A Break Equals Break Up

I am over here laughing at the fact that people actually think a break in a relation is healthy.

I have heard it before and one did try that mess with me. Lmao

If you need a break it means that you don't want the relationship in the first place. You are not wiling to work and maintain the relationship so you use the facade of taking a break.

The third episode of Blunt Talk showed how true this is. Celia says she needs a break from dating Jim and then it is a matter of them breaking up after that.

Why can't individuals merely tell whoever they are with that they are done with the relationship and don't want it anymore?

Answer: Because being fraudulent is better feeling for them.

So, if you are told that who you are with needs a break from the relationship. Then end the relationship and anything intimate with them. Make them some pussy to fuck if you want. But when you are done fucking them, give them a pop tart on their way out the door.

The new ideologies of people in modern dating, relationships and all are really fucked up these days and only getting worst.

Poetic Moment: Another False Positive

Another False Positive

Calculated risks

Calculated vulnerability

Taking a long shot

For a man like me

I looked at each ribbon in the sky

When I decided to try

An experiment of my design

Each outcome cascaded through my mind

It wasn’t my standard

So much damage

Still, I calculated and chose

Chose the experience I would find

Was I dumb for doing this?

Allowing an atom of that nice guy bullshit

To return

It would be shown to be self evident

In the future of irrelevance

Bratty

Whiney

Complaining

I need to get my way

Evidence

Showed the case

Proved the realizations

When you are constantly saying

Don’t it my way

I see your topping from the bottom

Notate and take action

I put in so much into this experiment

To get it to work and having lasting effect

But the experiment had their own issues and things

To use to circumvent

In conclusion

Notating the data from the experience

Checking another city off of the list

Oh yeah

The list of cities of females not to ever fuck with

Unless they are just a fuck given

Long live

Compartmentalization

And indifference

from the chocolatezeus collection  10/25/16  ©

Havoc and Chocolatezeus Reboot

Since the AD era i have been letting a lot of things slide. I have been allowing some of those old nice guy issues show up again. Just because of who I have been involved with.

So, I went back to the grassroots today.

I will and can give you my all. If you want and are able to accept it. My ways are not yours. And I have and will adjust to those that I am vested in. But there has to be acceptance. Which I have found to be an issue for others.

I will stick to my rules of engagement. Focusing only on those things that are viable and workable. That means that I will take a chance with people as always but I will not hold on forever to see if they can get to the same place.

When it comes to communication I will only speak my mind and not do all the sugar coating that others want to be comfortable. Continuing to be straightforward is my only way.

When it comes to females I will continue to give them a blank slate to show me who and what they are. But I will not do whatever dance they have concocted in their heads to make them feel better about themselves. In require a female to be able to decide if they want to do with me. There will not be episodes of me chasing them or breaking a through defenses to get them to realize things.

I love deeply and I will continue to do so. But I am going to further streamline who recieves and has the opportunity for my love, affection and caring. Making sure that the worthy are thrones in the right spot only. Love will make things work and I am not scared of or fighting it like others. I believe in relationships that both of us want to and are working to maintain and keep the relationship working. Those that don't want to put forth the effort I don't want.

If you know me and have a relationship with me then you know how I treat you differently than the humans. Most cannot and will not appreciate that. And that is fine. I will continue being the evil, mean, asshole bastard that I am to everyone. I am not here to please everyone and make them happy. But if you are or were in one of my close circles then you were special and important to me.

So the cromagnon man is in FULL effect.


I thankall that have contributed to the learning experiences both personally and by proxy.


Say hello to the bad guy!!

Reaffirmed, Realized and Reapplied

Life Unscripted definitely will run you through the gauntlet more times than not. And lately that has definitely been the case.

Through the issues though I have realized how slack I have gotten. How far I have let the balance in the force go askew.

I realize people have their issues and comfort zones. But I am not damage control inc. or a submissive. I help and guide as best as possible but if individuals want to fight that and attempt to dictate then I am not the one.

I take chances in involvement because I can analyze and look past all the bullshit, defenses and everything they keep up front and see the quality. That is what I work to nurture and support.

Through the OPP events, failures, miscommunication and all. I realized I had allowed myself to drift off into the these unnecessary minefields.

