I eagerly await
each and every communication
that you make
words that illict
smiles and grins
as our correspondence
brings
laughter
attention
connection
horny ramifications
The bliss of communication
the treasure chest of relating
on a scale that is
beyond relevant
each anticipatory moment passes
as I look through time's hourglass
happily waiting for
that next
further plot
of a journey down the yellow brick road
to a point where
we both want to be
the plot and joy
Thickens
in thickness and delight
from the chocolatezeus collection 6/5/17 (c)
Monday, June 05, 2017
Sunday, June 04, 2017
Life Unscripted: A Practical Man
Taken from the title of a book called Boba Fett: A Practical Man.
Talked, laughed, dealt with things and laid things to rest.
There are times when you truly realized you are alone amongst the crowd and those people that you might know. You take your bearing, nod and move forward.
little one is a tad bit better but still got to deal with things going on and all the repercussions.
Ru might be working or might be traveling to party. You never know with my fellow Road Warrior.
Tigger is her usual grump ass self.
red is doing exactly what she does.
As for me. I reached a nexus between the multiverses.
Started some great conversations with ssc which have been informative, funny and interesting. A good getting to know each other period. And it is always fun to laugh at things and talk.
Hell, I even had an in depth conversation with kat yesterday. Hell, I don't think we had anything that in depth since way back in the swinging in MD days. But I did have to get on her ass about the excuses she came up with about not being involved in the lifestyle and all. Another female that I have known with a totally fucked up past and experiences.
Checked out pop tart since she is working at Brooklyn cigars now. At least she can let them medium size titties hang out there versus the shop I go to. Looks like she still got a bunch of shit going on in her life with her damn neighbors son and all as usual. Unless she is going to show me pussy and titties then I am not interested in hearing it.
Hmm, that made me think about when I use to get my needed titty, nipple and pussy pics from the ones I am with.
Sitting in Davis and Son tobacconist one day and I realized we had the widowed section going on between rich, the new nj guy and myself. We all had wives die. The new nj guy wife just died this year after moving down the end of last year.
I can say that I have truly seen the differences in life, people and dealing with them over these years. And it took me a while to understand fully how important my process of dealing with people had to be tweaked and fortified. But it truly has evolved into a better bear trap it seems thankfully.
I am thankful for the eye opening. The new adventure. The laughter. The closeness, intimacy and support I was able to provide. And most importantly the application of the things that needed to be. All those things helped and made for an interesting week.
And I saw how the same monkey is linked to every single female and trying to fuck them and claim being a dom while being sneaky about it. And some of the females are alright with this because it is attention basically. But that shows his and their level of application to D/s as well as relations. I just had to fucking laugh again. Especially when koffeecake said that he is always in her face if he sees her at an event and how creepy he is and wonders about his wife.
All I can do is be me and fully me. So if you are ready and able to handle non cotton candy type of thoughts, feelings and living then you know where to head to for a taste of reality!
Have a great day and enjoy next week.
Talked, laughed, dealt with things and laid things to rest.
There are times when you truly realized you are alone amongst the crowd and those people that you might know. You take your bearing, nod and move forward.
little one is a tad bit better but still got to deal with things going on and all the repercussions.
Ru might be working or might be traveling to party. You never know with my fellow Road Warrior.
Tigger is her usual grump ass self.
red is doing exactly what she does.
As for me. I reached a nexus between the multiverses.
Started some great conversations with ssc which have been informative, funny and interesting. A good getting to know each other period. And it is always fun to laugh at things and talk.
Hell, I even had an in depth conversation with kat yesterday. Hell, I don't think we had anything that in depth since way back in the swinging in MD days. But I did have to get on her ass about the excuses she came up with about not being involved in the lifestyle and all. Another female that I have known with a totally fucked up past and experiences.
Checked out pop tart since she is working at Brooklyn cigars now. At least she can let them medium size titties hang out there versus the shop I go to. Looks like she still got a bunch of shit going on in her life with her damn neighbors son and all as usual. Unless she is going to show me pussy and titties then I am not interested in hearing it.
