Poetry Moment: The Connect

The Connect

Aaron Hall reminding me

thinking of Me and you

How I want to give it to you real nasty

be my baby

light my day sunshine

Thoughts of those lips

deep passionate kisses

their warmth wrapped around me

give me that delight

from the first moments

when my eyes were open wide

touched by your eye candy delights

I just wanted to get to know you

let me show you what you been feeling and thinking

just open up for me

let us both delve nice and deep

into each others tumultous seas

from that beginning

never would have thought where it would lead

you know what I want

you know what I need

give it to me

we already entered into each other’s

mentality

looks that turned into intrigue

discussions that wet neurons

carnal desires released

all I asked you to do

was just be

be yourself

be as freaky as you want to be

release and be free

building block upon block

connect from the beginning

now intesified in strength

I am about that connect

the connecction that sparked from the beginning

the sparks now that burn like solar flares

let us burn eternity

you and me

connected

the way the connect always should be

the connection

the only important thing

from the chocolatezeus collection 2/12/20 (c)

To Just Be aka When I Am in the Mood relations

I have heard, witnessed and discussed a phrase that I females have been using for a number of years with it comes to relationships and trying to be involved with them.  That phrase is...

Let's just be and let things happen naturally. (or similar phrases with the same effect)

Honestly this seems like some passive attempt to be standoffish but still get what they want on the intermittent schedule that they want.

What is the point of this? Is this situational relationship lite or something?

I see it as this defense system employed to give a buffer so they can feel protected but like they are committed to something they don't have to really be a part of and is disposable.

People get hurt in this thing called life through relationships, dating and much more. And the maturity just doesn't reach part of the population to learn from what happened, apply realizations and still be productively involved with others.

There have been encounters in the past where the female says this and yet still claims we are in a relationship. But communication, attention and involvement are fleeting or nonexistence. And they are happy with this.

Through my experience I have come to understand this choice more and take it as it is. Just someone that wants the facsimile of a relation based on when, where and how they feel like being bothered. So three years ago when the light bulb went off I took it all in stride and applied the fix. I gave them what they wanted. Something that resembled a relation based on their interest after I asked if they were going to work on the relationship.  Giving them what they want doesn't seem to go over well. It seems to bring out the petty, vindictive, femme nazi side of them since you decide to facilitate the type of relation that they want.

It is perfectly acceptable to not want a or be in any form of relation or relationship. By all means I applaud those that understand, know and actively just do not get involved in anything relation wise. Like they use to say, just don't fake the funk!

Be honest
Be direct
With yourself and everyone else

Go ahead and just

Be

Submission: It is Not a tug of war

In this day and age of different ways, ideals and all there are some things that just remain the same..

Submission is one of those things.

Submission is the act of yielding to an authority. It is a choice to be made and done.


But, in my experiences I have been part of and witnessed things like:

• You have to make me submit to You
• if You do like this guy does then i will submit

In these examples and others it is not about submission. It is about control or lack there of. And that is fine. If you want control then be in control. Do not act like you want submission as you constantly doing anything and everything you can to be in and maintain control.

This is such an important part of things in bdsm and life. This need to have a tug of war because of fear, vanity and whatever else is just not necessary 

Either submit or do not submit!  It is just that simple. 

Cigars, Geechieland and the Expanse

Days filled with all kinds of episodes of Life Unscripted. So this most definitely has been another entry for the books.

I really like the Puro cigar lounge in Columbia, SC. They don't have much of a cigar selection but the people have been nice there both of these times that I have went. I sat up there this time watching the games, laughing and talking while having a drink and smoking. No stress or fuss. I look forward to going there again when I am ever in columbia again.

As a Man and Dominant there are always decisions to be made. Whether popular, wanted or them being happy/happy/joy/joy they have to be made. So I look at the long term and getting there at all times. Continue doing my cost/analysis majority of the time. The non glamorous side of things. There will be hurt feelings and emotions from things known, unknown and unseen. I have seen this through red and everyone else. The key remains to maintain that journey forward with growth.

It rained almost all the time in Columbia but I enjoyed the moments I had.

Watching the changes unfold can be like watching a soap opera to watching a documentary at all times. The ones that are friends one moment and then not friends the next. The ones that are jealous for no reason and those that are insecure. The facade that a Male Dominant is fucking and after everyone one bullshit and all. The real life version of the tv show The Expanse for sure.

