Reminded of Good Times

Knowing Good

The question came
Do you speak good of me
Or is everything always negativity
For that is all I see

I knew the answer
With strength
Though there was no denying
The catastrophes
Left horrific tastes on the minds

Standing in the aftermaths
Bloodies, battered
Complete wrecks of humanity
Stained by actions and emotional taints

Yes I remember
What others can’t

You blessing me
How you blessed me with
A roof over my head
And a bed to lay my head at
Food to keep me fed

Even when you were emotionless
Or an emotional wreck
You showed a loving affect
Your caring effect
Gave me things
That I could never expect

I am encased in many regrets
Memories that darken the past
Never forget
All that happened
Caught in a deep seeded traction
Retraction and reversion is what I am after

Alas that won’t be happening
It simply time to live on
Change everything to a positive plane
Ask for your forgiveness
Hope you understand how my love is this way
That it was simply insane
Caught in its caged misunderstanding

You were good to me
Even when I refused to see
To fight through being angry
Dejected shouldn’t have mattered to me

I gave no chances to what could be
Simply devoured by uncertainty
As you gave me many things
Clouded I couldn’t believe
Fought you every step of the way

So what good things were there to see
You loved me
Gave romance to me that I needed
Whisked me away to new things
Companionship that was unbelieved

You
My comforting relief
Good things could never explain
What you mean to me
The things that link us together
Even in pain

The list goes on
Good things no, no bounds
Just know that I know the good that was done


From the Chocolatezeus collection 1/27/07 ©

You Don’t See?

Can’t you see
That beauty that you are
My compliments are not unbound
I pay homage to your beauty
Because it is the truth without a doubt

There is no lie coming from my mouth
I don’t have to say it to get your body
My mind already got it

Look into the mirror and see
Let go of your insecurities
Enjoy the Aphrodite beauty you see
Not the things that have been told maliciously

Only you can believe
The luscious queen that you be
Otherwise denying compliments given freely

My eyes and mind agree
That your sexy
Your beauty true belief
Sultry subtlety
No false make up needs

Beauty runs shallow and deep
Hands down you get them beat
Just let your spirit free
And you will be able to finally believe
What I already have seen
That you are the one and only
True Beauty Queen


From the Chocolatezeus collection 1/22/07 ©

The Cycle

Round and Round


Time has taken
Rearranged everything
Taken life
Breathed birth
Into our lives

Belonging to
Neither you or I
Simply a part of our lives

Still here we find
A circle reached
Cycle come full presence
Bringing us back to
Just you and me

Is this fate
Some kind of torturous mistake
Or this is something
We manufactured
To seek our own comforting

What turn will we take
Can we immerse ourselves fully
Into what we feel and believe

The question
Our coming actions
The answers we need



From the Chocolatezeus collection 1/11/07 ©

the Entertainer in Me

Why I Dance

I do it for me
When I have loosened up
Had a few drinks
Enjoyed some company

Then I am ready to just be
Have fun
Come laugh with me
Dance with me

Hit the floor
I don’t care
Tonight the entertainment is going to be there

It’s me that they will look at and stare
The hell with posting up
Watching the club

I dance with you
Because I think you are cute
I want to watch your body move
See what skills you can unloose

Two stepping may be what I do
For a minute or two
Or we can go old school
Throw out a prep
A snake or two

But my dance

It’s not for you
I do what I do
Because I am going to enjoy this mood
When I am the entertainer
Gone is my protection attitude

Lets get down
Bust a move
Step in the name of love
Or cha cha slide with you

Once that music
Has gripped me totally
I just want to keep it flowing
Burning up the floor
Heating up and sweating

When you move I move
They watch us two
Laughing and smiling

Now you know why I dance
Why I enjoy that mood
When the attitude
Is gone
Replaced with my gratitude
DJ keep it jumping dude



From the Chocolatezeus collection 12/21/06 ©

Ice Cream Dreams

Dreams Against Dream

Find and you shall see
That is what is said to me
Don’t give up
It will come to me

All I can remember is the
Eternal dreams
Of my wife
My family
That house with us enjoying
What life brings

I scheduled
Worked on
Jumped on
Weaseled it all in
Time and time again

Failure after failure
The only result from things
My efforts wasting

Mistakes made
Love gave
Regrets constantly made
True love though
I refused to forsake

Never surrender, never give up
Became my theme

Fighting against the
Seen and unseen

Marriage continuing to be
High on my list of important things
Even when I denied its meaning
I am just a loving compassionate being
No matter how I attempt to change the scene

