Poetry: Submission Dynamically

Submission Dynamically

Can you submit?

We both quizzically

Question

Not surface type things

But

Submit at the nucleus

Atom of submitting

That soul stirring

DNA dedicated commitment

To serving submissively

Like the creation of another

Mona Lisa masterpiece

Show me

How deeply in the rabbit hole

You live

So comfortable and completely

As I choose you

You choose me

Your submission in direct correlation

To where you see I can lead

Through the struggle of life’s barbed wire moments

To the exhilaration of achievements, fun and play

United in

Wills

Purpose

Honor and strength

Steadfast

Your submission

My lead

Mind and life altering

As we ask together again

And finally

Are you ready?

Now come with me

From the chocolatezeus collection  10/24/17  ©

Poetry: Depletion of Loving

I stood upon my ramparts

Watching every projectile come towards me

Missiles assailing to harm me

Not your normal enemy

But what I made a part of me

Another loving piece

No worries

Not about my life

My existence

Actual concern for

My assailant

My assailants

As I watch

the cuts, gashes and wounds

Blossom and explode

Upon me

I merely see

Look into the flames

Ingest what is brought against me

Silently

the soft click of

another vault door closing

preparation for another

transitioning

Compartmentalization

Complete

from the chocolatezeus collection 10/23/17 (c)

Poetry: The Theory of Relative Relativity

The Theory of Relative Relativity

Tumbleweeds blow

Across

A relationship so cold

Left with

What if then statements

A soul in the hole

Your

Silence and apathy

Finally took hold

My love holds

Even through this nuclear winter

Love chose

Connection

Love and feeling

Working on having something

These things

Have true meaning

A meaning that is not

Easy

Accommodating

Unfeeling

Painful and trying

But that meaning

This meaning

Means the world

Means more than you can

Fathom or see

Unfortunately

Or fortunately

Crimson leaks

Bleeds even

From heart and soul

That grieves

Not in what was

But for what is

What could be

Down the rabbit hole

Go

Go

Go

Until the pin is removed

And the grenade gets

Tossed down the hole

Where

The world

Revelations

The future

Implodes to explode

Marked moments

Memories

Fantasies

Left in

Reality

As we look at clandestinely

The current

Relation

Relationship

Title

Non-title

Embalm

From the chocolatezeus collection  10/20/17  ©

Poetry: To Dance with Evil in the Void of Life

To Dance with Evil in the Void of Life

That defining moment

When I pulled you into my arms

Gripped your juicy ass in my hands

Held you close

We danced

To a rhythm and beat

Solely created by our souls

Sonnets procured from

Love, lust, desire and caring

Completely oblivious to all else

Bold

Professed need for you

On levels of marriage, inner sanctum

Type of permanent hold

The prognostication

Of your

Love, caring and ability

I hold

As I looked into those

Soul stirring eyes

Lost in that deliciously divine smile

I held you close

Until the big reveal

The point where everything was sold

At that moment

When darkness turned to transparency

Now there is only

The dance

Marvel’s What ifs

That are left to hold

When you dance with evil in the void of light

Within the darkness or the light

Something takes

Hold

From the chocolatezeus collection  10/20/17  ©

So you said solo poly...ok

If you don't know what solo poly is then here is an article from Psychology Today for a reference point.


solo poly



This has been brought up by little one and mvp. We have our disagreements about my position on it but there are always disagreements on my position.


Autonomy

This is one of the big issues for those that claim they are solo poly. They cant do what they want, how they want or with who they want. And relationships dont allow them to be able to be that way. Well a relationship involves others, which you are supposed to have vested interest and action with. But what they seem to be able to or are unable to grasp is that whether you are married, in a relation, or a relationship you can actually have autonomy. Is it the autonomy to disregard, deny and set aside who you are supposed to be with? No.

My wife and I had autonomy. And wow! We were happily married. Perish the thought. We enjoyed doing things together and not together. And wait for it....with other people also. Oh shit!


