Movement and Motivation

After a hilarious conversation with a drunk 21 year old white girl at the bar the other night where she wanted to try to convert me to liking people. Discussions of dating and relationships had me laughing and all. She told me she loved me like 6 times standing there with her boyfriend. Even had to take a picture with me.  The whole time trying to convert me to liking people.

The ideology of individuals attempting conversion of me and my ways brings out the modern ways of the humans.

I ended a relationship last year because they made a decision that it wasn't important and all. No problem.

Through out these years I have learned a lot. My disdain for dating has only increased. Especially with the modern day female not putting any effort into a relationship or just wanting someone to be on the shelf until they are in the mood.

I never gave up on relationships but I understand that it is like winning the lottery now. So I have become even more diligent and picky about females. Their agendas are more obvious now more than ever.

My love and heart hasn't changed. Application of it, applicants and screening has.

Nothing has changed. Just stronger and better than I was.


Give em what they want so they can be in their comfort zone. They will learn one way or another.

Life Unscripted: A Birthday, Collaring and Leather

Sorry much has happened in the last two weeks. The adventures, realizations and revelations were just the beginning of it all. From atlanta to greensboro. To charlotte to atlanta to dallas and back. The traveling was real. lol  But I am back at the beach and the issues with the parental and his daughter.

So the first weekend was babycake's birthday. she chose where she wanted to eat so it was tacos and hand cut noodles the weekend. Still laughing at her, her sister and brother in law eating the huge dish that was too hot for them. But she enjoyed her time, got her ass beat and needs met.

Next up was the trip to South Plains Leatherfest...

The atl airport was a mess once again as we were leaving at 630am. little one had my 40 count humidor and got checked out because the tsa monkey bitch thought it was a gun case. babycakes barely made it to the plane and she was there before we got there and that is with her wheelchair service.

I am glad we arrived early. it gave us time to check out things before everyone really got in. And the chick at the hotel desk named Margo can definitely get fucked and beaten with her sexy damn self.

So we had to get some Dominant time in at Cigar International. I wasn't impressed with the cigar selection there. But there were some thick and sexy chicks getting cigars and smoking there. The lounge was great and had a full bar along with food so that was the best part of it all.

With all the rescheduling we had the surprise collaring for little one thursday night. With her blindfolded. babycakes and I walked her to the pool area. I had told her that she would be considered for collaring in 2021. With her standing there I took the blindfold off and she was shocked. The tears came as she realized it was her collaring ceremony. Standing there with Sir Bear and Sir Rey was an unforgettable moment completely. As everyone watched everything changed. Pics and video were taken and I have still not seen them all.

There was so much going on. People spoke and loved my t shirts. Met a sexy ass skinny Serbian chick who was a sadistic top. Great convo and information definitely came out in classes and a lot in the smoking section. Met a couple from colorado springs and got an invite up there.

I attended "tailor making your dynamic," "M/s Burnout," "Psychological Sadism," "Still Crazy," "Leather Houses of Color Panel" classes. Information overload was definitely in play.

I get hit in the head like Wiley E Coyote by recognition. I finally had to realize that people knew of me and more than I thought. It truly culminated when Master Seykou called me out during the lohcc panel. It hit home that with leather and everything now I am no longer fully the man behind the curtain. More on this later though.

Leather was on display and felt all weekend. There were some negatives amid all the positive but the true light shown through. A leather experience that left it's mark most definitely.

This trip was the first for the House of Havoc. A lot of firsts.

Much was learned. Much was experienced. Much to digest still.

My Motto: All In Or All Out

I have been told that I need to think and act in the grey area. And I refuse to do that because I refuse to allow myself to be some wishy washy, blow in the wind fool.

In love, life, my dynamic and relationships it is All in or All out.  The reason why I love deeper than females can handle as well as ca let them have their disconnection that they want.

As I prepare for even more solidification of the House of Havoc next week I look at the picture as a whole and I am thankful for the learning, growth and realization. It has brought me to a stronger relationship and dynamic standard as well as a stronger House.

I can't wait for next week. All in goes All in Full Monty.

Plus I am looking forward to the new new as well. *grin*

The Insta relation/dynamic Mentality These Days

I am still baffled at the lazy, nonchalant mentality of females these days.

They scream. I am not settling for less. I know my worth. I need this and that. I am independent all this. And I want a relationship and dynamic.

Reality is that they want it their way with no effort as they do absolutely nothing but sit back. Everything is supposed to magically fall in place for them and the only concern is them.

Whether is dating or anything else the same silly mentality seems to spread like a cancer. Government, society and everything have produced so many damaged females that this is all they know.

So I learned my valuable lessons from dealing with females. No effort and maintained actions then it is all good. Faith in their abilities to have a relationship or anything is pretty much dead. I can only go with what you show me anyway.

So if you want the have it your way relation and the add whoever insta mix situations. Have at it and enjoy.

I have learned my lessons and will continue to keep my distance from the cancerous individuals.

I Am Love and Love is Me

I give freely

my heart and soul

for I chose you

to be the recipient of

all this celestial loving

love unstoppable

This is one of those many days I miss Chocolate Doll. The passion, love, commitment and consistency. The things that separate Superwoman from women.

I am the Caveman that loves deeply just as much as I show apathy. It is all the things and sides that others will not get to see. With my heart as big as my Evil it makes it unforgettably unique.

