is not easy but the vibe has definitely been correct. The feeling and flow has been just as it should be. An outstanding choice relationship and future.
I need that Sexy Chocolate Fix! And I need it NOW!!
Things have been rough and difficult lately. But as usual I stand in the middle of the hurricane and do what needs to be done.
The parental units seem to be getting worst. So I have to be prepared for whatever is next with that as well.
Plans are in place but are being held up a bit. As I work on crushing and overcoming the obstacles all that is left is time.
I am thankful for the relationship. It is a calm and a anchor amid the storms that have presented themselves. I just want it strengthened and deeper every way and bit possible. It is not easy but the vibe has definitely been correct. The feeling and flow has been just as it should be. An outstanding choice relationship and future.
Unstoppable Immovable
Zeus
The X Factor
De facto dynamo
No matter what
I leave my mark
Commander of Chaos
Leaving that Boom
Drop
Even with what you
thought
I show you that you
that
You thought wrong
The Demon that Hell
brought
Succubus of light and
dark
Love and pain
Mastery of both arts
Depending on your
placement
Decides your
discovery of
Which part
Through Hell and back
again
The Devil continues
to shake it’s head
Wondering just how
Bad I am
Even stagnant
I am still moving
Frustrating the
Quagmire and
quicksand
Weighted down
By time, the universe
and beings
Yet, still I stand
Prominent
Defiant
As my enemies remain
Verdant with envy
Yes, you still can’t
Won’t
Kill or stop me
Zeus
Represented for
Eternity
From the
chocolatezeus collection 3/5/15 ©
So, letting my horniness rage uncontrollably and as usual making sense out of nonsense.
Wednesday, March 04, 2015
My Dominant Test Results
What Kind of Dominant Are You?
Results
Categories
- The Bear Dominant 4%
- The Collector Dominant 44%
- The Daddy or Mommy Dominant 56%
- The FemDomme Mistress 0%
- The Gorean Slave Master 76%
- The Ineffable Dominant 44%
- The Lesser God Dominant 92%
- The Sadistic Dominant 92%
- The Tin Pot Dominant 0%
- The White Knight Dominant 40%
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The Bear Dominant. The Bear Dom is typically a burly gay or bisexual male Dominant who prefers diminutive and youthful gay or bisexual male submissives. Some Bear Doms are attracted to lady-boys and boyish females, as well. They are called Bear Doms mostly for their tendency to exhibit hyper-masculinity and somewhat exaggerated male characteristics such as a muscular or stocky build and abundant body hair. Bear Doms are commonly encountered in the BDSM leather and LGBT subcultures. Best match: The Painslut Submissive / The Little Submissive.
The Collector Dominant. The Collector is focused on building a stable of submissives similar to a harem. For the Collector, quantity always trumps quality. In his way of thinking, the measure of a Dom’s standing is how many submissives he can accumulate, without much regard for who, or even what, those submissives may be. It is relatively common for a Collector Dom to attempt to collar a submissive mere minutes after meeting her for the first time in an online chat room or on a BDSM social network. Best match: The Novice Submissive / The Pseudo Submissive.
The Daddy or Mommy Dominant. Daddy & Mommy Doms find fulfillment in the relationship dynamic that exists between the Dominant and submissive, who is usually referred to as baby, babygirl, babyboy, little one, or other pet name that reinforces the sub’s child-like status in the relationship. A Daddy or Mommy Dom craves a sub with the ability to trust absolutely, a spirit of wide-eyed innocence and playfulness, an eagerness for guidance, and no-holds-barred adoration. Best match: The Little Submissive / The Pet Submissive / The Brat Submissive.
The FemDom Mistress. The FemDom is always a dominant female who utilizes a unique combination of force and sexual role reversal. She may prefer either male or female submissives, and is sometimes referred to as a Domme, Domina, Dominatrix, or Mistress. A sub-category of FemDom is the FinDom, a contraction of Financial Dominant. There is often a significant element of misandry (hatred of men) which may be real or role-played involved in the FemDom Topping style. Best matches: The Painslut Submissive / The Cow-Pig Submissive.
The Gorean Slave Master. A Gorean Slave Master, almost by definition, is a male Dominant who prefers slaves to submissives and subscribes to a highly stylized, authoritarian, and ritualistic way of life described in John Norman’s science fiction novels about the planet Gor. Goreans typically believe that women are inferior to men and deserve to be enslaved. Gorean slaves are treated as property, have no rights, and cannot own property of their own. Best matches: The Kajira Slave / The Domestic Submissive.