Hmm, that made me think about when I use to get my needed titty, nipple and pussy pics from the ones I am with.
Sitting in Davis and Son tobacconist one day and I realized we had the widowed section going on between rich, the new nj guy and myself. We all had wives die. The new nj guy wife just died this year after moving down the end of last year.
I can say that I have truly seen the differences in life, people and dealing with them over these years. And it took me a while to understand fully how important my process of dealing with people had to be tweaked and fortified. But it truly has evolved into a better bear trap it seems thankfully.
I am thankful for the eye opening. The new adventure. The laughter. The closeness, intimacy and support I was able to provide. And most importantly the application of the things that needed to be. All those things helped and made for an interesting week.
And I saw how the same monkey is linked to every single female and trying to fuck them and claim being a dom while being sneaky about it. And some of the females are alright with this because it is attention basically. But that shows his and their level of application to D/s as well as relations. I just had to fucking laugh again. Especially when koffeecake said that he is always in her face if he sees her at an event and how creepy he is and wonders about his wife.
All I can do is be me and fully me. So if you are ready and able to handle non cotton candy type of thoughts, feelings and living then you know where to head to for a taste of reality!
Have a great day and enjoy next week.
Tuesday, May 30, 2017
What is a Submissive to Me?
It is a common question and one that is asked a number of times.
For me it is someone that chooses to come under service, direction and leadership of another person. She can be the ruler of half the planet, a ceo or professor with 4 noebel prizes. When all of that is said and done she is the charge of her Dominant.
This is not something that is coerced or forced upon them. I personally question the use of the word submission when they want to be forced into doing it basically. This is supposed to be of free will and action.
It can be a hard or impossible ability for people. Because it requires trust, commitment and no longer only getting your way. An alignment of wills that basically females have been taught against doing in life from their conception.
Nor is submission something easy or immediate for most. It takes time, effort, commitment and growth.
It has taken my little one over a year to become mostly aligned because of life and the things that she was use to and how she is and all. It took understanding and seeing the goals that were set along with the goals that were achieved. And of course there is still a lot of work to do on the journey. But with effort, commitment and attentiveness we will keep right on moving.
Oh yeah, there have been the pitfalls. The fraudulent submissive, the topping from the bottom submissive as well as the burger king submissive (have it my way.) They have shown that I have to be vigilant against things like them trying to manipulate you to get their way or do things some other so called doms way and everything else.
So being a submissive to me is many things. Most are not the suck, fuck and play kind (even though I love those.) There are things like organizing files. Taking dictation and a lot of dicktation as well. Doing research for me. Trip planning and shopping. There are so many things that happen and will be in the submissive's domain of service. But most importantly is honor, duty, integrity to this house, our dynamic.
So there is my little answer for those that haven't asked me yet out of those that have. Or those that have and just want to verify.
For me it is someone that chooses to come under service, direction and leadership of another person. She can be the ruler of half the planet, a ceo or professor with 4 noebel prizes. When all of that is said and done she is the charge of her Dominant.
This is not something that is coerced or forced upon them. I personally question the use of the word submission when they want to be forced into doing it basically. This is supposed to be of free will and action.
It can be a hard or impossible ability for people. Because it requires trust, commitment and no longer only getting your way. An alignment of wills that basically females have been taught against doing in life from their conception.
Nor is submission something easy or immediate for most. It takes time, effort, commitment and growth.
It has taken my little one over a year to become mostly aligned because of life and the things that she was use to and how she is and all. It took understanding and seeing the goals that were set along with the goals that were achieved. And of course there is still a lot of work to do on the journey. But with effort, commitment and attentiveness we will keep right on moving.
Oh yeah, there have been the pitfalls. The fraudulent submissive, the topping from the bottom submissive as well as the burger king submissive (have it my way.) They have shown that I have to be vigilant against things like them trying to manipulate you to get their way or do things some other so called doms way and everything else.
