Don't let the Miserable Get You Down

Have to say after talking and kickign it with my people that I honestly had to put this PSA out there.

My personal experience is that misery will attempt to sink and destroy you too at any costs to you or themselves.

Talking to my star. WE laughed about how individuals will be all in your face to find out info because of how they feel about you and shit. REady to jump somethign stupid off to cause any disruption possible.

Hell I lived that mess for years. Thinking that love was worth all that. Hell no it aint. That got proven quick fast in a hurry. And I am thankful for all that.

But these fools will come at you wave after wave with their bullshit. Don't let these bitches get you down. Just keep on rolling.

Continue being most hated and more in their tiny little minds. It is what makes them whatever they are.

*stand up and let them hate*

Then turn around and congratulate

The Lifestyle

Having been involved in and knowing individuals in and out of the lifestyle I have had to get to wondering about things.

Lifestyle: meaning swinging, swapping partners for sexual pleasure.

Why do some people get into it because they think they are going to get more pussy or dick than they could otherwise?

The thing is that it is designed to work for couples and bi sexual women for the most part. Most couples don't swing with single men and stuff. I learned that early on into jumping into things. Had to get me someone that was down to try it. But it is not a requirement but an addition to what we got going on between each other when we feel it.

Pussy is pussy but when you got something good at home extra pussy is just something you see when your woman brings it up. It was brought up about who I liked and would fuck and I told them. But my thing is women if you are ready then keep your ass at home and out of it. Stop trying to play and act like you are ready.

You never know who is in the lifestlye. That conservative woman or man may be the one at a party getting it in.

Freaky people is what I be. But that is not all of me

Upon the Ridge of Life

Perched here upon the overlook
Reflection
Seeking direction
Future and past both held within my protection

My mind wanders
As my eyes search among things
My mind ponders
Attempting to unearth the puzzles
Distinguish the possibilities

There are no exits
No reverse in this existence
Merely this prevent defense
And take no prisoners offense

I am what I represent
Heaven sent
Hell bent
Totally spent

What do I represent?

I made my mark
Bringing both the light and the dark
I pulled myself apart
Know thy heart
That was what was said

The epitaph
My final inscription
Post traumatic stress
Memories simply forget
I am merely a pale ghostly appearance

Dark rider
Awaiting
Bridled
Contemplating

The Futility of It All

This walk that I have undertaken.
Why?

What purpose did anything have at all?

Meaning.
No meaning what so ever.

Importance?
What is that for?
Is there any relfection upon that?

A coffin like Doom
Yielding emptiness
Despair
Frustration

Yet the pulse continues
Heart beats flickering

But for what?
What has been gained?

Emptiness is here
Unoccupied tomb

Everything taken
To the very last piece
Nothing was deemed precious

Existence
Resistence
Perserverance

All futile

Your Kiss

Those lips bring me joy
Set my mind and soul at ease
Held almost as if I was a little boy
My mind, body and soul screaming
Joy
Joy
Joy

I beg you for just one more kiss
Just a few more moments to feel those lips
Enjoy every inch of it

Bring me to my knees
Use those juicy lips to please
They know what I need
Their stimulation is what makes me breathe

Soft and juicy
To the eye
As well as to the touch

A feeling untouched
Craving them so much
My addicted lust

Satisfy my need
Don't make me beg you
Please

Those lips are what I need

Just kiss me Please

The Unearthed Escape

Explosion of earth
Everything flying everywhere

I announce my arrival
In silence and deafening destruction
I have returned
No wasted talk, time or symbols
Merely my entrance

No concern on reactions
They don't matter anyway
My mission is all there is
There is only ME

Built to last
To bring it to these beings
Leaving my unmistakable mark upon the masses

Hatred
Fear
Jealousy
Envy
Love
The response they give me

Matters not

There is no stopping me

Ageless Relations

Youth and age
Do we remain on the same page
Are we togething in this race
Or are things just out of place

Wondering where we placed in this rat race
Or have we gone our seperate ways already
I know that this is far from steady
Episodes making us heady

We come together unexpectedly
A future that we couldn't see
Maybe we trived too hard
Too hard trying to make things be

Once a time filled with fun and free

Now just a struggle into infinity

Taken

What is left?