The Ineffable Dominant. The Ineffable Dom is typically a Dominant who has been in the D/s lifestyle for several years or longer and has, mostly through trial and error, learned what does and doesn’t work best in his D/s relationships. He has consciously explored and borrowed traits and characteristics from the other Dominant categories. The synergy created with each new partner brings new facets to the Ineffable Dom’s unique (and sometimes indescribable) Topping style. Best matches: The Warrior Princess Submissive / The Acolyte Submissive.
The Lesser God Dominant. A Dominant who expects and thrives on the worship of his or her submissives. This adoration and worship, which can sometimes take the form of highly ritualistic activities and behaviors, has but one purpose, which is the ego gratification of the Lesser God. It is relatively common for the households of Lesser God Doms to forsake all traditional forms of religion in order to practice their own home-grown religion, with the Dom at its head and subs as followers. Best match: The Acolyte Submissive / The Domestic Submissive.
The Sadistic Dominant. A Dom who enjoys or becomes sexually aroused from inflicting physical or emotional pain or discomfort upon his partners. Whether or not his partner is a masochist (someone who enjoys pain) is usually irrelevant to the pleasure that a Sadistic Dom gets from inflicting it. There is a wide spectrum of sadism that can range from the minimally sadistic yet skilled pain-inflictor on one end, to the abusive or pathologically dangerous extreme sadist at the other end of the scale. Best match: The Painslut Submissive / The Cow-Pig Submissive.
The Tin Pot Dominant. The TPD is primarily a role player. He doesn’t consider what he does as a deception; he considers it role play. For him, D/s isn’t a lifestyle; it’s entertainment. He sees it as perfectly natural and appropriate behavior, mainly because he believes he is interacting with others who are doing precisely the same thing. Since he believes that everyone is simply making it up as they go along, he feels pretty confident in doing so himself. Best matches: The Pseudo Submissive / The Novice Submissive / The Brat Submissive.
The White Knight Dominant. The White Knight Dom wants to right wrongs, slay dragons, rescue subs in trouble, treat his submissive like a princess, and become King – and he wants to do it all before lunch. He is driven by a sense of chivalry and altruism that transcends what he considers to be the sordid and tawdry business of self-gratification. Making you happy makes him happy. The White Knight lives to find solutions to your problems, but the downside is, not all problems are fixable. Best matches: The Warrior Princess Submissive / The Acolyte Submissive.
Monday, March 02, 2015
Result of Ink Spills: The Times
As usual the muse chose to arrive and I let her have her way. The ink spilled everywhere but I figured I would share some pieces.
Murder Ink
Your tattered remains
What is left of your
existence
Merely an old life’s
stain
Faded
Transmuted salutations
From an entwined past
With passion and fervor
I released you
The same way I
Loved and cared for
you
Giving you back to you
So you may dine once
again
Upon your deception
and pain
No chalk outline
Autopsy irrelevant
You made a decision
Chose the path
I merely
Fulfilled your
request
Laid you to rest
Murder was what you
Showed and asked
Your wish
Granted
Murder is the
Relationship you
wanted
To be
From the
chocolatezeus collection 3/1/15 ©
You Turn Me On
Sultry
Sophisticated
Sensually
Sexy
Chocolate curves
That leave
Dick and pussy
Craving
Lips that
Make the mind wonder
Into erotic bliss
At the thoughts of
Their plumpness
A mind
That creates
Molten, erotic
funeral pyres
Insatiable fuel
To my fire
Craving
Craving
I need that chocolate
fix
Each moment of the
day
You have to feel each
Dick salute that is
In honor of your sexy
Lust creating a
natural disaster
Slipping inside of
you
Repeatedly
While biting your
shoulder
Pinching your nipples
Into a hard frenzy
Twisted
Unstoppable motion
As our fucking and
sucking
Licks my desire
further
Feed me
Damn you
You turn me on
Hard fucking
The sounds of your
Pussy playing notes
of
Give me more
I won’t stop
Each stroke and lick
Until we leave our
cum
Dripping from the
Walls and ceiling
Damn
You turn me
On
From the
chocolatezeus collection 3/1/15 ©
Mine
Your submission to me
I hold firmly
Honoring our dynamic
And just how
Dynamic it truly is
Smiling
When you call me
Daddy
Knowing that you
Are my baby
So important to me
Managing
Foreseeing
Our journey
Achievement and
destiny
Pushing
Encouraging
Stimulating
My baby
As we grow and learn
I merely smile
Brightly
You are mine
That’s my
Baby
From the chocolatezeus
collection 3/1/15 ©
Sunday, March 01, 2015
Seperated Intentions
It has been a week. Filled with some bombs, some cake and some disdain. Can't say that it was boring.
