A Morning Chuckle

With the way the week has been. I really needed this chuckle this morning.

still laughing

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Templar Life Unscripted

"The erosion of principles is not an immediate process but a slow creeping beast."
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Pauperes commilitones Christi Templique Salomonici, Latin for the Poor Fellow-Soldiers of Christ and of the Temple of Solomon. Aka the Knights Templar. Warrior priests with upheld vows, who most notably fought in the Crusades for the Holy Land in history. Each dedicated to serve and protect others as well as uphold their principles.

Why do I give this history style beginning? Because I was watching the movie Ironclad. Where a templar returns from the Holy Lands to end up being denounced with the rest of his order by the pope and the church. It is a test of the templar's life, faith and reality.

Principles of the Warrior Priest

Stoic

Doesn’t mean that I do not feel

In truth I feel too much

But all things must be organized

Placed accordingly

Each conflict and disagreement

Many times met in silence

Others in voiced catharsis

My purpose

To be the one you pray to

When you need comfort and protection

The escape from your daily life of sublevel involvement

As you balk at my

Position, thoughts and principles

Whisper and scream the differences

My principles, thoughts and feelings

Remain

Strengthened even

Against the storms that you bring

Coated and covered in blood

Weary from each assault by you and them

I continue to stand

To be the chapel and priest that you need

Even when only your

Hatred

Disconnect

Fight

Is against me

I am

Always will be

My duty

My honor

And my principles

Even when you have chosen

To come against me

Permanently

From the chocolatezeus collection  3/15/16  ©

So, with my analytical self I found things that spoke to me and my journey. In essence who and what I am. 

When I say there is a light and dark side of the force in me. Believe me it is seriously like that. When lil red talks about I don't believe in a gray area. Personally for myself there isn't one. I understand that there is for others, but not for me. My evil combats my nice each and every second of the day. 

Like the templar I do what is right and commit the attrocities that others won't and cant because it must be done. 

Let's translate this to D/s and relationships.

Being Dominant is not skipping down the yellow brick road. It is constant attention to details and possible readjustment. It is accepting that everything cannot be predicted necessarily. But it is also creating a dynamic where the base is sound enough to weather the changes and chaos.

I will be your shelter, your creator of the infliction of pain and comforter. I am weird, difficult and not what you are use to. 

As you challenge me about every single thing or just one or two things. Remember! Remember, what I said from the beginning. How I am and remain. What I want, need and require. Look at things currently.

HAS THAT CHANGED?

What I want.

My principles.

Who I want and their position in my life.

The answers are obvious. I remain me. My principles, goals and desires remain cemented in place. 

STABILITY

Can you say the same thing? Can you accept reality?

Not to worry, I won't change. I am a constant. Chaos will continue to reign.

So just...

Cry Havoc!!!!!!

This Is Not a Cake Walk...So No Free Passes

I speak my mind, my wants, needs and desires. Yet, that doesn't mean that when it comes to being involved with a female that it will be simple.

This stems from communication with little red and her feeling that there really is no need to work to be with me once I have informed a female of what I want with her and her position. It is also Ru and i have discussed in our Live's Unscripted experiences.

I will tell you the simple facts. That feeling and outlook is far from the truth.

My words and actions will tell you how I care, love, want and need you. But if you are not keeping my interest, lust, passion and desire fed. Then your presence will begin to wane quickly and then dissapate into the ether.

We can have the best sex and scenes ever together. You can be the one that is very similar to the things I need for my extreme fuckery, sadism and insanity.  Being my comfort, source of pleasure and passion and bubble from the rest of the world.

But if you can't hold the things that help me even remember any connection to you then all of those things fall null and void.

Examples you say? Alright, alright, alright.


Make an effort, show interest and take some innitiative about spending time, seeing or communicating with me.

I am a superhorny and sadistic motherfucker. Reminders that stimulate my constant increasing craving helps keep a flame lit. Feed my lust and things will be better. And...it saves the humans!! lol

Communicate, communicate, fucking communicate! And this is not about quantity, this is about quality. If we have an actual relation then step from behind your Rochester castle walls and let's meet to know and meet each other. 

