2019 End of Dayz

The last day of the year and as people have reminded me the decade as well.

This year has truly been one of the bigger Life Unscripted episodes. I went old school a bit and went back to traveling a little more like I use to. Explored food, places and individuals. Grew in many different ways. Solidified being Me, Myself and I even more.

Over the last two years has made me realize even more how much I miss Chocolate Doll and how far the bar of standard has been set for females since being married to her. The good ones like tigger are gone. The others have definitely left their mark in history with my interactions with them. But love, passion, desire and living love remains regardless of assasination attempts and negative things.

My girls have grown in their journies and lives. I am glad to have been able to watch and enjoy their growth. I sit back and look at the length of these two dynamics. Almost five years and almost two years. It has made me scratch my head without a doubt.


The Man
The Dominant
The Caveman


I have embraced and became more involved in the community more than I realized. Helping more and extending support. Even to those that were not mine or in my cue of interest. The trust in me given by individuals has been humbling as well as the recognition. But this is merely the beginning.with a lot more to do and have happen. As I step further into my journey, the community and the marks that I leave. I prepare for the ride.

So much going on and coming up in this new year. Hell right from the beginning I have a lot to deal with in the next couple of weeks. Along with everything going on with the parental unit, houses and his daughter the only thing to do is woosah and keep moving.

Preparations for conferences, cruise, trips, surgeries and all. Plus seeing what happens on the slave, girlfriend, sex slave and submissive front as well. Of course Life Unscripted will be at an all new level.


The Caveman of the House of Havoc rides the Dark Horse into the new year.


Happy new year to you and yours!

Memories of a Caveman's christmas

Sitting here with a Padron, kraken, ginger beer and my thoughts.

I haven't been in the christmas spirit in a long time. Well at the level of commercialized rhetoric, not at all.

christmas has had meaning for me most on two types of occasions.

First one.

The last christmas with Chocolate Doll. We came down here to Wilmington to spend time with the parental units and their daughter.  They were glad to see us, but I wasn't feeling being bothered. But I had Chocolate Doll so that was all that mattered.

Then the forecast came up for snow here at the beach. I had no desire to be stuck here with the parental units so we rolled out and went home. But everyone loved the gifts she picked out for them and personalized. Her smile was infectious as always. Got back to enjoy Christmas the Titan's way at home. And then the snow came down and I went out in it early to enjoy it.


Secondly.

Growing up on airbases while having your father be in the SP's brought about a different life. But when it came to holidays and especially christmas there were guys that had to stand post all night. Add to that the deployment of everyone to the desert shield operation during christmas also and I am honored to have been able to serve everyone that was there or came through. To give them movies, coffee, food and desserts. To brighten, support or ease their mind a little bit. This had the true meaning of christmas to me.


So today as I get my scrooge on and just chill. I look back and I am thankful for My Life Unscripted adventures in the christmas agenda.

Right now I am just ready for the season ending episode of the Mandalorian.

Enjoy your christmas

Poetry: The Accosted Man

The Accosted Man

attacks remain constant

more intimate assaults

than enemies

they remain unable to

accept

understand

me

so many attempts to

turn and twist

change me

for their comfort zone needs

when you stand your ground

know yourself

end up labeled

difficult

toxic

mysoginist

and much more

words and phrase

of fad laced

exposed inadequacies

I hear their screams

tantrums

self defications

for I am the anti everything

I think

know myself

stand strong in my resolve

have no desire to play the game

still

the accusations remain

as I laugh and quote Redma

I’ll bee dat!

Standing here girded

as I watch all the arrows falling towards me

I guess I will be fighting in the

shade

from the chocolatezeus collection 12/24/19 (c)

A Fetish Ball and a Caveman Movement in Time

Tired, but had a good weekend even with everything happening. 

Atlanta is still a hot fucking mess. Shooting at cumberland mall. Shooting at a parking garage. Horrible traffic and fatal accidents. I do not miss it at all. 

Went down friday. And it rained the whole way. So many accidents on the way. Trucks and cars overturned. Vehicle on fire from a bad wreck.  And went through all of this with the parental unit in the vehicle. SMFH  And since he is not taking care of himself and his blood sugar is high stopping a lot on the way. 

babycakes got her christmas present early and loved it. I am glad becaused I looked crazy with that big ass unicorn coming out the store and walking around to pay for it. 