I know that I am very grateful for the episodes at the cigar shop and the essence that HQ provides. Much needed in these times for sure. HQ has been inducted into the "calm the savage beast" club completely now.
As I bump this Killer Mike right now. I just have to let the expression flow. I have gone from Dave Brubeck and Miles Davis this weekend to: Killer Mike, Juevinille, Jadakiss and J-Ro of the Alkoholiks. Yeah, that is how things have flowed.
I truly did take a quantum leap in understanding the relationship last week. Being able to further define what is going on, understood and needed is important. Though I am still in the labyrinth. I don't feel that I am fighting for my very existence anymore. *lol* I a still in remedial with understanding and applying fully but I am getting there at least.
Being concerned about Ru Ru has stayed on my mind. I know she is a tough cookie. I also know how things may have her feeling since we are so similar. She is after all the sweeter and softer version of me. Hell she is a woman so she is supposed to be. She is my sexy ass ride or die. She mentioned about I need to move closer so she can get away when she needs to. I understand that feeling. And with the future on my mind I am thinking about moving for other reasons.
I still laugh at Ru talking about our adventures. She said there were more people at my bachelor party they threw in htown than her bday party. which I didn't think was the case until I realized that we had the whole house. That was an unforgettable weekend right there. Plenty of fun and fucking. Wish I had a chance to fuck her cousin valinda tall sexy ass though. Who knows maybe one day.
The downside of learning is understanding that you have to remove the dead weight. As Ru and I talked I thought more about my positioning with some people that are hanging on by a thread with me. And I came to an operational decision. It is time to let APOCALYPSE reign. Even with them regardless of history and feelings.
But hey, it did give me a chance to catalog most of my comic books.
Evaluation, Tatical and operational.
Impulse speed ahead!
I know that I am very grateful for the episodes at the cigar shop and the essence that HQ provides. Much needed in these times for sure. HQ has been inducted into the "calm the savage beast" club completely now.
As I bump this Killer Mike right now. I just have to let the expression flow. I have gone from Dave Brubeck and Miles Davis this weekend to: Killer Mike, Juevinille, Jadakiss and J-Ro of the Alkoholiks. Yeah, that is how things have flowed.
I truly did take a quantum leap in understanding the relationship last week. Being able to further define what is going on, understood and needed is important. Though I am still in the labyrinth. I don't feel that I am fighting for my very existence anymore. *lol* I a still in remedial with understanding and applying fully but I am getting there at least.
Being concerned about Ru Ru has stayed on my mind. I know she is a tough cookie. I also know how things may have her feeling since we are so similar. She is after all the sweeter and softer version of me. Hell she is a woman so she is supposed to be. She is my sexy ass ride or die. She mentioned about I need to move closer so she can get away when she needs to. I understand that feeling. And with the future on my mind I am thinking about moving for other reasons.
I still laugh at Ru talking about our adventures. She said there were more people at my bachelor party they threw in htown than her bday party. which I didn't think was the case until I realized that we had the whole house. That was an unforgettable weekend right there. Plenty of fun and fucking. Wish I had a chance to fuck her cousin valinda tall sexy ass though. Who knows maybe one day.
The downside of learning is understanding that you have to remove the dead weight. As Ru and I talked I thought more about my positioning with some people that are hanging on by a thread with me. And I came to an operational decision. It is time to let APOCALYPSE reign. Even with them regardless of history and feelings.
But hey, it did give me a chance to catalog most of my comic books.
Evaluation, Tatical and operational.
Impulse speed ahead!
Monday, February 23, 2015
The Act of Training
I have been asked about my training for a sub and a slave. My answer is one of fluidity. Tailor made to me and the person that I am training. So it is not a regimented, plug and play factor. For me training is a matter of building upon the trainee. The aspects that they have and making them better in order to fit with me.