These things are not hard and they are not easy when it comes to me. It means that you have to feed my needs.

• Be my unbridled personal porn star whore in person and not
• A woman that I can take to events with the money makers and be proud
• Be able to melt my ice cold heart and soul then appreciate it frozen
• Understand how compartmentalized I am but that your place in my existence is the most important thing
• My love is the mirror image of my disconnection and apathy. Strong and intense.
• Your position in my life and effective use of it will make my human reactions better for them.  (Reagan era trickle down economics here.)
• Engage me on the intellectual, creative and humor categories. Keeping me there often is a big plus. lol

I am a modern day Caveman. We are a bit more sophisticated and refined now!  *patting my black club and laughing*

So in closing. I am easy to disconnect and compartmentalize relations. I have a high standard when it comes to my relations. I will give a lot to those that can be at and maintain that level. What level you are at with me is based on what you have chosen. Not me. 

I laid out the blueprint and the plan. You will still have to work for it. Regardless of how society, past experiences and everything else makes you think. 

I am Zeus! Meaning something to and being with me is what you have to work for! Even when the door is wide open and I beckon you to come in and be part of this debauchery and intense dynamic.

Well, warp factor 10 to you. And may your day be filled with knowledge, entertainment and adventure. 

The Smile of Apocalypse

The chuckles have happened for a moment now. When you are shown and verify then there are no questions. Today provided the things that needed to be said, done and notated.

Another talk with Ru and my dose of entertainment of course was needed to have those simple old school moments. What is left of them. Also reinforces why there is an inner sanctum and then there are those that choose to sit outside for whatever reasons they come up with themselves. As I notate in the journal I chuckle even more at the outstanding choice in a deficit of thinking.

I am still off of the high of the information from the educational last night. And then I can look and see what we discussed last night and how it applies. And the available outcomes are as were predicted.

I am watching the black arrows rain down upon me. And all I can do is laugh as they attempt to destroy me. For they have no clue the wonders of the darkness bring me.

lol Knowledge is power. And using knowledge and power equals making personal progress.


I know I said I was going to finish the other post. But I have a lot to write in the journal and in the poetry file. So I will make it up to you later.

Start your week off wonderfully.

Life Unscripted...The Lead and Deal with it Week Recap

Well now that I am done with eating a stuffed pork chop, bacon and some eggs. I am ready to write a little something for now.

It has been a very hard hitting, interesting, annoying and good week. lol

Had the parental spike in issue at the beginning. Dealings with relations. Got good news and that definitely helped me make some decisions. And then there was yesterday...

Yesterday I was in a good mood still. I get to the shop and the guy whose wife died last year that I talk to was there. And damn, he was upset because he had to put his old dog down at the vet. The dog was that last vestige of what was part of his wife that was living and breathing since it was her dog. And the dog was old as hell anyway. But I understood and felt him. As he remembered at times and would laugh and the tears come out I totally understood. So, I expressed my support and understanding in the man way. We laughed and talked about things. He smoked 3 cigars which is a lot for him while at the shop. But it was for coping and not going to the house. He didn't need another hit like that. But I remain supportive and everything. He is good people.

Oh and yesterday the UNC tv were filming in the shop. So I am apparently going to be on tv again. I guess I better get my autograph signing practice going. lol The lady directing was from england and been in raleigh for decades and still hasn't lost her accent. But Tim broke a bunch of historical stuff down as they interviewed him. After all the shop is a tobacco museum as well. There is so much in there and so much history.

Last night I attended an educational in jacksonville. It was a great educational. Mister Emm presented a direct and well thought out processing of Effective Discipline in D/s Dynamics. It was about discipline, relations as well as motivations and connections. I had great dialogue with him about some things and asked questions. I am thankful that I decided to go.

Oh and Friday I went to Tastee Thai. A very nice restaurant. Merle and Rich from the shop were there and we hung out and ate. Merle is still trying to get Rich to go to thailand next year for a couple of months. Merle must forget most are not as rich as he is. smh  I had some thai sausage that was very little pork with a lot of vegetables in it. It was called Chang Mai sausage. (I a sure the spelling is probably off) It was very close to vegetarian so I had angst. I had the drunken noodle which was excellent and seasoned nicely. I could have gone up at least one more level on the spicy side though.

hell, I got to continue this later.

