Result of Ink Spills: The Times

As usual the muse chose to arrive and I let her have her way. The ink spilled everywhere but I figured I would share some pieces.

Murder Ink

Your tattered remains

What is left of your existence

Merely an old life’s stain

Faded

Transmuted salutations

From an entwined past

With passion and fervor

I released you

The same way I

Loved and cared for you

Giving you back to you

So you may dine once again

Upon your deception and pain

No chalk outline

Autopsy irrelevant

You made a decision

Chose the path

I merely

Fulfilled your request

Laid you to rest

Murder was what you

Showed and asked

Your wish

Granted

Murder is the

Relationship you wanted

To be

From the chocolatezeus collection  3/1/15  ©

You Turn Me On

Sultry

Sophisticated

Sensually

Sexy

Chocolate curves

That leave

Dick and pussy

Craving

Lips that

Make the mind wonder

Into erotic bliss

At the thoughts of

Their plumpness

A mind

That creates

Molten, erotic funeral pyres

Insatiable fuel

To my fire

Craving

Craving

I need that chocolate fix

Each moment of the day

You have to feel each

Dick salute that is

In honor of your sexy

Lust creating a natural disaster

Slipping inside of you

Repeatedly

While biting your shoulder

Pinching your nipples

Into a hard frenzy

Twisted

Unstoppable motion

As our fucking and sucking

Licks my desire further

Feed me

Damn you

You turn me on

Hard fucking

The sounds of your

Pussy playing notes of

Give me more

I won’t stop

Each stroke and lick

Until we leave our cum

Dripping from the

Walls and ceiling

Damn

You turn me

On

From the chocolatezeus collection  3/1/15  ©

Mine

Your submission to me

I hold firmly

Honoring our dynamic

And just how

Dynamic it truly is

Smiling

When you call me

Daddy

Knowing that you

Are my baby

So important to me

Managing

Foreseeing

Our journey

Achievement and destiny

Pushing

Encouraging

Stimulating

My baby

As we grow and learn

I merely smile

Brightly

You are mine

That’s my

Baby

From the chocolatezeus collection  3/1/15  ©

Seperated Intentions

It has been a week. Filled with some bombs, some cake and some disdain. Can't say that it was boring.

I know that I am very grateful for the episodes at the cigar shop and the essence that HQ provides. Much needed in these times for sure. HQ has been inducted into the "calm the savage beast" club completely now.

As I bump this Killer Mike right now. I just have to let the expression flow. I have gone from Dave Brubeck and Miles Davis this weekend to: Killer Mike, Juevinille, Jadakiss and J-Ro of the Alkoholiks.  Yeah, that is how things have flowed.

I truly did take a quantum leap in understanding the relationship last week. Being able to further define what is going on, understood and needed is important.  Though I am still in the labyrinth. I don't feel that I am fighting for my very existence anymore. *lol*  I a still in remedial with understanding and applying fully but I am getting there at least.

Being concerned about Ru Ru has stayed on my mind. I know she is a tough cookie. I also know how things may have her feeling since we are so similar. She is after all the sweeter and softer version of me. Hell she is a woman so she is supposed to be. She is my sexy ass ride or die.  She mentioned about I need to move closer so she can get away when she needs to. I understand that feeling. And with the future on my mind I am thinking about moving for other reasons.

I still laugh at Ru talking about our adventures. She said there were more people at my bachelor party they threw in htown than her bday party. which I didn't think was the case until I realized that we had the whole house. That was an unforgettable weekend right there. Plenty of fun and fucking. Wish I had a chance to fuck her cousin valinda tall sexy ass though. Who knows maybe one day.

The downside of learning is understanding that you have to remove the dead weight. As Ru and I talked I thought more about my positioning with some people that are hanging on by a thread with me. And I came to an operational decision.   It is time to let APOCALYPSE reign. Even with them regardless of history and feelings.

But hey, it did give me a chance to catalog most of my comic books.

Evaluation, Tatical and operational.

Impulse speed ahead!

The Act of Training

I have been asked about my training for a sub and a slave. My answer is one of fluidity. Tailor made to me and the person that I am training. So it is not a regimented, plug and play factor. For me training is a matter of building upon the trainee. The aspects that they have and making them better in order to fit with me.

