In being the asshole, evil, mean and caring Dominant man that I am. It creates a very diverse and potent.
From experiences with red, little one, flower child and those I have dated I have rearranged their thoughts, feelings and emotions from being involved with me.
There is the natural need to try to correlate how I am to every or some of their past relationships. It is a common ground. Familiar territory.
I do have some things that can be seen as similar, but I think and act upon my own. Each decision, success and mistake are based on me, myself and I.
In my dating and dynamic joining I ask those that decide to be involved with me to be open and be themselves. Yes, I know females avoid, detest and treat vulnerability as the plague.
Giving them a chance to be themselves and free is terrifying for them. It goes against all their layers of super defenses they have set up against me and men.
It is those moments where heart, emotions and all appear against their will. When they involuntarily feel and respond to me against their barriers. Heart opens up and reaches for me.
It is part of D/s and dating. Where there lies a connection and raw emotional attachment. Where accountability and results weigh heavier. It is where pain and hurt is felt. Putting trust in me to handle, cherish and support their raw nerves. And I do that to the best of the situation. Because there is no absolute always correct scenario. There are times when there is a mishap. Emotions are not stable, quantifiable things.
It is like the company team building exercises. The females are laid open like a flower. At times they may close up a little, only to open again. Most of the time they want to remain sealed super tight. Trusting me to allow to be themselves and handle it is a tough one. That raw place is where the most hatred and denial takes place. The treasured vault they do not want open.
So with each I let them reach that raw point in their own ways. Even now there are the battles against it because fear is all that they know comfortably. Those things that make them think about me in situations, memories and living are what links me at a deeper level. When they think of me and their protocols out with others. Or when she is angry at something I said and feels the heat upon her being. These things are an aspect of Dominance. The mental and emotional parts joined together to feed the dynamic and the dating.
So I see the jealousy, the agitation, need to rebel and raise you another level of your emotional rawness dedicated to me. We may have different interests and manners but in the end we are linked even more than you want to understand, truly believe or fight against.
Will you open up and embark upon a deeper, more fulfilling journey? Or will you continue to deny, hide and fight both internally and externally?
Thursday, June 16, 2016
Wednesday, June 15, 2016
Poetic Expression: No Need
No Need
When I tell you how
beautiful you are constantly
Gave you my
vulnerabilities
Proclaimed you the
One
For me
There is no need
As I stand in the gap
Interceding harm and
pain
From your being
There is no need
When you twist and
contort
Eroded feelings and
fickle emotions
Through a
relationship façade
There is no need
Use the words “I love
you”
As cannon fodder
There is no need
When I refuse to
chase
Bow down and worship
You
There is no need
When the distance has
become
Immeasurable in
leagues
Where we are at the
opposite ends of the universe
Existing
There is no need
Taking into account
Your choices, participation
and demeanor
Lack of future
planning and thinking
It is obvious
There is no need
For
A you and me
From the
chocolatezeus collection 6/15/16 ©
From House Party to Submission...The Gauntlet
So the weekend I made a run to GA to handle business and to get away for a second. I can't really say have fun. It was just an escape into a familiar territory. I did accomplish my goals to: drink super heavily, eat, watch the entertainment an get in the hot tub.
I didn't get to see ms reid since she was under the weather. I did have a nice breakfast date saturday. It was good to finally meet.
So the party...
Normally these things can get extremely wild since there are always a number of swingers there. And not talking about wild as in fucking everywhere. But naked folk going around having a good time together without the sex. Well, except for licking a nipple or sucking a tittie. So this year was a little different. The lifestyle people were not the ones acting wild. It was the vanilla drunk folks. chicks eating pussy in the stripper pole room. Chick getting stripper pole burns on the insides of her pretty little thighs. And the bi and lesbians were out. Even the gay guys had to laugh and shake their heads. Even my fellow NC boy's girl was ultra wild like I had never seen before. In all the years I have never seen her drink that much and definitely grabbing dick and ass, or fingering the chick and telling me mmm don't this smell good while putting her fingers near my face. The quiet little chick done went girls gone wild. lmao I told my boy that he was in for an interesting night and sunday lmao.
The demon was being her usual boisterous, annoying self. I didn't miss that at all but that was to be expected. There was a little bit of eye candy. one amazon with a great ass. And then the usual hood certified, self absorbed females.
Some good convo about traveling, price gouging at hotels and resorts because of events. Since the amazon, the cute light skin chick and the hood chick had been to aruba the other week for the fest Mr B goes to every year. Light skin chick was the best one out the bunch. Not because her body because it really didn't stand out. she had cute little nipples through her dress. But simply because she was more even keeled than the others.
Pool playing, watching movies in the theater room and the females swinging around the pole all added to the entertainment quality. Well that and the group of gathered individuals that were there. lol
I made my guest appearance.
It reminded me about my desire, need and want for companionship with the realization of life right now at the same time.
Still rolling solo with Team Evil!
Which brought me back to reading a wonderful entry by Sir Orpheus Black What is Pure Submission?