Until then  BE WELL!!

The Return of the Chocolatezeus...Or Not

Time has been filled with changes, compartmentalization and much, much more lately.

But yesterday things looked up and I am thankful for it. Because I am ready to dissapear and travel again. About to take it back to the Old School. And I got my mixes to go with that. lol

Ru and I have talked a lot lately. Hell, I needed something an someone stable, right? lmfao As usual she brought up I need to be closer so we can get into all kinds of shenanigans. Since I am the one male that she can go do whatever with and can count on. From a trip to a swing party to a black tie affair. Life Unscripted in full force would be going down.  And believe me the crazy adventure, time stories multiply when we are together. lol  And I miss the hell out of us hanging out and me getting to be entertained by her fucking adventures. Even though she is still sore about me getting the better end of the deal since my fucking adventures are fucking crickets. But it is just always good to be around the person I can have a good time with and relax. That is why I have always taken who I cared about and loved and wanted to spend time with seriously. It's a FUCKING need and requirement!!! LMAO

I am looking forward to finally taking a trip out of country this year or even two depending on the sales and things. Either way I smile and look forward to heading to places to eat, go to museums and just do even more me.

This has definitely come at a time where I needed it. With everything fucked up and my super fuck it and you response. It is a nice respite where I can take a breath and chuckle to myself before I return to the killing.

And yes, I still have to deal with the parental units and the other mess going on. But now everything and everyone just matters less. lol

I just did my Super Villian/superhero landing. And that shit is AWESOME!!!!


Cue the Dela Soul Music.... Just Me, Myself and I


Have a great one. May all the things that only you want be yours!!!!!

Happiness Is

I was asked what makes me happy.

And I ran down the list of things. From traveling to movies and all in between. But when I say being with the people that I enjoy, care about even love there was that click sound of the disconnect button.

Yes, part of my happiness is when those I actually want and allow in my life spend time, interact and want to make me happy. It is not a constant thing or something that is overused. But it is a simple way of life in a relationship with me. And it is something that many people don't understand or have an aversion to.

I love to be able to laugh, talk, fuck and get pics from them. The different types of interactions show interest, acknowledgement of the relation and desire to interact happily with me.

Of course this is against my introverted, evil ABM personality. But this is the core and basis behind having an personal relationship with me.

And when these things are lacking or not happening. Then according to the scale I adjust myself accordingly. Stepping backwards towards the non relation factor.

I always enjoy and want to be happy. And that is strengthened by those that make me happy. Not dependent on.

So as the song says

Don't Worry Be Happy!!!

The Matter of D/s...Know Your Role

A D/s relationship is when one consents to not be equal and serve another. It is hierarchy that one chooses to enter.

sub·mit

səbˈmit/

verb

1. 1.

   accept or yield to a superior force or to the authority or will of another person.
2. 
   

This basic principle is how things should go. But naturally most are not able or want to fulfill and be in the submissive role. This is due to teachings, experiences and feelings. The struggle against authority.

I have found those that say that they want to be submissive and will fight against, deny and omit to the service and role of being a submissive.

Now this does not mean that the Dominant has no responsibilities and duties to maintain, manage and act upon this hierarchy.

Through my experience I have seen this occur in so many forms. As a Dominant I have had to establish the destination, the rules and regulations along with understanding and adaptation.  I didn't just know all the answers from the beginning and nor do I have all the answers to future questions. But I have the basis and have grown from them, while continuing to learn and grow. I have always led, protected and counseled. Now, I am just more invested.

The answer is finding the proper combination to the lock.

Topping From the Bottom and All About You

There definitely is a connection with females whether is it vanilla or in a lifestyle. The ones that want, need and are use to getting their way will continue to attempt to do so. Making sure to get their way in any shape, form or fashion.

So, I made some mistakes. I did not put everything in words, on stone tablets and in braille for things to be completely understood and things not claimed to never be heard or seen. Everything big and small needs to be slapped in the face straight from the beginning.