So being a submissive to me is many things. Most are not the suck, fuck and play kind (even though I love those.) There are things like organizing files. Taking dictation and a lot of dicktation as well. Doing research for me. Trip planning and shopping. There are so many things that happen and will be in the submissive's domain of service. But most importantly is honor, duty, integrity to this house, our dynamic.
So there is my little answer for those that haven't asked me yet out of those that have. Or those that have and just want to verify.
Monday, May 29, 2017
Mad Max in the Thunderdome...week in revue
So it has been hot here at the beach. The northerners are down here and creating more accidents and chaos than the ones that already moved here. So yes, I have needed to just get in an interceptor and just ride around shooting and blowing up everything and everyone.
The week?
Well, the week has been interesting to say the least.
Discussions about why Dominants and Masters should let their submissives and slaves have access to their journals. Yeah, that would cave their little heads in reading that stuff. lol
The inability for submissives and slaves to be able to transition and process the differences from their adventures as the career female in their lives and everything to being a submissive or slave in a dynamic. That make me submit to you and everything were on the table again.
The evidence of relevance and importance was shown and put on full display. Almost like more episodes of the issues with the old teen dream thing came out.
Work was something else. Got a chick that is aloof along with a bunch of other misfits. lol
The horny sadist is way out of control! I am looking at chicks i wouldn't look at normally and thinking about fucking and beating them. smh
I had to spend time out in the country since my cousin was down as usual from Mass. I had plenty to eat and drink. I need to keep my alcohol level up you know!
That comfort need thing was evaluated, understood and put into it's vault.
Really ready to hit the skies here shortly and be on the move. It is past time with everything else that has been going on. Need something, so went back to my old way.
I definitely ate and drank well. And I am going to keep that going.
little one has been dealing with things so supporting her through her 1st dom dying and so many other things. As I told some folk this is the non glamorous and fun stuff but it is what has to and should be done. Take care of your charge.
Dating? lol yeah. There will be more changes in this area. But definitely have a lot of work to do.
And it is about time for two more tattoo's. Chocolate Doll and a collaring or dedication.
Half the year is gone and I am ready to get it over with and get a move on.
As Evil parts I will leave these right here...
I love you
Miss you
Need you
...ball is in your court
Back to chaos and destruction
The week?
Well, the week has been interesting to say the least.
Discussions about why Dominants and Masters should let their submissives and slaves have access to their journals. Yeah, that would cave their little heads in reading that stuff. lol
The inability for submissives and slaves to be able to transition and process the differences from their adventures as the career female in their lives and everything to being a submissive or slave in a dynamic. That make me submit to you and everything were on the table again.
The evidence of relevance and importance was shown and put on full display. Almost like more episodes of the issues with the old teen dream thing came out.
Work was something else. Got a chick that is aloof along with a bunch of other misfits. lol
The horny sadist is way out of control! I am looking at chicks i wouldn't look at normally and thinking about fucking and beating them. smh
I had to spend time out in the country since my cousin was down as usual from Mass. I had plenty to eat and drink. I need to keep my alcohol level up you know!
That comfort need thing was evaluated, understood and put into it's vault.
Really ready to hit the skies here shortly and be on the move. It is past time with everything else that has been going on. Need something, so went back to my old way.
I definitely ate and drank well. And I am going to keep that going.
little one has been dealing with things so supporting her through her 1st dom dying and so many other things. As I told some folk this is the non glamorous and fun stuff but it is what has to and should be done. Take care of your charge.
Dating? lol yeah. There will be more changes in this area. But definitely have a lot of work to do.
And it is about time for two more tattoo's. Chocolate Doll and a collaring or dedication.
Half the year is gone and I am ready to get it over with and get a move on.
As Evil parts I will leave these right here...
I love you
Miss you
Need you
...ball is in your court
Back to chaos and destruction
Relation poetry: Murder in the Relationship Degree
Murder in the Relationship Degree
Wait
Wait
Your upset?