Went to brunch at this place called Copeland's it was horrible. It was buffet but damn their food sucked. There never was any fried fish. The shrimp etoufee and the jambalays barely had any shrimp or meat in it. And the shrimp were like those in a shimp flavored cup of soup.. Everything I tried was over cooked The best thing they had was cheese grits and that was all I enjoyed or really ate. And I was really pissed that I couldn't order something ala carte.  At least I did have plenty of eye candy floating around in there and the table next to ours. Ass galore was going on and some nice shapes. 

So why was I in the atl?

I was there to attend Casey Carter's Holiday Fetish Ball. 

So babycakes I attended. Met up with folk I hadn't seen since SPLF this year and Spanksgiving.  I was glad to see them. Leather and kink came out to support this erotic gathering. 

Sir held a cigar experience learning session that was excellent. About the symbiosis of the top and bottom during cigar service. Even the use of the heat of the cherry near the skin for sensory play. And the use of the cigar tube in the pussy with a lit cigar heating the tube inside them. Thanks Mr Quietstorm for showing Sir these avenues of added pleasure. Sir called me out and I ended up giving ash to babycakes and she ate in front of everyone. Definitely wasn't expecting that but I am glad that people had a chance to see that and something completely different.

Sir called and pointed out babycakes since she will presenting at SELF next year. This will be her second time presenting in the community and her first time at a big major conference.

Sir and His service slave even fulfilled my request from facebook. I wanted to see that pussy slap and cum power again like they did at the CTX bbq the other year. lol  And once again their scene and that slap to waterfall episode did not dissapoint. 

And then time spoke to me about some things. 

That four years have passed since I started with little one. The obstacles overcame, the ongoing things being dealt with and just her journey. she has moved forward a lot from that long time ago. 

babycakes has been almost a year and a half soon. A totally different adventure all of it's own with a full blown little. her being new into this life with adjustments and understanding combined with this Caveman has been a melody or torturous events, feelings and all mixed with delight. 

January or February is coming and it will be a year then since I lost tigger. The last girlfriend. 

And today when the calendar showed it was red's birthday brought up the memory of her choosing to walk away last year after I asked her about the relationship and dynamic. 

Then there came new items to add to the chaotic, biggest car crash my thoughts make up.

Things like, maybe I will have a slave finally. The interest seems there. So, will see how it plays out with what they are desiring to do. 

The two vanilla chicks interested in the relationship stuff have been flakey this year. The twin didn't respond to wanting to take her out for her birthday in MB. And the northern one says she wants to communicate but doesn't call back or contact often even though she said it is not like that. And she also didn't contact me early in the year when she was at MB and claimed we were going to get together no matter what. lol must be something about MB apparently

The recognition factors have grown even though I have and still partially deny it. Realizing the ramifications to the girls because they are not people person's as well as empathic. 

Dealing with the parental unit and the sister not being smart enough to do or deal with things. Along with him not taking care of himself and dying. 

As I continue to hold suns, moons and galaxies in each hand I am thankful for it all and my life being LIfe Unscripted!!!

As I Am Submerged In the WBrat Radio Total Request Live

It's Tuesday and I am on that Wbrat radio as always.  Mostly us military brats jamming to music from our djs. We be on there jamming.  http://mixlr.com/dj-ez-g

About to catch this phenomenal dinner service hosted by the gorgeous Goddess Indigo and Dr Bob. This is going to be epic.

Getting ready for the fetish ball this weekend.  This will be interesting with my boy and his girl going to one of their first lifestyle events. Not a conference but it is something.


Gotta roll

Poetic Moment: Carnal Kinkestry

Carnal Kinkestry

the electricity crackles

built over time

a certified live wire

your body has been calling me

with each episode of

moistened thighs

throbbing clit

I watched you fight

against every fiber of your being

I am merely the answer

the solution to those carnal things

you fight against being free

culmination

breathy moans

open thighs

as your body comes alive

caught in a craving that you deny

the knife blade glides

tracing strips of lava

inside and outside

I see you

have seen you

all this time

flames fly

as the air melts

a cold blade brings nuclear fire

chemistry

connectivity

still

I remain

the answer

that you tried to hide from and deny

it is time

earthquakes

grand carnal expanse

culminating in

atomic impding

soul taking

answer to what you need

from the chocolatezeus collection 12/10/19 (c)

Poetic Moment: Hears your Sign

Hears your Sign

pretender

charlatan

I see you

bundled in epitaphs of

daddy and relationship fuck up

issues

culminating

a living

festering wound

imbued with ultimate toxicity

living your best life

Well..

your best interpreted pipe dream

your fear gripped indefinitely

lifeline that you ride in false pride

repeatedly committing seppuku inside

lost in your need to murder any attempt

to live life

screaming to the emptiness

I am alright

just so we can see

the intelligent, pussy is power wielding heroine

that the conformist decided you liked

keep hope down

entitlement alive

as the rabbit hole has already

swallowed you alive

we see you

hear you

thanks for clarifying

from the chocolatezeus collection 12/4/19 (c)

Thanksgiving and Beyond

Thanksgiving is gone. My ribs and tater salad were delicious. I am glad I cooked them for me while the parental unit and the sister ate the huge amount of food that the sister cooked. Ja Bless! I got in a few sticks so pssita was in effect as much as possible. It was great to have a chance to stay in the room and not be bothered. Anyone I wanted to be bothered with was nowhere near by anyway.

