Salud From Mardi Gras Country

Been here in Lake Charles working. Definitely a damn adventure since coming down here

The good thing is that i got to see tareze again and see little tia since I haven't seen her since she was super tiny years ago. Didn't see little Donnie again since they don't stop baseball practice until 9pm.

Of course I have been sick since my trip to fayettenam. And it reared its ugly head while I have been here rather strongly. But I am quite a bit better now.

So much is going on this year. And it already started day one of this year. Making things happen and keeping things on track for the House of Havoc is definitely a chore. But the learning, adventure and unforgettable moments are on deck and on their way.

My mind has been going at warp speed and holding the reigns to 12 super novas at the same time. This time really made me appreciate those that ride with me, down with me and accept this adventure. Things get better and better through all the trials and tribulations.

Next scheduled stop is South Plains Leatherfest. This will mark a huge change moving forward


So as they say you better Go Hard or Go Home
Have a good one

So you Want to Talk About Consistency?

I hear females and s types repeatedly say that there has to be consistency. You need to be consistent. They need to be consistent. 

The entertainment comes when they holler all of this but they are so inconsistently consistent. During all their screams and rants about needed consistency they refuse to be consistent at all themselves.

inconsistent in:

• communication
• maintaining a relationship or dynamic
• ability
• emotions
• heart
• connection

So, until the lightbulb finally goes on in their little heads I will continue to be entertained with their drama and me too shenanigans.

Just another play to be observed upon the stage these days

What they said about the pretty females is true...

They are pretty and gorgeous but damn they are really mentally, emotionally and life wise fucked up.

But seeing and experiencing is definitely believing.

Females will definitely show you over the last year fo sho

Comic Con and I Was Gone

Saturday little one and I spent some hours at the greensboro comic con. I love doing things like this and I always looked forward to sharing things like this with who I was and am with. This is when the worthy people get to see a different part of me that is fun, silly and more. 

little one enjoyed herself a lot also. Talking to the black artists and the cosplay people there had her geeked. 

The 501st Legion was there and I am so glad I got to take some pics with them. Vader, mandalorians, storm troopers. I love the work they do in cosplay as well as the community. The pictures are priceless. And little one got a pic with a purple mando lol.

It was small but it was so much damn fun. I can't wait to hit some bigger ones next. 

I picked up one of the artists black comic books as well. 

Great convo with black vendors about the state of movies and comic movies today was ultra deep and geeky.

on the way out i took a pic with Deadpool and Deathstroke which a great culmination to the adventure. 

Totally geeked up!!!

So Respect is Earned you say

Humans are entitled to their own views and opinions. On the same token I am entitled to respond how I see for to their actions.

There have been a lot of commentary by females, submissives and others that respect is Earned and they do not have to respect anyone, Dominants or Masters, etc. But these are the same people screaming that they need to be respected.

So...

If you don't want to respect anyone that is your choice. In turn I dontd need to respect you as a being either. I stay clear of these types of individuals.

Even the monkey bitches, frauds and others get respect from me. I respect their position out of my world.

Oh well. More good information observed so I can apply the necessary actions.

*Slow clap*

Taking a Quick Breath

Just over a week into the new year and things are already rolling like the Big Red One. So much to do and get done. As well as so much has already happened.

I am off to cleveland sunday for training on monday. So this will be completely brand new. 

babycakes birthday celebration right before south plains. 

Getting things together for South Plains leatherfest is a chore also. But it will be a very special time and one etched in time for sure. So more to figure out and schedule. And things to get. I am looking forward to the House of Havoc being at it's first leather event together. 

No telling where I will be heading for work. 

I have the brats reunion, my birthday and the CTX bbq also this summer along with probably another leather event in there. Add little one's birthday trip and whatever else comes up in there. 

At least two trips out of the country added in that as well. England and Jamaica here I come. Maybe even venice finally.

More toys coming. Got little one a leather vest. Patches to be done. Organizing for dallas. Most of it done and figured out. 

All I can do is nod my head and look at from last year until now and see the chasm of distance covered. 

Well back to it

Join the chaos and live!!