For my submissive:
I train for them to have respect for me and other D/M's. To be of service to me and when around others to respect and be of service.  I honestly don't need positioning and posturing from my submissive. I am looking at things to see if there are other things that fit that I may want to train her in. But I haven't found that yet.

I find the real training in finding ways to push and move towards established goals. Because it can be hard and hard fought. Knowing when to push and when to suggest is a serious art form.

For my slave:
Training is more vast due to the nature of them. Making sure to schedule meals, health exams and more regularly. Teaching them aspects of focusing to achieve goals. A lot more in depth than the submissive. Still I don't need to positioning or Gorean movements. Just not my cup of tea.

In analysis I realize my aspect of training is minute for the most part. New to the aspect I will continue learning. And maybe there are other things I will need to train and incorporate. Right now I haven't come across them yet. But the mind and eyes are open as I continue reading and observing.

My art of training being established and prepared for evolution.

Clouds and the Moving Escalator

I am still over here tripping off the craziness from chicks from the past going on. The super model hit me up on IM on fb now as well. She got a man or men I am sure. And it was out of the blue. Maybe it was a response from her bday just passing. I did want to fuck her and her chocolate girlfriend. That would have made a good threesome. I still have to give her credit for being the one to show me that a female can be a little romantic at least for the first time. She brought me a red rose when she came to see me at the hotel in raliegh so many years ago. That rose matched her red bra and panties. And I fucked her sexy ass well. Thus I had my first and only super model. And of course hated by males because of it. lol

The issues with the parental units still grows. I don't know what else to expect or to do next basically. I am pretty much done with it. Can't fight it anymore. But we will see.

The new slave....
There are some basic things that we are working on. And she seems to be able to understand and apply what is discussed. We will continue to see if she follows the directions and directives. Moving forward in the consideration. Very interesting indeed. Thankful for listening and observing others in real time as well on conference calls.

Vibe and Connection:
The key ingredients to make things work and be with me. And it is a wonderous thing. I feel it and enjoy it. It is the moments that others won't see concerning me.

HQ time is relaxing, stimulating and my peace. Built on that vibe from the beginning and it has been fire since then! From the great sex to the talking and laughing. It is the blueprint. And I am happy about it and definitely thankful.

The whole pizza. How I like it.

Time for the NOW What! situation

Dr Strange Days

I feel like I need Dr Strange's Orb of Agamotto to figure out what the hell is going on lately. Since I don't have that I will just continue throwing darts at things and try to figure it out.

Munchkin parties with the red springs monkey bitch and the things husband. And I come up because of being with Munchkin.  I have no clue why she would tell Munchkin "yeah he got some good dick." Besides them trying to fuck Munckin there really is no reason.

I talked to Big Chon again. I haven't seen her since the episode at big giant head's community dick boy's house.  I had fucked her a couple days before that. And I had the thieving monkey bitch with me. But the two ugly monkey bitches that tried to set me up and cause drama failed miserably. Big giant head had issue with it all. Calling me drama even though I didn't do anything. But Chon wants to hook back up so I can fuck her. She just got divorced the other week and is ready to get her some. And she wants more of me. Flattered and when we fucked those years ago it was good.

I am still stuck on stupid because if I tell you to be yourself and I accept that then why the hell would you do anything other than that? What could be so hard? Oh well, the farce will continue.

Being approached by an interested slave was a change of pace as well. But, with new times come new adventures. She is young but seems to know what she wants and who she is. I have my concern but I will continue talking to her and finding out what is what.  She is definitely service oriented and that is good.

As incantations and spells continue:

I have to thank HQ for being who she is. She provides everything from laughter, thought provoking ideas to extreme horniness.  And it is hard to believe the time and what has gone on since meeting. I am extremely thankful about it.

It is a challenge when the woman that your interest lies in is as complex as nuclear fission to a layman. But you know it is worth it so you jump in the trench to do battle to the end. Wherever that may be.

I am the man with the booming voice, gruff disposition and more. But I am also the one who wants to enjoy, laugh and loves extremely deeply.

