Wednesday, August 26, 2015
Dating the Convoluted Frontier
After a discussion with the md chick. And hearing about that date until you feeling friends thing. It brought me back to the aspect of I dont want you as a friend if I want you to be my woman, my girlfriend or wife even. For me a friend is not at the station of those I just mentioned. But for the sake of females I have always said that they can feel that I am their friend. I will never claim to be though.
My relation are intimate and personal. That is why I am serious about them. It is the reason behind talking to them and the times when it was alright to tell them how I felt. And I always mention Ru but she is the evidence. She has been down with me through at least4 relationships and my marriage.
I just dont see a need for posturing and playing keep away both physically and emotionally. But there is this need for a very long drawn out episodic adventure. You either choose to go along or say fuck it and treat them like meat.
I scare the sheep because I told them what I wanted and what I felt. Well, that was before the Representative had to help. Now there is only the silence and look of attentive details. Like Pavlov I learned to keep my reaction, interest and feeling to nil double nil.
Everything is fine as long as you see, do and think their way. It makes them feel so comfortable and strong. When the real strength is in understanding the differences and being one.
Dating has led to a chessmaster bloodsport. uou fight for position and superiority. Winner takes all.
Instead of accepting and understanding how I am loving and feeling you and want you permanently in my life as who you are. You have filibuster and fight every inch. Unable to be vulnerable.
What can I say? Amid the secrecy, fraudulent importance, lack of focus and inability to effect change.
You are left with and left to
Deal with dating as a calamity or disease to whoever you attempt to date.
Well, have to spalsh amother chapter to this another time. I need to go write some more. The material is piling high.
Morning to you and you.
My relation are intimate and personal. That is why I am serious about them. It is the reason behind talking to them and the times when it was alright to tell them how I felt. And I always mention Ru but she is the evidence. She has been down with me through at least4 relationships and my marriage.
I just dont see a need for posturing and playing keep away both physically and emotionally. But there is this need for a very long drawn out episodic adventure. You either choose to go along or say fuck it and treat them like meat.
I scare the sheep because I told them what I wanted and what I felt. Well, that was before the Representative had to help. Now there is only the silence and look of attentive details. Like Pavlov I learned to keep my reaction, interest and feeling to nil double nil.
Everything is fine as long as you see, do and think their way. It makes them feel so comfortable and strong. When the real strength is in understanding the differences and being one.
Dating has led to a chessmaster bloodsport. uou fight for position and superiority. Winner takes all.
Instead of accepting and understanding how I am loving and feeling you and want you permanently in my life as who you are. You have filibuster and fight every inch. Unable to be vulnerable.
What can I say? Amid the secrecy, fraudulent importance, lack of focus and inability to effect change.
You are left with and left to
Deal with dating as a calamity or disease to whoever you attempt to date.
Well, have to spalsh amother chapter to this another time. I need to go write some more. The material is piling high.
Morning to you and you.
Tuesday, August 25, 2015
Adventures at Davis and Son: The New Cheers
This is my cigar shop here. And I have been going there for probably at least 2 years by now. It is part of my therapy, networking and just entertainment package.
Now, there are some characters there. From the owner and his wife, to Myra the girl that works there and Monroe the older gentleman that works there. And there are customers that have been around for over 30 years. I interact with councilmen, jewelry store owners, truck drivers, walmart employees and those that cannot be explained at all. *lol*
For the younger folk, Cheers was a tv show about regulars at a neighborhood bar that use to come on. Yeah, I know I am old but I am damn good!
The cigar shop is like Cheers because there are plenty of regulars. And the owner tends to know everyone by name and or face. Plus what they smoke, or the tobacco they normally get when they come in. They have a bunch of other stuff in the store that sells well like the shaving stuff that I get there. Forge n Foundry is the best stuff there is! And I am saying that plug because it is true. Well, we sit in there smoke and talk about just about everything. From recipes, to politics to movies and more. It is an education and entertainment rolled up in one.
There are crazy people that come in there at times. Some crazy because we know they have documented mental issues and others that we don't. We still treat them all like they are acquaintances.
But last week a young looking guy came in and three of us were talking to him. He was looking for jobs and came in to get some tobacco for cigarettes. He argued with one of the other guys about politics and everything. The normal debate in there. So the guy he was talking to (we will call him the copy salesman) cracks a joke about the guy that has been missing for about 2 months now that use to come in the shop that claimed he was a colonel in the Vietnam war and got 12 purple hearts all this (obvious lies but oh well). Copier salesman says they haven't found his body in the river yet. The rest of us knew it was a joke about the fake colonel though. Anyway. The young guy seemed to be off but that is life. He was also real jittery. And it wasn't from the half a pot of coffee that he drank while he was there. He said that he turned down a job because it wasn't him but he needed to work. Anyway he was crazy off and that was last week.
