The Flow and Laughter of It All

So this will be all over the place but I am a damn caveman and that is what I do.

ACC women's basketball tournament wasn't like it use to be back in the day. There wasn't all the crowds of people or anything. Rather lackluster. And they didn't really market it at all either it seems. Since this is the first year back after the bathroom bill charade I guess it hasn't caught on.

It seems that I am back in counselor and teaching mode. From helping submissives and slaves to talking to vanillas I have never met. I am still weary about helping anyone anymore after last years mess with them females. But it is a part of me no matter how hard I try to shake it apparently.

Some great talks about travel, movies, comics and food have happened with some new people lately. It has been refreshing to communicate at times. Have conversation and exchange interest and creativity.

I have played the Team Titans album a few times. Washed in emotion, feelings and memories provided some great poems and plenty of reflection. Still have to finish a few more from while I was gone.

The discussions about my version of poly. Being a Dominant and love have definitely been colorful. From those that feel it is an issue because what I have chosen to do doesn't fit their little minds and what the masses say I am supposed to do about being poly and those I am involved with. Or the big thing about how I am involved or not involved with others. And of course the usual issue about those that are supposed to be mine having a higher place than others (apparently they don't want to be special to me.)

I have had to really look at the comedy of love, relations and marriage now. Most know that I am pro love, relationships and marriage. But the disconnect they have is that I no longer have an interest really in love or marriage. It is if they can actually love me and not have a melt down then fine. The marriage thing is dead. Unless someone seriously worthy shows up and can handle the role without all the fucked up issues then I am extra good.  But little one and red have both said the same thing along with others that I haven't given up on those things and i still want them. Well truth is in the action and the action has been showing that there is ABSOLUTE ZERO left.  Just sticking with the policy of get in where you fit in if you want. I am still not chasing or making effort if there is not any effort or interest. Plug and play!

BB2 is moving into service stage as soon as I clear up some more stuff. Then I will add them and spread everything out so there will be more coverage for me just like in the old days with a less intimate demeanor.

I am still enjoying Black Panther. Glad that they did a different style movie. Looking forward to Deadpool 2 next.

lol after talking to josh really thinking about going to pick up a few wives for entertainement, sex and financial purposes.

The R/C shop was nice this weekend. Definitely have to head back there. And they had an F 4 corsair and a spitfire there. It is on now.

And cigar shops are life! The place where i go and always end up laughing and talking to a bunch of folk that I have no idea about.  I just need to get up north and hang out with more black chicks that smoke cigars though. There are some fine ones.

And then there is the graduation for my god daughter coming up on memorial day weekend of all weekends. I need a woman to go with me to chaperone, fuck me and for me to beat while I am there. Because it is going to be a hot mess for me. Still have to support my god daughter though. I need to work on someone to do that with now.

And back to the old school is where it is at once again. This year will be back to the basics and being on the go and all that. So yeah, it's on already.

I hope your time has been enlightening and entertaining as mine. There will be more to come in this journey of Life Unscripted though. (the other stuff is where you know it has to be...lol)