Equal and Equality

Their relationships all have to be equal. No one is more special or has more meaning than anyone else. Well that works for those that their worth is designed that way but for me I am not of that mindset. They say that each on is special in their own way. And I agree and treat females the same way. But when you use an assembly line mentality then you get assembly line quality.

The importance of making sure everyone is equal can cause emotional and mental distress, depression and more. To make them feel like they are being forced to be monogamous.


Distance

Here is where the sparks have flown. Because I have said that solo poly people need to maintain a certain distance from individuals to maintain their equality and autonomy needs in being solo poly.  This is where the attitudes and things have flared up.

so·lo

ˈsōlō/

noun

1. 1.

   a thing done by one person unaccompanied, in particular.

So based on this definition of the word solo you are doing things on your own and unaccompanied.  This would be the distance involved. Unaccompanied. By yourself. Means there is a distance between you and others. 

So why the outrage when I say that they need to maintain a distance from others to make them and keep them happy and comfortable?  It is right there in the name of what they are doing as well as the action. 

it doesn't mean that they are not going to care for or like whoever they have relations with. It means that in order for them to be with the there has to be a certain distance maintained with the equality so that they are in their right spot for themselves.

Overview

I deal with solo poly because that is their thing. it is not for me. i don't have some negative outlook on it other than it is not my plan. My experience has been what it has been. So I support their choice in this solo poly thing and compartmentalize things so they are good to go. When it is time to deploy relationship things they are deployed until the time limit expires for that time and they are recalled so that solo poly is felt, maintained and they can enjoy it. 

Riding the Lightning Bolt

On the way back from MD and so much has gone down that I am not sure what really hasn't happened basically. 

Fucking parental unit shit just got even worst. Don't know why they are showing up this week or traveling. But that just means they are here to fuck up even more stuff. More disasters to come this week concerning them. 

Discussions about happiness, relations and me have been had. Being told that I am unhappy about my dating relationship and I should talk about it and make a decision on it. I have made some decisions about it. I have had to make decisions about both of them and new things. Reality has set in that things are what they are. I am going to discuss what is going on currently and get their input about the future or not and what that looks like. The program has evolved into this monster and now it is time to unleash it.

I saw a lot of things this weekend. Many of it was ridiculous and crazy. Some was pure service and joy of watching a submissive or slave serving others as well as their Master or Dominant. That right there is beautiful. When there is that understanding of place and actions without the posturing, being forced or the facade. That requires those involved to be willing to take it to that place though. 

First co topping happened. The tennis balls of doom were put to use on tits, ass and back with effectiveness. Education had to be put into session when she called red though and I did what I always do if that is called. Things stop and will not continue. But after everyone in the room discussed with her that she shouldn't have called red if she wanted to change something or if it was too much for her. They all then had to convince me to start the scene again. She was left orgasming all over and me having to hold her up to keep from injuring herself during her orgasms.

This will be one of the last trips that i take unless I have one of mine with me. Which is impossible and improbable with their schedules, others and boyfriends and all.

I saw once again that females want and expect someone to chase them around to get attention. I also got the ultimate reveal in flakiness happen in a number of individuals. So flaky bust have been the subject matter at an estrogen meeting recently. 

I got to enjoy the conversations with the Sirs and their property. And thought about being at events with my property in the future.  But man, we get together and spit knowledge or just laugh and enjoy. 

The kraken experience continues as it was requested and it was put into effect. My best line was when big titties KC said "mmm that makes my pussy tingle." I was more than ready then! And Sir's slave talking about her tongue is on fire and calling it Devil''s Spit. lmao

Amid the boredom, flakiness, horniness and all I had a chance to meet some folk and interact which was great. 

Well make the most of your monday, wee and all. 

I will be over here losing my mind up in here, up in here!

Word is Bond...

Step into my universe. Where I will tell you directly how I feel and what I mean.

I will say this...

I listen to who I date, in a dynamic with and are actual applicants or candidates to be involved with me. Whether we agree or disagree things will just be fine. I will continue to cherish the views, opinions, outlooks and all of those I have some trust for and care for. It is alright to agree to disagree. we will live, love and continue on.