Great conversations and interactions have continued since Spanksgiving. Inspired interest and intrigue has bloomed as well as plenty of learning. Connections and vibes have been great and I am enjoying their growth.

I did have to finally admit. Well at least accept 97 percent truth when the girls stated that chicks did watch and stuff. I am still going to claim it is not interest but shock and awe. lol Just like dating. But I have to acknowledge all that has happened and is happening lately. Hell, I even had ole pegasus contact me talking about she hadn't talked to me in a while. *that would be because if you dont make the effort and maintain then I don't remember you.* Even the mahogany journalist asked some questions of me about dating, love and stuff.

Took little one out to the cookout my cousin from massachusetts throws at his daddys house a few times a year. I was requested by him so I had a chance to show up this time. We just chilled, talked and interacted. As usual most of them I have no idea who they were or their names. lol

Work. Yeah, these idiot presidents and politicians need to be culled. Both past and present. I seriously have to come up with a business idea to implement. Much to do and will have to do.

Had a chance to chill with kitty yesterday. We had a great talk at the sushi spot since the clusterfuck due to the parental unit deciding that he needed to go with me and sit in the car while I was down there in chucktown.  kitty and I talked about so many aspects of the lifestyle and just living it. Laughing and talking. Plus I think the staff there got a kick out of us as well. We talked to the point where I think they had already closed. Because I got there so late we didn't get to smoke a stick together but I am sure there will be other times.  It was a breath of fresh air and a lot of fun, as well as educational.

Dealing with attitudes, personalities, issues and so much more is challenging to put it lightly. I have had quite a bit of experience from exes, red, little one, babycakes and others for sure. Hell, many rules, protocols and regulations have been introduced, tweaked, strengthened and made more iron clad because of red, little one, babycakes and any others I have interacted with or had in any capacity or role.

The thanks is there. Because the learning has been real through the good and the bad.  I am thankfully for the love, lust, desire that I have and is being introduced lately. And thanks for being able to manage the emotional and mental aspects that are completely not of my style.

Time to get ready for the fetish ball in the atl in two weeks and then the House of Havoc new years this year.

I am still looking around and wondering where this year went to though.

Well, I am sure you are doing well and having a good time. Just be thankful you survived eating thanksgiving and didn't end up exploding like a kid in the willy wonka factory. lol

Poetry in Life: Moment of Death Between Me and you

Moment of Death Between Me and you

I waited

Waited so long

To address Us

For over a year my heart hurt

With the emptiness that replaced love

A distance that murdered the spark

Never would I have thought

That you would no longer want

you and Me

In love

Focused on the future

Heart full of flames

But that day

When I addressed

The missing things

I felt the cold

As the death bell tolled

Shock and disbelief took hold

Did she just decide that she wouldnt try?

Give no damn to what we are, were and had?

An assault I was unprepared for

Merely left me

Dead and subdued

Even when I broke all rules

Gave her the Jodeci

Come and Talk to Me

When you are ready

The black hole grew

This moment etched in the atoms of my soul

There was nothing that I could do

So I gave her what she wanted

Salud

from the chocolatezeus collection 11/25/19 (c)

Poetic Moment: Me for you

In these moments I hold

Hold steadfast to reality

Reality of life and living

As so many things are revealed

I am beseech ed upon deep diving

Into life's offerings

Smiles of desire and wanton interest

Interactions of intimacy and prevalence

I stand

Standing against guarded entrances

Embattled hearts and mentality

I caress your chosen fraility

Offer up this connection

Our connection

As a safe zone

With this grin

This smile

Arms outstretched

The choice is yours

from the chocolatezeus collection 11/24/19 (c)

The Journey: Love, Laughter and Learning

It has been a rollercoaster since being back from Spanksgiving. Things are going. Life Unscripted is in full effect but things move forward.

Had plenty of conversation with folks about their journey. Realized what the girls said was true. That people do watch me. Tried to help and support those on their own journey with encouragment and listening.