But geedhieland was good to me. I spent time with babycakes. Enjoyed another wonderful cigar shop and got things done.

Getting Old is Not for the Weak...Surgeries and Everything

Surgeries scheduled and I just have to sit here, shake my head and laugh.  As we always say in the shop "Getting old is for the strong and not the weak."

Less than 10 days into the year and Life Unscripted shows who is boss. lol

A lot to put together for year. Plenty of things to manage.  A plethora of shit to deal with courtesy of the red and blue government gang members. No fucks given for any presidents or politicians and their families and friends.

I have to say this mess with the middle east is way beyond stupid. Either go over there and carpet bomb them back in the stone age or let them kill each other and stay out of it.

Oh well. making plans and getting things together on the calendar.

No chick to go with me on the cruise so I guess I am not going.

Have a good one.

Caveman...out.

Celebration and the Yin Yang of Things

Yesterday I went to the memorial for the judge.  There were at least 25 judges there, senators, congressmen and more. The police and sherrifs were deep as well. There was the judge's group of black female judges that graduated at the same time calling themselves the divine 9. It was a stirring showing of support and all that she had done in her life time as one of the youngest, black female judges at her position. Even people that she had ruled over in her court room attended. It showed how her life touched many. 

This whole thing inspired so many things. The realization of life. Celebrating the things and affects of life upon others. Missing Chocolate Doll, Big Ma, Unk and Aunt Numi. As well as love, relations and relationships.

Love

My love is as deeply as my apathy. I love with all my heart and disconnect when there is nothing there. Loving through all kinds of things except violations and the choice not be involved and maintain what we have. 

Caring and Support

This is one that has grown a lot over the years. I am and have been supportive of those that I don't know, in passing and those that I had no interest in. I also still supported those I loved and they choose their exit. 

It has shown to me more of the service aspect I have and apply. It just is not as compartmentalized as it use to be. And it is an enjoyable feeling to watch others as you give them support and caring. 

So what does any of this mean?

It means that I am the extremes. 

That as the girls have said, I have no grey area. 

I will ride with you until you choose that I shouldn't ride with you anymore.

Still the Evil man that is apathetic but gives love, caring, passion and support.

And these are just a few things from the vault. 

Do you see the yin and the yang of the Caveman now?

If not holla at me and we can have a discussion about...

Welcome to the Darkside Ride

Well back from Columbia. A nice quiet time. Things didn't go as planned but that is Life Unscripted. Had the Italian nachos at the same ole Chicago pizza place we found in Tennessee. And it tasted just as good as I remembered. Found a nice cigar lounge new year's eve to have a moonshine cigar and smoke one of My Cubans.

So after the startling news last weekend I had a good time relaxing and chilling. And had to add to that my cousin the judge dying from a rare cancer and things went along fine.

Memories:

I popped on facebook and it did the you had memories thing. And it had red on there which reminded me of get togethers after new year and holidays. Some good and memorable times.

Had to think about other new year memories besides the ones in the last couple of years. I can't really recall too much. Interesting!


Relation/Dynamic and gender research continues...

Lately, there has been a plethora of situations that have come up. From feigned episodes of interest with no follow through. To episodes of interest while running away. And many other versions. Many of it reminded me of what happened with red  over a year ago now. That there just is a lack of interest. And it is seen as part of a disposable lifestyle for many. And much of that disposable positioning is due to past experiences, hurt and fear.

The thought process I have seen of we don't have to talk or communicate and everything will be alright. I have witnessed this from when I was with red as well as dc, philly and the twin this year.  This year they showed interest and then cowered in their own fear. They said they wanted to communicate and take it slow and then radio silence.

lol the research will continue. The entertainment value will remain as I read, talk and laugh at much of this stuff females think and act upon. But this is most definitely educational.


This year is going to be a ride!

From the recognition that I have received (and we know I didn't seek it or ask for it.) I have watched as individuals indulge in unnecessary jealousy and envy. Watched the blossoming of folk on their journey. And I am looking forward to sharing more time and space with many that I have met and fellow-shipped with.

All new steps in uncharted universes is where I am headed. I am still the quiet, fortress of solitude Caveman. Reality is somewhere along the line I became a responsible part of the community it seems. lol


It is time to finish up this bottle of Evan Williams bib and try to unpack a little.


Welcome to the new year and the beginning of a new year of Life Unscripted. Where will you be on this journey with me?

