Monday, February 22, 2016

Smoking Aces...Revisited

So I joined the group for movie night to get out the house and socialize. One of the movies was Smoking Aces. About a bunch of contract killers all going after this contract on a washed out magician that is tied to the mob.

I hadn't seen this movie in a while and I still love it. Besides how can I not love all the gun play, blade wielding and action. And the desire to fuck Taraji p Henson while she worked the Barrett .50 cal rifle would be purrrfect! And this was the movie I saw that Alicia Keys was thick and got on my fuck her little brains out and leave her for dead list.

So, there is plenty of comedy with the kid that needs his ritalin to the tremor brothers and more. You name your kind of hit man and they are in this movie. lol

And the twist at the end was rather nice and different.

Definitely still enjoying Smoking Aces!!


and wanting to fuck taraji and alicia. lmao

Broken Connections

When Ru said, "sorry, I really wanted things to work out." It finally sunk in. No not anything concerning her. But relations.

She has been with me through it all. Good and bad. And had noticed when my outlook, desire and passion changed. When the wire was breaking and then down to it's last strand.

Feelings are gone. It has brought peace and less stress. But apparently it has become obvious.

As Ru has asked me to show and tell how to compartmentalize and I have of couraed said no. I have watched the transition.

The anti climax of the anti hero arrived!

No worries.

We are back to the Apocalypse program!

Have a wonderful Monday.

Friday, February 19, 2016

Life and times of my Life Unscripted

A number of things have happened over the last six months. Am I still the same Angry Black Man? Yep. But my dealing and outlook has changed.

I can attribute things to Ru, lil red and the experiences.

I have made my first trip to Canada.  Been able toindulge further into my sadistic needs of enjoyment. Enjoyed my first fisting and evolved into even more just me.

Love has changed back to what it was previously with me with the change of available if it is wanted thisbtime. Instead of turned off after inactivity. I still have a tiny bit of a heart, just not that much left.

Relations have been wtf. Life has been a series if unfortunate and weird events. Hell, I date and associate with the weird.  Lol

So I am not feeling much. There isn't that fire, passion and desire like it would have been normally or optimally.  My feelings and heart are not hurt. I am just in the "it is what it is" aspect of existence.

I am looking forward to hopefully being able to enjoy my full sadistic release finally.  It is time to go somewhere to relax, have fun and enjoy. Maybe even relations may grow and be better. As I look at the next stage in my life this year I am ready to move forward even more.

I am here or ok is my standard response. As I wait to see who and what will join me or walk away on this journey I am basically neutral.

And I still need my fucking FIX if you are keeping track. It's been half a year. Maybe I need to just look at the memories and do my Pale Rider reenactment and ride off into the sun.

Well enjoy the beginning of your weekend. Because you cant stay stagnant and let kife walk on by

Thursday, February 18, 2016

Mr Wolf Thursday Message

The adventures of Mr Wolf and lil red equal


About why we are so good together. Your crazy matches my crazy. Big time!


courtesy of Wade Wilson


I require the unique to be involved in. The female that can be herself through the storms of life. Thinking and acting outside of the box to stimulate and continue adventure. 

So I need that sexy, lustful, intelligent, witty, stand out type female.

case in point....lil red. I can pick the queen of the weird team for sure. lol

But it is what allows me to have some interest.


Until the next time...chimi  fucking changas!!

Morning Poetry: Another Brick in the Wall

Good morning to you. I hope your are ready for your willy wonka adventure today. So I figured I would drop some poetry at 6 in the morning, policae at my door. fresh addidas sneakers squeaking across the bathroom floor. lol yeah some Ice T early.

enjoy


Another Brick In The Wall




Like a neutron particle accelerator
Two souls collided
Fell
Fallen into a prehistoric tar pit

Unintentional
Unfettered
Uninterested entities

I wasn’t looking for you
You weren’t looking for me

I slapped you directly in the face
Told you what I wanted and saw with you and me

The connection
Unexplained prophesy
And I hate the damn thing
But it has been correct
When it has reared it’s ugly head

As I have felt every
Defensive and offensive projectile
You have hurled at me

From the logical
Weird and emotional
Detached

Each missile fires at me
As I watch the walls rise and fall
Doors open and close
With each mood swing

You don’t understand
How I have already claimed
Without a doubt that
You are for me

An assault on your logic based
Existence at it’s alpha
Beginning

I guess that is why
The wall and distance
Lack of shown interest
Flow like the
Dead Sea

Still I know what
I felt and have seen
That damn connection
Showed me the possible destiny

Still as I look at your wall
Each spackle of mortar and concrete
All I can do is allow

Freedom of mind and will
The manifest destiny

As I continue to get to know bricks
Even more intimately

The fix
The connection
Hasn’t changed

I merely sit here for now
On the
Event Horizon

Prepared
Waiting
For the outcome you choose

Will it be us
Or just you

As Pink Floyd sings
Another Brick in the Wall



From the chocolatezeus collection   2/18/16  ©

Deadpool, Maximum Realization and Semi Chimichangas

So, I finally was ready to see Deadpool on opening night. Thursday at 7 I was in there and I was shocked it was a bit crowded. Man, did I get to laugh and enjoy my damn self.