The journey continues as I fight the enemy of both dark and light. Knowing what I want. Merely needing the pieces to be in place. This waiting sucks. But I am stuck until the answers are shown to me.

A Visit From the Crazy Train

I don't know what is going on with females this weekend but they are seriously on some hot crazy shit.

Tonight this rosalind chick hits me up on facebook. We are talking in general about food and stuff. We talk about relationships. She explains to me that she has severe trust issues to the point that she wouldn't even call anyone for days after she had a stroke. And that was after she was laid on the floor in her house until she could get to a phone to call an ambulance. But she think that is all perfectly fine because she can only rely on herself and can't talk to anyone else.  She got engaged to someone that she couldn't trust and made her feel inferior. But your dumb ass get's engaged anyway. Low self esteem you say. Yeah, to the power extreme. And now she is still got low self esteem no matter how she wants to color it.

So here we go. She asks me do I cheat. My response is no need I will just add another female to our relationship. She then tells me that she is glad to no that I am not monogamous. Umm slow bitch that is not what I said. But since you assume I am going to tell you that you are wrong.  She wanted to tell me that she is correct. And that she can't be interested in me now because she only believes in monogamy. I am like ok then.

Why the hell do these psycho bitches try to talk to me? Hell this chick hides in baggy clothes and everything. Things she is going to control something talking to me and that wasn't going to happen. At least this whole ordeal was less than 2 hours of time. Still good and crazy.

And no Lil Red I don't know why I keep running into these crazies at all. They keep wanting to step into the arena they are not ready for.

And I talked to Big Chon tonight. It has been years since I fucked her brains out in waldorf md right before the episode with big giant head, theiving monkey bitch and the punk ass community dick and monkeys.  Community dick would have had more reasons to be mad at me if he know I fucked the shit out of Chon before she even saw him. lol

So Chon and I talked. She is getting her divorce decree this week I think she said. and having a divorce party like Ru Ru did. Hard to understand why fuck things up and cheat when your wife swings and you are allowed to fuck other chicks in the rules. Just dumb as hell.  She said she is in need of some good sex and wants to hook up so I can give her some more. 2 years is a long fucking time to not have sex. I would use 3 fucking Death Stars on all of you if I had to do that.

So I had the crazy low self esteem chick and a blast from the past. I am not sure what else is in store before I get out of the weekend now

There and Back Again: Love and Relationships

I don't know what is going on lately. But there have been some weird developments.

Munchkin goes to a party to talk to the red springs monkey and the husband. I already knew she was after Munchkin again since she has all been in her in box. Annoying to say the least. So at the party the monkey asks about me. Munchkin doesn't give up information but she said that she was still kicking it with me. So why does the monkey say that I have some good dick? I am like she really is fucked up in the head. After that break up with her I made it clear that I didn't want anything to do with her. That including fucking her again one on one and at parties.  She tested that when she called a week later to talk about getting back together. I was like no thanks.  Even though Lil Red explained to me why she thought that was acceptable for males. It is not for me. If we break up I don't want you or your pussy again.  Still it is crazy to me.

Next was the conversation with the maryland crazy. Considering I cursed her out at least 2 times, if not more it still makes no sense to still talk to me. Or when I cursed her out last to be in a frenzy to get me to talk to her again because she missed me. I am not dealing with that crazy shit no more.  And it has been suggested that she was hinting at something. I was ignoring it.

When the maryland crazy asked me how my love life was I actually had to think about it. Which was really weird.

I feel love and I am giving love. I am in love. Even though it is not definite nor defined really. I just stick with what I feel until I am proven it is the wrong thing to feel and want.

True I want the open, full force love and loving right now. I miss it badly. Those are the moments I am at my greatest and life is greatest. After these experiences since Chocolate Doll die though I have really seen the worst in females. And went back to monkey bitches and bitches. Bitches are something to do and fuck.

The lack of women is incredible. It still shocks me many times. So much of this game playing and I need to be and think like a man. How about you figure out who you are and be a woman. Try to reach that point at least.

I am loving and lovable to the extreme. But if you are not worthy then this is the side of me that you won't experience or see.

With this patience thing and unusual experiences lately.
Love is a different beast for sure.