2019 End of Dayz

The last day of the year and as people have reminded me the decade as well.

This year has truly been one of the bigger Life Unscripted episodes. I went old school a bit and went back to traveling a little more like I use to. Explored food, places and individuals. Grew in many different ways. Solidified being Me, Myself and I even more.

Over the last two years has made me realize even more how much I miss Chocolate Doll and how far the bar of standard has been set for females since being married to her. The good ones like tigger are gone. The others have definitely left their mark in history with my interactions with them. But love, passion, desire and living love remains regardless of assasination attempts and negative things.

My girls have grown in their journies and lives. I am glad to have been able to watch and enjoy their growth. I sit back and look at the length of these two dynamics. Almost five years and almost two years. It has made me scratch my head without a doubt.


The Man
The Dominant
The Caveman


I have embraced and became more involved in the community more than I realized. Helping more and extending support. Even to those that were not mine or in my cue of interest. The trust in me given by individuals has been humbling as well as the recognition. But this is merely the beginning.with a lot more to do and have happen. As I step further into my journey, the community and the marks that I leave. I prepare for the ride.

So much going on and coming up in this new year. Hell right from the beginning I have a lot to deal with in the next couple of weeks. Along with everything going on with the parental unit, houses and his daughter the only thing to do is woosah and keep moving.

Preparations for conferences, cruise, trips, surgeries and all. Plus seeing what happens on the slave, girlfriend, sex slave and submissive front as well. Of course Life Unscripted will be at an all new level.


The Caveman of the House of Havoc rides the Dark Horse into the new year.


Happy new year to you and yours!

Memories of a Caveman's christmas

Sitting here with a Padron, kraken, ginger beer and my thoughts.

I haven't been in the christmas spirit in a long time. Well at the level of commercialized rhetoric, not at all.

christmas has had meaning for me most on two types of occasions.

First one.

The last christmas with Chocolate Doll. We came down here to Wilmington to spend time with the parental units and their daughter.  They were glad to see us, but I wasn't feeling being bothered. But I had Chocolate Doll so that was all that mattered.

Then the forecast came up for snow here at the beach. I had no desire to be stuck here with the parental units so we rolled out and went home. But everyone loved the gifts she picked out for them and personalized. Her smile was infectious as always. Got back to enjoy Christmas the Titan's way at home. And then the snow came down and I went out in it early to enjoy it.


Secondly.

Growing up on airbases while having your father be in the SP's brought about a different life. But when it came to holidays and especially christmas there were guys that had to stand post all night. Add to that the deployment of everyone to the desert shield operation during christmas also and I am honored to have been able to serve everyone that was there or came through. To give them movies, coffee, food and desserts. To brighten, support or ease their mind a little bit. This had the true meaning of christmas to me.


So today as I get my scrooge on and just chill. I look back and I am thankful for My Life Unscripted adventures in the christmas agenda.

Right now I am just ready for the season ending episode of the Mandalorian.

Enjoy your christmas

Poetry: The Accosted Man

The Accosted Man

attacks remain constant

more intimate assaults

than enemies

they remain unable to

accept

understand

me

so many attempts to

turn and twist

change me

for their comfort zone needs

when you stand your ground

know yourself

end up labeled

difficult

toxic

mysoginist

and much more

words and phrase

of fad laced

exposed inadequacies

I hear their screams

tantrums

self defications

for I am the anti everything

I think

know myself

stand strong in my resolve

have no desire to play the game

still

the accusations remain

as I laugh and quote Redma

I’ll bee dat!

Standing here girded

as I watch all the arrows falling towards me

I guess I will be fighting in the

shade

from the chocolatezeus collection 12/24/19 (c)

A Fetish Ball and a Caveman Movement in Time

Tired, but had a good weekend even with everything happening. 

Atlanta is still a hot fucking mess. Shooting at cumberland mall. Shooting at a parking garage. Horrible traffic and fatal accidents. I do not miss it at all. 

Went down friday. And it rained the whole way. So many accidents on the way. Trucks and cars overturned. Vehicle on fire from a bad wreck.  And went through all of this with the parental unit in the vehicle. SMFH  And since he is not taking care of himself and his blood sugar is high stopping a lot on the way. 

babycakes got her christmas present early and loved it. I am glad becaused I looked crazy with that big ass unicorn coming out the store and walking around to pay for it. 