The movie wasn't some watered down, neutered disney drone bullshit. I was really close to Deadpool in the comic book. The language and outrageous actions and thoughts and words were on point. I have to say ryan reynolds did a good job. This movie was original and is one the best comic book movies ever put on the big screen.

Hell, I was shocked that the numbers blew records for February. I remember talking to bruce at the shop about the movie and him telling me that movies tend to not do well this time of the year and that Deadpool wouldn't get high numbers. Both of us are shocked at this outcome.

on to the next

I have been over thinking and thinking as usual. I sat and realized that I haven't gotten my fix or seen lil red in about 6 months now. This is so unacceptable. Life has been at work and no fucking telling what the hell else.

external outcry

it is so devastating to others that I am this magnificent caveman, that marches upon this separate path that tends to disregard and spit in the face of those that wish to force conformity.  What in the hell am I saying, you ask?  Well, I have been direct about what I want, like and am interested in. And even though people think that I don't give others a chance to be whoever they are and in the role that they are designed for. I do.  This is the same part that allows me to see past the bullshit, posturing, being difficult, defensive and challenging to lay eyes upon what really is there. The part of me that has picked out two people in ,my life and said they are the ONE. And as much as I hated it at first and fought it. I was shown the error of my misplaced denial of that connection. The message is...stop fighting me, the relationship and the feelings. What I want and need is you. END FUCKING MESSAGE!

on to affairs of my stomach and taste buds

Of course after seeing Deadpool I was wanting a chimichanga. lol (you have to have read or heard Deadpool to understand this reference.) But instead went to a place called Flaming Amy's burritos. Ok this was unlike any other restaurant I have been into. stickers and punk rock art, tattoo drawings and everything was everywhere. I had a double bypass burrito which was rather good. Of course they only do chimichangas on Mondays apparently. that sucks

I also tried a sandwich appropriately named the Fat Zeus. It was gyro and cheesesteak with fries, onion rings and vegs on it with taziki sauce on it. It was actually good but needed more taziki sauce. Plus would have been better without the fries on it actually.

Well, I probably will watch Deadpool for the 6th time later on this morning for more laughs. Have a good one. And seize the moments. Because you don't get too many chances in life.

Sunday, February 14, 2016

Valentines, Entertainment and Bitter Bitch Syndrome

No excitement, no anticipation, no hatred either. I dont' have anyone for this day and at this point in my life I just don't give a fuck anymore. Even though I love the sentiment, expression and spoiling. I realize how things are with females now. I am good.

Nope, this is not a hate letter to valentine's day or nothing like that. I have had some great and good valentine's days. So I don't have to be jaded about the plight of the world today. lmao

But I do get entertained by the rampant anti valentines, relations and marriage activities that occur on this day. I mean damn it really goes all out! Females mad because they have chosen not to become women and be real. So they are over in the corner spitting their venom.

So the comments, actions and petty shit get's michael jackson "off the wall" type of silly. Over the same thing they detest and don't want anything to do with...real relationships. So it is comical on both ends.

Let me go read some more valentine hate mail so I can laugh some more.

I hope you had a good valentine. Mine was fine. Even though it would have been perfect if a certain someone wanted it to be.

And go see Deadpool! That shit is hilariously funny

Friday, February 12, 2016

Poetic Needs: Just Right

I never would have thought I would like redvelvet. Let  alone need a daily fix of it. 
But oh well!
Ce la vie!!


Just Right



In the darkest night
I stumbled upon
Ultimate dessert
Craving

So sweet
Yet spicy
So enticing
But cold as an ice

Entwined minds
Coincided adult responsibilities of life
Creative minds and lives

Intermingled
Joined by chance
By life

A Master Chef
Delectable delight

She feeds me
With sweet curves
Of chocolate royal delight

As I enjoy the cream
Risen to climax
Dipped in divinity

Willy Wonka’s ultimate
Dessert fix

As she feeds me
Through pain and more pain
My sadist explodes
Like a chocolate molten lava cake

Again
Again
And again

Each bite
Land of the cane
Sound of the flogger
Reigns upon my
Carnivorous rage

For I am left
Like an addict
My hunger rages

This lust cannot
Will not
I don’t want to be
Contained

Just like
Mary J said
You are my sweet thing

And this beast
Must feed
For eternity



From the chocolatezeus collection  2/12/16  ©

Poetic Moment: Beyond the Veil

Beyond the Veil



Standing here
Amid the dust and rubble
Blind to anything in front of me

Searching for answers
An application of destiny

Peering to see
Lonely embers
Hanging on against finality

Us
Our
Distant remnants
Of yellow brick road dreams

A supernova
Transmuted into
Lead lined
Black hole of being

I see
No, saw clearly
The possible outlook
Holy Grail to be achieved

But that was just me
The anomaly in this
Unsolved equation

Heart and soul
Laying upon jagged rocks
As jagged edge sings
What should be

I shouldn’t looked behind the curtain
I wouldn’t have seen what I wanted
Never knew this need