So fast forward to today.
I was going to go to the shop earlier today. For some reason I fell asleep. (damn sleep).
So I get there this afternoon and the guy that was debating with the crazy guy last week tells me he has a story to tell me. He then tells me that the crazy guy came back today and that he called the police using the cigar shops phone to say that he was in fear of his life and that the copier salesman had something to do with the fake colonel having disappeared. I am looking at him like you got to be lying to me. I had to sit down and puff on my 770 for the rest of the story. But he said he did it and the owner had to get on the phone and say that the guy must have been crazy. But the crazy guy said he was in fear for his life and his family because of the copier salesman. And of course the police show up but the crazy guy has left already.
I am still sitting here at the house glad that I wasn't there at all. Because that is some insane shit. I do try to avoid the craziness.
But this is a day in the life of Zeus a Life Unscripted. What can I say?
Now, there are some characters there. From the owner and his wife, to Myra the girl that works there and Monroe the older gentleman that works there. And there are customers that have been around for over 30 years. I interact with councilmen, jewelry store owners, truck drivers, walmart employees and those that cannot be explained at all. *lol*
For the younger folk, Cheers was a tv show about regulars at a neighborhood bar that use to come on. Yeah, I know I am old but I am damn good!
The cigar shop is like Cheers because there are plenty of regulars. And the owner tends to know everyone by name and or face. Plus what they smoke, or the tobacco they normally get when they come in. They have a bunch of other stuff in the store that sells well like the shaving stuff that I get there. Forge n Foundry is the best stuff there is! And I am saying that plug because it is true. Well, we sit in there smoke and talk about just about everything. From recipes, to politics to movies and more. It is an education and entertainment rolled up in one.
There are crazy people that come in there at times. Some crazy because we know they have documented mental issues and others that we don't. We still treat them all like they are acquaintances.
But last week a young looking guy came in and three of us were talking to him. He was looking for jobs and came in to get some tobacco for cigarettes. He argued with one of the other guys about politics and everything. The normal debate in there. So the guy he was talking to (we will call him the copy salesman) cracks a joke about the guy that has been missing for about 2 months now that use to come in the shop that claimed he was a colonel in the Vietnam war and got 12 purple hearts all this (obvious lies but oh well). Copier salesman says they haven't found his body in the river yet. The rest of us knew it was a joke about the fake colonel though. Anyway. The young guy seemed to be off but that is life. He was also real jittery. And it wasn't from the half a pot of coffee that he drank while he was there. He said that he turned down a job because it wasn't him but he needed to work. Anyway he was crazy off and that was last week.
So fast forward to today.
I was going to go to the shop earlier today. For some reason I fell asleep. (damn sleep).
So I get there this afternoon and the guy that was debating with the crazy guy last week tells me he has a story to tell me. He then tells me that the crazy guy came back today and that he called the police using the cigar shops phone to say that he was in fear of his life and that the copier salesman had something to do with the fake colonel having disappeared. I am looking at him like you got to be lying to me. I had to sit down and puff on my 770 for the rest of the story. But he said he did it and the owner had to get on the phone and say that the guy must have been crazy. But the crazy guy said he was in fear for his life and his family because of the copier salesman. And of course the police show up but the crazy guy has left already.
I am still sitting here at the house glad that I wasn't there at all. Because that is some insane shit. I do try to avoid the craziness.
But this is a day in the life of Zeus a Life Unscripted. What can I say?
Monday, August 24, 2015
Poetry Moment
Breaker Reset
my heart turned
to the off position
feelings
I don't remember them
my soul
heart and feelings
sunk into the
andreas trench
as I look at you
I faintly see
the whispers of
something that once
filled me so explosively
now
the cold hard steel
shines brightly
feeding the apathy
trying to remember
what a heart beat is like
what warm blood coursing through veins
was like
reveling in
the use of nuclear control rods
to crush lost memories of feeling
I am the Juggernaut bitch
encased in carbonite
impervious
castrated emotion
circumvents human attributes
I am the scourge of
connection
disconnected
closed circuit
me the demon
is all that is left
impervious
titanic
the breaker is set
Thank you
from the chocolatezeus collection 8/24/15 (c)
Mandalorian Monday
Weekend was a mixture.
I had some fun.
Got shown how females claim these differences but they remain the same constantly. Must be a chromosome level construct.
Went to uncles birthday party.
Made a new addition to the monkey registry.
