I hope you are enjoying this hot weather outside of those that got a lot of rain fall lately and more. The heat has definitely made it's arrival for sure. Personally I can do without all this heat. I am a Caveman after all!
I have had a chance to have some great convos. To discuss things with submissive's and slaves about their concerns and journey. Do plenty of counseling as well as consoling and supporting. I have been versatile, stand offish and close in support all at the same time. Damn I am good!
There is nothing like that value of connection. It is that intimacy that allows you to be able to sit around and not interact and be close to each other. Other to be far away from each other and still have that unbroken closeness. For the most part it is a lost art on the current social regimes.
Dealing with the male parental unit and his deterioration has taken more than it's toll. Plus everything that has been going on with me of course so that the level of difficulty stays up there. The estate stuff still has to be handled.
Things have taken a turn for the better out of absolutely nowhere and the wild blue. And I am thankful it. Glad for the moment to smile, laugh and enjoy again during the perfect storms. Maybe at some point in the future there will be a safe harbor again.
Looking forward to making these trips to educational conferences, Iceland, Italy, Dominican Republic and so happy to head back to Amsterdam to enjoy the city and the hotel again. Plus there are a number of other places domestic that are booked. *singing* I'm so excited! lol
One book is coming along. The other is well...yeah a lot to work on there. lol
You get tired of fighting everybody and everything. But I continue because I must in order to make things better for me and dwindling few that I care about now.
So much more but you know the rating deal so do what you know to do and holla if you hear me
Wednesday, June 06, 2018
Thursday, May 31, 2018
As I Ride the Darkness
Well, I survived the graduation without killing her family, choke slamming her and not having to take a chopper flight from fort Campbell out of the country.
The weekend in Tennessee definitely was something else. Get there late Friday after all the stuff that went on that day only to deal with hotels.com fucking everything up. Having to sit on the phone with a middle eastern that obviously wasn't about his job. After spending an hour on the phone as he played with his kids he finally calls the hotel and argues with the lady behind the desk who has been trying to help me. Mysteriously lose the call and have to call back and talk to another middle eastern female that was as helpful as tits on a boar.
So make it to the graduation and it is like hooker central in there. From children to old and older damn chicks. Short dresses and cleavage everywhere. I needed to put them bitches on the track and make some money to pay bills. Sitting up in the super nose bleed section I watched my god daughter walk across the stage. Remembering my walk and adventure. So I finally catch up to her afterwards and she is with her womb and sperm donor. Still shocked that the sperm donor showed up. After a couple of minutes around her as she talked to everyone it was time to feed. They said they were going to Logan's roadhouse to eat. Got there and started eating and finished before they even showed up.
And at Logan's is where I wanted to choke slam my god daughter to the hot concrete in the parking lot. So I sitting and look out the window and see someone in a stripper dress like was in Players Club and it is my god daughter in this white dress with her stomach out and tits barely in. I am like what the entire fuck is she wearing. That is what she had under her robe? So apparently someone said something about she can't eat in there with that on so she put her robe back on. I talked to her grandmother and her aunt had to tell me who she was and I was out to cigars and liquor.
So my god daughter hasn't gotten her graduation gifts yet at all. I am leaving Sunday now so I told her she better get with me before I leave. She said that she was coming that night but I didn't get a text from her until Sunday morning at about 4am saying that she is too drunk.
get ready to leave and tell her to come on and get her stuff and she said that they won't let her leave the house. Now I have to go find her father's house and deliver stuff now. And out she comes in her thigh slit up to her waist and tits barely contained dress.
So I saw my god daughter and spent about 17 minutes with her the whole weekend after driving all that way. I could have just mailed this in but I chose to support.
In closer news those that I care about, love and allow in circles have really been going through it. As much as I will, love to support and be there I see that I cannot do that when that is not what they want from or with me. So I stand and watch or simply forget about them. Can't help those that don't want your help.
As another year passes and I come up on the remembrance of my landing on this planet soon. I see all that has changed and died. The things that have blossomed and the new things that have been happily found.
I merely continue on this Last Ride...