One of the best parts of this was the following excerpt..
It is truly about that union and connection for me. Without it then I can still be your Dominant, Top and Destroyer. But it will be disconnected and devoid as you have chosen.
I have listened to, experienced and observed this need by submissives to lay down all these rules and hard limits in an attempt to keep their control over themselves. "You can't change or give me commands on this and that." Then I just see it as you want submission when it is convenient and beneficial to you.
D/s is not an exact science. I am dealing with females with multitude of issues and things going on at any given second. Mistakes are made. But if you want someone to be completely open to you and you are closed off then that is not going to happen.
I didn't begin this journey out of ego, pride and some once in a while pussy. I did so for the aspect of the leading, growth and support. And that is what I have stuck to and tried to do. It hasn't been about serving me more than the need to establish themselves in growth and understanding in themselves.
I held on to the above union between lover and beloved deeply because of being married. Now, I realize it is an ever constant sliding scale with females. I don't expect any more than that. If I get surprised I am happy. Otherwise, no loss.
My decisions are based on knowing you. And if you don't allow me to know you or let me in to understand then you are receiving what you asked for at the level you wanted.
There is always the option to break and destroy you but if i actually had interest in you that wouldn't work because I would leave your dead carcass for the carrion to feast upon.
Submission in its purest form is attainable. But as with all things you make a choice. You choose to have your wall and defcon 5 defenses up then don't blame me for the inability to connect or have anything meaningful.
Hmmm, I really need something really good from smiley to make me grin right about now.
I am sure you had a great weekend. So make your week even better.
I didn't get to see ms reid since she was under the weather. I did have a nice breakfast date saturday. It was good to finally meet.
So the party...
Normally these things can get extremely wild since there are always a number of swingers there. And not talking about wild as in fucking everywhere. But naked folk going around having a good time together without the sex. Well, except for licking a nipple or sucking a tittie. So this year was a little different. The lifestyle people were not the ones acting wild. It was the vanilla drunk folks. chicks eating pussy in the stripper pole room. Chick getting stripper pole burns on the insides of her pretty little thighs. And the bi and lesbians were out. Even the gay guys had to laugh and shake their heads. Even my fellow NC boy's girl was ultra wild like I had never seen before. In all the years I have never seen her drink that much and definitely grabbing dick and ass, or fingering the chick and telling me mmm don't this smell good while putting her fingers near my face. The quiet little chick done went girls gone wild. lmao I told my boy that he was in for an interesting night and sunday lmao.
The demon was being her usual boisterous, annoying self. I didn't miss that at all but that was to be expected. There was a little bit of eye candy. one amazon with a great ass. And then the usual hood certified, self absorbed females.
Some good convo about traveling, price gouging at hotels and resorts because of events. Since the amazon, the cute light skin chick and the hood chick had been to aruba the other week for the fest Mr B goes to every year. Light skin chick was the best one out the bunch. Not because her body because it really didn't stand out. she had cute little nipples through her dress. But simply because she was more even keeled than the others.
Pool playing, watching movies in the theater room and the females swinging around the pole all added to the entertainment quality. Well that and the group of gathered individuals that were there. lol
I made my guest appearance.
It reminded me about my desire, need and want for companionship with the realization of life right now at the same time.
Still rolling solo with Team Evil!
Which brought me back to reading a wonderful entry by Sir Orpheus Black What is Pure Submission?
One of the best parts of this was the following excerpt..
What is so powerful about this is the acceptance of ones position as the devotee. The beloved is comfortable with being and becoming whatever it is that their love needs when they need it. They draw power and inspiration from their lover. And they recognize that it is this union between lover and beloved that makes all things possible.
It is truly about that union and connection for me. Without it then I can still be your Dominant, Top and Destroyer. But it will be disconnected and devoid as you have chosen.
I have listened to, experienced and observed this need by submissives to lay down all these rules and hard limits in an attempt to keep their control over themselves. "You can't change or give me commands on this and that." Then I just see it as you want submission when it is convenient and beneficial to you.
D/s is not an exact science. I am dealing with females with multitude of issues and things going on at any given second. Mistakes are made. But if you want someone to be completely open to you and you are closed off then that is not going to happen.
I didn't begin this journey out of ego, pride and some once in a while pussy. I did so for the aspect of the leading, growth and support. And that is what I have stuck to and tried to do. It hasn't been about serving me more than the need to establish themselves in growth and understanding in themselves.
I held on to the above union between lover and beloved deeply because of being married. Now, I realize it is an ever constant sliding scale with females. I don't expect any more than that. If I get surprised I am happy. Otherwise, no loss.
My decisions are based on knowing you. And if you don't allow me to know you or let me in to understand then you are receiving what you asked for at the level you wanted.
There is always the option to break and destroy you but if i actually had interest in you that wouldn't work because I would leave your dead carcass for the carrion to feast upon.
Submission in its purest form is attainable. But as with all things you make a choice. You choose to have your wall and defcon 5 defenses up then don't blame me for the inability to connect or have anything meaningful.
