A Walk Through the Multiverse

 Seems like each moment brings more news of things that are really not wanted nor preferred. In the same token this time has revealed so much as well.

Today, Chadwick Boseman who played the Black Panther died. The police state, violence and fear increases daily. People have revealed their true selves throughout all of this or a lot more than they had previously. 

In the same token this has allowed true spectral analysis of all things. It has brought about pieces to fit the hole puzzle as well as reflect on the past. The light has been shown on the path for all it has been, is and can be. 

Growth has been hard at times. Hell, it has been painful many times. Especially in things that involve love, emotion and connection. 

But I had to turn my head to the side when I was asked about if I truly loved my ex. I did and part of me still does. And of course the follow up question of why can't I be friends with someone after we don't work out. I tried that with the ex and she chose against that. And I respected it all as she asked me to and moved on. In that I realized how far I had come in the love department. I wouldn't have ever considered being friends or trying again after we were done in the past. Now, I tried it and the rule remains in place again. But open to extreme circumstance only. 

This reminds me of Bilbo Baggins "there and back again." 

Because this living Life Unscripted is and has been one of legend. From the unbelievable adventures to the what the fuck was that? From learning to play at Black Beat basically to still learning but a ways further down the road. And this Leather life added to this in ways that I had no clue about. 

I miss the regular marathon sex and play sessions, the conferences, travel and getting out living. But, I can't say it is too bad because I have had a chance to do some of that still. And best of all is watching everything come together and fall into place Where I have who, what and things that I need to love, live and succeed 

And I still get to laugh at the attitudes, people that think they know me and those that think that since I am a Male Dominant I am fucking everything and trying to be a collector. So the entertainment remains still. The disdain for the Caveman will remain because I am just me and won't change to suit their ways. Yet, these people are so intelligent. With years of experience, doctorate degrees and all. Yet, truly clueless to living and actually being their own self. 

Parental units birthday today. And I guess he is tired since he was discussing with the sister about getting her moved before he is gone.  So I guess it won't be too long now.

As I remain vigilant and prepared for the things that are unfortunately coming next with those I love. I can only pray peace for them and continue My Thunderbolt type of close support. 

The multiverse really needs that gauntlet snap right about now lmao

The Puzzle is Comming Together Now

 Let's see...

Been kicked off a plane.

People still acting stupid about this corona shit.

Working on my travel and insurance company.

People still stuck on stupid about presidents, candidates and political party bullshit.

Things are definitely interesting.

This year has been Rolling Thunder for sure. The year is near it's end and seems like it just or never even started. 

Parental unit and sister apparently talking about moving since he apparently doesn't have too much longer it seems. I just need them two to have themselves covered with the legal stuff no matter what they are going to do. I can't continue saving them from things. He is getting worse and there is no telling what is going on with her falling apart.

Work is a clusterfuck with the democratic and republican fuck sticks making sure to show they give no fucks about anyone but themselves. Between the episodes with the CDC and changing guidelines daily along with each directive being countermanded or stalled. Nothing is getting done really. Well besides these dumb asses patting themselves on the backs, spending money on stupid things and giving themselves raises. 

As I listen to my theme song 'Blow the Whistle."

There have been plenty of good things through this time as well. 

The girls have excelled and came even more into their own. Proud of their strides and growth. Especially with how trying things are currently.  Still weird to believe being with little one will be 5 years shortly and babycakes 2. Damn

It is amazing when there is a deep connection and someone can truly accept you without all the issues and carrying on. And that has been found in sunshine since we started seeing each other. Definitely created a breath of fresh air. What I needed outside of the lifestyles.

Then enter miko. Shocked at this one but glad because she fits. Time works in weird ways. And letting time show itself with this thoroughly since this has happened now. 

So, the table is set....

Now I just need a massage, to fuck for a couple of days and beat ass for a while.

Till next time....

Don't need your Comparative Analytics in Love and Relations

 I need a love like my daddy/mommy gave me

You need to do like my ex boyfriend/girlfriend/dominant did.

These and many other scenarios are what people use to compare and tell others how and/or what to do concerning them. Reality is these people are stuck in the comparison situation because it is their defensive comfort zone.

If you are claiming that this old way works then why are you not with these individuals that did this or with someone that is just like it? That would be because it is unrealistic.