Went to brunch at this place called Copeland's it was horrible. It was buffet but damn their food sucked. There never was any fried fish. The shrimp etoufee and the jambalays barely had any shrimp or meat in it. And the shrimp were like those in a shimp flavored cup of soup.. Everything I tried was over cooked The best thing they had was cheese grits and that was all I enjoyed or really ate. And I was really pissed that I couldn't order something ala carte.  At least I did have plenty of eye candy floating around in there and the table next to ours. Ass galore was going on and some nice shapes. 

So why was I in the atl?

I was there to attend Casey Carter's Holiday Fetish Ball. 

So babycakes I attended. Met up with folk I hadn't seen since SPLF this year and Spanksgiving.  I was glad to see them. Leather and kink came out to support this erotic gathering. 

Sir held a cigar experience learning session that was excellent. About the symbiosis of the top and bottom during cigar service. Even the use of the heat of the cherry near the skin for sensory play. And the use of the cigar tube in the pussy with a lit cigar heating the tube inside them. Thanks Mr Quietstorm for showing Sir these avenues of added pleasure. Sir called me out and I ended up giving ash to babycakes and she ate in front of everyone. Definitely wasn't expecting that but I am glad that people had a chance to see that and something completely different.

Sir called and pointed out babycakes since she will presenting at SELF next year. This will be her second time presenting in the community and her first time at a big major conference.

Sir and His service slave even fulfilled my request from facebook. I wanted to see that pussy slap and cum power again like they did at the CTX bbq the other year. lol  And once again their scene and that slap to waterfall episode did not dissapoint. 

And then time spoke to me about some things. 

That four years have passed since I started with little one. The obstacles overcame, the ongoing things being dealt with and just her journey. she has moved forward a lot from that long time ago. 

babycakes has been almost a year and a half soon. A totally different adventure all of it's own with a full blown little. her being new into this life with adjustments and understanding combined with this Caveman has been a melody or torturous events, feelings and all mixed with delight. 

January or February is coming and it will be a year then since I lost tigger. The last girlfriend. 

And today when the calendar showed it was red's birthday brought up the memory of her choosing to walk away last year after I asked her about the relationship and dynamic. 

Then there came new items to add to the chaotic, biggest car crash my thoughts make up.

Things like, maybe I will have a slave finally. The interest seems there. So, will see how it plays out with what they are desiring to do. 

The two vanilla chicks interested in the relationship stuff have been flakey this year. The twin didn't respond to wanting to take her out for her birthday in MB. And the northern one says she wants to communicate but doesn't call back or contact often even though she said it is not like that. And she also didn't contact me early in the year when she was at MB and claimed we were going to get together no matter what. lol must be something about MB apparently

The recognition factors have grown even though I have and still partially deny it. Realizing the ramifications to the girls because they are not people person's as well as empathic. 

Dealing with the parental unit and the sister not being smart enough to do or deal with things. Along with him not taking care of himself and dying. 

As I continue to hold suns, moons and galaxies in each hand I am thankful for it all and my life being LIfe Unscripted!!!

As I Am Submerged In the WBrat Radio Total Request Live

It's Tuesday and I am on that Wbrat radio as always.  Mostly us military brats jamming to music from our djs. We be on there jamming.  http://mixlr.com/dj-ez-g

About to catch this phenomenal dinner service hosted by the gorgeous Goddess Indigo and Dr Bob. This is going to be epic.

Getting ready for the fetish ball this weekend.  This will be interesting with my boy and his girl going to one of their first lifestyle events. Not a conference but it is something.


Gotta roll

Poetic Moment: Carnal Kinkestry

Carnal Kinkestry

the electricity crackles

built over time

a certified live wire

your body has been calling me

with each episode of

moistened thighs

throbbing clit

I watched you fight

against every fiber of your being

I am merely the answer

the solution to those carnal things

you fight against being free

culmination

breathy moans

open thighs

as your body comes alive

caught in a craving that you deny

the knife blade glides

tracing strips of lava

inside and outside

I see you

have seen you

all this time

flames fly

as the air melts

a cold blade brings nuclear fire

chemistry

connectivity

still

I remain

the answer

that you tried to hide from and deny

it is time

earthquakes

grand carnal expanse

culminating in

atomic impding

soul taking

answer to what you need

from the chocolatezeus collection 12/10/19 (c)