Hmmm, I really need something really good from smiley to make me grin right about now.
I am sure you had a great weekend. So make your week even better.
Sunday, June 12, 2016
Reminders in McDonough
I accomplished what I needed to do.
As I sit here on the deck and think. I realize how far gone things are. The questions and what ifs no longer linger. They parade around loudly.
Aftera lot of liquor, some food and the hot tub I took time to meditate and think as usual.
Where are things going? Are they going anywhere at all?
D/s is going alright for both of them. Setbacks and issues have arisen. But that is the way it is between a man and females. There is progress. And whatever happens to them hopefullu they will be better than when things started. That is the point of D/s after all.
I had considered moving to try to make things work better last year. Then I realized that probably wouldn't help that relation. So I stuck it out and here I am. I just look in the void at times to see if it is still there. It always is.
Now, moving is on the table but it is simply because it is time for me. Nothing has shown a need for me to consider anything else.
I have always fought and strived for the things I wanted and needed. This is one of the first times when it came to relations that it has failed. It has perplexed me. Then I had to remind myself that I was basing things on the premise of women and not females. I cannot expect them to be anything but what they are. Their will not be an increase. So I accepted and shifted everything to what it is now. When something meaningful shows up then fine. Otherwise I catch you whenever and when they are ready for an interaction.
Coming here to bbqs hasn't changed. Still the show and everything that is always presented unfortunately by the demon. But I saw the realization for myself. I watched the entertainment and the few attractibe chicks.
I realized that Ebil needs company more than once every three blue and pink moons. Who annd what I want is unavailable to me. There are no sunstitutes or anything. So I deal with it. And I watch my temperament and attitude continue to change even further. The feelings are mostly dead. Connections are minimal. There are no answers even if I went back to actually making an effort.
In my sikence I remain. Devoid of most everything. Excitement appears only after reaffirmed and verified confirmation of something truly happening. No hopes to get up or anticipation.
I never thought this year would be this way. I thought there would be forward progress, happiness and delight. Instead there is the silence of the void. Telling me all the things that are wrong and not happening. I hear all of it. And I tilt my head.
That comfort, companionship and lobe that I sought are looking at me laughing hysterically.
The summer is here and upon it's end the results will be solidified.
It is sad but very apparent now that the grail is not ever meant for me.
I think that is enoigh for now. Let me continue drinking.
Hooe you enjoued and had a good weekend
As I sit here on the deck and think. I realize how far gone things are. The questions and what ifs no longer linger. They parade around loudly.
Aftera lot of liquor, some food and the hot tub I took time to meditate and think as usual.
Where are things going? Are they going anywhere at all?
D/s is going alright for both of them. Setbacks and issues have arisen. But that is the way it is between a man and females. There is progress. And whatever happens to them hopefullu they will be better than when things started. That is the point of D/s after all.
I had considered moving to try to make things work better last year. Then I realized that probably wouldn't help that relation. So I stuck it out and here I am. I just look in the void at times to see if it is still there. It always is.
Now, moving is on the table but it is simply because it is time for me. Nothing has shown a need for me to consider anything else.
I have always fought and strived for the things I wanted and needed. This is one of the first times when it came to relations that it has failed. It has perplexed me. Then I had to remind myself that I was basing things on the premise of women and not females. I cannot expect them to be anything but what they are. Their will not be an increase. So I accepted and shifted everything to what it is now. When something meaningful shows up then fine. Otherwise I catch you whenever and when they are ready for an interaction.
Coming here to bbqs hasn't changed. Still the show and everything that is always presented unfortunately by the demon. But I saw the realization for myself. I watched the entertainment and the few attractibe chicks.
I realized that Ebil needs company more than once every three blue and pink moons. Who annd what I want is unavailable to me. There are no sunstitutes or anything. So I deal with it. And I watch my temperament and attitude continue to change even further. The feelings are mostly dead. Connections are minimal. There are no answers even if I went back to actually making an effort.
In my sikence I remain. Devoid of most everything. Excitement appears only after reaffirmed and verified confirmation of something truly happening. No hopes to get up or anticipation.
I never thought this year would be this way. I thought there would be forward progress, happiness and delight. Instead there is the silence of the void. Telling me all the things that are wrong and not happening. I hear all of it. And I tilt my head.
That comfort, companionship and lobe that I sought are looking at me laughing hysterically.
The summer is here and upon it's end the results will be solidified.
It is sad but very apparent now that the grail is not ever meant for me.
I think that is enoigh for now. Let me continue drinking.
Hooe you enjoued and had a good weekend
Saturday, June 04, 2016
Chocolate Doll Memories and My Duties
Back here in the city of unbrotherly love. Why? Because I promised myself that I would come back after my wife's 2nd funeral here.
It is strange being back here. The last time was to end the greatest parts of my life. To say my last final fairwell to a part of me.