Poetic Moment: Lockon Stratus

Lockon Stratus

Come taste my heart beat

Dine upon a love so cold

Let your palette be spoiled by

My fierce passion

As I grip your heart, mind and soul

Destroying your deteriorated feelings

You past imprisonment

Replaced with

Your unexplained craving

Distinct disdain and hatred

For what you feel for me

Fight it

Fight it

The bittersweet, spoiled taste of

You and me

Here in this ethos

Through our astral intimacy

You conflict shows

Prominently

My sniper shots found their mark

Each struck your armored plated heart

Premeditated defenses from your very start

Now I bask in your turmoil

Lick my lips in your quagmire

If only you opened up to

Our parts

My armored piercing rounds

Shot

From the chocolatezeus collection  3/1/18  ©

Poetic Expression: Our Existence

Our Existence

We are

The remnants of

What is

What was

Battle scars left

Battle lines drawn

Wins and losses

Greater than the sum of

Your love everyone absolution

Absolutely

Mixed with my

Ant disestablishment terrorist

Loving

What are

What will be

What was

Questions with no answers

Oh well

So what

We could be

We were

We was

From the chocolatezeus collection  2/27/18  ©

This sums up the girls in my life...lol

Poetic Truth: Just What You Mean to Me

Just What You Mean to Me

A light that shines so bright

In the darkest of darkness devoid of light

Lighting the way

Comforting away other things

Love

In love

So deeply in love

That we are One

A look into your eyes

As I watch the swirls of

Eternity

Your presence

So potent and eminent

Imprinted on the deepest corner of my soul

More precious than all the gold

Even the silence and time could not hold

The power you hold

You surpassed the super

And made it your own

Connected to you

At the atomic level of soul

You heated the absolute zero

Of my heart so cold

That smile

That forever broke

My titanium faced present and past

The Beast ate from your hand

Make Me Better

Your plan of attack

My surrender

Pleasantly evident

Pioneered

Showed the way

Now

You have to help me

With what you wanted me to achieve

So I can honor what you

Meant

Wanted for me

The pure loving that you brought out of me

Always giving respect to

What you mean to

Me

From the chocolatezeus collection 2/26/18  ©

Poetic Emotions: Missing Piece

Missing Piece

I had the puzzle finished

Every piece pristine and fitted

Accomplished

Crowning achievement

As I stood there

Relishing in and admiring

Life took away

The biggest piece of it

But I promised you that I would keep it

Create other masterpieces

But I don’t want to

I don’t even think there is an availability

Yet I promised you

Gave my word to infinity

No new puzzles

Have come to be as interesting or fulfilling

Yet I know

I gave my wod to infinity

Damn

From the chocolatezeus collection  2/26/18  ©

Memories from the Tree

I am just listening to the CZ and CD album and letting the tears come as I remember this was the day that Big Ma died. Tonight around 10 would have been when I felt her die in NC while I was in NW Indy.
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Reminded me of family. Which reminded me of my family with Chocolate Doll.

So as I have these drinks I will say good morning to you.

Dominant and submissive

To say that it has been a journey would be a gross understatement. lol

There have been times where the thought came across, "what is the purpose?" It is not for those that want the easy road. Believe me there is less stress and wanting to not playfully choke the shit out of your submissive at times. But that is why we control ourselves, lead and maintain.

I started this journey with no mentor or close people to talk to. I started on calls and in groups. listening and paying attention. Black Beat opened my eyes about even more things and it was off to the races from there.

First dynamic was full submersion and very little of what I should have done like set thorough, explicit guidelines, expectations and all. More love than anything resembling D/s for a moment there.

Second dynamic wasn't even one I really wanted but I choose to take a bet and then see what another style submissive would be like. This was way more structured than the first one but i still should have been more strict, discerning and thorough.

These two and that other mess i allowed happen showed me just how bad I had to revamp everything. The system has been extremely changed now. Not perfect but better than previously for whoever may show up that is new. Both vanilla and lifestyles.

I was asked how do I deal with it. Especially considering the types I am attracted to end up with and all that. It is all about balance. Because you are going to deal with their attitudes, life issues and emotions and more on a regular basis. They are not going to make any sense at all and you will have to decipher it or get them to explain it finally. You have those that will want to rebel against you and fight their submission, you and the journey. Those you have to choose if it is worthwhile or not.

I have had submissive tell me I need to do it like this other guy because it works for me. Or you need to find a mentor so this will work. And I have heard other things. Reality is that it takes two at least in this to make and want things to work. Submission is not a gift. It is a choice. And if they are fighting their choice then they obviously don't want to be there so let the do them.

And there is this misconception about this is all about the Dominant getting all that they want. A real Dominant doesn't focus on that. We focus on our submissive. Like I make sure that her educational, career goals and other important things are worked towards, achieved and fulfilled. She serves me through her representation, her submission to me and alignment of will.

I have seen the disasters.
Watched and been involved in the topping from the bottom mess.
Stood in the fire as well outside of it.

D/s is a beautiful, stable and nurturing life if those involved are willing, able and down for the journey together.

Poetic Understanding: The Nexus

The Nexus

Holding separate volatile universes together

Underneath the weight of the galaxy

While straddling two black holes

That is the relational space where you will find me

Land mines for situationship enemies

Open arms for the open minded and ready

There is no blueprint

This shit is not easy

Taking strong willed women

Being the lynchpin of being

While adjusting to and holding down things

Holding burning suns

On erratic courses

With strength, wile and will

While still letting them

Run free and be themselves

So tell me again

About what is or isn’t a relationship

Or how it is all about sex

Because I am watching you struggle with

Your situationship

And you have the nerve to talk about

This poly dynamic

Oh wait

That’s right you are an expert

Always whining and crying

About what was said or done

So tell me again

What I should do

With your anti knowledgeable self?

I will be here waiting

With my three or more

But don’t rush

I am sure you have plenty wisdom

To depart

From yourself

From the chocolatezeus collection  2/24/18  ©

Poetry: Then There Was Zeus

Then There Was Zeus

Cloaked in silence

Unknown, known to the public

Dripped and dipped in

Chocolate

Enemy

Champion

Eternal villain

Laid with sexy ladies upon his arms

Silent but deadly charm

A nuclear fire mixed with a nuclear storm

He is that atomic storm

All in one

Love so ferocious

Apathy make you wonder if he is even alive anymore

Hard and soft to the core

All depending on what side

You warrant and on

Slipping into the light

To insert all of his darkness

Ignoring your judgements

Attempts to recreate or disrupt

His journey maintained

Direct

Uniquely different

Unchanged

Upon his love

Things of importance

Those people and things that are allowed in his world

All remain

As the journey through

Heaven and Hell

He fears no adversary

Chocolatezeus

The

Lord and king of

His existential plane

From the chocolatezeus collection   2/24/18  ©

Poetic Movement: Ready or Not There you Were

Ready or Not There you Were

Tell me what you want

What you seek

Are you ready?