Soul Poetry: Shot to the Heart

Shot to the Heart

Eyes burning

Lava flows no longer controlled

Turning to blood before they fall to the floor

That hole remains

The one that wants you still

Even with the black hole

The remains linger

End of Days hold

Hate the finality that was chosen

Reminder of failed vision

Dead reckoning

Exposed

Heart remains on the

Dark side of the moon

At 300 below

That faint heart beat glows

Slow nuclear explosions

Hidden, but unstoppable

Love is me

Love is what I live and breathe

Even when it is removed from me

Even with my dead heart

It is more than most

A love that will roast the sun of others soul

Love

My apathetic apostle

Death hold

Even with the black hole

My love

Won’t stop

Force of one

If you didn’t know

Well

Now you know

From the chocolatezeus collection  1/8/19  ©

So you want Consistency ehhhh?

I have gotten a good chuckle from those submissives and females that always want to bring up. Men need to be consistent. Dominants need to be consistent.

But wait...

Are you consistent? Are you communicating? Providing service, Staying connected?


lol

Exactly


Might want to keep that we need to be consistent to yourself until you get with the program

Last Call...2018 Out Y'all!!

The year closed. Honestly it went really fast and in other ways it went too fast. But it is over with.

December was fully of great conversations, laughter, adventures and a whole lot more. My people represented well and we all enjoyed ourselves.

Myrtle Beach was good. The first House of Havoc New Years together.

Oh, and the girls asked me about and were concerned about me having another relationship.  Yeah, I am just going to sit back and watch how this goes. But yeah the Oyabun is in full force!

I am thankful for all those that chose to be down with me, spend time with me, grow and experience with me. I look forward to all the things that is going on this year.

Next stops are Cleveland and Dallas on the books. Who knows were else I may end up though. lol


Happy New Year to you

This Year's Learning Curve

I have questioned if I have learned from everything this year or has it just been a clusterfuck. I think that I have learned a lot. Many hard lessons and good lessons. Either way I came to the end of the year moving forward with speed and power.

Some of the learning battles:

• If you or something is not important to them. Then smile and wave at them
• The gorgeous ones tend to be the extra crazy
• When you give them what they want and ask for you will still be the villian 
• You can't open someone's eyes, heart or soul when they want to make sure that they are dead internally
• The how and why of the culmination of the House of Havoc
• The strength and honor of my love remains even when it has been blitzkrieged against it
• The battles, mortal wounds, death and dismemberment have created the Ultimate Caveman

Just a snippet. But so much has gone down this year. Life Unscripted apparently decided to speed up this year. Hell, I am still trying to figure out some of these lessons that I have been put into this year. 

Time for a few more drinks and to go continue plotting. More later...

Christmas eve and Bourbon Drinks

So tomorrow is christmas. I haven't felt it this year.  I don't normally feel it since CD is gone. But this time things are feeling worse.

People think that I miss the female parental unit but I haven't thought of her and it will be a year since she died next month. I know it is anti what the humans think and feel. they can think and feel what they want. But, they don't know me nor do I care.

The parental unit is still making a mess. Apparently he is getting worse and his attitude is definitely getting a lot worse. Will see how he ends up next month with the anniersary of the female parental units death.

Missing my Chocolate Doll, so I  grabbed some of that baked potato salad that she loved for tomorrow. I smiled at memories of us and our adventures. Still chuckling at things.

The gifts have flowed this year. It has been amazing. Giving and receiving. 

Looking forward to this weekend. Time for a House of Havoc first. It will be unforgettable. Still, I miss red but I am glad that she is making her moves and living her life. 

So much but catch the rest at the proper places and at the proper time. 

into a New Dawn

life has had a lot going on. life unscripted has been in overload. 

i have had to step up and make things happen. Gave space and opportunities as well as dealt with loss and failure. 

Through it all i have held on to memories and god times. Walked my path alone as always. And even became public enemy number one to someonw that was a part of me. 

The year is about at a close and things have been all over the place. I had to stop fighting those that don't want or can't be with me. Give those that i knew what they asked for from me. 

This is the tip of it but i am going to drink and smoke now. 

Shall return

Poetry from the Heart: A Bridge Too Far

A Bridge Too Far

Do you know?

The emotions and feelings

The consequences upon

A broken heart

Destiny

My whole

Torn completely apart

The threads I held onto for so long

Each moment moved

Further and further apart

I fought and I fought

For the thing that was important

To my soul

Life and heart

I rub my head

Turn back to look through weary eyes

The life and times

From the chocolatezeus collection  12/11/18  ©