Vision of the VISION

Vision of the VISION

Disconnected in so many ways

Humanity a distant undertaking

Seen through unblinking eyes

Black hole heart

Birthed to a dwarf star

Existing seemingly only in

A galaxy far, far away

Cast into the roles of

Avenger

Defender

Enemy

A journey into

Heart filled humanity

Turned to

Heartless anti human being

Death star dreams

Clone trooper needs

Emperor Palpatine being

Walking into your body

Phased with your being

Battling you internally

As you fight reality

What is the use of revealing

When the revelations are

What they are constantly

Fighting

Always have done my duty

Thus I am

Public Enemy

Ultron

Vision

In the end

Because of analysis

And envisioning

The scapegoat is

Me

from the chocolatezeus collection  2/1/15  ©

Having a vision and implementing that vision is basically the epitome of the Secret Wars comic book story line. Since you have to deal with others there are always issues, drawbacks and having to redesign. There is no need to whine. Merely speak the facts and time to come up with a new battle plan. The cogs in the machine don't always fall in line. Hell, really they never fall in line. You just have to make adjustments all the time. Like they say Semper Fi!

Through these last few years I have had to really open my eyes. The joys and complacency that resulted from the good times allowed me to lie to myself about humans and dealing with their kind. That kinder and gentler mess is a very dangerous mindset.

Relationships reveal themselves. Even when you make every excuse in the book to yourself about them. You just have to look at them and accept it as it is. People change and don't fit anything in your life. You have to assess whether it is worth the investment. And how long to take that ride. Permanency and intensity are things that have long ago died.  Relations with anyone now seems to be on a sliding scale and minute by moment design.

Cue the theme music from Good Times...
Pretty much says it all. Good and bad times happen. You deal with them the best you can. And understand when you come out the otherside what you are from then until the next time.

It's been time for a board meeting. And the gavel has been struck three times. Evaluation, Realization and now Adjustment time.

You can't put all in when there is only a small percentage in residual. Appropriate exertion for each task is needed.

Yeah

I got my own message
The message in a bottle just showed up later than it should have.




Apocalypse

Standing At Guarded Attention

I am not the people person.
Nor am I the socialite.

Relationship wise I can be classified as "In the darkest night."

One of the drawbacks of being Onslaught is that when you are stuck waiting it really, really affects you a lot. Moving forward with intent and purpose constantly you seek immediate results and understanding. Not knowing what is coming next because there has been no answer yet is akin to torturous.

But this is the plight that you deal with and live with when it comes to humans. Especially females.

Forming, keeping and managing relationships are already difficult.

I guess it probably is just me. The Zeus element is the cause apparently. The way I am just me causes the humans to respond indifferently.

With females it is like there is a wall that says I can't fall for this even if I want to. Adrienne was the only anomaly that could partially do that so far. And I guess I got spoiled from that.

Hell I just want what I want to work out and move forward.

The tactical board is really a mess right now. And my predictive skills are not showing right now. Hell if I know what is what right this second. And I would be lying if I claimed it didn't bother me.

Life's Personal Labyrinth

My patience is thin.
I go after what I want and if it is not immediate then my interest wanes.
Full speed ahead and Battle Stations tends to be my thing.

It is said I should let people in. But I don't see that ever happening. That was my beginning. Before my evolution that is how things were. I just had to learn to focus on important things more.

I have no problems with my feelings flowing. Giving all of me and more in loving and caring intent. And I willfully and intently give without a second thought.

Yes, the same things that make me the evil stronghold are the things that give those in my world everything that I can.  And this is the part Lil Red wants me to allow other people in to see.

Yes, I keep the people that I don't count in my world separate. It doesn't mean I don't speak or that I am not cordial. I am merely wary. It can be seen as distant because I don't do a lot of talking or being in people's faces and all.

I deal with life as it comes. I see it as a constant onslaught. And I have fought and fought.

Right now I don't know what may happen. The things I want are not solidified or happening at the speed or way I chose. So I continued to play the hurry up and wait episode of life. My intentions, desires, wants and needs have been made and communicated.

Stuck in the whirlwind.
Unmoving.