I have met some interesting, intelligent, vibrant sexy females. I enjoy them in specific ways. Attraction, interest and intrigue lay there in front of me but it is about hearing them and being of service basically to things that they share or been through.

All of this opened up more analytics, thoughts and understandings. With my desires, relationships and dynamic plus much more.

In talking to these ladies. Their journeys had me reflect on mine. Where I started to where I am now.

Most definitely didn't do it myself.

It started with red the chick I was in love with and dating. Her energy, passion and desire along with patience helped foster a foundation.

little one has been the bulk of the journey because I have had a dynamic with her the longest. And showed me many different things that I hadn't considered or even understood. Solo poly stuff and all that. Helped formulate a lot more the way My House was to be.

Both of these two were in the lifestyle before me. So, I took quite a bit of knowledge from them so I could formulate what was Me and what I needed.

Then there came babycakes. Basically new, bright eyed and excited. The previous adventures prepared me more for this. For putting forth the will, drive, goals and the application to join Me.

Through it all there has been nothing but growth. In every aspect things have changed for the better. From decisions to expectations, needs and requirements. To the configuration of mono/poly that I require. And even the desire to have a third that is a slave in My House.

Sitting here as the parental unit only gets worse and drives me more into apathetic distancing. And life throws all the things that I need to handle on minute by minute basis. I can look and see that I have been blessed. I have been able to live life more abundantly through it all. Through the heartache and pain. The release and acceptance. Even the understandings and realizations.


I smile because of all that I have experienced. But my smile is brighter because of those I have watched grow. Those that I have talked to recently and hear the joy in them again. Or those I find sexy as hell and we talk about life, the lifestyle and goals.

Laughing at some of the many memories this year. The times where memories were made and will last forever.

Love's savage existence flourished and blossomed from the pain of release of red last year and losing tigger this year. To love having a different aspect attached to my heart and soul currently to add to my already hard core loving self.


Angry Man Prime is always me but to those that want, can accept and understand at least some aspects of Me then I am here to give love, affection, passion and those things that connect you and me.

Spanksgiving: An Unforgettable Culmination

I am still tired and wore out from Spanksgiving in texas. Just got back to the house today after a day at little one's talking to contractors.

Me and the girls worked hard at the event. little one doing registration and other stuff behind the scenes. As well as people wanting to buy the monkey fists that she was making for babycake's smaller version of my monkey fist flogger Mjolnir. babycakes basically did all the coordinating again. Basically we served until Me and babycakes were the last one leaving the hotel on monday.

The girls got me a Caveman paddle club, Caveman knife and a House knife paddle shown above. I love them!

I got to do a wonderful knife scene for the first time that I fully enjoyed.

Did a scene with little one and unveiled Mjolnir. She enjoyed herself and started laughing during the scene as she has been doing in public scenes lately.

I did some impromptu scene with babycakes after her fire cupping so I could enjoy my sadism and kick her in the ass as she tried to run away.

Since the bbq I have been shocked by those that have reached out and talked to me. Both those that attend CTX events and those that haven't. I have watched an evolution of both existence, journey and just being. The conversations that have been had have been eye opening as well as enlightening.

My enjoyment was watching the people enjoy themselves and the light that shined from them as they delved into their journey at the event. They were able to be free and take it all in. From the sexy new chicks to those that have been to a few events. It fills me with a smile to a part of and observe all of this.

Finally met and enjoyed phoenix kay. Had a good time with her energy and her soft ass, sexy red headed self. I was shocked about the brass knuckles gift thoroughly from her.

My heart goes out to jade and toni and their journey since last year. They have both grown so much and come so far. I can't help but grin and be happy for them.

babycakes FUN neral presentation went well. But I expected that because it is what she knew about and had done for decades. The people loved the information and class thoroughly. So now both of my girls have presented in the community and continue to present.

Dating continues to be an unusable mess since there really aren't any candidates that are worthy or able to handle the role. I don't need to repeat my bad choices and my requirements are most evidently cemented even more now.

As I finish this up and I remember all the things that went on the weekend I am glad to have gone and to be a part of MDHL and CTX Darkside.

Eleven Years After the Wedding

Eleven years ago yesterday was the best day of my life. Team Titan was solidified and the human race became safe.

On that day we towered over the officiant and made everyone that did not know us cry. Eternity was etched upon us at that moment.

My memories are delightful and it is something I would never take back even if I knew that My Chocolate Doll would die.

People offer their condolences and positive words. Some offer support and I thank them even though I don't need it. 

I still feel. There are some times tears in private. But there is just joy.