*Prince's "Adore" plays in the background*
Last week was the anniversary of my Chocolate Doll's death. A moment that I celebrate as well as deal with. That is right I am not devoid of feelings and emotions. I just reserve those precious things for those worthy and able to accept those things. That was Chocolate Doll. So she gets what others are scared of and cannot handle. So when there is true love, respect, passion and commitment then you get the deepest, most compassionate, caring and loving part of me. Otherwise you get what you ask for and can handle.
But it wasn't about tears and pain. It was about reflection, realizations and eye opening understanding. For I sought someone that could be open enough, loving enough and strong enough to step out of their little armored cubby hole and live! No comparisons to my marriage. Just the opportunity to be better than what you were previously. The challenge is not for the weak. And that is why the weak fall silent, run away or sit in their corner crying. I support and welcome those that wish to step up and embrace womanhood. I relish in a woman that can stand out, be dynamic and maintain that while growing our relationship.
My time was spent in thought as I worked through current events and realized my failure at my promise I made to Chocolate Doll. The effort has been made. Open arms and heart given. I did my part. But who you chose Chocolate Doll just unable to be their part. The countdown in place. You better help your girl out. Anyway, I am heading back to my solitary compound.
But anyway...
New twists, turns and additions have occurred. And the journey has been spiced up a bit. About to see how things go down the rest of the year. But it already proves to be another pinnacle in this Life Unscripted journey. We are about to see what pans out with everything this year for sure. Looking forward to some things most definitely though.
Things with my god daughter are extra damn crazy. So this graduation is really going to be fucked up so yeah we are going armed like a damn Gundam while down there for this fuckery. She is not telling me all or anything that is going on but she told me enough that I know this is going to be a clusterfuck event. But that is my little girl so I will support her even though she is making a mess of this stuff.
the trips are going to be interesting this year. Some added ones now but it is all good. Still have to work on the Disney thing more but hell if not there is next year when all the Star Wars stuff opens up.
I am just going to laugh at health and everything else because that is all that can be done. But oh well just fuck it all.
Mood is fuck it.
Feelings are fuck it.
Yeah, things are going really like fuck it all right now. lol
Have a great week
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