For my submissive:
I train for them to have respect for me and other D/M's. To be of service to me and when around others to respect and be of service. I honestly don't need positioning and posturing from my submissive. I am looking at things to see if there are other things that fit that I may want to train her in. But I haven't found that yet.
I find the real training in finding ways to push and move towards established goals. Because it can be hard and hard fought. Knowing when to push and when to suggest is a serious art form.
For my slave:
Training is more vast due to the nature of them. Making sure to schedule meals, health exams and more regularly. Teaching them aspects of focusing to achieve goals. A lot more in depth than the submissive. Still I don't need to positioning or Gorean movements. Just not my cup of tea.
In analysis I realize my aspect of training is minute for the most part. New to the aspect I will continue learning. And maybe there are other things I will need to train and incorporate. Right now I haven't come across them yet. But the mind and eyes are open as I continue reading and observing.
My art of training being established and prepared for evolution.
For my submissive:
I train for them to have respect for me and other D/M's. To be of service to me and when around others to respect and be of service. I honestly don't need positioning and posturing from my submissive. I am looking at things to see if there are other things that fit that I may want to train her in. But I haven't found that yet.
I find the real training in finding ways to push and move towards established goals. Because it can be hard and hard fought. Knowing when to push and when to suggest is a serious art form.
For my slave:
Training is more vast due to the nature of them. Making sure to schedule meals, health exams and more regularly. Teaching them aspects of focusing to achieve goals. A lot more in depth than the submissive. Still I don't need to positioning or Gorean movements. Just not my cup of tea.
In analysis I realize my aspect of training is minute for the most part. New to the aspect I will continue learning. And maybe there are other things I will need to train and incorporate. Right now I haven't come across them yet. But the mind and eyes are open as I continue reading and observing.
My art of training being established and prepared for evolution.
Sunday, February 22, 2015
Clouds and the Moving Escalator
I am still over here tripping off the craziness from chicks from the past going on. The super model hit me up on IM on fb now as well. She got a man or men I am sure. And it was out of the blue. Maybe it was a response from her bday just passing. I did want to fuck her and her chocolate girlfriend. That would have made a good threesome. I still have to give her credit for being the one to show me that a female can be a little romantic at least for the first time. She brought me a red rose when she came to see me at the hotel in raliegh so many years ago. That rose matched her red bra and panties. And I fucked her sexy ass well. Thus I had my first and only super model. And of course hated by males because of it. lol
The issues with the parental units still grows. I don't know what else to expect or to do next basically. I am pretty much done with it. Can't fight it anymore. But we will see.
The new slave....
There are some basic things that we are working on. And she seems to be able to understand and apply what is discussed. We will continue to see if she follows the directions and directives. Moving forward in the consideration. Very interesting indeed. Thankful for listening and observing others in real time as well on conference calls.
Vibe and Connection:
The key ingredients to make things work and be with me. And it is a wonderous thing. I feel it and enjoy it. It is the moments that others won't see concerning me.
HQ time is relaxing, stimulating and my peace. Built on that vibe from the beginning and it has been fire since then! From the great sex to the talking and laughing. It is the blueprint. And I am happy about it and definitely thankful.
The whole pizza. How I like it.
Time for the NOW What! situation
The issues with the parental units still grows. I don't know what else to expect or to do next basically. I am pretty much done with it. Can't fight it anymore. But we will see.
The new slave....
There are some basic things that we are working on. And she seems to be able to understand and apply what is discussed. We will continue to see if she follows the directions and directives. Moving forward in the consideration. Very interesting indeed. Thankful for listening and observing others in real time as well on conference calls.
Vibe and Connection:
The key ingredients to make things work and be with me. And it is a wonderous thing. I feel it and enjoy it. It is the moments that others won't see concerning me.
HQ time is relaxing, stimulating and my peace. Built on that vibe from the beginning and it has been fire since then! From the great sex to the talking and laughing. It is the blueprint. And I am happy about it and definitely thankful.
The whole pizza. How I like it.
Time for the NOW What! situation
Sunday, February 15, 2015
Dr Strange Days
I feel like I need Dr Strange's Orb of Agamotto to figure out what the hell is going on lately. Since I don't have that I will just continue throwing darts at things and try to figure it out.
