When the Tides Turn and Agamotto Opens

So many things have happened in these last couple of months. Things that have shaped things mentally as well as the future.

There have been some great experiences, conversations and adventures. And there have been setbacks, realizations and realignments. I am thankful for them all.

The facts of how wide the chasm is between men and females has been completely reinforced repeatedly. The ability to actually listen to what is said instead coming up with their own version is just crazy. The fact that there are so many that still want someone to jump through hoops to make them happy and feel like something is still bewildering to me but simply the fact.  Now, I understand and accept that men think differently than females but there should still be the ability to listen and understand other views. Hell, I understand they have their view regardless of whether it is mine or if I agree with it. But hey most cannot be that enlightened anyway. lol

I have been pleasantly surprised at the closeness that has grown. I wasn't expecting it but I am definitely happy about them. It has added deeper dimensions to everything. Part of that is because of my compartmentalization and adaptation, while the other is from the evolution of those relations.

I have to give a PSA here also...

If you keep trying and throwing something up in someone's face then don't be surprised when you get ignored and become vacant.


So through the

• laughter
• confused looks and disbelief
• profound communication
• seeing how much things have changed
• the beauty of isolationist plane of existence
• and the unusual usual suspects

Things were definitely marked in the history books lately. 

There will be more to come. But I have to finish laughing at Ru and our convo about living this Life Unscripted.

Until the next time...

It's all good

Really, really

good

*snicker*

Life Unscripted: D/s, Weirdness and Oddities

Perceptions...

They have been revealed, reinforced and reiterated.
The attitudes lately have been rather out of pocket. The lack of understanding what a submissive is to me has been in a negative spin apparently.

Fairness and equality are things that remain wanted in a hierarchial relationship repeatedly. There has been issues of trust as well as puzzlement of the ability to even be a submissive. Many of things seem inherent within the female gender it seems. Whether they are weird or even to the point of extra weird.

So the journey has been running through the jungles of vietnam while being chased by the viet cong many times.

I have found the ability to communicate between a man and a female is still like a trip to mars. There seems to be a need for them to interpret what is said almost all the time. So, it is a road that is hard pressed to travel to achieve the communication goal.  With trying to read my facial expressions, body language and all is really a bad way to interpret me unless you have known me deeply. And honestly there is only one person left on the planet to be close enough to have a shot at that right now. It doesn't mean that someone can't get to the point if they chose and made the effort.

One of the important thngs that people disregard and ignore is...Effort. That drive to achieve things. In this case I am talking about, relationships and dynamics. You have to maintain and show effort and interest or whatever it is will DIE.  Yeah, yeah, yeah we have built females to hide or not have emotions, attachment or anything that would resemble a relationship with another person. But in this scenario there is only the Epic failure to be expected. Everyone is not the same but the requirements are still rather standard on an individual basis.

Which brings me to a subject...

If I tell you I love you, care about you and involved you truly in my life then you are special and a part of my life. I don't and won't treat you like everyone else unless you want to be with the common everyday people I don't pay attention to mostly. I have found this is such an issue for some because their need for me to treat others better. When they should be happy and basking in where I have them in my life and importance.

In the same token I have realized that females have and will have everyone on the same level when it comes to relationships, friendships, dynamics and whatever else. And in this scenario I find myself downshifting things to that holding position. Because if my worth and value are the same as everyone else then obviously I do not need you to be important in my life or anything. So, I merely register you as an authorized user and no longer someone to be close to anymore. And this is for poly as well as non poly situations. The thought that boyfriend, Dominant or whatever is the same as the chick you are girlfriends with is unacceptable to me.

I deal with the weird ones. They stand out to me. Sometimes it has been a thin line between weird good and weird psycho monkey but I have way more positive than the few bad ones. And the bad ones were extraordinary.

After some celebrating with hurricane matthew. Some seriously bad service at days inn and cracker barrel over the weekend.  Things have been put into perspective more and I am keeping it pushing.

With those things said I will end it here...

"The beatings will continue until I am happy!!!!"

Assimilate and Exterminate: D/s Learning and Adventures

As it popped into my head today. It would be great if the Borg and Daleks joined together to take over the multiverse.