The weekend in Tennessee definitely was something else. Get there late Friday after all the stuff that went on that day only to deal with hotels.com fucking everything up. Having to sit on the phone with a middle eastern that obviously wasn't about his job. After spending an hour on the phone as he played with his kids he finally calls the hotel and argues with the lady behind the desk who has been trying to help me. Mysteriously lose the call and have to call back and talk to another middle eastern female that was as helpful as tits on a boar.
So make it to the graduation and it is like hooker central in there. From children to old and older damn chicks. Short dresses and cleavage everywhere. I needed to put them bitches on the track and make some money to pay bills. Sitting up in the super nose bleed section I watched my god daughter walk across the stage. Remembering my walk and adventure. So I finally catch up to her afterwards and she is with her womb and sperm donor. Still shocked that the sperm donor showed up. After a couple of minutes around her as she talked to everyone it was time to feed. They said they were going to Logan's roadhouse to eat. Got there and started eating and finished before they even showed up.
And at Logan's is where I wanted to choke slam my god daughter to the hot concrete in the parking lot. So I sitting and look out the window and see someone in a stripper dress like was in Players Club and it is my god daughter in this white dress with her stomach out and tits barely in. I am like what the entire fuck is she wearing. That is what she had under her robe? So apparently someone said something about she can't eat in there with that on so she put her robe back on. I talked to her grandmother and her aunt had to tell me who she was and I was out to cigars and liquor.
So my god daughter hasn't gotten her graduation gifts yet at all. I am leaving Sunday now so I told her she better get with me before I leave. She said that she was coming that night but I didn't get a text from her until Sunday morning at about 4am saying that she is too drunk.
get ready to leave and tell her to come on and get her stuff and she said that they won't let her leave the house. Now I have to go find her father's house and deliver stuff now. And out she comes in her thigh slit up to her waist and tits barely contained dress.
So I saw my god daughter and spent about 17 minutes with her the whole weekend after driving all that way. I could have just mailed this in but I chose to support.
In closer news those that I care about, love and allow in circles have really been going through it. As much as I will, love to support and be there I see that I cannot do that when that is not what they want from or with me. So I stand and watch or simply forget about them. Can't help those that don't want your help.
As another year passes and I come up on the remembrance of my landing on this planet soon. I see all that has changed and died. The things that have blossomed and the new things that have been happily found.
I merely continue on this Last Ride...
Thursday, May 24, 2018
When One Anvil Falls, They All Fall
To say that things have been a rollercoaster would be comparing a snail to a whale in size difference.
Looks like I am going to have to cancel going to my god daughters graduation with the stuff that happened here are the house as well as the other plus add on the male parental unit. So yeah, I am like fuck it all real well now.
Plus the things going on with folks mothers and family so concern about them.
I had another flashback to losing platinum babe yesterday when I was told someone that I have never met but have a good connection with has something terminal. It really made me consider things and wish I could be there.
I will just keep folks in prayer, concern and all even the ones that are somewhere off in the distance doing their thing.
Fuck it all...
Looks like I am going to have to cancel going to my god daughters graduation with the stuff that happened here are the house as well as the other plus add on the male parental unit. So yeah, I am like fuck it all real well now.
Plus the things going on with folks mothers and family so concern about them.
I had another flashback to losing platinum babe yesterday when I was told someone that I have never met but have a good connection with has something terminal. It really made me consider things and wish I could be there.
I will just keep folks in prayer, concern and all even the ones that are somewhere off in the distance doing their thing.
Fuck it all...
Wednesday, May 23, 2018
POC, Enemies and the Difference in Allies
After the weekend and a number of things going on I figured I would address some things.
In POC (people of color) there are the desires to have something that is specifically for them. That is a safe haven for themselves and those like them. But in a discussion last weekend it showed the fallacy of how POC can become. Because when someone is dating a POC as well as can provide information, education, support and more to the POC community then why should they be ostracized because they are not POC? Oh wait, is this because of the need to reinstitute a mentality hat was thrust upon them by others? I find it extra stupid to have this mindset. Especially if the person has many other things that make them even more of a minority. But hey it is not my group or anything. And it will be their loss if that is maintained.
Next up is this blanket statement that every white person is the enemy. And if you are not of that thought then you are not black or black enough for those that claim something or status.Hell, one of the cousins had to get checked about claiming that I am an uncle tom because I am around the with the white people at the cigar shop. Well, here is where the ignorance shines brightly. This planet is not all black, all white, all blue or anything else. So there will have to be alliances that help and further you. Or information sources to be available.