Munchkin parties with the red springs monkey bitch and the things husband. And I come up because of being with Munchkin. I have no clue why she would tell Munchkin "yeah he got some good dick." Besides them trying to fuck Munckin there really is no reason.
I talked to Big Chon again. I haven't seen her since the episode at big giant head's community dick boy's house. I had fucked her a couple days before that. And I had the thieving monkey bitch with me. But the two ugly monkey bitches that tried to set me up and cause drama failed miserably. Big giant head had issue with it all. Calling me drama even though I didn't do anything. But Chon wants to hook back up so I can fuck her. She just got divorced the other week and is ready to get her some. And she wants more of me. Flattered and when we fucked those years ago it was good.
I am still stuck on stupid because if I tell you to be yourself and I accept that then why the hell would you do anything other than that? What could be so hard? Oh well, the farce will continue.
Being approached by an interested slave was a change of pace as well. But, with new times come new adventures. She is young but seems to know what she wants and who she is. I have my concern but I will continue talking to her and finding out what is what. She is definitely service oriented and that is good.
As incantations and spells continue:
I have to thank HQ for being who she is. She provides everything from laughter, thought provoking ideas to extreme horniness. And it is hard to believe the time and what has gone on since meeting. I am extremely thankful about it.
It is a challenge when the woman that your interest lies in is as complex as nuclear fission to a layman. But you know it is worth it so you jump in the trench to do battle to the end. Wherever that may be.
I am the man with the booming voice, gruff disposition and more. But I am also the one who wants to enjoy, laugh and loves extremely deeply.
The journey continues as I fight the enemy of both dark and light. Knowing what I want. Merely needing the pieces to be in place. This waiting sucks. But I am stuck until the answers are shown to me.
Munchkin parties with the red springs monkey bitch and the things husband. And I come up because of being with Munchkin. I have no clue why she would tell Munchkin "yeah he got some good dick." Besides them trying to fuck Munckin there really is no reason.
I talked to Big Chon again. I haven't seen her since the episode at big giant head's community dick boy's house. I had fucked her a couple days before that. And I had the thieving monkey bitch with me. But the two ugly monkey bitches that tried to set me up and cause drama failed miserably. Big giant head had issue with it all. Calling me drama even though I didn't do anything. But Chon wants to hook back up so I can fuck her. She just got divorced the other week and is ready to get her some. And she wants more of me. Flattered and when we fucked those years ago it was good.
I am still stuck on stupid because if I tell you to be yourself and I accept that then why the hell would you do anything other than that? What could be so hard? Oh well, the farce will continue.
Being approached by an interested slave was a change of pace as well. But, with new times come new adventures. She is young but seems to know what she wants and who she is. I have my concern but I will continue talking to her and finding out what is what. She is definitely service oriented and that is good.
As incantations and spells continue:
I have to thank HQ for being who she is. She provides everything from laughter, thought provoking ideas to extreme horniness. And it is hard to believe the time and what has gone on since meeting. I am extremely thankful about it.
It is a challenge when the woman that your interest lies in is as complex as nuclear fission to a layman. But you know it is worth it so you jump in the trench to do battle to the end. Wherever that may be.
I am the man with the booming voice, gruff disposition and more. But I am also the one who wants to enjoy, laugh and loves extremely deeply.
The journey continues as I fight the enemy of both dark and light. Knowing what I want. Merely needing the pieces to be in place. This waiting sucks. But I am stuck until the answers are shown to me.
Sunday, February 08, 2015
A Visit From the Crazy Train
I don't know what is going on with females this weekend but they are seriously on some hot crazy shit.
Tonight this rosalind chick hits me up on facebook. We are talking in general about food and stuff. We talk about relationships. She explains to me that she has severe trust issues to the point that she wouldn't even call anyone for days after she had a stroke. And that was after she was laid on the floor in her house until she could get to a phone to call an ambulance. But she think that is all perfectly fine because she can only rely on herself and can't talk to anyone else. She got engaged to someone that she couldn't trust and made her feel inferior. But your dumb ass get's engaged anyway. Low self esteem you say. Yeah, to the power extreme. And now she is still got low self esteem no matter how she wants to color it.
So here we go. She asks me do I cheat. My response is no need I will just add another female to our relationship. She then tells me that she is glad to no that I am not monogamous. Umm slow bitch that is not what I said. But since you assume I am going to tell you that you are wrong. She wanted to tell me that she is correct. And that she can't be interested in me now because she only believes in monogamy. I am like ok then.