When your words meet actions

Those things you claimed

That you want and needed

Go into action

Oh wait

Back track

Retractions

Are you ready?

Claims you made

Now fall on your own deaf ways

Stains upon your transparency

Fabricated cage

Think

Feel

Are you ready?

The truth is out there

Somewhere

Like the X Files

I guess you were

Not Ready

From the chocolatezeus collection  2/24/18  ©

Poetic Moments: Woken

Woken

Severed links

Severed ties

Links and ties

That unbind

destinyUnwound

Unresolved

Empty hearts

Empty minds

Empty lives

Unaltered timeline

Destiny denied

Laughter

For

I am

Woken

From the chocolatzeus collection  2/24/18  ©

The Week in Rear View: My Signature and Marks Left in the Ether

Valentines day came and went. Missed celebrating 10 years ago because it was fun, intimate and everything. Now, oh well in this day and age.

The fortress is stronger and distances have been increased to make those involved more comfortable in their lives and journey. *go team* Microscopic analysis has revealed the cracks, faultiness and mistakes I made in my decisions. The rectification at the Abbey of Havoc has begun and picking up Zeus speed.

Focus
Dedication
Commitment
Service

Cue...Too Short, Ice T, Tupac and Poison Clan!

The male parental unit is sick and probably getting sicker down there. His daughter is going to have to handle that stuff as well. I will do my job as usual of fix everything while staying out of it. lol

I have had some good entertainment and laughs at females. From the chick trying to talk to me and upset because I won't take responsibility for my past like she thought I should. Monkey, you don't know me like the rest of the 99.9%. And as I told her slow as I took my responsibility. I made the mistake of being involved with the females that don't work out and I fix that and move on.  So she told me her libido dried up and I was like ok lol. Then I deleted her ass with the rest of the frauds. This apparently bothered her so she had to come back and tell me that she would do one better and block me. lmfao wooooo!

I know society tells females that they need to make sure to put men down, control them and tell them what to do, what they think and how they feel. Because that is what has been the case most definitely with everyone lately. But I am not the one that will work on. Either you understand and accept me like I accept you or you can bounce. *who you with?*

Cue... They love Big Poppa, Ready For The World, Aaron Hall!

I saw Black Panther last Thursday and it was great. And not great because it was almost all black people or African garb. But because it was a quality storyline and movie. It put the Black Panther on the map in a major way. Where they even had theaters mysteriously unable to show it on the opening weekend. It showed character and detail into the characters in the movie and their lives. Giving attention to making the movie great and not relying on just catering to africans and that everyone in it is black.  The messages were abundant and profound. And yeah I like Killmonger because he showed the side that the whining asses always are opening their mouths about. And you can see how that is going on any social media or so called news outlet.  MUST SEE! I have seen it 3 times already. I even had to laugh at red after she asked me why she would take her students to see it when I asked her last year if she was taking them. Then I read that she took them lol.  Hell, we were all in the theater laughing talking and enjoying the movie. With real comic and marvel fans to those that were only there because it was black people and African stuff.  And there were some fat asses in the theater dressed up and not.

We hit the poetry night too and had a great time listening to poetry. Some thick chicks were painting and doing poetry. I ended up with the painting that lady Picasso with her thick fine ass was doing. My signature painting. Showcasing one of the things that I do as much as possible. Cup and grab ass. lol And when I realized what she was painting I had to laugh. Told her how it fit me and she was all smiles with her big tuttues ass and them curves. The other lady was just cute and thick with a nice body. Both of them were definitely faceable and would make a nice threesome especially with the hot ass poetry that they did. But you can see the painting up above lol.

Hit box car arcade and went back to being a kid with all the old arcade games. I would have really been geeked if they had a Dragon's Lair game there. But they had ms paceman and the old mortal combat games and even old pinball games and the ninja turtles and centipede. And what can I say with one dollar mimosas  lol

Cue... DMX, Eminem, KRS ONE


Back to business. There are some new things that popped up as I watch the old things fade or remove themselves. Still a lot to deal with and do but as it says on my email "Army of One, Come Get it Like the Red Cross."

I am going to deal with this 10th year and see what is left towards the end of the year. Somethings seem like they will fall off well before that though.

Next movie stop is going to be Deadpool 2. lol

oh yeah it's true, it's true!



Live life. Actually love and show love to those you care about and love. And make things happen!