Even though you won’t
Open your mouth or
heart
And express yourself
Oh
You do express
something
Merely the bad and
the ugly
I guess the good
escapes your memory
Cue the Clint
Eastwood
Music theme
It is hard to believe
That in this day and
age
Alleged relationship
thing
That there couldn’t
be
Wouldn’t be
And apparently for
you and others
Shouldn’t be
This ability to
Converse
Enjoy and live
Actually have this
Relationship type
Thing
Instead let’s cheer
on
The
Pouting
Angry and snarling
Long distance center
learning
That is prevalent
And so relevant to
you
As the existence of
we
You keep
Murdering
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/29/17 ©
Wednesday, May 24, 2017
Poetic Moments: Definitive Time Displacement
Definitive Time Displacement
Moments
Where I wonder
If you are alright
Where have you been
Hell, if you are even
still there
The sands of the
hourglass
Have fallen so much
That there is only a
haze there
Bewildered by
This time warp of
Distance and
obscurity
As I hold my arms out
Beckoning you to join
me
To join
Us
Let the sum of these
parts
Be whole
Grab hold of this
life raft
Our life is worth
Living
Instead
I hear the words
Engage
And watch
The disappearance
Into warp again
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/24/17 ©
Havoc's Poetry: Destination Foreseen
Destination Foreseen
The moment
I stopped fighting
the feeling
Accepted what was
before me
I told you
I love you and wanted
you
As my wife to be
The checklist was
there
Each item checked off
Intelligent
Gorgeous
Weird and unique
Super freaky
Uninhibited
And the list went on
Your fear screamed at
me
As you back away
Fortified against my
Direct intimate
Revelation
See
I saw through
everything
The walls that you
keep
The fear that you
hold deep
The sabotage that you
seek
Through the fog
I looked at the grail
at the ending
Said that is where
I want to be
We need to be
But I left the ball
in your court
Something to love
Was the score that
would be
So I stand back
From my distant seat
Hoping you see
The beautiful things
That I have already
seen
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/24/17 ©
Monday, May 22, 2017
The Horniness is Out of Control: When it Rains it Creams
I am beyond fucking horny and I mean everything I see I need to fuck and beat!
When It Rains it
Creams
When It Rains it
Creams
The sound of the
pouring rain
Unearths visions
Your chocolate curves
upon display
Served to me fully
I know what those
droplets do to you
Churning chocolate
creamy goodness
I will take each
orgasm from you
Take more than you
want
More than you think
you can do
Fucking
Licking and massaging
Each impact
Frees you
I am going to make
you
Monsoon and typhoon
Internally
So I can watch the
damage
That I do to you
Your mind lost
In the ebb and flow
of
Earth shattering
Non stop
Orgasmic beatings
Each heave
You pay homage to me
Your carnal destroyer
Lips swollen
But open
Calling me to
Maintain this assault
On your rain torn brain
Hyper sensitive,
curvy chocolate body
As you curl up in the
fetal position
Feeing each drop
You hear me
Laugh among the
Stormy rain drops
I have no empathy
You will give me all
Every drop of carnal
desire and need
For this feast will
not cease
As long as the rain
keeps pounding
I will pound you
Mentally and
physically
Soaking
Eroticism
Until it drowns from
This meeting
Just think about it
What does the rain do
to you
Then realize
What the rain causes
me to do to you
Drip
Drop
Splash
Cream
Just you
Me
The rain and
Ultimate release
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/22/17 ©
Poetry: The Calm of the Vile Beast
The Calm to the Vile Beast
You
The comfort, peace
and pleasure
Of looking into those
eyes
Seeing the universe
swirl in them
That smile that moves
mountains
Calming even the
Beast of me
Breaking barriers
Making life solvent
Whether near or far
I feel you
Know your energy
For you feed me
And I feel you so
deeply
Your presence
Like the Big Bang
Theory
Even in the solitary
quietness
You scream so
eloquently
Love and passion
Your weapons against
me
Calming and sating
This vile, savage
beast
In the moments
Where I showed
Need
Your essence
Filled, supported and
defined
The comforts
I need
As always
You know just what I need
A small grin
A smirk even
As I return to
Being just
Me
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/22/17 ©
Spilled Ink: Demilitarized Relations
Demilitarized Relations
Aftermath of
Defended measurements
Standoffish encounters
We were gripped in
Love
Passion
Intimacy
Well until
The usual suspect
arrived
That feeling of
Overwhelming
Turned into
Casual acquaintances
Rubble remains
Where that fiery passion
Unwavering love
Would be
Replaced with a
Juxtapose
Of hit and miss
Type of
Relationship
Now
Love and relation
On the move
Like carnies
travelling
The circuit
In descript
Faded
Epitaphs
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/22/17 ©
Sunday, May 21, 2017
Where the Hell is Cortana at ? *week in review*
lol yeah it was a Halo reference and it fits so now what?
