So Respect is Earned you say

Humans are entitled to their own views and opinions. On the same token I am entitled to respond how I see for to their actions.

There have been a lot of commentary by females, submissives and others that respect is Earned and they do not have to respect anyone, Dominants or Masters, etc. But these are the same people screaming that they need to be respected.

So...

If you don't want to respect anyone that is your choice. In turn I dontd need to respect you as a being either. I stay clear of these types of individuals.

Even the monkey bitches, frauds and others get respect from me. I respect their position out of my world.

Oh well. More good information observed so I can apply the necessary actions.

*Slow clap*

Taking a Quick Breath

Just over a week into the new year and things are already rolling like the Big Red One. So much to do and get done. As well as so much has already happened.

I am off to cleveland sunday for training on monday. So this will be completely brand new. 

babycakes birthday celebration right before south plains. 

Getting things together for South Plains leatherfest is a chore also. But it will be a very special time and one etched in time for sure. So more to figure out and schedule. And things to get. I am looking forward to the House of Havoc being at it's first leather event together. 

No telling where I will be heading for work. 

I have the brats reunion, my birthday and the CTX bbq also this summer along with probably another leather event in there. Add little one's birthday trip and whatever else comes up in there. 

At least two trips out of the country added in that as well. England and Jamaica here I come. Maybe even venice finally.

More toys coming. Got little one a leather vest. Patches to be done. Organizing for dallas. Most of it done and figured out. 

All I can do is nod my head and look at from last year until now and see the chasm of distance covered. 

Well back to it

Join the chaos and live!!

Soul Poetry: Shot to the Heart

Shot to the Heart

Eyes burning

Lava flows no longer controlled

Turning to blood before they fall to the floor

That hole remains

The one that wants you still

Even with the black hole

The remains linger

End of Days hold

Hate the finality that was chosen

Reminder of failed vision

Dead reckoning

Exposed

Heart remains on the

Dark side of the moon

At 300 below

That faint heart beat glows

Slow nuclear explosions

Hidden, but unstoppable

Love is me

Love is what I live and breathe

Even when it is removed from me

Even with my dead heart

It is more than most

A love that will roast the sun of others soul

Love

My apathetic apostle

Death hold

Even with the black hole

My love

Won’t stop

Force of one

If you didn’t know

Well

Now you know

From the chocolatezeus collection  1/8/19  ©

So you want Consistency ehhhh?

I have gotten a good chuckle from those submissives and females that always want to bring up. Men need to be consistent. Dominants need to be consistent.

But wait...

Are you consistent? Are you communicating? Providing service, Staying connected?


lol

Exactly


Might want to keep that we need to be consistent to yourself until you get with the program

Last Call...2018 Out Y'all!!

The year closed. Honestly it went really fast and in other ways it went too fast. But it is over with.

December was fully of great conversations, laughter, adventures and a whole lot more. My people represented well and we all enjoyed ourselves.

Myrtle Beach was good. The first House of Havoc New Years together.

Oh, and the girls asked me about and were concerned about me having another relationship.  Yeah, I am just going to sit back and watch how this goes. But yeah the Oyabun is in full force!

I am thankful for all those that chose to be down with me, spend time with me, grow and experience with me. I look forward to all the things that is going on this year.

Next stops are Cleveland and Dallas on the books. Who knows were else I may end up though. lol


Happy New Year to you

This Year's Learning Curve

I have questioned if I have learned from everything this year or has it just been a clusterfuck. I think that I have learned a lot. Many hard lessons and good lessons. Either way I came to the end of the year moving forward with speed and power.

Some of the learning battles:

• If you or something is not important to them. Then smile and wave at them
• The gorgeous ones tend to be the extra crazy
• When you give them what they want and ask for you will still be the villian 
• You can't open someone's eyes, heart or soul when they want to make sure that they are dead internally
• The how and why of the culmination of the House of Havoc
• The strength and honor of my love remains even when it has been blitzkrieged against it
• The battles, mortal wounds, death and dismemberment have created the Ultimate Caveman

Just a snippet. But so much has gone down this year. Life Unscripted apparently decided to speed up this year. Hell, I am still trying to figure out some of these lessons that I have been put into this year. 

Time for a few more drinks and to go continue plotting. More later...

Christmas eve and Bourbon Drinks

So tomorrow is christmas. I haven't felt it this year.  I don't normally feel it since CD is gone. But this time things are feeling worse.

People think that I miss the female parental unit but I haven't thought of her and it will be a year since she died next month. I know it is anti what the humans think and feel. they can think and feel what they want. But, they don't know me nor do I care.

The parental unit is still making a mess. Apparently he is getting worse and his attitude is definitely getting a lot worse. Will see how he ends up next month with the anniersary of the female parental units death.