In the past I fell prey to trying to make these scenarios work. Until I stepped back and looked at it all objectively. These individuals didn't want a relation, relationship or dynamic to succeed. They were not ready for it or possibly never would be. 

It is okay. People are people and their lives are theirs to choose.

I listen now and give my advice and leave it where they choose to receive it or not. Unapologetically.

My comparison days ended a long time ago before meeting Chocolate Doll. And has remained in effet afterwards. .They will show me who, how and what they are. All I have to do is listen and observe. And there has been times where I didn't listen and ignored the actions.

Here's the PSA:

If you are going to love, have a relationship or dynamic with someone then let that past go and see what you can build from that moment with those involved. Put down the ball and chain. Be free to love and live. 

A Caveman in a Jetsons World

 

Life continues on and on in this fucked up world we live in currently. The corona mess still runs crazy creating more crazier humans than before. Hell, NC had an earthquake this morning during this early hurricane season. So the examples of craziness keep on ticking. 

The parental unit still is deteriorating. Not taking meds or checking his sugar level. But eating constantly and the wrong items. No telling if this is his way to go out the door or what. 

The girls are having a rough time with all this things they are dealing with in life. So support has been on deck along with prayer and peace energies.

Work is an ultimate clusterfuck with the way these idiot democrats and republicans screw up everything on and hourly basis. 

Getting the travel agency going among the many other things I am working on. This is going to be interesting indeed. 

Damn, I miss traveling. My trips out of the country had to be canceled this year because of all this. Hell, I had a hard damn time getting contractors back in the country with everything happening. Though I am still considering going to Jamaica since people are going there currently. But will have to see.

Been enjoying time with My sunshine. It has definitely helped and been a blessing. Still a bit shocked how this worked out. And the similarities to the history with Chocolate Doll are very weird. But connected, weird and different are what I am attracted to and what works. 

The trending talk seems to be getting back with exes, being friends and all the sensitive people views. As I explained before I tried that mutual ending to a relationship with the invitation to get back together if they wanted to do better than we had previously. That was a huge melt down. So back to the original rule I went. Love, great sex and some common interests are not enough to keep nobody.  But I leave that in the sheeple's capable hands. 

Watching things change into Hal 3000 joined with skynet these days has me extra concerned. But it doesn't seem that many of us are seeing this. Alledged coin shortage to force digital currency. Mandatory tracking and lockdown procedures in place. And so much more. Yet it is dismissed without a thought. The man behind the curtain is definitely winning. 

But then again...

I am just a Caveman

Poetic Moment: But I Am the Tin Man

But I Am the Tin Man

my heart

beats and flows strongly again

dead from barely beating for so many years

love was transmuted

into a formulatic equation

once again

but then

the fire got lit again

unexpectedly a connection

came into being

love took hold

and was even reciprocated

this time in

that peace

that comfort

joy and lust

gave way to pure love

the package

what I wanted and needed

received

a heart turned cold

forges steel again

burns the ether again

a cold inside

empty interior coffin

given a chance to

just be again

as I swim in it

free once again

I feel alive

invigorated

invibed

I accept this heart of mine

what was formally denied

now with gates opened wide

a tin man

put away again

from the chocolatezeus collection 7/19/20 (c)

Poetic Moment: Rage Against the Machine

Rage Against the Machine

utter betrayal

blitzkrieg from within’=

total Von Clause shit

unwanted

unexpected

unappreciated

no reason for these insane

emotional outbursts

invading

attacking me weirdly

at the strangest times

lke gorilla warfare

appearing out of nowhere

attacking serenity

still no rhyme or reason

seething hatred boils and festers

destroy, destroy, destroy

this is just not acceptable

further awakening

My inner Dalek

exterminate, exterminate

just exterminate this mess

these emotional betrayals

time to be whole again

from the chocolatezeus collection 7/19/20 (c)