Miss little one and babycakes. But that is because we have to handle life as well as get ready for Dallas in a couple of weeks. 

wish someone else had made it but choices are individuals rights.

No matter whether it is valentines or a day ending in y. Love, show and maintain love, passion and all with those that are with you and deserve it.

So happy valentines day. and make the ones you love great again

Salud From Mardi Gras Country

Been here in Lake Charles working. Definitely a damn adventure since coming down here

The good thing is that i got to see tareze again and see little tia since I haven't seen her since she was super tiny years ago. Didn't see little Donnie again since they don't stop baseball practice until 9pm.

Of course I have been sick since my trip to fayettenam. And it reared its ugly head while I have been here rather strongly. But I am quite a bit better now.

So much is going on this year. And it already started day one of this year. Making things happen and keeping things on track for the House of Havoc is definitely a chore. But the learning, adventure and unforgettable moments are on deck and on their way.

My mind has been going at warp speed and holding the reigns to 12 super novas at the same time. This time really made me appreciate those that ride with me, down with me and accept this adventure. Things get better and better through all the trials and tribulations.

Next scheduled stop is South Plains Leatherfest. This will mark a huge change moving forward


So as they say you better Go Hard or Go Home
Have a good one

So you Want to Talk About Consistency?

I hear females and s types repeatedly say that there has to be consistency. You need to be consistent. They need to be consistent. 

The entertainment comes when they holler all of this but they are so inconsistently consistent. During all their screams and rants about needed consistency they refuse to be consistent at all themselves.

inconsistent in:

• communication
• maintaining a relationship or dynamic
• ability
• emotions
• heart
• connection

So, until the lightbulb finally goes on in their little heads I will continue to be entertained with their drama and me too shenanigans.

Just another play to be observed upon the stage these days

What they said about the pretty females is true...

They are pretty and gorgeous but damn they are really mentally, emotionally and life wise fucked up.

But seeing and experiencing is definitely believing.

Females will definitely show you over the last year fo sho

Comic Con and I Was Gone

Saturday little one and I spent some hours at the greensboro comic con. I love doing things like this and I always looked forward to sharing things like this with who I was and am with. This is when the worthy people get to see a different part of me that is fun, silly and more. 

little one enjoyed herself a lot also. Talking to the black artists and the cosplay people there had her geeked. 

The 501st Legion was there and I am so glad I got to take some pics with them. Vader, mandalorians, storm troopers. I love the work they do in cosplay as well as the community. The pictures are priceless. And little one got a pic with a purple mando lol.

It was small but it was so much damn fun. I can't wait to hit some bigger ones next. 

I picked up one of the artists black comic books as well. 

Great convo with black vendors about the state of movies and comic movies today was ultra deep and geeky.

on the way out i took a pic with Deadpool and Deathstroke which a great culmination to the adventure. 

Totally geeked up!!!

So Respect is Earned you say

Humans are entitled to their own views and opinions. On the same token I am entitled to respond how I see for to their actions.

There have been a lot of commentary by females, submissives and others that respect is Earned and they do not have to respect anyone, Dominants or Masters, etc. But these are the same people screaming that they need to be respected.

So...

If you don't want to respect anyone that is your choice. In turn I dontd need to respect you as a being either. I stay clear of these types of individuals.

Even the monkey bitches, frauds and others get respect from me. I respect their position out of my world.

Oh well. More good information observed so I can apply the necessary actions.

*Slow clap*

Taking a Quick Breath

Just over a week into the new year and things are already rolling like the Big Red One. So much to do and get done. As well as so much has already happened.

I am off to cleveland sunday for training on monday. So this will be completely brand new. 

babycakes birthday celebration right before south plains. 

Getting things together for South Plains leatherfest is a chore also. But it will be a very special time and one etched in time for sure. So more to figure out and schedule. And things to get. I am looking forward to the House of Havoc being at it's first leather event together. 

No telling where I will be heading for work. 

I have the brats reunion, my birthday and the CTX bbq also this summer along with probably another leather event in there. Add little one's birthday trip and whatever else comes up in there. 

At least two trips out of the country added in that as well. England and Jamaica here I come. Maybe even venice finally.

More toys coming. Got little one a leather vest. Patches to be done. Organizing for dallas. Most of it done and figured out. 

All I can do is nod my head and look at from last year until now and see the chasm of distance covered. 

Well back to it

Join the chaos and live!!

Soul Poetry: Shot to the Heart

Shot to the Heart

Eyes burning

Lava flows no longer controlled

Turning to blood before they fall to the floor

That hole remains

The one that wants you still

Even with the black hole

The remains linger

End of Days hold

Hate the finality that was chosen

Reminder of failed vision

Dead reckoning

Exposed

Heart remains on the

Dark side of the moon

At 300 below

That faint heart beat glows

Slow nuclear explosions

Hidden, but unstoppable

Love is me

Love is what I live and breathe

Even when it is removed from me

Even with my dead heart

It is more than most

A love that will roast the sun of others soul

Love

My apathetic apostle

Death hold

Even with the black hole

My love

Won’t stop

Force of one

If you didn’t know

Well

Now you know

From the chocolatezeus collection  1/8/19  ©

So you want Consistency ehhhh?

I have gotten a good chuckle from those submissives and females that always want to bring up. Men need to be consistent. Dominants need to be consistent.

But wait...

Are you consistent? Are you communicating? Providing service, Staying connected?


lol

Exactly


Might want to keep that we need to be consistent to yourself until you get with the program