So after last night and this morning I have reaffirmed the rules, principles and actions that will keep repeats of the things that have happened.

Lessons learned.

WELCOME TO THE HALL OF DOOM!!

Poetry: Find My Heart in Davey Jones Locker

Find My Heart in Davey Jones Locker

Blood cascades from my soul

My heart an empty pot

As I am trapped in

Davey Jones locker

They beseech me to

Give of myself

To make all feel welcome

Give love deeply

The Kraken scoffs

Dragging a dagger across

A filleted open heart

Emotions

Held on the dark side of the moon

Love, passion and caring

Placed in an

Unraidable tomb

No matter these aching feelings

The broken sign still blinks

No vacancy

No rooms

From the chocolatezeus collection  10/24/16  ©

Poetry: the Unclaimed Key

The Unclaimed Key

Needs and wants

Wants and needs

They are not too separate things

They are the key to

Me

Culminated in you

Each delicious morsel

To each moment I need you to comfort me

Connected commitment

The Holy Grail to me

As I look into your dark eyes

See the soul and the universe alight

Trace your curves amid each cuddle

Lose myself in your smile

Just want mission control to say

Ground control to

Major Don

Turn your smile on

She is the one

Let us dance within the

Pitch black moonlight

Leaving our mark on the fabric of the universe

Just you and I

Leaving the so called experts

Naysaying and prognosticating

Enemies

Outside our life

You and I

Me and you

No longer

A want

Or a need

Just

Where we need to be

What we need to do

The

Pinnacle

Me and you

From the chocolatezeus collection  10/23/16  ©

O.P.P. is Not for Me

O.P.P.

I hear you singing Naughty by Nature’s “OPP.” But this is not about Other People’s Property. This is about…

Other

People’s

Perception

In this world of follow the trend and thoughts of everyone else. It truly is frowned upon and hated when you choose to stand outside that box and just be yourself.  Conformity is the only thing so many understand and feel comfortable with that it is like a low level hive mind at times almost.

Add to that the issue of how small the community is. Especially when you are talking about black people. Then the conformity issues and feelings increase dramatically.  In a community that is different from vanilla folks there is still an overwhelming need for everyone to be the same.

I have heard the commentaries. These alleged perceptive people asking those I am with why they are with me because I am mean, evil and hate everyone and everything, plus much more. And this has been through vanilla, swinger and now the bdsm lifestyle. So, I always find it interesting that they feel the need to address whoever I am with. Apparently those I am with either are under my evil spell or are not getting treated as badly as these alleged perceptive people think and want.

Here is the difference:

If you took time and effort to interact and know me, then you know the differences.

If you know me on a deeper level than that then you should know how much of a contrast there is and your benefits.

Now if you have entered into one of the two inner rings then you would already have a retort for the alleged perceptive people.

I am not down with OPP

My movement is one of originality and establishing things of meaning. Meaning I am not Capt. Save a Hoe or Mr. Roger’s neighborhood.

What I am is the one that you will see clearly as just being me. No false pretense, no need to be in the spotlight gleaming while falling in line with everyone else to the tune of “follow me.”

Your Impossible Mission if you choose to accept is:

Step out of the drone flight path. Develop your own actions, thinking and feelings. Get to know the unknown personally.  It is wonderful to stand out from the mainstream.

Only then you will be free.

Until then I will be a Boba Fett Bounty Hunting bastard. Continuing to be the antithesis to your issue of OPP.

10/21/16   ©

When the Tides Turn and Agamotto Opens

So many things have happened in these last couple of months. Things that have shaped things mentally as well as the future.

There have been some great experiences, conversations and adventures. And there have been setbacks, realizations and realignments. I am thankful for them all.

The facts of how wide the chasm is between men and females has been completely reinforced repeatedly. The ability to actually listen to what is said instead coming up with their own version is just crazy. The fact that there are so many that still want someone to jump through hoops to make them happy and feel like something is still bewildering to me but simply the fact.  Now, I understand and accept that men think differently than females but there should still be the ability to listen and understand other views. Hell, I understand they have their view regardless of whether it is mine or if I agree with it. But hey most cannot be that enlightened anyway. lol

I have been pleasantly surprised at the closeness that has grown. I wasn't expecting it but I am definitely happy about them. It has added deeper dimensions to everything. Part of that is because of my compartmentalization and adaptation, while the other is from the evolution of those relations.