Everyone is not your friend or your ally. Everyone will not maintain their role forever. But know and understand the when, where and how in the moment. Know when enemies become allies and allies become enemies and act accordingly.
And this coming from the man that is Evil anyway. So yeah this is something else.
In POC (people of color) there are the desires to have something that is specifically for them. That is a safe haven for themselves and those like them. But in a discussion last weekend it showed the fallacy of how POC can become. Because when someone is dating a POC as well as can provide information, education, support and more to the POC community then why should they be ostracized because they are not POC? Oh wait, is this because of the need to reinstitute a mentality hat was thrust upon them by others? I find it extra stupid to have this mindset. Especially if the person has many other things that make them even more of a minority. But hey it is not my group or anything. And it will be their loss if that is maintained.
Next up is this blanket statement that every white person is the enemy. And if you are not of that thought then you are not black or black enough for those that claim something or status.Hell, one of the cousins had to get checked about claiming that I am an uncle tom because I am around the with the white people at the cigar shop. Well, here is where the ignorance shines brightly. This planet is not all black, all white, all blue or anything else. So there will have to be alliances that help and further you. Or information sources to be available.
Everyone is not your friend or your ally. Everyone will not maintain their role forever. But know and understand the when, where and how in the moment. Know when enemies become allies and allies become enemies and act accordingly.
And this coming from the man that is Evil anyway. So yeah this is something else.
Monday, May 21, 2018
Leather lady, a wolf and Adventure Time
Changed plans led to revisions and realizations. Yet still the weekend brought merit after another rough week dealing with things.
I saw Deadpool 2 opening night Thursday. It was good but vastly different with emotional content in it unlike the first movie. But Cable and Domino definitely did the damn thing in there. Along with finally getting a real Juggernaut in the movie. I have watched it a couple of times to catch things.
Spent time with little one to deal with things with her.
The consummation of things have been overwhelming to say the least but this is what is a daily thing being a Black Man and a Dominant. When you deal with a submissive, lover and more makes for some hectic times and actions. But tis what I do and have done for many centuries. So I will continue to walk through the fire, the ultimate defense systems and the wars internally and externally against me.
I think the sister and her father are coming to grips more on the future a little bit. Apparently she will be taking him on a trip as he requested. And she has been asking folks to watch him so she can get away.
The weekend was filled with fellowship with Sir JJay and his house as well as time spent with slave renee and wolfie. Some deep conversation on leather and the lifestyle. From discussions about why poc groups would question and deny someone that is dating with or is great resource to the community. it is stupid to me but apparently common place to others. slave renee is truly doing some great work as a title holder. And Sir Jjay's ribs smelled delicious as hell.
Still haven't gotten over the damn place that only serves 8 fucking dollars shots and beers at it's bar. or you can go outside and get a frozen daiquiri. But at least we had some good fellowship out there and ass and titties were pointed out while we were outside.
Still not prepared for this week or this weekend and my god daughter's mess. The more shit I find out the more concerned that I am going to have to use that permanent exit strategy unfortunately. But I Love the little girl even though I know damn well she hasn't told me everything now. So this is going to be something else come Friday and Saturday.
I am actually looking forward to next month for the first time in a long time. I am hoping all things work out to make an epic good damn time.
Leaving things here. I need to bounce over to the spot and let loose for real now.
I saw Deadpool 2 opening night Thursday. It was good but vastly different with emotional content in it unlike the first movie. But Cable and Domino definitely did the damn thing in there. Along with finally getting a real Juggernaut in the movie. I have watched it a couple of times to catch things.
Spent time with little one to deal with things with her.
The consummation of things have been overwhelming to say the least but this is what is a daily thing being a Black Man and a Dominant. When you deal with a submissive, lover and more makes for some hectic times and actions. But tis what I do and have done for many centuries. So I will continue to walk through the fire, the ultimate defense systems and the wars internally and externally against me.
I think the sister and her father are coming to grips more on the future a little bit. Apparently she will be taking him on a trip as he requested. And she has been asking folks to watch him so she can get away.