When there are the talks where there are attempts to manipulate and the actions facilitate even more selfish behavior.

But this merely reinforced the Caveman initiative. I stepped away from it in my old age and stuff lately. Now it is time to solidify and magnify.

I know that I am knew. And I have allowed for leeway and understanding because of life's activities. But, I am not the puppet at all. I am the puppet master.

Continuing this journey in D/s relations. Warp Factor 8.

Close In Support

I was watching a video on the conflict with the air force and congress about the use and extension of service for the A-10 Warthog. A plane that has flown since the 1980s at least. Armored, merciless and dedicated. It keeps our ground troops safe from the enemy real closely.

So where does this apply? Glad you thought you asked. lol

In my black and white scheme of things. I will exhibit, show and give emotions and emotional content. Or I won't have any emotions at all. Not even the so called human being ones. After all I am not human anyway.

Emotions are filled with fear, unknown, hurt, pain and joy. So many variables that scare people so much they have to avoid, detest or fight them tooth and nail. There are always a million things said negatively about emotions and how they are dangerous, will destroy you, not logical and only cause pain.

I see you and that side eye bullshit. But he said that "he either allows emotions or not." I appreciate you paying attention. Thank you. Emotions are not for every situation. Nor are every emotion the right fit for times an situations.

I am clear with my emotions. You are in one of my personal circles then you get that aspect or level of emotion. Well, until you change that or create a need to be downgraded. Then you can get less emotional content and even absolutely none.

Examples you say?  I got married after one year to a wonderful woman because of the emotional attachment and that "You Are The One" feeling. This type of emotion was something I did not understand then at all and considering my utter hatred and disdain for emotion back then made for this to be devastating. I fought it tooth and nail but reality set in. I was emotionally connected. Not only with my wife, but myself in a way I hadn't before or accepted. So when it happened again years later with lil red I was shocked but I understood it. Even though me telling her what I want, saw, felt and our goal up front caused every last doomsday apocalypse defense to come up and things to be disconnected.

See, I have always been the counselor, confidant, sin eater and protector in many shapes and forms. From physically to the mental battle with the ultra logical lil red. It is the adaptation of each that shows merit and worth. It is those things that create thoughts, feelings and questions. It is a control and a grounding at the same time.

In D/s this is where the connection lies. When I challenge, show and express things that create a link mentally and in thought. Where daily issues and plans are discussed and figured out. It is not always flagrantly obvious. But look at the changes that have occurred. Look at how long this has lasted when I was nowhere near your typical norm.  Your needs mentally, physically or emotionally will not be the same as anyone else. But this is why our dynamic is tailor made to each individual.

So let me grab my red lightsaber so I can prepare for battle once again. Ok, I never stopped battling, but I did take a vodka, everclear, tequila, rum break.  Have a good day. Don't be scared of the emotion and feeling things. Embrace, learn and grow. It is the only way to evolve fully.

I will leave you with some poetry on this long ass post. lmao

Your Ground Support

Havoc

Zeus

Apocalypse

Monikers of change

Nicknames and realities of

All of me

But here is the kicker

The thing that causes

Malcontent resentment

My presence

Even in absence

Has changed your normalcy

Those emotions you battle with

Hate feeling

The conflict of logic to

Emotionally attaching

That’s me

My mind, soul and emotions

Invoking Dominance

Upon you

Your mind running 4 million mph

I am that turbo injection

That will either make it run faster

With my abstract mental effect

Or slower with

A what the fuck moment

That’s me

My mind, soul and emotions

Invoking Dominance

Upon you

My slap to your face

With my direct Zeus style

Eloquence and taste

With simple Caveman ways

Leaves you changed

Thinking

That’s me

My mind, soul and emotions

Invoking Dominance

Upon you

These things and more

Are parts of your support

To create that safety net and availability

For you to

Accept

Soar

Explore

As you feel

Hear

The beating of the drums of

Your heart, mind and soul

Remember

Grounded

My infliction of napalm upon your fire

My destruction of your world

Opened your world

Mission control

This is ground support

I am on the job

From the chocolatezeus collection  3/7/16  ©

The Unsolvable Formulaic Relationship Equation

Seems like the hot topic has been relations. Both mono and poly. And I have no problem giving my position and application.