Why the hell do these psycho bitches try to talk to me? Hell this chick hides in baggy clothes and everything. Things she is going to control something talking to me and that wasn't going to happen. At least this whole ordeal was less than 2 hours of time. Still good and crazy.
And no Lil Red I don't know why I keep running into these crazies at all. They keep wanting to step into the arena they are not ready for.
And I talked to Big Chon tonight. It has been years since I fucked her brains out in waldorf md right before the episode with big giant head, theiving monkey bitch and the punk ass community dick and monkeys. Community dick would have had more reasons to be mad at me if he know I fucked the shit out of Chon before she even saw him. lol
So Chon and I talked. She is getting her divorce decree this week I think she said. and having a divorce party like Ru Ru did. Hard to understand why fuck things up and cheat when your wife swings and you are allowed to fuck other chicks in the rules. Just dumb as hell. She said she is in need of some good sex and wants to hook up so I can give her some more. 2 years is a long fucking time to not have sex. I would use 3 fucking Death Stars on all of you if I had to do that.
So I had the crazy low self esteem chick and a blast from the past. I am not sure what else is in store before I get out of the weekend now
Tonight this rosalind chick hits me up on facebook. We are talking in general about food and stuff. We talk about relationships. She explains to me that she has severe trust issues to the point that she wouldn't even call anyone for days after she had a stroke. And that was after she was laid on the floor in her house until she could get to a phone to call an ambulance. But she think that is all perfectly fine because she can only rely on herself and can't talk to anyone else. She got engaged to someone that she couldn't trust and made her feel inferior. But your dumb ass get's engaged anyway. Low self esteem you say. Yeah, to the power extreme. And now she is still got low self esteem no matter how she wants to color it.
So here we go. She asks me do I cheat. My response is no need I will just add another female to our relationship. She then tells me that she is glad to no that I am not monogamous. Umm slow bitch that is not what I said. But since you assume I am going to tell you that you are wrong. She wanted to tell me that she is correct. And that she can't be interested in me now because she only believes in monogamy. I am like ok then.
Why the hell do these psycho bitches try to talk to me? Hell this chick hides in baggy clothes and everything. Things she is going to control something talking to me and that wasn't going to happen. At least this whole ordeal was less than 2 hours of time. Still good and crazy.
And no Lil Red I don't know why I keep running into these crazies at all. They keep wanting to step into the arena they are not ready for.
And I talked to Big Chon tonight. It has been years since I fucked her brains out in waldorf md right before the episode with big giant head, theiving monkey bitch and the punk ass community dick and monkeys. Community dick would have had more reasons to be mad at me if he know I fucked the shit out of Chon before she even saw him. lol
So Chon and I talked. She is getting her divorce decree this week I think she said. and having a divorce party like Ru Ru did. Hard to understand why fuck things up and cheat when your wife swings and you are allowed to fuck other chicks in the rules. Just dumb as hell. She said she is in need of some good sex and wants to hook up so I can give her some more. 2 years is a long fucking time to not have sex. I would use 3 fucking Death Stars on all of you if I had to do that.
So I had the crazy low self esteem chick and a blast from the past. I am not sure what else is in store before I get out of the weekend now
There and Back Again: Love and Relationships
I don't know what is going on lately. But there have been some weird developments.
Munchkin goes to a party to talk to the red springs monkey and the husband. I already knew she was after Munchkin again since she has all been in her in box. Annoying to say the least. So at the party the monkey asks about me. Munchkin doesn't give up information but she said that she was still kicking it with me. So why does the monkey say that I have some good dick? I am like she really is fucked up in the head. After that break up with her I made it clear that I didn't want anything to do with her. That including fucking her again one on one and at parties. She tested that when she called a week later to talk about getting back together. I was like no thanks. Even though Lil Red explained to me why she thought that was acceptable for males. It is not for me. If we break up I don't want you or your pussy again. Still it is crazy to me.
Next was the conversation with the maryland crazy. Considering I cursed her out at least 2 times, if not more it still makes no sense to still talk to me. Or when I cursed her out last to be in a frenzy to get me to talk to her again because she missed me. I am not dealing with that crazy shit no more. And it has been suggested that she was hinting at something. I was ignoring it.