So I will hit 4th Street Deli and try to go to the diner on broad. I am not sure the nifty fifties that we went to is still open. Other than that I am just taking time to just be. I had dinner with shortcakes last night. It was good to laugh and catch up.
Hmm, philadelphia. The place I found my wife. Where I flew from to get married in Jamaica. And plenty of outstanding marathon sex sessions, fun and enlightenment. For a place I do not care for it held a portion of my life that was great.
When it comes down to me as a person I have rules and regulations I live by that don't make sense to others and more.
Within the three circles of interaction with me there is caring and loving aspects towards the few that can grace them. And it goes at a hierarchal level. But in all of them I will do what I can to help and support according to their level. Obviously the highest level aka the inner sanctum is an all out type of relation.
Well, in a discussion with red earlier I was talking about my concern for my Ru Ru and her situation. And the fact that I can't give her the support that she needs right now. And she has been there for me for all the years that we have known each other. That is why she gets the supreme spot and treatment that she does. I know I can only do what I can but it is important to me to support those that I care about in whatever way that I can. Well, unless they don't want support. Then I bide my time until another decision is made. This is part of my intimate relationship package. They get the things I do not give out to associates and humans. So yes there is a division of meaning there.
I always try to maintain and carry out my duties to those I care about. Sin Eater. Counselor. Friend. Lover and more. Does it always happen? No. But I do what I can, how I can and when I can.
This is one of the things that I am not mean and evil about even though it is only for a very small and select amount of the population.
So I am going to continue this journey this weekend. My birthday month has began with this trip. We will see how things happen and work out this month. We are already off schedule. And this month will show and help me decide some things.
Have a great weekend.
It is strange being back here. The last time was to end the greatest parts of my life. To say my last final fairwell to a part of me.
So I will hit 4th Street Deli and try to go to the diner on broad. I am not sure the nifty fifties that we went to is still open. Other than that I am just taking time to just be. I had dinner with shortcakes last night. It was good to laugh and catch up.
Hmm, philadelphia. The place I found my wife. Where I flew from to get married in Jamaica. And plenty of outstanding marathon sex sessions, fun and enlightenment. For a place I do not care for it held a portion of my life that was great.
When it comes down to me as a person I have rules and regulations I live by that don't make sense to others and more.
Within the three circles of interaction with me there is caring and loving aspects towards the few that can grace them. And it goes at a hierarchal level. But in all of them I will do what I can to help and support according to their level. Obviously the highest level aka the inner sanctum is an all out type of relation.
Well, in a discussion with red earlier I was talking about my concern for my Ru Ru and her situation. And the fact that I can't give her the support that she needs right now. And she has been there for me for all the years that we have known each other. That is why she gets the supreme spot and treatment that she does. I know I can only do what I can but it is important to me to support those that I care about in whatever way that I can. Well, unless they don't want support. Then I bide my time until another decision is made. This is part of my intimate relationship package. They get the things I do not give out to associates and humans. So yes there is a division of meaning there.
I always try to maintain and carry out my duties to those I care about. Sin Eater. Counselor. Friend. Lover and more. Does it always happen? No. But I do what I can, how I can and when I can.
This is one of the things that I am not mean and evil about even though it is only for a very small and select amount of the population.
So I am going to continue this journey this weekend. My birthday month has began with this trip. We will see how things happen and work out this month. We are already off schedule. And this month will show and help me decide some things.
Have a great weekend.
Monday, May 30, 2016
Fisticuffs, Bad Meets Evil and Mental Weekend Recap
My uncle is doing fine and recovering after his open heart surgery. I am glad that is over with. That made me think about things that I have had on my mind about what is left of what i would call family since Chocolate Doll, Big Ma, Aunt Naomi and Uncle Ralph are gone. There are not that many left to lose. If I lose uncle and auntie then all I have left is Ru Ru. And yeah, at that point in time all bets are off and you better armor the fuck up.
Black Bike week. What can I say there were some nice bikes and some nice thick ass chicks on some of them. Of course there has to be ignorant asses out there. They think they are gangsta. They had to be taught a lesson why they call me Unk OG in the chuck.
Being me I had to adjust my comfort and perception about things. There were some major realizations. I can't give or allow those things when it is not warranted or wanted. I am the Juggernaut Bitch!
Why yes, I continue to analyze, think and prepare. With that came the checklist and I have been looking at it and realizing just how close I am when it comes to analysis. As I said to Ru, we will see what is what. I am just in Doomsday prep mode!
I did get a chance to go out and get my eat and drink on with the two drunks friday. The food at that sports bar was good and the band definitely brought the funk that night. Watching an old, drunk white boy dancing is just funny. And the little white girls bartending had cute little asses to be skinny. The best still was the older one rita the pediatrician and biker.
Dealing with setbacks but that is why I analyze and think. Time to move to the next phase and mode of life and existing.
As I look at the calendar and clock, waiting for the evidence of what will happen. I will continue to keep my go bag ready, plenty of cigars, bottles and my mind ready for that moment to use the Suncrusher (Star Wars) to make the final exclamation point.