I have to give a PSA here also...

If you keep trying and throwing something up in someone's face then don't be surprised when you get ignored and become vacant.


So through the

• laughter
• confused looks and disbelief
• profound communication
• seeing how much things have changed
• the beauty of isolationist plane of existence
• and the unusual usual suspects

Things were definitely marked in the history books lately. 

There will be more to come. But I have to finish laughing at Ru and our convo about living this Life Unscripted.

Until the next time...

It's all good

Really, really

good

*snicker*

Life Unscripted: D/s, Weirdness and Oddities

Perceptions...

They have been revealed, reinforced and reiterated.
The attitudes lately have been rather out of pocket. The lack of understanding what a submissive is to me has been in a negative spin apparently.

Fairness and equality are things that remain wanted in a hierarchial relationship repeatedly. There has been issues of trust as well as puzzlement of the ability to even be a submissive. Many of things seem inherent within the female gender it seems. Whether they are weird or even to the point of extra weird.

So the journey has been running through the jungles of vietnam while being chased by the viet cong many times.

I have found the ability to communicate between a man and a female is still like a trip to mars. There seems to be a need for them to interpret what is said almost all the time. So, it is a road that is hard pressed to travel to achieve the communication goal.  With trying to read my facial expressions, body language and all is really a bad way to interpret me unless you have known me deeply. And honestly there is only one person left on the planet to be close enough to have a shot at that right now. It doesn't mean that someone can't get to the point if they chose and made the effort.

One of the important thngs that people disregard and ignore is...Effort. That drive to achieve things. In this case I am talking about, relationships and dynamics. You have to maintain and show effort and interest or whatever it is will DIE.  Yeah, yeah, yeah we have built females to hide or not have emotions, attachment or anything that would resemble a relationship with another person. But in this scenario there is only the Epic failure to be expected. Everyone is not the same but the requirements are still rather standard on an individual basis.

Which brings me to a subject...

If I tell you I love you, care about you and involved you truly in my life then you are special and a part of my life. I don't and won't treat you like everyone else unless you want to be with the common everyday people I don't pay attention to mostly. I have found this is such an issue for some because their need for me to treat others better. When they should be happy and basking in where I have them in my life and importance.

In the same token I have realized that females have and will have everyone on the same level when it comes to relationships, friendships, dynamics and whatever else. And in this scenario I find myself downshifting things to that holding position. Because if my worth and value are the same as everyone else then obviously I do not need you to be important in my life or anything. So, I merely register you as an authorized user and no longer someone to be close to anymore. And this is for poly as well as non poly situations. The thought that boyfriend, Dominant or whatever is the same as the chick you are girlfriends with is unacceptable to me.

I deal with the weird ones. They stand out to me. Sometimes it has been a thin line between weird good and weird psycho monkey but I have way more positive than the few bad ones. And the bad ones were extraordinary.

After some celebrating with hurricane matthew. Some seriously bad service at days inn and cracker barrel over the weekend.  Things have been put into perspective more and I am keeping it pushing.

With those things said I will end it here...

"The beatings will continue until I am happy!!!!"

Assimilate and Exterminate: D/s Learning and Adventures

As it popped into my head today. It would be great if the Borg and Daleks joined together to take over the multiverse.

I have experienced and learned. Not only from D/s but even more in dealing with females. Because communications with females is like deciphering and trying to communicate a 986 encryption key. You speak directly their feelings get hurt and they come up with anything but what you said.  When you are not being literal, then everything is taken extremely literal.  It is like dealing with Bizarro world many times.

One of the things that I learned to do a whole lot better with were negotiations when it comes to D/s. If I ever, ever, ever do it again I am going to have to have a 15 page document that covers everything and it will be verified by my lawyer. That way there is no whining, carrying on and interpretation of anything. Lay everything out to the atomic level when it comes to a dynamic.  And once that is all done to Never accept anything less than those things on the list.