The weekend was filled with fellowship with Sir JJay and his house as well as time spent with slave renee and wolfie. Some deep conversation on leather and the lifestyle. From discussions about why poc groups would question and deny someone that is dating with or is great resource to the community. it is stupid to me but apparently common place to others. slave renee is truly doing some great work as a title holder. And Sir Jjay's ribs smelled delicious as hell.
Still haven't gotten over the damn place that only serves 8 fucking dollars shots and beers at it's bar. or you can go outside and get a frozen daiquiri. But at least we had some good fellowship out there and ass and titties were pointed out while we were outside.
Still not prepared for this week or this weekend and my god daughter's mess. The more shit I find out the more concerned that I am going to have to use that permanent exit strategy unfortunately. But I Love the little girl even though I know damn well she hasn't told me everything now. So this is going to be something else come Friday and Saturday.
I am actually looking forward to next month for the first time in a long time. I am hoping all things work out to make an epic good damn time.
Leaving things here. I need to bounce over to the spot and let loose for real now.
Thursday, May 17, 2018
The Last Stand for a Sin Eater
But I can't and won't fight against those that I love and care about. I cannot make them see, understand or accept things that are against.
This has come in the form of just being there for a chick. Available to talk and listen. To let me into their life and to stay there. That intimate connection that I like and enjoy. But in this day and age there has been an advance decree on making sure to keep distance no matter what for the proper escape clause and minimal investment clauses. Because their past delegates their future and fear of vulnerability leaves them barren.
The destructive and caustic weight of society has created females that hate themselves for not being some unrealistic representation of what the nazis have decided is what should be. So when I am attracted to them and show them that I get negative and or dismissive comments from them. what is the point? A man is supposed to fight you and re program you to be with you? Yeah, that is asinine. Even after you have been with them the whole personal defamation of character is retained.
So as a man I remain behind the eight ball because females have chosen to be in this unattainable situation. Make the environment safe as possible and with as much support as possible. Only for any implied, overt or thoughts of fraction that occurs being a major assault against them. I say nay to thee!
Just stuff that came out with everything going on and interactions with folk lately.
Sunday, May 13, 2018
Slipping into Darkness
After smoking a bowl of whisky tobacco and still drinking I figured I better get some stuff done and out.
As the universe turns is definitely in full swing. Things are picking up and I am glad. It is time to leave everything in the dust and as the song says 'walk on by.'
Two weekends from now it is off to tennesee and to my god daughters graduation. Which seems to become more of a clusterfuck each day. I am getting bits and pieces slowly. Now I find out she was pregnant a month ago and got an abortion. Add to that the issues with her parents and this school thing and yeah this is one for the books lol
There were some that were concerned about me since it is mothers day. But I am fine. Just some thoughts and feelings about Chocolate Doll. I have no kids and considering how females, society and children are these days that is a true blessing indeed.
More and more paperwork. More attorney things to do. And the gubberment is turning some new screws.
The silver lining is still growing and I can't wait to see it get added to things and make things better.
I look at my calendar and the time and see how much has passed. I guess I thought something would change and I have given a chance all this time. Just time to nail that compartment shut as I figured would happen and say oh well fuck it at least got the bits in the past.
As the universe turns is definitely in full swing. Things are picking up and I am glad. It is time to leave everything in the dust and as the song says 'walk on by.'
Two weekends from now it is off to tennesee and to my god daughters graduation. Which seems to become more of a clusterfuck each day. I am getting bits and pieces slowly. Now I find out she was pregnant a month ago and got an abortion. Add to that the issues with her parents and this school thing and yeah this is one for the books lol
There were some that were concerned about me since it is mothers day. But I am fine. Just some thoughts and feelings about Chocolate Doll. I have no kids and considering how females, society and children are these days that is a true blessing indeed.
More and more paperwork. More attorney things to do. And the gubberment is turning some new screws.
The silver lining is still growing and I can't wait to see it get added to things and make things better.
I look at my calendar and the time and see how much has passed. I guess I thought something would change and I have given a chance all this time. Just time to nail that compartment shut as I figured would happen and say oh well fuck it at least got the bits in the past.
Friday, May 11, 2018
Incoming! Danger Close!!
What can I say? Dropping bombs from b wing fighters and sterilizing universes with the sun crusher and Deathstar fleet kind of week. But the light in the middle of darkness is diminishing so things are definitely looking up.