But her there was some good conversations with shortcakes and a new young lady that I did get to enjoy this week.
Keeping those I am concerned about in prayer, thoughts and position.
Enjoy your memorial day and remember those that have died to keep the country safe.
Rip Warriors
Sunday, May 29, 2016
The Man and the Dominant
I am not your Make A Wish Foundation answer.
Nor am I nostradomus.
I am simply me. The man and alien. That is all that I will be.
As I have seen, many times females and subs have been looking for someone to solve everything for them or take it all away. I can't do those things. No one can do those things.
What I can and do is make the best effort and decisions possible for you to grow and achieve goals. This does not mean that mistakes won't be made. It means that it is a process and all involved are responsible in making it work.
As a man, I do walk to the beat of my own drum. I think, act and say things according to me, myself and I. I don't think in a equal, fair or other people's mindset. Many have an issue with this. And that is fine.
I don't deal with, date or have an interest in males. So when the phrase, "can't you see a female's point of view comes up," I will merely look at you sideways. I am not a female and nor do I think like one.
In all of this fairness, equality and make me change mentality it seems that the picture is not being seen. You are not looking for a clone, a cog or the same ole thing in who you have a dynamic or relationship with. You are looking for something unique. Well, so am I.
Nothing is completely the same. And there are plenty of things that are similar. Like codes, rules and so forth. But in D/s as with relationships you have to tailor make things to what is going on with and for your situation.
I have always stood out as being my own person. My ways may not be yours. But if you want to understand them then address that with me. If not, then no worries. I won't and don't apologize for being myself. My changes are my own.
My taste in females is very unique and picky. Unlike the thought process many females use for men. I am not fucking everything that has a pussy and nor do I want to know everything with a pussy. You can be a tool for sex, just another female or something more. That just depends on how you approach me, your intentions and the results.
I am strict, commanding and mean. That is tempered with understanding, application and growth. I may only have a few years under my belt but I continue learning and growing. But the core principles will remain the same.
I strive for those with me to become better than when we met. To be able to be more critical in thinking, actions and living. For them to embrace themselves, life and their submission in ways that they can explore and enjoy fully.
There is no template. Let me say it again. THERE IS NO TEMPLATE! For being a Dominant or submissive and slave. What works for one will not work for anyone else. What works for most may not work for the one. lol and I know this very, very well.
There is already a huge communication gap between men and females. Add to that the gap between Dominants and submissives and the deficit is already rather large. So with that said, make every effort possible to understand, grow and achieve what you seek.
My Dominance is defined by me. The way I lead and teach. Through the things that I see, address and task to do. Those things are what show why I am a Dominant. This isn't about some star status. It is about the real life example of the D/s dynamic.
As a man I love titties and ass with curves and thick treats. Those women that are sexy and open minded enough to be outside the box that society has set aside for them to be in. That intelligent, super freak that is nerdy, finds things funny and is a super freak.
As a Dominant the quest is for the best D/s or play possible. The elation of the experiences. The knowledge of where we came from and are going. The memories that have been shared. An understand and application of TPE completely.
With that said, I hope you have had a good Memorial Day Weekend.
Nor am I nostradomus.
I am simply me. The man and alien. That is all that I will be.
As I have seen, many times females and subs have been looking for someone to solve everything for them or take it all away. I can't do those things. No one can do those things.
What I can and do is make the best effort and decisions possible for you to grow and achieve goals. This does not mean that mistakes won't be made. It means that it is a process and all involved are responsible in making it work.
As a man, I do walk to the beat of my own drum. I think, act and say things according to me, myself and I. I don't think in a equal, fair or other people's mindset. Many have an issue with this. And that is fine.
I don't deal with, date or have an interest in males. So when the phrase, "can't you see a female's point of view comes up," I will merely look at you sideways. I am not a female and nor do I think like one.
In all of this fairness, equality and make me change mentality it seems that the picture is not being seen. You are not looking for a clone, a cog or the same ole thing in who you have a dynamic or relationship with. You are looking for something unique. Well, so am I.
Nothing is completely the same. And there are plenty of things that are similar. Like codes, rules and so forth. But in D/s as with relationships you have to tailor make things to what is going on with and for your situation.
As a Man:
I have always stood out as being my own person. My ways may not be yours. But if you want to understand them then address that with me. If not, then no worries. I won't and don't apologize for being myself. My changes are my own.
My taste in females is very unique and picky. Unlike the thought process many females use for men. I am not fucking everything that has a pussy and nor do I want to know everything with a pussy. You can be a tool for sex, just another female or something more. That just depends on how you approach me, your intentions and the results.
As a Dominant:
I am strict, commanding and mean. That is tempered with understanding, application and growth. I may only have a few years under my belt but I continue learning and growing. But the core principles will remain the same.
I strive for those with me to become better than when we met. To be able to be more critical in thinking, actions and living. For them to embrace themselves, life and their submission in ways that they can explore and enjoy fully.