It has been asked what submission and service is to me. And my answer is that being in service to and my submissive means:

• Respecting me, us and our journey
• Completing tasks, assignments and services that I ask of you
• Achieving the goals that are set for you and our dynamic
• The ability to adapt, understand, comprehend and act upon this dynamic. Not your past ones.
• To adhere to the hierarchy, protocols, rules and concerns

So, yes D/s is not all ass beatings and fucking. It is a lot of work. Especially when you have those that would be more than a handful even in their conventional vanilla environments.

On the flipside...

I have a new kilt and that made me happy. Thanks little one! And I sported it at the last party in woodbridge. Had the people in the hotel looking crazy when I left and returned. It was funny. The guys at the cigar shop definitely complimented me on it. Hell Mr Boston showed me the 5.11 tactical site to get the tactical kilt. He even offered to loan me the money. lol

There has been public play. That has been interesting firsts with them. But after concern things were fine. I never paid much attention to those watching but they commented that they enjoyed the scenes. 

Upcoming...

Change is coming. As always and as the name means there will be more upheaval with everything. After some more thinking (yeah, like I don't do enough of that per minute) most everything will have to be reconstructed and revised. Lessons learned!

With that said. 

Me, the Daleks and the Borg are going to assimilate and exterminate as many sentient beings as possible. So grab your tardis and run or hit that warp factor 22 and be out. 

*Evil One is out*

Poet: THEY SEND ME

I am who and what you love to hate

Your public enemy number

One

Two

And three

They send me

No concern about your

Emotions

Thoughts

Or feelings

They send me

Disconnected from humanity

Killing your very souls

Leaving you a husk

Uninhabitable

They send me

To rip out

Your heart and soul

Your dreams and Joys

They send me

To feed you death

Despair

Your fears

Over and Over

Again

They send me

To annihilate

The control

Safety and

Security

That you think that you

Keep

They send me

Who is they you say?

*evil laughter*

That's fucking classified

Just know that they fucking sent me

And your next in line to find out

The finality of time

from the chocolatezeus collection  9/28/16

Sensitive Fucking People Need Culling

Yes this is a rant.

I am so sick and tired of sensitive people and their mess. They are always having issue with something or another that has nothing to fucking do with them. 

Examples:

I don't like cigars so none of you should have them

My principles dictate what you should do and how you should feel

I comment on someone being sexier rope bottom than the current girlfriend

or my favorite

You shouldn't do that because people don't do that. 

Fuck that bullshit. 

But I tell you what it let's me know who to avoid and ignore. And I appreciate that shit. 

Rant over.

Time for food, football and drinking.

Ibiza and Fetish Night

Now, I avoid downtown like the plague. I don't want to be around drunks and the like. But rope class is held at the ibiza night club where they normally have drag on fridays and everything. Well after rope class tonight they had a fetish party.

Rope class was interesting. They are doing suspensions now. I really need to work on my rope work more but I do not have a rope bottom to practice on so it is hard for me. So, I am stuck in a quandry with that. I want to be able to tie someone up and get my skills together but I cannot. Damn, my picky and difficult self.

There were quite a few people that ended up coming. Mostly vanilla folks it seemed. But it was a different environment from what I am use to. I am use to being around only people in the lifestyle. So, I watched the suspension and tying that was going on around and on the covered pool table. The vanilla folks were shocked and amazed. Even this group of black females wanted to try it. And the cutest one out of the bunch I got carebear to tie her so she could experience it. And afterwards her girls tried it as well. Even the 6ft 4 amazon with the great big chocolate titties and the face that would make frankenstein look like a male model.

As always I stayed to myself because I am anti social and honestly I know of people in the group but do not know them on a personal level. But they have always been nice and speak to me.

I did meet this girl curvaceous kitten and we talked for quite a while about her bucket list, rope and the different groups along with her cat play. I liked her coreset dress she had on. It was cool and we had good convo and laughter.

I am somewhat active in the group here. Meaning, I attend things I can, when I can. I know many people have issues being black and not attending a strictly black group's events. But reality is that is not going to happen here. Plus it really doesn't make a difference about skin color and all if things are right.

Most definitely an interesting night.