Sunday, December 25, 2016

Christmas is Upon Me

This is one of the first times I have spent a quiet Christmas by myself in a very long time. The parental units are at the house and I have spent a few days here in Waterford. Just drinking, eating, writing and trying to figure out how to play the game second life.

There is concern from people that I am spending this day alone fully. That there is some form of depression or something I guess. I just don't want to be around the parental units, their daughter and whoever else will be over there so I am thankful for being able to hang out here.

It is not that I don't want to spend time with someone or don't enjoy myself. I would love to enjoy the day with someone who loves me and I loved. I miss the christmas' with my Chocolate Doll, no matter if it was just us or with other people involved.

I have enjoyed watching a bunch of Dr Who, kung fu and westerns these days. My ribs are seasoned and I am already into my 4th drink. Next up is putting the ribs on the grill and do the dressing shortly. Oh and more drinks of course.

Well, I hope everyone enjoys their Christmas and their gifts.

SALUD!!!

Friday, December 23, 2016

Hope and Poetry: Hope Still Breathes

Hope Still Breathes



It is good to smile
From interactions and thoughts of you

To enjoy the conversation
The showing of
Interest and importance

Seemingly
Outdated and outlandish things
To people these days

To delve
Into communicative delights
Shared experiences
Carnal desires
Make things more than
The usual just bareable situation

Instead
I look forward to you
In every aspect
Every day and night

The test of time
Has been shattered
With the unexpected
That hated relationship thing
These days

So
We maneuver
Oblivious to what others do
Leave them to their
Running and hiding
Fear of intimacy with another being

We embrace
Laugh and intwine together
Throwbacks to a time
Where relationships were
Wanted and less of
What is yours is mine
State of mind

A light in modern day idiodicy
As I hold onto what
We share vigorously

I am merely thankful
For the reprieve
The last bastion in relationship
Normalcy

You and me



From the chocolatezeus collection  12/23/16  ©

Poetic Reality: Displaced Remnants

Displaced Remnants



A vision of you permeates my mind
Thoughts of what ifs and what I thought
Tattered ribbons
Of my heart and mind

Love, marriage and life
That was the wishful design
The prize

But it was met with an oppositional divide
Defense mechanism or fearful design
Your availability screams
DENIED

Attempted relationship
An actual situation ship
Glimpses of love, relation and importance
All of them cremated before
There was even a chance to happen

Evidence in
Shown lack of interest and importance
Inability to attend to anything other than yourself
Anti-supportive and giving

What started out as
The big bang theory
Transmuted and fizzled to
A dying Duracell

A defibulator
Sparks and shock needed

Otherwise
This telltale path
Is already apparently
Set



From the chocolatezeus collection  12/23/16  ©

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

The Bourne Sanction

The week has been trying.

There continues to be some detrimental, personal reveals this week. Good to know where things stand as much as possible. And being able to see the facade of a former female was enlightening in all it's glory. lol

The parental units and their daughter need to be in the vacuum of space.

Yeah, it is the holiday. And in talking to little one I realize how important the holiday is for so many. And that there is concern for me since it has little meaning for me. I mean I am not married anymore so there is no one close like that for it to matter now. If someone achieved that then I will re-enter the realm of enjoying and being excited about the holidays.  Otherwise I am Good.

The Rogue One: a star wars story, was alright. Nothing spectacular. Well, except the new fighters, ships, tank and stuff tech wise that was in it. It definitely is a one shot, stand alone movie that ends where Star Wars: A New Hope immediately begins.

It has definitely been intersting and given me even more to think about this week. Thinking man lives life very intricately.


Well...
The keys to arm everything are turned to the safety off position.
The red fire button is flashing at me with a great smile.
And I am hovering over that red button with glee since it has already been used clandestinely this year on a couple of people and things.

Enjoy your night.