I have experienced and learned. Not only from D/s but even more in dealing with females. Because communications with females is like deciphering and trying to communicate a 986 encryption key. You speak directly their feelings get hurt and they come up with anything but what you said.  When you are not being literal, then everything is taken extremely literal.  It is like dealing with Bizarro world many times.

One of the things that I learned to do a whole lot better with were negotiations when it comes to D/s. If I ever, ever, ever do it again I am going to have to have a 15 page document that covers everything and it will be verified by my lawyer. That way there is no whining, carrying on and interpretation of anything. Lay everything out to the atomic level when it comes to a dynamic.  And once that is all done to Never accept anything less than those things on the list.

It has been asked what submission and service is to me. And my answer is that being in service to and my submissive means:

• Respecting me, us and our journey
• Completing tasks, assignments and services that I ask of you
• Achieving the goals that are set for you and our dynamic
• The ability to adapt, understand, comprehend and act upon this dynamic. Not your past ones.
• To adhere to the hierarchy, protocols, rules and concerns

So, yes D/s is not all ass beatings and fucking. It is a lot of work. Especially when you have those that would be more than a handful even in their conventional vanilla environments.

On the flipside...

I have a new kilt and that made me happy. Thanks little one! And I sported it at the last party in woodbridge. Had the people in the hotel looking crazy when I left and returned. It was funny. The guys at the cigar shop definitely complimented me on it. Hell Mr Boston showed me the 5.11 tactical site to get the tactical kilt. He even offered to loan me the money. lol

There has been public play. That has been interesting firsts with them. But after concern things were fine. I never paid much attention to those watching but they commented that they enjoyed the scenes. 

Upcoming...

Change is coming. As always and as the name means there will be more upheaval with everything. After some more thinking (yeah, like I don't do enough of that per minute) most everything will have to be reconstructed and revised. Lessons learned!

With that said. 

Me, the Daleks and the Borg are going to assimilate and exterminate as many sentient beings as possible. So grab your tardis and run or hit that warp factor 22 and be out. 

*Evil One is out*

Poet: THEY SEND ME

I am who and what you love to hate

Your public enemy number

One

Two

And three

They send me

No concern about your

Emotions

Thoughts

Or feelings

They send me

Disconnected from humanity

Killing your very souls

Leaving you a husk

Uninhabitable

They send me

To rip out

Your heart and soul

Your dreams and Joys

They send me

To feed you death

Despair

Your fears

Over and Over

Again

They send me

To annihilate

The control

Safety and

Security

That you think that you

Keep

They send me

Who is they you say?

*evil laughter*

That's fucking classified

Just know that they fucking sent me

And your next in line to find out

The finality of time

from the chocolatezeus collection  9/28/16

Sensitive Fucking People Need Culling

Yes this is a rant.

I am so sick and tired of sensitive people and their mess. They are always having issue with something or another that has nothing to fucking do with them. 

Examples:

I don't like cigars so none of you should have them

My principles dictate what you should do and how you should feel

I comment on someone being sexier rope bottom than the current girlfriend

or my favorite

You shouldn't do that because people don't do that. 

Fuck that bullshit. 

But I tell you what it let's me know who to avoid and ignore. And I appreciate that shit. 

Rant over.

Time for food, football and drinking.

Ibiza and Fetish Night

Now, I avoid downtown like the plague. I don't want to be around drunks and the like. But rope class is held at the ibiza night club where they normally have drag on fridays and everything. Well after rope class tonight they had a fetish party.

Rope class was interesting. They are doing suspensions now. I really need to work on my rope work more but I do not have a rope bottom to practice on so it is hard for me. So, I am stuck in a quandry with that. I want to be able to tie someone up and get my skills together but I cannot. Damn, my picky and difficult self.

There were quite a few people that ended up coming. Mostly vanilla folks it seemed. But it was a different environment from what I am use to. I am use to being around only people in the lifestyle. So, I watched the suspension and tying that was going on around and on the covered pool table. The vanilla folks were shocked and amazed. Even this group of black females wanted to try it. And the cutest one out of the bunch I got carebear to tie her so she could experience it. And afterwards her girls tried it as well. Even the 6ft 4 amazon with the great big chocolate titties and the face that would make frankenstein look like a male model.