Still I look favorably on this marriage thing
Believe in it
Knowing that it is not necessarily happening
Still I must remain positive

For love cannot be predicted
Nothing can be expected
My heart will remain unprotected
At least partially

Marriage
Through the fire and destruction
Still remains

A part of me

Me

Love and Marriage

No need to lie

Just

Me


From the Chocolatezeus collection 12/15/06 ©

Good things Are What We have

In from the Cold

The woman I would walk the ends of the earth for
Heart and soul
Unlike the coldness that is told
How she is a bitch and alone
Unfair representation of
This woman’s
Whole

My heart and soul
When we ended
Life went cold
So very cold

Hurt from wanting you more
I wrote
Trying to get through it all
Not thinking
That the little people had in store

Pretending to befriend you
Talking trash about you
About what they thought they knew

I know you
Intimately
You have been my Queen
Saved me from so many things
Sat there at my side through some very dark things

My life
My lover
My queen

Good in so many things
Good to me
Unbelievably relationship with thee


From the Chocolatezeus collection 12/12/06 ©

Reminder, reminder reminder

Sting…Loves Reminder

Pierced mortally
Love at first sight
Apparently destroyed me
Or was it my simple personal stupidity

Still I live
I breathed
Just now its only for me

After walking through the flames
Being blasted
Called out my name
Subject of those drama things

I came through it all
Somehow sane
Scarred but not broke
Love and affection still remained

Exemplified
Through my actions and things
Giving of myself even when they can’t
Won’t let themselves believe the love I have remained

No conditions to the love I gave
Still it remains
Not taken away
Merely changed

Man enough to continue to love
Just not in the same way
No longer a part of the reactionary game that was played

I parted ways
Gave up my quest that I made
Those involved made their choices not to dig in and stay
Personally
I refuse to make anyone be here with me

Giving my soul and being completely
I smile knowing that I have given me
That unconditional love is real with me
Not the situational drama that ladies have presented to me

Taking the pain
Walking in the bullshit
Just to remain
Refusing to quit on what I deemed important to me
Never realizing
That it was only my way

Pain flared
Stabbed me
Cast me into the abyss
Insane

Lost
Not knowing my name
Wanting to die from not having my dream
Life no longer had what I needed

Slowly I turned
Walked away from the things that made me happy
Kept me breathing
Smiling to the tune of me and them

The hardest decisions made
Unhappiness with it
Till this day

I know that the
I wishes
Won’t ever go away

Still I know that I did the right thing
For what good is what you want
When the others don’t want it that way
Sting
Sting
Sting

Go away
Yet it reminds me of the lessons that I need today
Gifting me with an appreciative gaze

Sting

My history
My lesson
The sword
I now carry everyday


From the Chocolatezeus collection 11/30/06 ©

WE can do it Anywhere

Anywhere

There is always time
Through darkness or light
Available moments in time
To Unite

We can do it
Anywhere

Arms around you
Holding you tight
Slowly caressing you right
Lustful needs already to strike

We can do it anywhere

Nipples swollen just right
My hand explores your inner thighs
Feeling the heat
Molten lava coating the insides
Whispering the cries

We can do it
Anywhere

Unable to wait
Needing to release these flood gates
No place that we won’t take
To gratify these burning fires

We can do it
Anywhere

Ride with me
Give me head as I steer
Open your legs
So I can make you squirt over there

We can do it
Anywhere

Bend over your seat
So I can hit it from the back
Make you scream
While people drive by constantly
Taking in all the scenes

We can do it
Anywhere

Open and free
We will continue being two freaks


From the Chocolatezeus collection 11/27/06 ©

Love's kept

My Secret Lover

Who would have thought
That you would be
The reason that
I still have love in me

Never will you be mine
A truth I cannot deny
But within you
My love has been kept alive

Your voice brings me smiles
Your kiss drives me wild
Longing for you to be mine
But reality knows my mind
You can never be mine

That fatal night
When our hearts ignited
Here and now we find
Ourselves in this affair
Yours and mine

Though its wrong
I don’t want it to be right
I need it to go on
To feel love
To be wanted
Something of Love’s gifts

Your body
Your lips
I need you to give me
All of it

The restrictions
I need you to lift
Longing for complete loving experience
The last expression
That our True Love is missing

In the darkness
You are my light
My gift
Keeping me
Loving and Passionate

Bright


From the Chocolatezeus collection 11/21/06 ©

Run, Run Away

You Running From You

You call me a liar
I simply look into your life
Know that behind those eyes
Fear is inspired