As I ride this dead hurricane
Left in the mundane
Catapulted into
Pristine silence

Connected dots
In an unsolved puzzle

A mix of
Irreverent
Irrelevance
Amid the desired
Context and effect

Left here
Blinking and thinking
Bewildered
As wonderment won’t cease

The distance and silence
Paved the way to my

Clabbored feelings
As a heart is sucked up in
Its own black hole

Silently
Reeling




From the chocolatezeus collection  2/12/16  ©

Tuesday, February 09, 2016

Balance and Protocols

I am out of balance.

It has been this way for a long time. That balance has gotten better recently since I decided to stick with my old school ways and be Super Captain Caveman, once again.

Causes of unbalance:

  • Life...being an adult responsible for things out of your damn control is always something
  • Lack of Travel...This always helps me. Even if it is merely for a weekend to hang out with my few people in my circle
  • Lack of Sex...This is the most dangerous for the humans. Since I am not getting it on any type of regular basis I am prone to some Death Star level activity
  • Sadist needs to be fed...He is really pissed off and angry right now. The cage is already broken.
Balance keeps things moving appropriately through the chaos and calamities. But as is life, just have to deal with things and destroy existence another way. 

Either way my balance will be back into play no matter who has to be removed, excommunicated and everything else.

My protocol experience has shown me that I have to be Super Caveman. Because, if you let a sub get an inch they are in another orbit a moment later. I have to make sure every protocol and rule is slapped in the face from inception. Because if you amend things they want to act like you have turned into Dr Kavorkian. But the lesson has been learned. 

Life is lessons and experiences. Right now I am wondering the meaning if any of the current mess. Oh well, enjoy your time and days.

To quote my favorite, Gen. George S Patton in closing.

"In case of doubt, attack."

Monday, February 08, 2016

Poetry: Welcome to My Church

Welcome to My Church



Come lay upon my alter
Naked unto me
Fully

Mentally
Spiritually
Physically

Nothing hidden
As I hold covenant
Over your

Past
Present
Future

I see inside you
The delicate delicacy
The strength on top and beneath
With that layer of
Submission locked between

I will sacrifice you
To being free
To letting go of all those things
That you cling to and have to do
Automatically

I am not what you have
Previously encountered or seen

I am tailor made to
Exorcise your stubborn resistance
To elevating to what you
Want, need and seek

This knife carves you deep
Leaving marks
Upon your heart and psyche
Twisting your natural
Literal order to things

You struggle
Yet you remain perched
Calling for rebirth and pain

Here with outstretched hands
My knife gleaming

I have shown you the way
The vision that lies at the end
Your sacrifice is all that I need

And destiny
Will be manifested
Here upon this altar
We will be

Take me to church
For the sins are
Denial of destiny



From the chocolatezeus collection  2/8/16  ©

Sunday, February 07, 2016

Jammin Old School, Superbowl, Cigars and All

I have been jammin the past days to DJ L3XX mixes. I think he is an old yokota classmate but I am not for sure. But here is an example of why i am dancing around.






So my Panthers are playing today and could win their first super bowl, which would be off the wall. it is going to be crazy either way. And what a great excuse to get the hell out of the house and enjoy myself while the parental units are here! So it is going to be cigars, pizza, wings, football and alcohol tonight.  Lil Jon YEAH!!

The female parental unit's sister still hasn't died. I haven't seen the female parental unit yet since I got back last night. So I am thankful.

I am debating if i should fix some more bbq chicken but then again I am going to be eating out there so I might just snack.

Therapy Normalcy and Totality (I thought this was posted already smh)

It has been a week of productivity amid sickness and the unforeseen.  Sister probably has this virus that is going around. The oarental units called 47 times. (No I mean literally 47 times in one day)

I had some convo with lil red at her comfort level which was cool. Allowed for talking and laughing. A big change from things lately. And I appreciated the effort.

Sprinkled me with some relationship convos in there. About availability and emotional statuses.

So in therapy today it hit home that in the cigar shop there is alwaus something amd someone crazy coming in. Today was the skrawny entity that was dressed goth. The other crazy introduced what we didn't know was a boy to us. His name was benjamin and he was a masquerade vampire. I was like what the hell! So I sat there watching the show as always. So the he asks benjamin what vampire clan he was from? The masquerade? And I look up at monroe and I am ctfu. He is trying to keep a straight face and I have to look at them crazy and put my head down.

the entertainment is priceless!!

PSSITA and salud