When the maryland crazy asked me how my love life was I actually had to think about it. Which was really weird.
I feel love and I am giving love. I am in love. Even though it is not definite nor defined really. I just stick with what I feel until I am proven it is the wrong thing to feel and want.
True I want the open, full force love and loving right now. I miss it badly. Those are the moments I am at my greatest and life is greatest. After these experiences since Chocolate Doll die though I have really seen the worst in females. And went back to monkey bitches and bitches. Bitches are something to do and fuck.
The lack of women is incredible. It still shocks me many times. So much of this game playing and I need to be and think like a man. How about you figure out who you are and be a woman. Try to reach that point at least.
I am loving and lovable to the extreme. But if you are not worthy then this is the side of me that you won't experience or see.
With this patience thing and unusual experiences lately.
Love is a different beast for sure.
Munchkin goes to a party to talk to the red springs monkey and the husband. I already knew she was after Munchkin again since she has all been in her in box. Annoying to say the least. So at the party the monkey asks about me. Munchkin doesn't give up information but she said that she was still kicking it with me. So why does the monkey say that I have some good dick? I am like she really is fucked up in the head. After that break up with her I made it clear that I didn't want anything to do with her. That including fucking her again one on one and at parties. She tested that when she called a week later to talk about getting back together. I was like no thanks. Even though Lil Red explained to me why she thought that was acceptable for males. It is not for me. If we break up I don't want you or your pussy again. Still it is crazy to me.
Next was the conversation with the maryland crazy. Considering I cursed her out at least 2 times, if not more it still makes no sense to still talk to me. Or when I cursed her out last to be in a frenzy to get me to talk to her again because she missed me. I am not dealing with that crazy shit no more. And it has been suggested that she was hinting at something. I was ignoring it.
When the maryland crazy asked me how my love life was I actually had to think about it. Which was really weird.
I feel love and I am giving love. I am in love. Even though it is not definite nor defined really. I just stick with what I feel until I am proven it is the wrong thing to feel and want.
True I want the open, full force love and loving right now. I miss it badly. Those are the moments I am at my greatest and life is greatest. After these experiences since Chocolate Doll die though I have really seen the worst in females. And went back to monkey bitches and bitches. Bitches are something to do and fuck.
The lack of women is incredible. It still shocks me many times. So much of this game playing and I need to be and think like a man. How about you figure out who you are and be a woman. Try to reach that point at least.
I am loving and lovable to the extreme. But if you are not worthy then this is the side of me that you won't experience or see.
With this patience thing and unusual experiences lately.
Love is a different beast for sure.
Sunday, February 01, 2015
Vision of the VISION
Vision of the VISION
Disconnected in so many ways
Humanity a distant
undertaking
Seen through
unblinking eyes
Black hole heart
Birthed to a dwarf
star
Existing seemingly
only in
A galaxy far, far
away
Cast into the
roles of
Avenger
Defender
Enemy
A journey into
Heart filled
humanity
Turned to
Heartless anti
human being
Death star dreams
Clone trooper
needs
Emperor Palpatine
being
Walking into your
body
Phased with your
being
Battling you
internally
As you fight
reality
What is the use of
revealing
When the
revelations are
What they are
constantly
Fighting
Always have done
my duty
Thus I am
Public Enemy
Ultron
Vision
In the end
Because of
analysis
And envisioning
The scapegoat is
Me
from the
chocolatezeus collection 2/1/15 ©
Having a vision and implementing that vision is basically the epitome of the Secret Wars comic book story line. Since you have to deal with others there are always issues, drawbacks and having to redesign. There is no need to whine. Merely speak the facts and time to come up with a new battle plan. The cogs in the machine don't always fall in line. Hell, really they never fall in line. You just have to make adjustments all the time. Like they say Semper Fi!
Through these last few years I have had to really open my eyes. The joys and complacency that resulted from the good times allowed me to lie to myself about humans and dealing with their kind. That kinder and gentler mess is a very dangerous mindset.
Relationships reveal themselves. Even when you make every excuse in the book to yourself about them. You just have to look at them and accept it as it is. People change and don't fit anything in your life. You have to assess whether it is worth the investment. And how long to take that ride. Permanency and intensity are things that have long ago died. Relations with anyone now seems to be on a sliding scale and minute by moment design.
Cue the theme music from Good Times...