Missing my Chocolate Doll, so I  grabbed some of that baked potato salad that she loved for tomorrow. I smiled at memories of us and our adventures. Still chuckling at things.

The gifts have flowed this year. It has been amazing. Giving and receiving. 

Looking forward to this weekend. Time for a House of Havoc first. It will be unforgettable. Still, I miss red but I am glad that she is making her moves and living her life. 

So much but catch the rest at the proper places and at the proper time. 

into a New Dawn

life has had a lot going on. life unscripted has been in overload. 

i have had to step up and make things happen. Gave space and opportunities as well as dealt with loss and failure. 

Through it all i have held on to memories and god times. Walked my path alone as always. And even became public enemy number one to someonw that was a part of me. 

The year is about at a close and things have been all over the place. I had to stop fighting those that don't want or can't be with me. Give those that i knew what they asked for from me. 

This is the tip of it but i am going to drink and smoke now. 

Shall return

Poetry from the Heart: A Bridge Too Far

A Bridge Too Far

Do you know?

The emotions and feelings

The consequences upon

A broken heart

Destiny

My whole

Torn completely apart

The threads I held onto for so long

Each moment moved

Further and further apart

I fought and I fought

For the thing that was important

To my soul

Life and heart

I rub my head

Turn back to look through weary eyes

The life and times

From the chocolatezeus collection  12/11/18  ©

Prince & The New Power Generation - 7 (Official Music Video)

This truly put things into words, actions, perspective and maintains them









[Chorus]
All seven and we'll watch them fall
They stand in the way of love
And we will smoke them all
With an intellect and a savoir faire
No one in the whole universe
Will ever compare
I am yours now and you are mine
And together we'll love through
All space and time, so don't cry
One day all seven will die

[Instrumental]

[Chorus]
All seven and we'll watch them fall
They stand in the way of love
And we will smoke them all
With an intellect and a savoir faire
No one in the whole universe
Will ever compare
I am yours now and you are mine
And together we'll love through
All space and time, so don't cry
One day all seven will die

[Verse 1]
And I saw an angel come down unto me
In her hand she holds the very key
Words of compassion, words of peace
And in the distance an army's marching feet
1 2 3 4, 1 2 3 4
But behold, we will watch them fall

And we lay down on the sand of the sea
And before us animosity will stand and decree
That we speak not of love only blasphemy
And in the distance, six others will curse me
But that's all right
That's all right
For I will watch them fall
1 2 3 4 5 6 7

[Chorus]
All seven and we'll watch them fall
They stand in the way of love
And we will smoke them all
With an intellect and a savoir faire
No one in the whole universe
Will ever compare
I am yours now and you are mine
And together we'll love through
All space and time, so don't cry
One day all seven will die

Ode to Loving: I Gladly Risked it All

I Gladly Risked It All

Sitting here

Trying to remember

Contemplate even

The last time

I was intoxicated

Enveloped and comforted

Laughed and was intrigued

By and with

My chocolate

Maybe I was delusional to think

That you were and would be

My everything

No, I saw clearly

Analyzed everything

Saw all the things that you

Can’t, won’t or couldn’t

See or believe

Dived deep into

The deep dark swirls of you

Ingested every drop I could

Craved each morsel with abandonment

Chocolate

Was all I wanted and knew

Then came a recall

Missing shipments

Even back orders were of no use

Each moment flickers in my mind’s eye

Experiences continue that sho nuf glow

As all the different songs play in the background

Connected remnants of

Our who

No pain

No anger

Some disbelief

But

No regrets for the things

That made up what we did do

Chocolate will always remain

A part of me

Molten lava memories

Intellectual soliloquies

Chocolate upon chocolate

Lasting passionate memories

All given

Given my all

No worries

From the chocoltazeus collection  12/3/18  ©

Poetry from the Cave: What you See is what You Get!!

the wind no longer blows

I attempt to remember something 

anything at all

then I laugh

no memories at all

bits and pieces

reveal

conceal

the whole

swirls and spins

steps taken

seperation created

what was created

turned to a stalemate

checkmate

the Caveman remains

garbed in leather and invincible

armored remains

stepping forward

House strengthening

as the world turns

as I burn it all down

Leaving my marks pulsating

Havoc remains

Eternally

from the chocolatezeus collection. (c). 11/28/18

As the Fog Clears

Things have really been coming together and revealing a lot. Especially lately.

People have changed. Inhabitants of the circle have changed. As you usual I have sat back and analyzed and observed it all.

Gave it the old college try. But as always from beginning to end I had to be prepared. And regardless of what I saw as potential choices were made.

I snicker and give the head nod.



It's Time!!