There is no template. Let me say it again. THERE IS NO TEMPLATE! For being a Dominant or submissive and slave. What works for one will not work for anyone else. What works for most may not work for the one. lol and I know this very, very well.
In Conclusion:
There is already a huge communication gap between men and females. Add to that the gap between Dominants and submissives and the deficit is already rather large. So with that said, make every effort possible to understand, grow and achieve what you seek.
My Dominance is defined by me. The way I lead and teach. Through the things that I see, address and task to do. Those things are what show why I am a Dominant. This isn't about some star status. It is about the real life example of the D/s dynamic.
As a man I love titties and ass with curves and thick treats. Those women that are sexy and open minded enough to be outside the box that society has set aside for them to be in. That intelligent, super freak that is nerdy, finds things funny and is a super freak.
As a Dominant the quest is for the best D/s or play possible. The elation of the experiences. The knowledge of where we came from and are going. The memories that have been shared. An understand and application of TPE completely.
With that said, I hope you have had a good Memorial Day Weekend.
Thursday, May 26, 2016
Laughter Was the Case That They Gave Me
I sat up here ctfu and lmao tonight with shortcakes. I still can't believe we have known each other that long
It is always good to be able to laugh and be yourself with someoen without them getting into a defensive, offensive or upset posture because you say whatever or act silly.
That's right I love to laugh, be silly and have a good time. It is refreshing. I do it often at the shop in a way but when I can truly let it all loose then, watch out now!
So, we were laughing about how people react to us and our ways. The times when we have been out together and dealing with the thieving monkey bitch. Or me being passed off on shortcakes by her. lol
Over 10 years of shenanigans as she calls them and all the stuff that she does. From the tutus to dressing up as the queen of hearts and this years tweedle dee and tweedle dum lmao
The prescription needed was laughter and I definitely got it.
It is always good to be able to laugh and be yourself with someoen without them getting into a defensive, offensive or upset posture because you say whatever or act silly.
That's right I love to laugh, be silly and have a good time. It is refreshing. I do it often at the shop in a way but when I can truly let it all loose then, watch out now!
So, we were laughing about how people react to us and our ways. The times when we have been out together and dealing with the thieving monkey bitch. Or me being passed off on shortcakes by her. lol
Over 10 years of shenanigans as she calls them and all the stuff that she does. From the tutus to dressing up as the queen of hearts and this years tweedle dee and tweedle dum lmao
The prescription needed was laughter and I definitely got it.
Wednesday, May 25, 2016
Tuesday Rants and Ravings
Yeah, yeah, yeah. I am about to rant.
So I am reading they want Captain America to be gay. What the fuck! That is some utter bullshit. It is enough that they have fucked up things already plenty of times in movies. Hell, the Ancient One in Dr Strange the movie is a female. Damn! Can't we have anything without these fuckers whining about that needs to be changed? Call me what you want. This is just more bullshit.
I don't understand why would you let people use you when you said that you are tired of it and don't want to be bothered. It is simple STOP IT!
The fda fucking with cigars is still really pissing me off. They do not even have finances or staffing to do all of this mess they said has to happen now. And they have nothing to do with tobacco.
And this obamacare crap has to be the most worst thing ever. I mean damn you have to re apply every year and it only drove the costs for everything up over 200 percent. So in other words the insurance companies and pharmaceutical companies just made more money.
I think that is enough for now.
See, short and sweet. lol
So I am reading they want Captain America to be gay. What the fuck! That is some utter bullshit. It is enough that they have fucked up things already plenty of times in movies. Hell, the Ancient One in Dr Strange the movie is a female. Damn! Can't we have anything without these fuckers whining about that needs to be changed? Call me what you want. This is just more bullshit.
I don't understand why would you let people use you when you said that you are tired of it and don't want to be bothered. It is simple STOP IT!
The fda fucking with cigars is still really pissing me off. They do not even have finances or staffing to do all of this mess they said has to happen now. And they have nothing to do with tobacco.
And this obamacare crap has to be the most worst thing ever. I mean damn you have to re apply every year and it only drove the costs for everything up over 200 percent. So in other words the insurance companies and pharmaceutical companies just made more money.
I think that is enough for now.
See, short and sweet. lol
Tuesday, May 24, 2016
The Subject of Time
Time moves on regardless of what we want it to do. But it doesn't change things in relationships.
I always see the comments about I don't have time for them. Or we are so busy that we can't make time.
Well...
Make Some Damn Time!!!
People always use this punk ass excuse. If someone has meaning to you then you make the effort and TIME to make things happen to keep it. If not then you never gave a fuck anyway.
I hear the conversations all the time every week about how they don't have time for this or that. But, they won't sacrifice a single thing to make those things that need to happen, Happen. So the bottom line is that you don't want to do it and you have come up with an excuse.