Poetic Moment: Unleashed

Unleashed

mind fucks and mental foreplay

before we ever even touched

even though we had

fucked

sucked

and super fucked

over and over in our mental playground

but you didn’t want to lose control

after that first touch

the first brush of dick

the flames rushed forward

fuck that

pass that

don’t fight the feeling

time to get more than this sexual healing

you had reason to fear

this encounter of us

rope wrapped snug

pussy lips rope cupped

as the knife blade digs into your ass

eruptions

quivering

start up

but we have just begun

the mindfuck was just the pre nut

as dick invades your cunt

fuck my cunt you say

take this dick fucking and sucking

show me what you have tried to keep hidden away

supersize

that slut

that freak

be the ultimate pornstar that I need

UNLEASH!!!!!

from the chocolatezeus collection 7/19/2020 (c)

The Day I Watched Myself Dying

As I sat there. Mind muddled. Unsteady. Shaking. Trying to formulate a solution. Realizing I was helpless. I did not think about me dying. I wasn't panicking about myself. I was thinking about had I prepared Ru, the girls and sunshine properly? Would them and others that care and love me be alright after I am gone? Had I done enough to help them deal with it all?

I have been doing better in taking care of myself and repairing what I could. But in a moment it all meant nothing to me.

Since being married I have been an advocate for preparing for death and the end. The hard subject matter but necessary to have some preparation for the inevitable. It is not easy to do or hear this subject matter concerning your loved ones. But it is a must. And in those moments before the girls came and saved me I was wondering if even did enough at all.

So be prepared. Prepare those that you love and be prepared. No matter what it is hard and will be harder when it happens.

Live life to the fullest. Love to the extreme. And experience everything.

CTX BBQ Virtual edition

The weekend was filled with learning, missing being in Texas and doing it all in person and evolution.  I am glad that they came up with this work around since being in person couldn't be done. It still didn't take away the sting of seeing ass, titties, people and everything in person along with feeling that energy.  But this also allowed for more people to experience CTX that wouldn't be able to come normally. It also helped dispell the interpretations of what it is about.

When it comes to this social platform applications I am like a fish out of water. Hell, I had to have babycakes give a layman''s intro course to dealing with zoom. And still had some network issues anyway. lol

Friday the opening address, Dominant roundtable, submissive roundtable and then the cigar social. A damn lot of knowledge was dropped.

And with people presenting like
Lady D Harrison
TheGoddessIndigo and Dr Bob
Master Beast and slave echo
Wrath Daddy
Master David and slave brynn
and even my babycakes presented for her second time

The cup runneth over with information, reflections, self evaluation and much more. And it wasn't the fully feel good stuff. There was the punch you in the face and you saw it coming type of aspect.

Hell, I didn't know the 1763 place was original where Lady D's PEP was and she helped that.

Well needed discussion about Leather was had each day. Much needed.

As I sat there listening. I realized how things had come full circle for me there on the conference.  People that I had been in the same space with and met in passing at the last Black Beat were here on this conference. Never would have thought about this. Black Beat was my first conference experience. There with the ex, red and cyberdiva I observed and took in a lot.  Hell, that is where I met little one officially from her toy class presentation.

To now be around the people that were there back then, before and now is humbling. Knowing that the journey has grown from there to now.

Still processing
Still humbled
Still mass thinking

My Way Is Not Your Way and It Is GREAT!!!!

In My journey of Life Unscripted it has availed some serious undeniable adventures.

Man
Dominant
Caveman
aka Lord Havoc


All kinds of different aspects that make up the whole. All for One. All Me.

The issues come up with others when I am just Myself. Because I do not think, act or do what they say, think or interpret. I believe in individuality. Everyone has their own path, experiences, thoughts and feelings in life. I accept that Mine are different and that I may not understand, agree with or even want to understand other's.

But I have experienced and watched the tantrums, attempts to coerce, belittle, victimize and demonize those that do not act accordingly to some other persons thoughts, values, etc.

In my experience in dating and dynamics I have found that females have a need to defend themselves from their past like pretty much everyone. But from socialization they have developed a sense of entitlement in doing so. And they should make the correct choices for themselves and live their life. But not while trying to tell someone to be like someone else.  This dominant does this and it works on me so you should do it too. Or who you are dating gives ultimatums, are withholding and centered on mostly just themselves.  So many are into everything has to be this way for me so I can let You be with me. There is no togetherness or real connection. Just a catering to whatever they need to feel like they are in the right place, even though they obviously are not with this type of action.