Got to keep my other part of me in prayers. Everything going on with my Ru has me contemplating going back to putting that work in so I can help her. But I know she will be alright but I need to flip some stuff and help her out.
With things going on in the bdsm lifestyle lately I am glad for all the things that I learned from red and little one along with the treehugging monkey bitch and the rest of the illegitimates. I have learned the things to not do, not let happen ever again along with being even more compartmentalized and super picky. It had given me the skill set to be even more critical and precise when it comes to females interested in me in relations and dynamics or even play. Not letting everything that has already happened occur again.
Seems like red's mother is doing better. Good for them. Rae is making it after burying her father.
in the adventures of the last parental unit things are just getting even more difficult and bothersome. But when you have someone deteriorating then you just have to do what you do and keep it pushing. Going to have to do a few more end around attacks and bounce out.
Incoming...
Things are jumping off it seems. About to see just how far back to the old me this is going to take me. The revisions and changes have sent back to the build a bitch program days and more. Making everything fall into a D.O.A. system.
And I am thankful for seeing and enjoying the ass and titties that are out now and been out. Hell it really hasn't been that cold over the so called winter. Which means the summer is going to be ridiculously hot as hell. So my anger and attitude will be atmospheric when I am in the heat.
It is seriously looking to be heading back to a much more adventurous Life Unscripted entries. Hell, I am going to have to get a bigger toy bag and get some more toys for some of these adventures. Still need to put the new toy ideas to work. little one commented about my constant repair of the tennis balls of destruction. Hell I enjoy using them. I cannot wait to see where Sir Bear took the idea to this year. It is time for another paddle and I am going to have to have a toy luggage built.
And yes, I am going to add to the arsenal this year. If I can get a B.A.R. then I am going to be in heaven.
After going to the Tank museum last weekend I am still feeling that high a bit. All the things in there and all 500 pics that I took showed my new museum to enjoy. Spent 4 hours there in bliss, excitement and enjoyment. Yes, kid mode was turned on and on fire. The episode with the police outside after wards didn't make me happy. I mean how dangerous can we be in a parking lot eating lunch by ourselves? But they needed to make sure. The pulled up in standard black people formation with the older cop siting behind us in his cruiser. I figured when I saw them pass by on the road that they would come bac and unfortunately I was correct.
Nothing going down this weekend with a week of drones and robots can't really be mad. lol But next week once more unto the fray as they say.
Oh and hell yeah Deadpool 2 is next week also so yeah I will be laughing my ass off as well as delving into debauchery, shooting, eating, drinking and redacting.
Oh and today at the cigar shop I am going to get my eye candy perv on with the cigar rep jaxxx super gorgeous sexy ass
Till the next time take it easy and make it all happen....
Got to keep my other part of me in prayers. Everything going on with my Ru has me contemplating going back to putting that work in so I can help her. But I know she will be alright but I need to flip some stuff and help her out.
With things going on in the bdsm lifestyle lately I am glad for all the things that I learned from red and little one along with the treehugging monkey bitch and the rest of the illegitimates. I have learned the things to not do, not let happen ever again along with being even more compartmentalized and super picky. It had given me the skill set to be even more critical and precise when it comes to females interested in me in relations and dynamics or even play. Not letting everything that has already happened occur again.
Seems like red's mother is doing better. Good for them. Rae is making it after burying her father.
in the adventures of the last parental unit things are just getting even more difficult and bothersome. But when you have someone deteriorating then you just have to do what you do and keep it pushing. Going to have to do a few more end around attacks and bounce out.
Incoming...
Things are jumping off it seems. About to see just how far back to the old me this is going to take me. The revisions and changes have sent back to the build a bitch program days and more. Making everything fall into a D.O.A. system.
And I am thankful for seeing and enjoying the ass and titties that are out now and been out. Hell it really hasn't been that cold over the so called winter. Which means the summer is going to be ridiculously hot as hell. So my anger and attitude will be atmospheric when I am in the heat.
It is seriously looking to be heading back to a much more adventurous Life Unscripted entries. Hell, I am going to have to get a bigger toy bag and get some more toys for some of these adventures. Still need to put the new toy ideas to work. little one commented about my constant repair of the tennis balls of destruction. Hell I enjoy using them. I cannot wait to see where Sir Bear took the idea to this year. It is time for another paddle and I am going to have to have a toy luggage built.