As always I stayed to myself because I am anti social and honestly I know of people in the group but do not know them on a personal level. But they have always been nice and speak to me.

I did meet this girl curvaceous kitten and we talked for quite a while about her bucket list, rope and the different groups along with her cat play. I liked her coreset dress she had on. It was cool and we had good convo and laughter.

I am somewhat active in the group here. Meaning, I attend things I can, when I can. I know many people have issues being black and not attending a strictly black group's events. But reality is that is not going to happen here. Plus it really doesn't make a difference about skin color and all if things are right.

Most definitely an interesting night.

Red Alert, Shields and Battle Stations

This has been a rough week. My attitude and mood has been on the napalm mode. Things have really tested everything negatively this week across the board. I am still standing through the onslaught and turmoil.

There was a moment that was the reciprocation of kindness. I had stopped in the cigar shop for a little bit and was sitting there dealing with everything and pulling rabbits out of my ass when an elderly guy came in the store with someone else he knew. He spoke, saying "there's my boy."  I said hello and didn't think much of it at all. People know me from seeing me in the shop all the time and my Lunatics. So, I am still pulling rabbits when I look up and the same guy that spoke is handing me a Lunatic and talking about thank you. I am stunned and confused. I immediately said that you don't and didn't have to. He said he did and smiled as he went out the door with his friend. I had to ask Tim the owner what just happened. It comes out that I had forgotten that this same elderly man had came in and was getting a piece for his cane and didnt have cash and couldn't use his discover card since they do not take it. So, I paid for it and he thanked me and that was all I needed. a good deed done. time reminds me that this was the guy. I was like wow!

Even in predictive modeling there are known, unknowns that will occur. Those things that you know something crazy is possible and it happens. That has come up this week in a way that caught me a bit off guard. I still haven't really decided what to do about it if anything. I am letting some time eat through this for a minute first.

The parental units situation and them have worsened and it only seems to be moving further in that direction with more speed. So, some decisions will have to be made that I dont want to have to do with them but I am the only one that can and will be able to somehow do it.  I am going to have to wade even farther into the Mirkwood swamps in this battle.

I hung with Rich for a day. Thick pork chops, fries and stuffed mushrooms yesterday. And those damn pork chops were thick. I had never cooked them that thick before. But they were damn good. Some tony chercherans, garlic powder and pepper seasonings and then some chef made bbq sauce after that. It was good to just laugh, stay cool, smoke and carry on. Widowers Unite!!

Relations? Yeah, will have to talk about that another time.

We will just say as the title says. We are at war and the mode I am in is ferocity and carnage with tactical destruction.

Run Silent, Run Deep

Things have been everything but calm and peaceful since my return. But that is why I prepare for things. Some attempted ambushes and attacks. But I expected that from females.

See the key to compartmentalization and sterilization is your ability to adapt to the situation. To place it properly in it's context.

As Sarge use to say:

When the enemy rears it's head you take off it's head and all the heads near them!!

Ultra ABM time!!

Poetry: Temporarl Displacement

Temporal Displacement
 

The clock

Ticks

How long have we been in this

Relationship

Oops sorry

This situationship shit

Caught up in the rapture of

Antiquated socialized

Self destruction

Hiding behind your

Wizard of Oz

Curtain

Saying just hold on

Time will make everything better

Just keep giving me your all

Ummm

Time is not yours to command

And it will just keep

Moving on

Just like

Feelings and thoughts

But you thought

That you could make me wait

Just discard us

Until you did

Whatever your thing was

When you don’t

Cultivate

Invigorate

And maintain

Then

Time and relationships

Die or move on

While you sit there

Throwing your tepid fits

Remember this

You chose

Made a decision

And we weren’t

An important factor

So you have been greeted by

The stop watch

Where time is only

Moment to moment

Enjoy the seconds

Then

We are

Gone

From the chocolatezeus collection  9/13/16  ©

My Circles are Your Choice: A Zeus Principle

There has been issues, backlash, dismay that I have different circles that pertain to my life and those that are in it or interact with me.