Even I have heard about how females couldn't be with me because I enjoy marathon sex sessions. See, the problem is that they have no clue. Do I love marathon sex sessions? The answer is Hell Yes!! Do I understand that life doesn't allow for that all the time? Yes, I do. But I make the effort tired, weary or whatever to please, cater and enjoy who I am with and care about. There were plenty of times I was horny as hell and knew that my wife was fatigued and it would be best not to have sex. But that is because I knew she wouldn't say no. Because we wouldn't say no to each other about things unless it was absurd or impossible. But that was me taking in consideration who I cared about. Most will not get anywhere near that point.
So if you actually care, want to be with and love someone then make the efforts necessary to have them!!
Time will never stop moving. But you can stop using it as an excuse for your lack of intestinal fortitude.
I always see the comments about I don't have time for them. Or we are so busy that we can't make time.
Well...
Make Some Damn Time!!!
People always use this punk ass excuse. If someone has meaning to you then you make the effort and TIME to make things happen to keep it. If not then you never gave a fuck anyway.
I hear the conversations all the time every week about how they don't have time for this or that. But, they won't sacrifice a single thing to make those things that need to happen, Happen. So the bottom line is that you don't want to do it and you have come up with an excuse.
Even I have heard about how females couldn't be with me because I enjoy marathon sex sessions. See, the problem is that they have no clue. Do I love marathon sex sessions? The answer is Hell Yes!! Do I understand that life doesn't allow for that all the time? Yes, I do. But I make the effort tired, weary or whatever to please, cater and enjoy who I am with and care about. There were plenty of times I was horny as hell and knew that my wife was fatigued and it would be best not to have sex. But that is because I knew she wouldn't say no. Because we wouldn't say no to each other about things unless it was absurd or impossible. But that was me taking in consideration who I cared about. Most will not get anywhere near that point.
So if you actually care, want to be with and love someone then make the efforts necessary to have them!!
Time will never stop moving. But you can stop using it as an excuse for your lack of intestinal fortitude.
Monday, May 23, 2016
My Affirmation of Wants and Needs
When it comes to people, relations and relationships there is a difference between wants and needs. But they both apply.
Wants are my desires. The things that I seek to enjoy or incorporate into my life.
Wants are my desires. The things that I seek to enjoy or incorporate into my life.
Definition:
want
wänt,wônt/
verb
- 1.have a desire to possess or do (something); wish for.
I want future enjoyment, pleasure, success and someone that is the right one to do it all with me and more.
Needs are those requirements that I cannot deviate from. Like trust, understanding, acceptance, dedication and adaptability.
Definition:
need
nēd/
verb
- 1.require (something) because it is essential or very important.
See...
I have no problem in needing and wanting a woman. Those things that strengthen and give a different meaning to life. Needing the woman that can love, understand, accept and weather the storms with me is both a need and a want. When I say I need you. Then it means I need you in the ways that you compliment, perform, comfort and provide for me. Those things that I just want are not as important since they are not at the need or need and want level.
People are so scared of their vulnerability issues that they fight when the want and need for someone else appears. Society tells them that they shouldn't ever need or feel that way. That they are less than if that happens. That is so far from the truth. You are stronger when you claim and control these things and vulnerability.
Well...
At least I know, accept and understand my wants and needs.
Sunday, May 22, 2016
The Hyphy Movement Recap Sunday
I am over here bobbing my head to some hyphy music and decided to write the rap up.
The week has been long. But it seems that at least I have gotten some more strength now and not completely delirious still. Still don't know what the deal is or was. But the machine has to keep rolling.
There has been a new installation in better management and imprisonment of emotions and feelings. *soul clap* I had an escape from the prison that I am and I can't allow that to happen to all the things I keep on life sentences internally. So, this led to settling even more into the way things are going and limiting the future to only those things that are completely pertinent to me.
Went over to the lawyers house. (I didn't even get harasses by the white lady neighborhood watch this time either...lol) And I had to stop by this new place called Donut Inn and check them out since we had been talking about boston creme donuts. Damn, they were good. I am still laughing at him eating his three boston cremes with a knife and fork. But hey he comes from money in the expensive part of Boston. lol But we did watch an actually good movie as we smoked cigars called All The Way. It was a movie about the president Lindon Johnson and him becoming president when jfk was assasinated. It touched on his interaction with Martin Luther King and the civil rights movement as well as some of Hoovers activities. The guy that plays Falcon in the Avengers movies was MLK. If you haven't watched it I suggeat it. A good look into presidency, personalities politics and history.
i need to work on the books but with training and everything I have been off. But I do think I am going to write some tonight since some ideas popped in my head today. Plus I need to finish that one piece I never got done as well from the other week.
I am still up in the air about activities for June. I need to fix that this week. But I was waiting to see what would happen. I guess I got my answer.
Still enjoying the house to myself. Got bike week this week in myrtle beach. So asses will be in the air on bikes. Still smdh that the comic book convention is going on down there this weekend with all that damn traffic. As much as I love looking at ass on bikes I don't know about doing that traffic again. But damn I want to hit the comic convention. Oh, and the cousin's clubs are coming down so we will be eating and drinking good thursday.
And of course my Apocalypse comes to the big screen thursday so I will be seeing that. I am hoping they don't fuck it up too bad. But that is a wish sandwich.