These oppressive principles stay rooted and used in the lifestyles as well as vanilla settings constantly. For example in the lifestyle of poly people get in their feelings when poly people hve a OPP (one penis policy.) But if it is agreed upon by all involved and done ethnically then it no different than a non opp poly relationship. But I find most of these people that think this way have chosen to turn into the abusers that they apparently had at some point in their lives.

With everything going especially now it shows even more prevalent in daily existence because if you don't conform to trending thoughts, actions and feelings like supporting rioting and looting then you re not black or in support of black lives and all this other bullshit.


One of my favorite quotes from General George S. Patton really puts this plainly. And is the reason why this country, government and citizens are a clusterfuck!!!

If everyone is thinking alike, then somebody isn't thinking.-General George S. Patton-

From episode to episode I have learned and accepted that most are not going to be able to accept anything but their way and idea to be put upon others. But it does not mean that I will adhere to or allow that be My concern or way.

Be yourself. Live your life. And let others do the same.

And if you are trying to honestly be in relations or relationships with others then let them be themselves and accept them or stay to your damn self!

Landing Day Celebrations

I see it has been a minute but those that have been in the other spots have read the adventures and all.

Landing Day aka my birthday.

Last year I spent almost two months celebrating all over the place. This year was none of that due to the mess the governments have created.

But it wasn't about quantity this year and I enjoyed the quality a lot. I had to cancel my trips I had planned but that was just fine. I still have gotten some travel in this year for sure.

Started with time with sunshine in the ole stomping grounds. Cigars, conversation, connection, food and a wonderful time.

And ended the weekend with little one and babycakes. More cigars, food, conversation and good times.


The reality is that regardless of whether it is girlfriends, submissives, slaves or whatever of mine. It has to be about the connection and all involved needing to be active participants in that. It took a while and trials to get the message but I did.

Thankful for those that love, care, be there and share in this journey with Me.


Lord Havoc the Caveman

Being a Black Man: The Enemy is Me

These days the attention has been focused and brought up because of social media and most everyone having a cell phone now about black men being  persecuted, shot and killed by cops, people and everything.

It is not that things have gotten worse. It is that it never stopped and is being done publicly now more. So, this outrage will burn bright for a moment and go cold once attention has been drawn somewhere else.

Being a Black Man.

Everyday. Every moment. May be my last for no other reason other than that I am a Black Man. Not because I am a criminal or even living a dangerous life. Just because I am a Black Man.

• In my suit and tie on the elevator and the lady clutches her purse when she gets on.
• At a traffic stop and the law enforcement run my plates and licenase. Then see that I am a registered gun owner with Lawshield.
• A child that want to feel like someone so has to do a gang initiation and I am the victim.
• I am the Black Man living in the house on the corner in your white neighborhood.

There are so many variations of this that it is just ridiculous.

But this is not just a black and white thing. Or just a race thing. Because black against Black Men is a daily activity as well. 

• According to their alleged criteria you are not black enough for them.
• Hanging around, having friends and associations with white people makes you an uncle tom.
• Living outside of the hood and urban cities

But wait there's more..

We have the female aspect in all of this to deal with as well. What is that you ask?

• they are not getting their way so they fabricate a charge against you of rape, etc.
• Using your children as weapons and pawns against you.
• Attacking physically and verbally then playing the helpless female card.

So I better watch them crazy females too. Otherwise they will have me locked up or dead.

And the list goes on.

So it is not only a fear of Me being the Black Man. It is a fear of...

• Intelligence
• Individualized thinking and action
• Life experience
• Interests

Fear is there because anything can happen to a Black Man. The only solution is to continue living as a Black Man for yourself and in your own way regardless. Be vigilant and prepared But continue on your journey in life is the only solution.

Poetry Moment: Caveman Deliverance

Caveman Deliverance

I exist

come in contact with me

the experience will

be unique

challenging

provoking

My being is not what you are use to

non predictive experience

unique

I am love

I am apathy

caring with unrelenting passion

even when it is not your way

or in your ability to understand yet

assassin

protector

advocate

speaking and acting in ways

that are uniquely only me

so come

let me make you

think

feel

explore

and live

walk with me

on the wild or mild side

open your heart, soul and mind

attacks against

your comfortzone

societal norms

Have you been

will you be

touched and delivered

Caveman style

from the chocolatezeus collection 5/11/20 (c)