It has been a long damn week. At least the parental units and their daughter are gone for now.
Damn, I miss the girls. lil red and little one have so much going on with life that probably won't see them maybe until august or the end of the year. Is what it is. D/s and dating do not stop for life and all it's responsibilities.
I will probably bounce out to houston and do some Road Warriors type of adventure.
But damn I am ready for these upcoming trips like right now. Time to "keep it pushing"
And I was not even prepared when my god daughter sent me pics of her prom. WTF! The split up her leg and thick as she is just wanted me to decapitate her date with one swing and then do her womb donor too. At least she got her letter from Kentucky where she wants to go. But damn, that shit was heart palpitation causing. Everyone better be glad i don't have children and especially a girl. Love kids but all of you are not ready if i had some. lol
Wish the girls would be here because it would be a good weekend food, drinking and shenanigans. Yeah there will be clan events again this weekend and the crazy, non conforming Evil One has been requested.
Well my spaghetti and bread sticks are done and ready. So unlike those that can only order food or go out and eat. I am going to eat well.
Cortana, prep my drop ship. You need get your lazy AI ass up and get some stuff done!
It has been a long damn week. At least the parental units and their daughter are gone for now.
Damn, I miss the girls. lil red and little one have so much going on with life that probably won't see them maybe until august or the end of the year. Is what it is. D/s and dating do not stop for life and all it's responsibilities.
I will probably bounce out to houston and do some Road Warriors type of adventure.
But damn I am ready for these upcoming trips like right now. Time to "keep it pushing"
And I was not even prepared when my god daughter sent me pics of her prom. WTF! The split up her leg and thick as she is just wanted me to decapitate her date with one swing and then do her womb donor too. At least she got her letter from Kentucky where she wants to go. But damn, that shit was heart palpitation causing. Everyone better be glad i don't have children and especially a girl. Love kids but all of you are not ready if i had some. lol
Wish the girls would be here because it would be a good weekend food, drinking and shenanigans. Yeah there will be clan events again this weekend and the crazy, non conforming Evil One has been requested.
Well my spaghetti and bread sticks are done and ready. So unlike those that can only order food or go out and eat. I am going to eat well.
Cortana, prep my drop ship. You need get your lazy AI ass up and get some stuff done!
Journey of Kratos
It has been a week. It has been a fucking year. It has truly been fucking ridiculous and an all out war against me from everyone.
Relationships reduced to relations.
submissive corrections and tactical directing.
Them people and their daughter who I will be glad when their wheel of existence comes to an end.
Work is like a bad case of In Living Color. *smh*
I have no tolerance for humans at all currently.
This year has truly shown me why I instituted the circles of intimacy into existence and why most will never leave that third outside circle or even get in it. So I treat them like hyper travel now. If you are there then fine if not then maybe sometime down the road.
D/s has truly been an educational journey. And reinforced more than ever is that I will not make the same mistakes in vetting, consideration and negotiation with the next subs and slaves that have interest. And my guidelines will be more strict and concise in order to facilitate what is required.