And yes, I am going to add to the arsenal this year. If I can get a B.A.R. then I am going to be in heaven.
After going to the Tank museum last weekend I am still feeling that high a bit. All the things in there and all 500 pics that I took showed my new museum to enjoy. Spent 4 hours there in bliss, excitement and enjoyment. Yes, kid mode was turned on and on fire. The episode with the police outside after wards didn't make me happy. I mean how dangerous can we be in a parking lot eating lunch by ourselves? But they needed to make sure. The pulled up in standard black people formation with the older cop siting behind us in his cruiser. I figured when I saw them pass by on the road that they would come bac and unfortunately I was correct.
Nothing going down this weekend with a week of drones and robots can't really be mad. lol But next week once more unto the fray as they say.
Oh and hell yeah Deadpool 2 is next week also so yeah I will be laughing my ass off as well as delving into debauchery, shooting, eating, drinking and redacting.
Oh and today at the cigar shop I am going to get my eye candy perv on with the cigar rep jaxxx super gorgeous sexy ass
Till the next time take it easy and make it all happen....
Thursday, May 03, 2018
Poetry: My Wonder Woman
My Wonder Woman
No bracelets seen
No bustier
Not yet
Not yet
But damn I already
been envisioning
Thick and delicious
A smile that is
nutritious
I am just waiting for
you to
Feed me carnally
Mind, body and soul
Music filled epitaphs
Cartoon reminiscent
moments
We remember
We share
We sing, laugh and
dance
Each shared moment
Further door opening
to a future
More intimate and
decadent
I finally see you
Tantalizingly busty
Your wonder woman
regalia
Finally
I can appreciate
Actually want to
enjoy
Wonder woman
Well only your
version
Of course
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/3/18 ©
A Week in Review...Yeah Overdue lol
So it has been over a week since and I am running late. But things have been going on.
Last week seemed to be a rough time for people that I have known. red's mother was in the hospital I found out and Rae's father died last week. So it definitely brought a lot of things in to mind. I sent my prayers and condolences and all.
I was completely enjoying the Black Violin concert last week. I am telling you if you get a chance to see them perform SEE THEM! You will enjoy and love it as well. The blend of the music and the battling of instruments were exceptional and brought me back to the old days of bands, orchestra and opera. I look forward to seeing them again soon.
Of course business had to be handled as usual. So I continue holding all the planets in both hands with the multiverse on my shoulders. At least I have practice. lol. But little one got her stuff handled and I have kept moving.
All the shit that has been going on over the last year has taken it's toll. Dealing with people has turned, twisted and transmuted into some distant rubics cube of whatever. But like my tagline says "Army of One, come get it like the Red Cross." I have always been alone in relations, dating, and a bunch of other stuff so this is nothing new. So even in this evolution there is a baseline. So I continue to take this long walk alone. Doing my duty as is my lot in life.
I went to atlanta since I was supposed to go to the demons birthday party. I was not in the mood to deal with some fucked up holler than thou new york attitude. It would be nice to see some of the other people but it was worth not being bothered with her fucked up attitude. So I had a great weekend instead filled with eating, cigars and drinks. Even met an old school couple from east chicago in as well. Got in some serious conversation about east chicago and education and the lack of it in schools and teaching these days. Watched thick ass chicks with ass and tits as well.
Tempered intrigue has laid it's head upon for this new opportunity. After the cauldron of things I have dealt with and experienced I have streamlined and created a more reliable positioning. And I look forward to seeing what it brings.
In this time I have also come to look sideways at others and their attempt to influence, change and make me. From the silent distance, to the shift of blame to the obvious distress. Arms, hands and more outstretched for the in need. As I accept what they have shown. I merely blink.
Countdown this month to the travesty in Tennessee. I am not looking forward to this trip to watch my god daughter graduate. Not because I don't love her but because this drama that is about to happen. But I got the Blackhawk on standby and will have my passport with me.
I looked at everything today and I no longer really feel. I am just in an existing mode until it is time to turn that off until the proper time when it is appropriate.
The male parental unit is getting worse and frankly I am tired of picking up after him and telling him not to do things or what to do while he is making a mess of things.
