This Weeks Apparent Theme: Projection

Sitting up and conversing about everything going on. We have realized that apparently this week the estrogen coalition has decided that it is projection week. Meaning that whatever issues, perceived thoughts, feelings and everything no matter how irrational will be thrust upon any man or Dominant possible.

From issues blown up from enjoying a posted ass pic to asking a simple informational question to being up set because you got exactly what you asked for.

We haven't made it to the middle of the week yet and the idiocy has been rolling deep already.

Time to sit back and watch the rest of this estrogen, feminist clusterfuck unfold. We will continue to do what we do and look at the zoo from a safe distance.

Fucked up females and feminists

I have to laugh at shit today because females have showed just how useless they are today. From the mysognistic comment to the stank ass attitude.

It is obvious that females are so fucked up that they can't help themselves or anything. But needing to project their fucked up lives and mentalities are not even necessary.

Oh well monkey bitches grow by the moment

Murphy's Law In Effect Now

It seems after South Plains everyone has come out almost. I have been contacted by some females from my past as well as my ex and someone new. I am not sure what is going on but I am watching.

Blast from the past of over 10 years ago came back and said she was thinking about me. I hadn't really seen her since she was going to school in macon. She reminded me that I saw her when I was in jersey with the retarded monkey bitch and the thieving monkey bitch. Wants me as a birthday present. lol I seem to be in that category again.

A new slave spoke up. Interesting. 

Pegasus has stepped up and communicated more. I guess she took the discussion to heart now. So the talking has began again. 

Still no tigger. Not sure what has happened or is going on or if it merely is a reflection of dating the past couple of years and how it is shit

Not sure about the coy, undecided one since she is standoffish and stuff. But I am told that she is interested. 

crumb has decided to be interested as well. With thoughts of and ramification of a ldr and dynamic. So we talked about things and chilled. 

All of this has me wondering many things. The girls talking about the ex is still interested (which I find highly unlikely,) as well as others showing interest is because of the changes lately. 

All of this reinforced my issues, memories and disdain for dating as well as females that won't step up to the plate and be direct. 

oh well maneuvering through the quagmire

Poetic Moment: The Why of What Now?

My heart still beats for you
The tune that is unique to
Only Me and you

Why did it have to end?
Why could it not be what it was meant to be?

Your choices made
Yet, a part me still misses you
Wants the fire that once burned
Between us two

Why wasn't we important to you?
Why couldn't your love be mine too?

Questions asked
Inquires of Me and you
Reminding me of the part of myself that is missing too

Why not make the best connection bloom?
What was the point of it all?

I am not too proud to say
I miss and love you
That I mourn for what we had and grew

Why?
What happened?

Wishing you the best
Wish it was still me and you
But your choice was made
I couldn't choose for you

So here I am
Lost in retrospect
Missing you



from the chocolatezeus collection  3/19/19  (c)

Movement and Motivation

After a hilarious conversation with a drunk 21 year old white girl at the bar the other night where she wanted to try to convert me to liking people. Discussions of dating and relationships had me laughing and all. She told me she loved me like 6 times standing there with her boyfriend. Even had to take a picture with me.  The whole time trying to convert me to liking people.

The ideology of individuals attempting conversion of me and my ways brings out the modern ways of the humans.

I ended a relationship last year because they made a decision that it wasn't important and all. No problem.

Through out these years I have learned a lot. My disdain for dating has only increased. Especially with the modern day female not putting any effort into a relationship or just wanting someone to be on the shelf until they are in the mood.

I never gave up on relationships but I understand that it is like winning the lottery now. So I have become even more diligent and picky about females. Their agendas are more obvious now more than ever.

My love and heart hasn't changed. Application of it, applicants and screening has.

Nothing has changed. Just stronger and better than I was.


Give em what they want so they can be in their comfort zone. They will learn one way or another.

Life Unscripted: A Birthday, Collaring and Leather

Sorry much has happened in the last two weeks. The adventures, realizations and revelations were just the beginning of it all. From atlanta to greensboro. To charlotte to atlanta to dallas and back. The traveling was real. lol  But I am back at the beach and the issues with the parental and his daughter.

So the first weekend was babycake's birthday. she chose where she wanted to eat so it was tacos and hand cut noodles the weekend. Still laughing at her, her sister and brother in law eating the huge dish that was too hot for them. But she enjoyed her time, got her ass beat and needs met.

Next up was the trip to South Plains Leatherfest...

The atl airport was a mess once again as we were leaving at 630am. little one had my 40 count humidor and got checked out because the tsa monkey bitch thought it was a gun case. babycakes barely made it to the plane and she was there before we got there and that is with her wheelchair service.

I am glad we arrived early. it gave us time to check out things before everyone really got in. And the chick at the hotel desk named Margo can definitely get fucked and beaten with her sexy damn self.

So we had to get some Dominant time in at Cigar International. I wasn't impressed with the cigar selection there. But there were some thick and sexy chicks getting cigars and smoking there. The lounge was great and had a full bar along with food so that was the best part of it all.

With all the rescheduling we had the surprise collaring for little one thursday night. With her blindfolded. babycakes and I walked her to the pool area. I had told her that she would be considered for collaring in 2021. With her standing there I took the blindfold off and she was shocked. The tears came as she realized it was her collaring ceremony. Standing there with Sir Bear and Sir Rey was an unforgettable moment completely. As everyone watched everything changed. Pics and video were taken and I have still not seen them all.