In the relating area I have furthered distanced and compartmentalized. Taken inventory and prepared for the next stages of war. Keep my thoughts, ideas, feelings and all that where they should be. In the fortress. They girls get what they need and can handle accordingly to their ratio. But I will keep things old school personally for myself.
Right now I truly miss my Chocolate Doll. I miss having a partner that was down for our journey without all the issues and combativeness. That was communicative and expressive even when she was going through things. We had mastered the balance of independence and being a unit (non existent it seems in the modern age.) And most of all the ability to confide in, comfort, importance and interest were there regardless of what life through at either of us or us as a whole. Life is not cotton candy but when you got a partner then things are fucking Great!
But anyway back to reality.
I still talk to others about D/s and seemed to have helped a bit with folks (go figure lol) As always I am glad to be of help to others. I am a mean, evil asshole that hates everyone but in being that I am very helpful.
Hell, my quarantine has included my fellow Road Warrior. I haven't really talked to her before her big 40th birthday adventures began I think a couple of months ago. And that won't be lifted. Even when she asked me what was going on all these times and I have not responded even though she knew things were wrong. She just says, "make sure to let me know before you dissappear." But as much as I love my Ru and she is the one person that I am closest with on this planet, a change had to come.
In summary:
Like Tupac said, "It is just me against the world!"
Next up will be the recap...
Relationships reduced to relations.
submissive corrections and tactical directing.
Them people and their daughter who I will be glad when their wheel of existence comes to an end.
Work is like a bad case of In Living Color. *smh*
I have no tolerance for humans at all currently.
This year has truly shown me why I instituted the circles of intimacy into existence and why most will never leave that third outside circle or even get in it. So I treat them like hyper travel now. If you are there then fine if not then maybe sometime down the road.
D/s has truly been an educational journey. And reinforced more than ever is that I will not make the same mistakes in vetting, consideration and negotiation with the next subs and slaves that have interest. And my guidelines will be more strict and concise in order to facilitate what is required.
In the relating area I have furthered distanced and compartmentalized. Taken inventory and prepared for the next stages of war. Keep my thoughts, ideas, feelings and all that where they should be. In the fortress. They girls get what they need and can handle accordingly to their ratio. But I will keep things old school personally for myself.
Right now I truly miss my Chocolate Doll. I miss having a partner that was down for our journey without all the issues and combativeness. That was communicative and expressive even when she was going through things. We had mastered the balance of independence and being a unit (non existent it seems in the modern age.) And most of all the ability to confide in, comfort, importance and interest were there regardless of what life through at either of us or us as a whole. Life is not cotton candy but when you got a partner then things are fucking Great!
But anyway back to reality.
I still talk to others about D/s and seemed to have helped a bit with folks (go figure lol) As always I am glad to be of help to others. I am a mean, evil asshole that hates everyone but in being that I am very helpful.
Hell, my quarantine has included my fellow Road Warrior. I haven't really talked to her before her big 40th birthday adventures began I think a couple of months ago. And that won't be lifted. Even when she asked me what was going on all these times and I have not responded even though she knew things were wrong. She just says, "make sure to let me know before you dissappear." But as much as I love my Ru and she is the one person that I am closest with on this planet, a change had to come.
In summary:
Like Tupac said, "It is just me against the world!"
Next up will be the recap...
A Moment in Poetry: BE WELL
Be Well
The emptiness
Fills me
Relational ambiguity
Leaving behind
Bloodless stains
Where heart’s use to
be
Remnants
Like pages blown in
the wind
From a loose leaf
Or was this just
One of those
Memorex
Pipe dreams
As I hear Biggie say
It was all a dream
I remember how
I don’t
Didn’t
Want it to be
In the ashes
I breathe
Lick the decay
From the flames of
Love and intimacy
I hear the chants of
Who you with?
As I smirk and laugh
Turn back the dial to
That Big Evil thing
From the
chocolatezeus collection 5/21/17 ©
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