I know my flaws
My faults
Mistakes that haunt

Sought not to lie
There for I don’t
Instead I merely stand here as you make your death bed
Calling me a liar
But lying to yourself instead

Lie to yourself
Telling yourself that you don’t need a man for anthing else
That you have every thing under control

Just release yourself
Come on out here and deal with it

Don’t try to be bold
Turn on that “I think I am superwoman” cold
Stand your ground
Let your true self be known

You don’t want to come face to face
With your own self worth
Your disgrace
That you are a human like others in this race

The recognition that you seek
Can only come from
Within
Right there where your heart beats
Your soul will be free
You will truly know what it is to be free

Stop lying to YOU
Let yourself be
Stop the lying to make yourself what you want to be
You don’t need to impress other things

Telling yourself that sex is just a physical thing
All the while wanting to be that loved being
Stop playing that stupid games others tell you to be

Knowing that you struggle like everyone else
That life is not a polished silver spoon on a china shelf

Don’t be mad with me
Be mad with yourself
That you have lied to yourself

Now who is the liar again?


Form the Chocolatezeus collection 11/12/06 ©

Taking It to War

Battle of What Is


Ripped apart by feelings undefined
Knowing the vulnerability and pain that transpires
Yet I do it
Because it is what is me

That steely grey haze
That permeates and lifts me
Knowing that I am there with them
For them

Support
Seen and unseen

Looking past everything
I see cleanly what is underneath

Once more
Unto the Breach
Standing in the gap for someone else’s life being

Against them I see
I act not to battle them
But to fight their own fearful stupidity

Blades
Daggers
Bullets and attacks

Standing
Hands open
Allowing
Braced against the combative attacks
Knowing the true reasons they coming at me

Tired
Weary
I know I want it all to end
To know that I am appreciated for what it is I am

Wondering sometimes
When will I get a break in this plan
Can I get that supporting hand
Let my guard down for just a moment
Give my mind a quick vacation
Man

Still I won’t whine
Nor will I offer up the internal tears that are cried
Weakness is what I cannot allow to shine
Too many people depend on me
There is no time for a weakened me

Dress the wounds
Beat back the fatigue
The one man army
Once again needed
Especially when they won’t realize it

Powering up
Fight the good fight
Don’t give up

With just my luck
I will finally rest
And one of these times lose the battle of love
Join the ranks of cannon fodder and casualty counts

Just let me rest
So I can settle down

My battle still hasn’t begun


From the Chocolatezeus collection 11/12/06 ©

Welcome to the Durty, Dirty

Dirty Adventures

Expectations were ones of fun and adventure
Knowing that you are something other than run of the mill
Still, I kept my mind open for free will

Sex appeal was my first reaction and thrill
When I saw you I had to swallow my attraction pill
Thick and sexy was mere words at that time
A picture online did no justice to that beautiful behind

Pretty enchanting eyes
Tempting hips and thighs
Me oh my
My eyes could not decide what to look at in my mind

Ass, titties, behind
A deep presence and smile
But oh you are so wild
That untamed fire
One of the things that make you a huge desire

Flippant angry mattered
Down home grown sexy woman
You are definitely just YOUR own

Dirtyrization
Explains things not being complacent
Like a cracker jack box
Never know what you will get as a surprise

But damn can’t help but enjoy that Dirty ride


From the Chocolatezeus collection 10/13/06 ©

Invocation of the Hateration

Thursday Afro Challenge

Here in the darkness
I face my eternal rejection
Incessant nagging of my being
Internal, external trauma like bleeding

Never-ending
Unrelentless
I have to be
That rock and stone
Steadfast in life’s stream

Now its my time
My turn
To liberate my complacency
Unleash the anger that I keep
Secreting the pent up Dark Beast

This pain and hurt
Made these thoughts what they were

Cowardly they hide behind their computers and words
Thinking that their locations I won’t find
That they are safely out of sight
Out of mind

My neurons firing
Cloak and dagger thoughts saturating my mind’s bin
Yeah I got something for all of them

Here I invoke the curse of an angry Greek God
Blood splatters spray
As I swoon and sway through the internet led party
Knowing I brought all of you here this day

My incantation finished
Carnage left for the vultures to dine in
Smitten smile upon my face
I got those muthafuckas
So much for their jealous hateraid


From the Chocolatezeus collection 10/5/06