There was so much going on. People spoke and loved my t shirts. Met a sexy ass skinny Serbian chick who was a sadistic top. Great convo and information definitely came out in classes and a lot in the smoking section. Met a couple from colorado springs and got an invite up there.

I attended "tailor making your dynamic," "M/s Burnout," "Psychological Sadism," "Still Crazy," "Leather Houses of Color Panel" classes. Information overload was definitely in play.

I get hit in the head like Wiley E Coyote by recognition. I finally had to realize that people knew of me and more than I thought. It truly culminated when Master Seykou called me out during the lohcc panel. It hit home that with leather and everything now I am no longer fully the man behind the curtain. More on this later though.

Leather was on display and felt all weekend. There were some negatives amid all the positive but the true light shown through. A leather experience that left it's mark most definitely.

This trip was the first for the House of Havoc. A lot of firsts.

Much was learned. Much was experienced. Much to digest still.

My Motto: All In Or All Out

I have been told that I need to think and act in the grey area. And I refuse to do that because I refuse to allow myself to be some wishy washy, blow in the wind fool.

In love, life, my dynamic and relationships it is All in or All out.  The reason why I love deeper than females can handle as well as ca let them have their disconnection that they want.

As I prepare for even more solidification of the House of Havoc next week I look at the picture as a whole and I am thankful for the learning, growth and realization. It has brought me to a stronger relationship and dynamic standard as well as a stronger House.

I can't wait for next week. All in goes All in Full Monty.

Plus I am looking forward to the new new as well. *grin*

The Insta relation/dynamic Mentality These Days

I am still baffled at the lazy, nonchalant mentality of females these days.

They scream. I am not settling for less. I know my worth. I need this and that. I am independent all this. And I want a relationship and dynamic.

Reality is that they want it their way with no effort as they do absolutely nothing but sit back. Everything is supposed to magically fall in place for them and the only concern is them.

Whether is dating or anything else the same silly mentality seems to spread like a cancer. Government, society and everything have produced so many damaged females that this is all they know.

So I learned my valuable lessons from dealing with females. No effort and maintained actions then it is all good. Faith in their abilities to have a relationship or anything is pretty much dead. I can only go with what you show me anyway.

So if you want the have it your way relation and the add whoever insta mix situations. Have at it and enjoy.

I have learned my lessons and will continue to keep my distance from the cancerous individuals.

I Am Love and Love is Me

I give freely

my heart and soul

for I chose you

to be the recipient of

all this celestial loving

love unstoppable

This is one of those many days I miss Chocolate Doll. The passion, love, commitment and consistency. The things that separate Superwoman from women.

I am the Caveman that loves deeply just as much as I show apathy. It is all the things and sides that others will not get to see. With my heart as big as my Evil it makes it unforgettably unique.

Miss little one and babycakes. But that is because we have to handle life as well as get ready for Dallas in a couple of weeks. 

wish someone else had made it but choices are individuals rights.

No matter whether it is valentines or a day ending in y. Love, show and maintain love, passion and all with those that are with you and deserve it.

So happy valentines day. and make the ones you love great again

Salud From Mardi Gras Country

Been here in Lake Charles working. Definitely a damn adventure since coming down here

The good thing is that i got to see tareze again and see little tia since I haven't seen her since she was super tiny years ago. Didn't see little Donnie again since they don't stop baseball practice until 9pm.

Of course I have been sick since my trip to fayettenam. And it reared its ugly head while I have been here rather strongly. But I am quite a bit better now.

So much is going on this year. And it already started day one of this year. Making things happen and keeping things on track for the House of Havoc is definitely a chore. But the learning, adventure and unforgettable moments are on deck and on their way.

My mind has been going at warp speed and holding the reigns to 12 super novas at the same time. This time really made me appreciate those that ride with me, down with me and accept this adventure. Things get better and better through all the trials and tribulations.

Next scheduled stop is South Plains Leatherfest. This will mark a huge change moving forward


So as they say you better Go Hard or Go Home
Have a good one

So you Want to Talk About Consistency?

I hear females and s types repeatedly say that there has to be consistency. You need to be consistent. They need to be consistent. 

The entertainment comes when they holler all of this but they are so inconsistently consistent. During all their screams and rants about needed consistency they refuse to be consistent at all themselves.

inconsistent in:

• communication
• maintaining a relationship or dynamic
• ability
• emotions
• heart
• connection

So, until the lightbulb finally goes on in their little heads I will continue to be entertained with their drama and me too shenanigans.

Just another play to be observed upon the stage these days

What they said about the pretty females is true...

They are pretty and gorgeous but damn they are really mentally, emotionally and life wise fucked up.

But seeing and experiencing is definitely believing.

Females will definitely show you over the last year fo sho

Comic Con and I Was Gone

Saturday little one and I spent some hours at the greensboro comic con. I love doing things like this and I always looked forward to sharing things like this with who I was and am with. This is when the worthy people get to see a different part of me that is fun, silly and more. 

little one enjoyed herself a lot also. Talking to the black artists and the cosplay people there had her geeked. 

The 501st Legion was there and I am so glad I got to take some pics with them. Vader, mandalorians, storm troopers. I love the work they do in cosplay as well as the community. The pictures are priceless. And little one got a pic with a purple mando lol.

It was small but it was so much damn fun. I can't wait to hit some bigger ones next. 

I picked up one of the artists black comic books as well. 

Great convo with black vendors about the state of movies and comic movies today was ultra deep and geeky.

on the way out i took a pic with Deadpool and Deathstroke which a great culmination to the adventure. 

Totally geeked up!!!