Still weird with these anniversaries and things this year. But I am dealing with it and roll with it.
I think I rambled on for enough for this moment. I need to get back to packing and getting this writing done. time for another chapter in life unscripted.
Last week seemed to be a rough time for people that I have known. red's mother was in the hospital I found out and Rae's father died last week. So it definitely brought a lot of things in to mind. I sent my prayers and condolences and all.
I was completely enjoying the Black Violin concert last week. I am telling you if you get a chance to see them perform SEE THEM! You will enjoy and love it as well. The blend of the music and the battling of instruments were exceptional and brought me back to the old days of bands, orchestra and opera. I look forward to seeing them again soon.
Of course business had to be handled as usual. So I continue holding all the planets in both hands with the multiverse on my shoulders. At least I have practice. lol. But little one got her stuff handled and I have kept moving.
All the shit that has been going on over the last year has taken it's toll. Dealing with people has turned, twisted and transmuted into some distant rubics cube of whatever. But like my tagline says "Army of One, come get it like the Red Cross." I have always been alone in relations, dating, and a bunch of other stuff so this is nothing new. So even in this evolution there is a baseline. So I continue to take this long walk alone. Doing my duty as is my lot in life.
I went to atlanta since I was supposed to go to the demons birthday party. I was not in the mood to deal with some fucked up holler than thou new york attitude. It would be nice to see some of the other people but it was worth not being bothered with her fucked up attitude. So I had a great weekend instead filled with eating, cigars and drinks. Even met an old school couple from east chicago in as well. Got in some serious conversation about east chicago and education and the lack of it in schools and teaching these days. Watched thick ass chicks with ass and tits as well.
Tempered intrigue has laid it's head upon for this new opportunity. After the cauldron of things I have dealt with and experienced I have streamlined and created a more reliable positioning. And I look forward to seeing what it brings.
In this time I have also come to look sideways at others and their attempt to influence, change and make me. From the silent distance, to the shift of blame to the obvious distress. Arms, hands and more outstretched for the in need. As I accept what they have shown. I merely blink.
Countdown this month to the travesty in Tennessee. I am not looking forward to this trip to watch my god daughter graduate. Not because I don't love her but because this drama that is about to happen. But I got the Blackhawk on standby and will have my passport with me.
I looked at everything today and I no longer really feel. I am just in an existing mode until it is time to turn that off until the proper time when it is appropriate.
The male parental unit is getting worse and frankly I am tired of picking up after him and telling him not to do things or what to do while he is making a mess of things.
Still weird with these anniversaries and things this year. But I am dealing with it and roll with it.
I think I rambled on for enough for this moment. I need to get back to packing and getting this writing done. time for another chapter in life unscripted.
Tuesday, April 24, 2018
Running the Gauntlet
Well the past week can be only be described as...anything can happen.
Dealing with the male parental unit and whatever the hell is going on down there in bama and in wilmington with him and his daughter. The mind must be slipping more so just cocked back and preparing as best as can be done.
Individuals have lost their parent and others have had scares with their parent. I understand and offer support from a planet far, far away since I understand the possible things being dealt with.
My god daughter at least wasn't ratchet looking going to her final damn prom. She looked beautiful. I just had to get past all that make up. smh And damn she is really starting to look like her womb donor in the face now. Next month is going to be one for the Life Unscripted Greatest hits for sure.
Airborne, still has her ass running around all crazy and busy on 2 hours of sleep between gigs. And she don't even have to do any of that. Hell, she got over a year in damn time off. lol
qt, dealing with life changes. And I feel her on that. Things happen but they happen to move on to the next steps in your life.
Still laughing at the chicks that acted like bitches are some interesting sexies.
Damn little one got me hooked on them damn wild carolina bbq wings from Wing it now. smh The damn things are good as hell.
*random* these damn ginger dried fruit snacks are the BOMB! I will have to get more from the rdu farmers market. Especially since they don't have my damn diet ginger beer there anymore now.
I cannot wait to go listen to Black Violin tonight! I finally get a chance to see them perform. Love their music. Classical violin work turned into modern day hip hop and all music.
Like the old kodak commercial use to say, "I see your true colors shining through." And this phrase really has been the marching order for many folks, especially lately. I am just observing and taking it all in. I think the axe will drop in the not so distant future based on things.