Watched the new Hitman: Agent 47 movie. That is some hot garbage compared to the first one. No wonder it has made no money at all.
and most importantly I applied the FIX for all the bullshit with the humans. Much appreciated. It is good when you analyze, are shown what you saw and implement the necessary actions.
It's monday. time to make things happen and give them the Representative that they need. While I do my thing and give them the cold, death of space and unavailability.
Enjoy your monday and your opportunities
I had some fun.
Got shown how females claim these differences but they remain the same constantly. Must be a chromosome level construct.
Went to uncles birthday party.
Made a new addition to the monkey registry.
Watched the new Hitman: Agent 47 movie. That is some hot garbage compared to the first one. No wonder it has made no money at all.
and most importantly I applied the FIX for all the bullshit with the humans. Much appreciated. It is good when you analyze, are shown what you saw and implement the necessary actions.
It's monday. time to make things happen and give them the Representative that they need. While I do my thing and give them the cold, death of space and unavailability.
Enjoy your monday and your opportunities
Sit Rep: Operation NGAF
I am still tired and everything. But oh well. NGAF is in effect. Just do what it do and keep moving.
I am going to cook some mac n cheese and asian bbq ribs for dinner. I have been wanting some ribs for a long time. I hope that are pretty good. They have been marinating in the juices since I went to the store last and put all the food up in the freezer. all I would need with this now is potato salad to go with it.
Looking all I can do is shake my head and laugh at things currently. If I wasn't the evil monster that I am then I am sure I would break out into tears. It just is what it is on this minefield laden roller coaster of hell.
Enjoy your sunday dinner. Well at least I think it is sunday.
Damn I had to add another Addendum on to the update. Maybe I need to publish this when I finish.
In Operation NGAF this weekend we have seen it all. We have witnessed the coup de grace. And we understand. Completely understand. A Borg reaction and mentality is the plan.
Thank you for informing and educating e.
*singing*
You don't give a damn, we don't give a FUCK!! and that goes in multiples and plus with this one.
*throwing a fucking nuke on these bitches*
Sunday, August 23, 2015
Northwest and Back Again
I went to my uncles 70th birthday party. I knew it was going to be down to earth and colorful. Because unk is colorful himself.
Fried fish, tater salad, baked beans, crab legs, pasta salad and cake were on the menu. Everyone was eating and enjoying themselves.
I sat on the porch remembering when the house use to be Big Ma's house and coming there ever summer from overseas somewhere. The porch then was't screened in at all. We use to go outside on the porch to get some air since Big Ma was burning us out of the house with that wood burning stove she sat directly behind. All the times that I was there since it was one of the few places the parental units allowed me to be while I was in the states. many memories there.
Well this is the continuation from last night since I passed out. I think I had heat stroke yesterday with how I was feeling and then me falling asleep. Well then again my fatigue and lack of sleeping probably played into that as well. Who really knows.
At least there were ass and titties to look at while I was there. From skinny to thick and young to old. There were some curves.
Fried fish, tater salad, baked beans, crab legs, pasta salad and cake were on the menu. Everyone was eating and enjoying themselves.
I sat on the porch remembering when the house use to be Big Ma's house and coming there ever summer from overseas somewhere. The porch then was't screened in at all. We use to go outside on the porch to get some air since Big Ma was burning us out of the house with that wood burning stove she sat directly behind. All the times that I was there since it was one of the few places the parental units allowed me to be while I was in the states. many memories there.
Well this is the continuation from last night since I passed out. I think I had heat stroke yesterday with how I was feeling and then me falling asleep. Well then again my fatigue and lack of sleeping probably played into that as well. Who really knows.
At least there were ass and titties to look at while I was there. From skinny to thick and young to old. There were some curves.
Friday, August 21, 2015
InfoSec
I learned being open, straight forward and transparent is not a good thing. Well, in theory it is a good thing and the best way to be. But people need the Representative. And they can't handle those aspects I have seen.
The issue when you speak and act straight forward is met with disbelief, disdain, fear and loathing. It is pretty much like the plague. Which really baffles me. Because there is always this rhetoric about being real and all that bullshit. But when it occurs it is more like "run for the fucking hills."
It is something that Ru Ru and I spoke about this morning. About me being just me. Through the outside views, notions and opinions...I am just me in the beginning and end. She understands that I simply continue to be who I am. That doesn't change my love, deep passion or my evil ass actions. And this is also why I know I can be myself and tell Ru everything and anything. As evidence to her reminding me about a reference to pre marriage that was pertinent to the current situations. Even I had forgotten or locked that memory away until she said it. All I could say was oh damn. This woman knows who I am, what has happened and all the information from top to bottom. And I am happy with that.