I saw some nice trips to take. I am thinking it is time to roll out of country again. Damn, I want to go to another psych conference. red got me hooked to enjoying the psychologists. Hell, I love psychology so it is interesting to me.
well...it is time to let the ink spill
The week has been long. But it seems that at least I have gotten some more strength now and not completely delirious still. Still don't know what the deal is or was. But the machine has to keep rolling.
There has been a new installation in better management and imprisonment of emotions and feelings. *soul clap* I had an escape from the prison that I am and I can't allow that to happen to all the things I keep on life sentences internally. So, this led to settling even more into the way things are going and limiting the future to only those things that are completely pertinent to me.
Went over to the lawyers house. (I didn't even get harasses by the white lady neighborhood watch this time either...lol) And I had to stop by this new place called Donut Inn and check them out since we had been talking about boston creme donuts. Damn, they were good. I am still laughing at him eating his three boston cremes with a knife and fork. But hey he comes from money in the expensive part of Boston. lol But we did watch an actually good movie as we smoked cigars called All The Way. It was a movie about the president Lindon Johnson and him becoming president when jfk was assasinated. It touched on his interaction with Martin Luther King and the civil rights movement as well as some of Hoovers activities. The guy that plays Falcon in the Avengers movies was MLK. If you haven't watched it I suggeat it. A good look into presidency, personalities politics and history.
i need to work on the books but with training and everything I have been off. But I do think I am going to write some tonight since some ideas popped in my head today. Plus I need to finish that one piece I never got done as well from the other week.
I am still up in the air about activities for June. I need to fix that this week. But I was waiting to see what would happen. I guess I got my answer.
Still enjoying the house to myself. Got bike week this week in myrtle beach. So asses will be in the air on bikes. Still smdh that the comic book convention is going on down there this weekend with all that damn traffic. As much as I love looking at ass on bikes I don't know about doing that traffic again. But damn I want to hit the comic convention. Oh, and the cousin's clubs are coming down so we will be eating and drinking good thursday.
And of course my Apocalypse comes to the big screen thursday so I will be seeing that. I am hoping they don't fuck it up too bad. But that is a wish sandwich.
I saw some nice trips to take. I am thinking it is time to roll out of country again. Damn, I want to go to another psych conference. red got me hooked to enjoying the psychologists. Hell, I love psychology so it is interesting to me.
well...it is time to let the ink spill
Commander of My Ships
No, I am not talking about my fleet of battlestars or battleships. This is about relations, relationships and situationshiprs or whatever else others are calling them these days.
The plain and simple of the matter is either you fit in my grand scheme or you don't. I am not green peace or any other tree hugging organization that is looking at changing you into fitting in with me.
As in conversations that have happened recently there has been the subject of me changing my principles, thoughts and outlook. And being open and friendly and all that mess.
Here are my answers.
If I am interested in you to date, marry, have a relationship or the like then I am not looking for a friend. And if we end then you will not be my friend. You can think I am your friend all that you want but I will not be personal or give out my information to you. I know it goes against everyone's policy of I need to be friends with who I am with and we can be friends afterwards. No thanks!
I accept you as the person that you are/ Selfish, unfeeling, emotional etc. There will not be at any time a chance for you to change who I am fundamentally. Trying to do so will result in your failure and ex communication.
You may think that you know me. You do not. Only one person still alive can say that they know me and she is the last castle in the world.
You may be reminded of your past boyfriends and everything. I am not them regardless. Even when you try to get everything to fit. I will still be simply myself.
I know there was a sliver of hope in finding what I wanted in one chick. I came to my senses and put that back in the crypt where it belongs.
Just know that I will love, care, give attention according to your station and actions.
*Dropping a bomb on this like it was Pear Harbor and I am out*
The plain and simple of the matter is either you fit in my grand scheme or you don't. I am not green peace or any other tree hugging organization that is looking at changing you into fitting in with me.
As in conversations that have happened recently there has been the subject of me changing my principles, thoughts and outlook. And being open and friendly and all that mess.
Here are my answers.
If I am interested in you to date, marry, have a relationship or the like then I am not looking for a friend. And if we end then you will not be my friend. You can think I am your friend all that you want but I will not be personal or give out my information to you. I know it goes against everyone's policy of I need to be friends with who I am with and we can be friends afterwards. No thanks!
I accept you as the person that you are/ Selfish, unfeeling, emotional etc. There will not be at any time a chance for you to change who I am fundamentally. Trying to do so will result in your failure and ex communication.
You may think that you know me. You do not. Only one person still alive can say that they know me and she is the last castle in the world.
You may be reminded of your past boyfriends and everything. I am not them regardless. Even when you try to get everything to fit. I will still be simply myself.
I know there was a sliver of hope in finding what I wanted in one chick. I came to my senses and put that back in the crypt where it belongs.
Just know that I will love, care, give attention according to your station and actions.
*Dropping a bomb on this like it was Pear Harbor and I am out*
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