The circles are labels given to levels of  connection with me. And they have definitely been tested and proven this past weeks worth of time.

If you are unable to be open with me and you have your defenses up so you can keep your distance then I keep you in the outer circle until you leave.

The inner circle means that you have invested more and may actually want to be around for longer than a minute or two. But you are still looking from the outside some time so I understand that and keep you here.

The inner sanctum is where those that I am close to and can accept, understand and appreciate me and all that is me reside. The place where all of me is present and accounted for without a doubt and you are invested in the same way.

Lastly there is the throne room. And this is where the true achiever resides in splendor.

The circles are what you are comfortable with when it comes to me. So you choose that path. You get to be more special than whoever is in a circle further out or not at all.

Everyone doesn't get the same treatment. Everyone doesn't connect in the same way or with the same intensity either. Just like any evaluation. You are analyzed and placed accordingly into or out of my life.

So there is the explanation

Poetic Realization: My Master Chief Mentality

My Master Chief Mentality

I look upon the world

Through my unchanged

Presence

Unreadable

Unpredictable

I am merely

A Noh mask

Showing you fully

While dashing your normalcies

Against the jagged rocks of

Your mental capacities

I am the armed

Black hole

Abyss

Of your pretension

Historic expectations

One man

Singular in purpose

Original design

I lead

Protect and serve

Give both

Love and apathy

Disconnected

So that positions and roles

Are preserved

Behind this polarized face plate

Regardless of what you cannot

See, interpret or prognosticate

Remains

The same person

That cares, loves, protects

And treats you

Better than

That populace

Or

Would you like to change?

Be the enemy

So you can understand

The other side of Hell’s, Hell

Grunts

Silence

Stoicism

All part of the duties

That I entail

But if you are with me

There is nothing to

Fear

From the chocolatezeus collection  9/11/16  ©

Poetic Reasoning: Meaningless Irrelevance

Meaningless Irrelevance

Connected together

Established intimate relationships

Merely smoke and mirrors

An ultimate myth

Dangled carrots

Of

Get to know me

Let time drift along endless

So maybe there is a chance of

This meaning something

I am calling bullshit

It is evident this is a struggle in

Personal ego fortification

Wrapped up in

Alleged

Importance

Relationships are like

A Viking funeral pyre

Floating down the river burning

Hoping that you will enter

Valhalla

So you walk through the valley of death

Unarmed and outnumbered

Battling each monster

In search of the Holy Grail

Which is basically

Just a

Grail lamp

The Holy Grail

Remains unattainable

On purpose

The way they have made it

From the chocolatezeus collection  9/9/16  ©

The Last Few Hours of the Road Warriors...This Time

As my trip here to Houston comes to a close I take the last couple of hours to prepare to return to the insanity of life back in NC. Reality has already shown itself since I have been here. Especially in the last couple of days. But I got a respite from it all so I could relax a bit, chill and think.

Laughing last night during the seafood extravaganza over crazy females, memories and just how I am definitely made the night memorable.

Things to remember this trip by

• The Claw (ctfu)
• Jiffy Nigga!
• Bombay pass out
• Scaring the sales chick at the bra shop about eating swan and bear
• The oblong trying on wedding dresses
• Bald headed ninja turtle chick

Yes, the entertainment and laughter was priceless as always when I am with my Ru.

The best part was relaxing. For once we weren't driving all over the world during my visit. I got to sit back and just chill. We laughed and cut up. We ate plenty of good food and of course I did my thing as the bestie and caused chaos and dismay. lmao

So it is time to pack to get ready to go. Grab food and stop and get some kolaches to go. Yep, I am carrying some home with me this time. 

I will see you after I come down from the friendly skies this evening. 

Oh, and I smoked plenty of cigars. The difference was it wasn't because I was stressed. it was because I could relax and enjoy them and my time. Shout out to the Serious Cigar shop for turning me on to a new short stick. The Rorshach. Just the thing for someone mentally deranged and turns people I come in contact with into Arkham Assylum attendees. lmao