Outside of Ru I realized that there had to be a revamp of information regulation. I am not holding information in escrow for anyone. There is no way for them to handle it. So as it has been shown and enacted, they get the Representative that they want. Meanwhile information, emotions and feelings all remaining behind the 30 ft thick walled vault.
I guess you can say that it is not the human's fault that they are like this way. But fuck that it is and they love it that way.
Well, I have eaten breakfast. Steak, cheese eggs and grits. And fixed me a tequila, vodka, rum and fruit punch. I think it is time to really get things started!
Have a great one and enjoy the weekend. Until the next time smack some ass and smack it hard!
The issue when you speak and act straight forward is met with disbelief, disdain, fear and loathing. It is pretty much like the plague. Which really baffles me. Because there is always this rhetoric about being real and all that bullshit. But when it occurs it is more like "run for the fucking hills."
It is something that Ru Ru and I spoke about this morning. About me being just me. Through the outside views, notions and opinions...I am just me in the beginning and end. She understands that I simply continue to be who I am. That doesn't change my love, deep passion or my evil ass actions. And this is also why I know I can be myself and tell Ru everything and anything. As evidence to her reminding me about a reference to pre marriage that was pertinent to the current situations. Even I had forgotten or locked that memory away until she said it. All I could say was oh damn. This woman knows who I am, what has happened and all the information from top to bottom. And I am happy with that.
Outside of Ru I realized that there had to be a revamp of information regulation. I am not holding information in escrow for anyone. There is no way for them to handle it. So as it has been shown and enacted, they get the Representative that they want. Meanwhile information, emotions and feelings all remaining behind the 30 ft thick walled vault.
I guess you can say that it is not the human's fault that they are like this way. But fuck that it is and they love it that way.
Well, I have eaten breakfast. Steak, cheese eggs and grits. And fixed me a tequila, vodka, rum and fruit punch. I think it is time to really get things started!
Have a great one and enjoy the weekend. Until the next time smack some ass and smack it hard!
Right On Cue
With the things that have gone on lately I needed that moment in time like being in the tardis tonight.
So I called and checked on Ru. And we exchanged adventures in life unscripted. The good and the bad of what has gone on lately and in memory.
From her sabot kicking the porn guy in the head while fucking and busting his head open to fucking nihgas until they lose their common sense. That's my gurl. My road dawg. My fellow Road Warrior.
She knows the crazy details of me and my life. She is that fortress in the eye of the storm and there to help you fight. Understanding and accepting of each other. Who would have known that we would ever become this close from swinging and the retarded monkey ex.
As we talked this morning she reminded me of a somilar situation with my wife. I couldn't remember it until she spoke and reminded me. And I had to laugh because it was the same situation again. Further showing why I felt, started things and why there is importance. but the conflict is similar.
In the uncertainty and agitation she threw water on me and I was awoken. Dealing and handlimg things
Ru Ru is my heart. I love that girl deeply. We have been through so much together. Our bond is so very toght. Flowing with no effort.
She has met my wife. Helped me through rough times
Amd made laugh and smole in this apocalyptic era.
I thank God for Ru Ru. She is a severely blessing. And those big soft titties of hers feel great!
I can't wait for her and her man to make it official. She is happy with him
So I called and checked on Ru. And we exchanged adventures in life unscripted. The good and the bad of what has gone on lately and in memory.
From her sabot kicking the porn guy in the head while fucking and busting his head open to fucking nihgas until they lose their common sense. That's my gurl. My road dawg. My fellow Road Warrior.
She knows the crazy details of me and my life. She is that fortress in the eye of the storm and there to help you fight. Understanding and accepting of each other. Who would have known that we would ever become this close from swinging and the retarded monkey ex.
As we talked this morning she reminded me of a somilar situation with my wife. I couldn't remember it until she spoke and reminded me. And I had to laugh because it was the same situation again. Further showing why I felt, started things and why there is importance. but the conflict is similar.
In the uncertainty and agitation she threw water on me and I was awoken. Dealing and handlimg things
Ru Ru is my heart. I love that girl deeply. We have been through so much together. Our bond is so very toght. Flowing with no effort.
She has met my wife. Helped me through rough times
Amd made laugh and smole in this apocalyptic era.
I thank God for Ru Ru. She is a severely blessing. And those big soft titties of hers feel great!
I can't wait for her and her man to make it official. She is happy with him
Thursday, August 20, 2015
Quote of the Evening
“there is nothing outside of yourself that can ever enable you to get better, stronger, richer, quicker, or smarter. Everything is within. Everything exists. Seek nothing outside of yourself.” ― Miyamoto Musashi, The Book of Five Rings
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