There is a lot to get done this year with all the anniversaries and the things going on. Things are off track but as always I just nuke and find a way through. I still need to get my tattoo. The book is being worked on.
Looking at the new things and ready to see where they lead to or not. Only time will tell what is going to happen anyway. But it hasn't been all that bad so far.
The rain is coming down. The horniness is serious. My attitude is laughably in check. And my not give a fuck movement has increased in size, scope and intensity.
Well, I think that is enough random weekend recap for you right now. So enjoy your day and your week. Hell you are almost half way to the weekend anyway.
*chunking the deuce*
Dealing with the male parental unit and whatever the hell is going on down there in bama and in wilmington with him and his daughter. The mind must be slipping more so just cocked back and preparing as best as can be done.
Individuals have lost their parent and others have had scares with their parent. I understand and offer support from a planet far, far away since I understand the possible things being dealt with.
My god daughter at least wasn't ratchet looking going to her final damn prom. She looked beautiful. I just had to get past all that make up. smh And damn she is really starting to look like her womb donor in the face now. Next month is going to be one for the Life Unscripted Greatest hits for sure.
Airborne, still has her ass running around all crazy and busy on 2 hours of sleep between gigs. And she don't even have to do any of that. Hell, she got over a year in damn time off. lol
qt, dealing with life changes. And I feel her on that. Things happen but they happen to move on to the next steps in your life.
Still laughing at the chicks that acted like bitches are some interesting sexies.
Damn little one got me hooked on them damn wild carolina bbq wings from Wing it now. smh The damn things are good as hell.
*random* these damn ginger dried fruit snacks are the BOMB! I will have to get more from the rdu farmers market. Especially since they don't have my damn diet ginger beer there anymore now.
I cannot wait to go listen to Black Violin tonight! I finally get a chance to see them perform. Love their music. Classical violin work turned into modern day hip hop and all music.
Like the old kodak commercial use to say, "I see your true colors shining through." And this phrase really has been the marching order for many folks, especially lately. I am just observing and taking it all in. I think the axe will drop in the not so distant future based on things.
There is a lot to get done this year with all the anniversaries and the things going on. Things are off track but as always I just nuke and find a way through. I still need to get my tattoo. The book is being worked on.
Looking at the new things and ready to see where they lead to or not. Only time will tell what is going to happen anyway. But it hasn't been all that bad so far.
The rain is coming down. The horniness is serious. My attitude is laughably in check. And my not give a fuck movement has increased in size, scope and intensity.
Well, I think that is enough random weekend recap for you right now. So enjoy your day and your week. Hell you are almost half way to the weekend anyway.
*chunking the deuce*
Tuesday, April 17, 2018
Poetry: Famished and Waiting
Famished and Waiting
The enchantment
Of each anticipated
communication with you
Incantations of
finally being with you
Spells cast
In the intrigue of
you
Of us
Our theme music
encases us
From the moment we
first lay eyes upon
Unknown destinations
Adventures we have
not yet begun
Unexpected paths
crossed
At a time where there
was nothing at all
Timing and fate let
the chips fall
Now there is this
connection
That we both watched
be born
Connect
Connection
Real open interest
even
Refreshing
Man and woman
No posturing
Mixed signals with
some down beat
Or hinged on personal
fraility
Each moment that
passes
I await the final
countdown
Where reality and you
Bring forth
unforgettable memories
So I wait
Savoring the taste
From the
chocolatezeus collection 4/17/18 ©
Poetry: Tattered Remnants
Tattered Remnants
There is nothing like
that feeling
When the gauge rest
on empty
When you smile in
Apathetic christening
Breathe in
indifference
Keyed to the tune of
F minor
No closing credits
play
Recycled and cycled
Withering rememberance
As transformations
Leave unrecognizable
residue
Was that mine?
What is that?
Unrecognized by
design
Love
Match
Set
Get the fuck out of
here
Displaced
Anti time consuming
Spatial relation
Defaces what did
exist
Ever existed
Tattered remnants
The only things to
still
Relish in
Fade to black
Then
Fade to a darker
black again
A dead star within a
black hole
Is where the story
stays
Stagnant
From the
chocolatezeus collection 4/17/18 ©
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