Decisions I make for me and mine are based on what I think is the best for all involved. Their desires, wants and all are considered. Many times over my own depending on their importance.

But there are times where I make decisions completely of and for myself that from my point of view do not change things for the others.  Recently I made those decisions. Because it was time for the best for me.

So I will continue to be public enemy number one even to those that decide to grace one of my circles if they choose to like they have. it is all good.

Tonight I stood at the top of the hieararchy and watched the deterioration occur. The aftermath of making a decision for myself once in a blue moon.

I don't regret my decisions. They needed to be done. They are in their better places and comfortable positions that they want now since we have began.

So with the attitude, hurt feelings and no telling what else. I am the Bad Guy to them. The one that they are going to treat accordingly and deal with in the ways that they have available to them.

Just me and my word is bond...

Public Enemy Number One

Through the Natural Disasters and End of the Universe Events

I have to truly say that things have been extra fucking crazy as hell. This year. This quarter. This Month. This week. lol

The damn issues with the parental units increased to another level. Going to still have to do my duty and problem solve as public enemy number one.

The attitudes, moods and actions have been in full swing. And I have had to swing back at them.

I was asked about who I talk to about things that are going on and that are being dealt with. My answer is "no one now." I keep things to myself. I analyze and enact for myself. When I need another view I ask specific people that I can ask without attitude, drama and issue.

I have seen some light but I will let it decide whether it will fully reveal for itself or not. I don't hold onto those things that are not solidified anymore.

People in their place has been the theme. If I accept you then that is what i do. Accept you for who and what you are and whatever you can offer and no more. That is why they remain in my life. Even though they question the why after I have given my answers. I am like why question why if I am still loving, caring, want you? But then again I am not them so what the hell would I know. So, hey if what you have to offer is all you have to give and I have agreed with that then...there you go!

I realized that I was missing being able to laugh, be comfortable and just have a good time with those that are mine. It reminded me of how fleeting things are. And I understand even more clearly.

After watching Batman and harley and reminding me of my relationship with red. Episodes of the Orville to remind me of little one. I had to look back at all these years. Laugh and shake my head.

As I look at and wonder at that miracle. I am reminded of the Search for the Holy Grail. And I feel like the holy hand grenade of Antioch. lmao


There are some other things but maybe i will get to those later tonight. I think I will finish this writing and get some more thinking done.

Poetry: A Tear Fell Today

This was inspired by life, situation, circumstance and the latest Ray Donovan episode. I hope you enjoy.

A Tear Fell Today

Upon a desolate heart

A corroded soul

This swallowed black hole

Reunification with the inability to

Save and protect

Solve the infinite possibilities

Lost in this disconnect

Breadcrumbs decayed and gone

From over a decade ago

The thoughts of your essence

Faded, while beating strong

As I embrace the cold from that moment

You tuned cold

I know and remember my promise

As the tears burn like lava renewed

I try to keep that promise

Whole

I just don’t know if I can

If it is possible

Probable

Anymore

Reality

Differences

Have taken on a

Stranglehold

As you watch over me

My infinity gauntlet

Reminded of the Thanos of old

I see that I am losing hold

As I thank you

For in life as well as peace

You make me better

Yes, forever that fabulous theme

My over watch

Barometer of living

Scale for life worth living

I thank you for

Those that have been sent to me

The experiences that you have guided

In your superwoman ways

For a love and life

That stands the test of time

Laid down the guidelines to

What is, was and should be

A love and life

Forever known to me

With burning

Clouded eyes

All I can say now is

I just don’t know

From the chocolatezeus collection  10/3/17  ©

Poetic Moment: Empty

Empty

Fatigue permeates me

The slow motion of the end

Moves slowly

Across the soul’s screen

As I reach into my haversack

For last ditch effort

Contemplation

Captures me in every way

The lava

Swells and wells up

Inside of me

Spilling uncaged

Spillage leaving marks

That should never be seen

Armor breached

Mortal wounds finally seen

The reservoir boiling

Contempt held

Completely and personally

As I drink in

The black hole

Empty

From the chocolatezeus collection  10/2/17  ©

Poetic Celebration: My Dream Team

Inspired by listening to 

https://www.mixcloud.com/vashon-hodge/deejaylexx-the-milk-man-lunch-buffet-heat-100-ep-11/

the ink had to spill this:

My Dream Team

Unintentionally created

Shades and effects of everything

With them I am

Winning

Intelligence

Beautiful and sexy

Unique and unforgettable

They make up

My Team

My Life Unscripted

Other half of me

Porn star destroying queen

Bring life support and life

To me abundantly

The super smart

Chocolate Dream

Mind and body trap you happily

Like nothing that you have ever

Thought, felt or seen

The teach and leading

Curvaceous killing

Creatively unparalleled

Passionate and loving

One of a kind

My lil teddy bear

The test of time

Steadfast in beauty and conviction

Uncontested energy

Persevering

The mvp

My CPT lifeline

Slow winding

Sexually enticing

Revolutionary and songstress

Combined

Each piece

Key to the solution

Make me feel like

Never mind

Knowing

That this only inspires

Creates

Winning

From the chocolatezeus collection  10/2/17  ©

These Moods, Moments and Memories

One of my favorite albums is Monifah's "Moods...Moments." It was one of the very few Rnb albums I could listen to back then. It held and holds a lot of meaning. And Monifah is one sexy motherfucker! Her songs provided context, connections and feelings as music that truly moves you always does.

red and I have had conversations about music and what it represents, how it makes you feel and the memories it represents. That is mostly because she is a music know it all *lol*.  But I seem to marry, date and associate with these types apparently. lol  I will warn you. Never do musical trivia with red or little one. You will lose.

So an awful lot has gone on lately. Especially this year.

Parental unit hospitalization. Health issues. The things going on with Ru, little one, red and everyone else.Add to that the transportation issues and other things. You can say there really has been a busy and continuous amount of stress.

red and I were discussing my current situation and the concept of support. It is believed that I don't, won't want or ask for support. I have asked for support. red and little one have given me support. And Ru has been the support plenty of times.  But I have made some changes about support, needs and everything concerning myself. So things are a bit different. red called it sad and I understand why she said that.  But the scale had to be used and balanced accordingly with this as well as other things.

Here is the twisted part to the paragraph above. On the other hand I will do whatever I can to support and be there for those I actually care about. Even when they just want to be alone to deal with whatever. Yeah, a double or triple standard, but hey I am a Caveman. Not going to lie and claim that it doesn't bother me that I cannot be there or support those I care about. I want to always be there but I realized that I can't and i shouldn't from being with red and little one. And I needed to learn that. It helped me with understanding and acceptance. The puzzle and the scale were made proper.

Being connected is a seriously important thing to me. Whether the person I am interested or whoever understands it or not. I have and will attempt to explain but it is a concept that seems to be only be grasped by those that it is important to. And it is not an issue. It is fine. It doesn't change the way I feel, the position i have given to the person that I am interested in or care about.

I didn't think about it until today when i realized the comment about a picture of Chocolate Doll and the discussion about support and comforts  But hell it has been 10 years since we first met and had great sex on our first date at her house in philly for five days.  Hard to believe that it has been that long.

So all these days, months and times have truly been...  moods, moments and memories


As I listen to this mix I smile, laugh and think about the past and present.


Big smile. Make the most and best of all that you do.

Poetic Moment: Pieces in a Puzzle

Pieces in a Puzzle

Bits and pieces

Each bringing parts of the whole

Fitting together

To create

What I need

Passion

Love

Freakiness

Each skill

Held in captivity

As I place each

Each lady

Giving what they are

Giving me

What I need

Unable to fit exactly

Needed for their individuality

Each uniquely qualified

Creating

Maintaining

The best of what I need

For the puzzle

Whole process is

Me

From the chocolatezeus collection  9/30/17  ©