Pretty much says it all. Good and bad times happen. You deal with them the best you can. And understand when you come out the otherside what you are from then until the next time.
It's been time for a board meeting. And the gavel has been struck three times. Evaluation, Realization and now Adjustment time.
You can't put all in when there is only a small percentage in residual. Appropriate exertion for each task is needed.
Yeah
I got my own message
The message in a bottle just showed up later than it should have.
Apocalypse
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
Standing At Guarded Attention
I am not the people person.
Nor am I the socialite.
Relationship wise I can be classified as "In the darkest night."
One of the drawbacks of being Onslaught is that when you are stuck waiting it really, really affects you a lot. Moving forward with intent and purpose constantly you seek immediate results and understanding. Not knowing what is coming next because there has been no answer yet is akin to torturous.
But this is the plight that you deal with and live with when it comes to humans. Especially females.
Forming, keeping and managing relationships are already difficult.
I guess it probably is just me. The Zeus element is the cause apparently. The way I am just me causes the humans to respond indifferently.
With females it is like there is a wall that says I can't fall for this even if I want to. Adrienne was the only anomaly that could partially do that so far. And I guess I got spoiled from that.
Hell I just want what I want to work out and move forward.
The tactical board is really a mess right now. And my predictive skills are not showing right now. Hell if I know what is what right this second. And I would be lying if I claimed it didn't bother me.
Nor am I the socialite.
Relationship wise I can be classified as "In the darkest night."
One of the drawbacks of being Onslaught is that when you are stuck waiting it really, really affects you a lot. Moving forward with intent and purpose constantly you seek immediate results and understanding. Not knowing what is coming next because there has been no answer yet is akin to torturous.
But this is the plight that you deal with and live with when it comes to humans. Especially females.
Forming, keeping and managing relationships are already difficult.
I guess it probably is just me. The Zeus element is the cause apparently. The way I am just me causes the humans to respond indifferently.
With females it is like there is a wall that says I can't fall for this even if I want to. Adrienne was the only anomaly that could partially do that so far. And I guess I got spoiled from that.
Hell I just want what I want to work out and move forward.
The tactical board is really a mess right now. And my predictive skills are not showing right now. Hell if I know what is what right this second. And I would be lying if I claimed it didn't bother me.
Life's Personal Labyrinth
My patience is thin.
I go after what I want and if it is not immediate then my interest wanes.
Full speed ahead and Battle Stations tends to be my thing.
It is said I should let people in. But I don't see that ever happening. That was my beginning. Before my evolution that is how things were. I just had to learn to focus on important things more.
I have no problems with my feelings flowing. Giving all of me and more in loving and caring intent. And I willfully and intently give without a second thought.
Yes, the same things that make me the evil stronghold are the things that give those in my world everything that I can. And this is the part Lil Red wants me to allow other people in to see.
Yes, I keep the people that I don't count in my world separate. It doesn't mean I don't speak or that I am not cordial. I am merely wary. It can be seen as distant because I don't do a lot of talking or being in people's faces and all.
I deal with life as it comes. I see it as a constant onslaught. And I have fought and fought.
Right now I don't know what may happen. The things I want are not solidified or happening at the speed or way I chose. So I continued to play the hurry up and wait episode of life. My intentions, desires, wants and needs have been made and communicated.
Stuck in the whirlwind.
Unmoving.
I go after what I want and if it is not immediate then my interest wanes.
Full speed ahead and Battle Stations tends to be my thing.
It is said I should let people in. But I don't see that ever happening. That was my beginning. Before my evolution that is how things were. I just had to learn to focus on important things more.
I have no problems with my feelings flowing. Giving all of me and more in loving and caring intent. And I willfully and intently give without a second thought.
Yes, the same things that make me the evil stronghold are the things that give those in my world everything that I can. And this is the part Lil Red wants me to allow other people in to see.
Yes, I keep the people that I don't count in my world separate. It doesn't mean I don't speak or that I am not cordial. I am merely wary. It can be seen as distant because I don't do a lot of talking or being in people's faces and all.
I deal with life as it comes. I see it as a constant onslaught. And I have fought and fought.
Right now I don't know what may happen. The things I want are not solidified or happening at the speed or way I chose. So I continued to play the hurry up and wait episode of life. My intentions, desires, wants and needs have been made and communicated.
Stuck in the whirlwind.
Unmoving.
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