Moments, Moods, Thoughts: Unearthed Treasure

Unearthed Treasure

Like an

Anti-Ahab to the Whale

Twisted adventure

Failed yet

Successful

Oblivious

I walked into you

The solution to this weirdness

Post requisite to

What I

Want and need

Laughing at how it began

With apathetic

Non communication

Destiny set in

New environment

New situation

Big Bang Theory

Proven

Two forces of nature

Mutually exclusive

Culminating

Creating

This

Super nova

Awakening

Without treasure hunting

The grail

Was seen

As I bask in the light

Treasuring

From the chocolatezeus collection  1/25/15  ©

Calming The Savage Beast

Through the rage and intensity. The Hulk Smash propensity.  I am a caged beast unleashed constantly. That does not mean that there is not or cannot be peace and tranquility when it comes to me. 

I find peace in the things I enjoy. Hell, atl was some serious needed peace of great proportions. Going to the Cigar Room here in bama was peace yesterday. Sitting around smoking, talking and laughing at people that are there enjoying themselves regardless of who or what they are in life. Hell, even took a shot with them after one of the guys passed out airplane bottles to everyone there to take a shot together for the new year. 

Some of the things that bring me peace and happiness:

• someone I am connected to
• great and a lot of sex
• great food
• conversation that stimulates
• laughter
• great cigars
• traveling 
• movies, reading and music

With these things life can be dealt with and defused.  These are the moments I remember and hold onto constantly. The hold on reality and the chaos that reigns supreme in everything. 

Effects, Affects and Being Zeus

Yes, I can admit I get tunnel vision about some things. I don't notice them at all at times. So with that said...here we go.

I am giving, mean, loving, caring, apathetic and completely unusual. My inner circle is like being the Illuminati to me. When I accept your application and allow you in the trumpets blare and the festivities are of royalty. The outside of that I may acknowledge your existence depending on the moment of the day and what is going on with me.

I thrive on that love, affection, support and vibe that I share to those that are close to me. I will never deny or downplay that. My words and my actions should convey that. Sometimes more effectively than others. I have never seen this as a negative aspect or weakness. It has always been strength and fortitude.  And I have seen the point HQ made about maybe missing opportunities. But that is outweighed by the diamonds that are more prevalent through all that being picky.

I am the yin and yang of the dark and the light all rolled up into one being. The past has groomed me to be stronger and more stoic. While the future still holds hope for me. I still see it in it's bitter reality. So, I can be a romantic or the evil one with the booming voice for no reason.

By no means will I ever say I am easy to deal with all the time. After all I am a captain caveman, club carrying chauvinist in true form. But I will love you intensely, care for and about you as well as be there with you as much as possible.

I know what I want and even who I want it with. The problem is always that I am not the only one in the equation. So I ride the waves of life to see where they will lead to.

Coming off eye opening revelations, smiles and feeling great. I ponder on the next thing. The movement into more of me.

I have embraced my sadistic and unique ways. From the super horny, greedy fuck you to death happily and try to kill me with orgasms me.  To the give me all the pain that you seek and can keep so that I can make you my Pain Masterpiece. And allowing more and more of my Beast Mode out has been intoxicating. I am glad I did it in steps and have been able to let more of it loose. The ultimate beast mode still spars some concern for me but I lick my lips in anticipating it's delicious release.  So many skills have to be worked on to reach the peak.

As Ru Ru and I have said to each other. Our sex drives are super crazy. We are not in the best of shape but fucking, sucking and everything for ours is like automatic with us. If I am feeling you and enjoying us fucking. I will gladly fuck you for days, weeks and eternity. They said us old men shouldn't want sex anymore. that at 20 we have reached our peak and fall there after rapidly. Then why does it seem that my need and desire is increasing? It leaves me with that sexual heightened energy. In a frenzy.  And I recognize the recipient may not be taking it the way I am. *lol* But it be calling me!

So I am working on the relationships that I want and intend to keep. The ones that are not cutting it will be released. The ones I want I am sinking more energy, passion and everything into them. I guess those recipients better get ready for more intensity.

This months adventure was a blessing. One that I am still basking in and thankful for. Showing me what can be. The vibe and connection that is awe inspiring.

The life of Zeus. Full adventure and notoriety.