My anger
My disgust
My love

Life gives and takes
The things that we want, love and create
We live with the mistakes

Dreams ripped from our souls
Causing emotional earthquakes
Only to say "Damn, that was great"
How much more can I take

Has life dealt me this fate
Or is this just something that I create
These situations that I hate

I have free will
What the hell is the deal
I just want to erase how I feel

Replace all that has been taken
Let my heart and soul re-awaken
For the world and my sake

I allowed them to take
Instead of holding dear what was mine
Protecting my blessings
My designs

I am here to kick in their skulls
Retake the things that were stolen from me
No longer a care if you take this personally
You no longer have any power with me
NO longer matter to me

I reclaim what is MINE

ME

Your Ring

Sized
Picked out specifically for you

Flustered with thoughts of presentation
That giddy sensation
The solidification
Of our eternal relation

Ready to propose
Its the life I chose
your ring and a rose

The Ring
Beautiful establishment of We
My complete union to thee
Anticipating the happines that it will bring
Just to see those brown eyes gleam
Knowing that you are my everything

The Rose
Representing us
Stage to stage
As the petals raise
We blossom and open
Growing and growing
Braced against the uknowing
REady for life's unforseen

Right here
Here I have your wedding ring
Waiting for you unseen
This precious ring
A ring that means everything
Everything to me

Here in this tiny box
Yields my soul and my heart
To know that I don't want us to ever be truly apart

The symbol
Our symbol
The only meaning of US

This Ring
With you

"I DO"

A Love Bizarre

Looking for my beating heart
The one you took from the very start
Never wanting to be apart
Comfort and enjoyment from the start

Now it seems so dark
Both life and heart
When we did part

Your body
Lips
Breasts
A work of pure art

My dream woman
My superstar

Making me feel like a Czar
My guiding star
This incredible love bizarre

Nothing can completely mar
This dynamic love bizarre

Clinging to
Gripping
Holding this crushing connection
Starved for its lasting affection

Laying within your busom
Here is where I have risen
Taken my station from the beginning

It's been incredibly hard
This road so far
But its worth the experience
For it was forged in heated temperance
Removing all the blemishes
Showing the true essence

Come
Come to your Love Bizarre

Destiny

Our bright star

Affected

Why am I still affected
Why do I feel
Caught still in this snare
Over someone that don't really care

Emotions
Feelings brought to bare
Memories a ghostly prison
Not wanting to remember
Remember what was gone that cold November

Thought I was stronger than that
Then found out how my heart was cracked
The emotionless barrier I lacked
But was shown its stab wound in my back

Never thought I couldn't walk away
Affected by what my heart say
Damn why couldn't you feel the same
Why couldn't you be affeted the same way
Just needed it to be the same
For timing to have us at the same place

Wanting to know
If you were affected
Have you been receptive

Because I didn't want to be the only one
The only one love spun
Affected by what has been done

Looking at the now
Seeing what you showed me now
WOW

Not worth the effort
Running away
Wishing that you had stayed

Yet still

I am affected

Felt

Blood boiling
Lost within myself
Wondering why
Why I can't help myself

Let go
Get rid of the fire
The fire that burnt myself

I felt
Only me
The only one to see
See, the future
Won't fight for what we see

Yet here is this emotional tease
A glimmer of hope to be
Torture
Harrassement of me
I yearn to be emotionally free

Instead
Trapped is where I be
Trapped with heartless SHE
The should have
Would have
Couldn't be

Someone find me a key
A key to remove my stupidity
In letting myself get emotionally
Instead of keeping my mind free

I need this thing taken away from me
No more hope
Wishes
Or dreams of what could be

Just leave me
With brutal reality

Us A Plan Divine

You will always be mine

Our passion

Connection

No one else will we find

Not a better love will come with time

Linked by

• Soul
• Body
• And Mind

Love at First Sight

A concept we fight

Fight what we know is RIGHT

What bring our hearts pure delight

But bitter, we just deny

Deny our feelings inside

Denying the gleam in each other's eye

Our hearts still tied

Destiny whipping around our sides

Knowing what was made by design

Join me in OUR plan DIVINE