All relationships, no matter the dynamic are formulas that you have to choose what you plug in to it. The big part is there is never an actual solution so it is a science, math and physics geeks dream basically. There are no constants or necessary reliabilities. Just the application for the moment and what myriad of outcomes will appear from that formula for the next moment.

As I was asked how do you make poly work? Just like you have to make a monogamous relation work. You actually have to have someone that wants a relation and is willing to make the effort to make it work. Terms have to be met or you just don't give a fuck and then nothing matters anyway.

I have enjoyed poly relations until other individuals choose to change things and disconnect the relation. I have loved, cared for, been there for and more with individuals. There is also the converse reality as well. It can be used to maintain complete disconnection and distance from others. Where there is an established ceiling that is capped so there is no room for movement beyond that.

I can and do both of the afore mentioned situations. If you want to be situaltional then I will show you interest when you show some or we spend some type of interaction together. After that I will barely remember. In the other way we can be fully invested in each other and do our thing. You only can make the most out of what is put in.

Deconstructed Formulaic Relationship

Chalk and eraser in hand

Upon the blackboard

We call a

Relationship

I guarantee you

That you will be perplexed

The answers will never be met

And the outcomes will be in a

Constant state of flux

Like beginning the periodic table

Like a game of chess

The only importance is placement

Whoever is winning

Changes the answers to the tests

E=mc2d

Wait a minute that is unfair

We cannot have constants

In a relationship

Misapplication of

Pythagorean Theorem

Nothing is meeting or joined

Especially not the heart and mind

Even the physics

Of the physical moments

Leave the equation

Unsolved

Neither x, y nor z has been solved

Even Pi is not allowed

Fundamentally we have broken the answer

1+1=2

1+1+1=3

And there is where that damn Pi

Should be

Oh well

Broken formulas

Mathematical fuckery

In the end

There is only

Improbable

Impossibilities

From the chocolatezeus collection  3/6/16  ©

So I will tell you this. If you don't know what you want. Need to be secretive and cower in your own soul. While role playing that you want a relationship or more. Just stop! And play only with those that are happily in your same boat. 

It is not that dating, relations, even marriage cannot be solved. It is the factor of do you want things solved or do you want to stand in your own way so you can feel that false since of safe.

Relationships work. I enjoy watching and reading the interaction in D/s, M/s and vanilla relations. When they are working well and they are into each other even if they are apart or don't spend a lot of time together. When they can argue and disagree and that same energy doesn't change. That is what a relationship is made of. When through the good, bad, silent and disconnected moments you can smack her on the ass and she turns and looks at you to say, "yeah, I know. miss you too."

Be true and don't be scared to step our of your comfort zone and live. Unless like me no one will ever be safe if you do. 

lmao

Get the fuck out of here and enjoy this weather. As Sargent Slaughter would say, "And that's an order!"

Spoken Reality: I See Why

I See Why

Those motes smolder in your eyes

You’re so twisted, gnarled and mangled inside

The rivulets of love, passion and soul burn like napalm

I see why

Chivalry died upon a cross of your design

Where you are only worth the pussy you are attached to

Your proclaimed abilities are miniscule

I see why

Giving a fuck about you is the deadliest sin

You are the disease and creature that all must kill

Like the plague you spread your cancerous cells

I see why

My heart, soul and mind have self-erased

Why I stand at the center of hell and now it well

My Caveman mentality is the only thing that won’t fail

I see why

You chop the head off of those that are not in the inner sanctum

Pitch their body and soul upon a pike as a trophy edifice

I laugh at the so called expressions that hold the weight of an astral projection

I see why

Fuck it

I just fucking see

And seeing is believing

So fuck it all

And welcome to

Where

Hell meets Hades

From the chocolatezeus collection  3/5/16  ©

Spoken Relation: Dynamic Unity

Dynamic Unity

Have we begun

Oh yeah

There is that

Mind fuck

Where my words

Actions and commands

Have changed and altered you

In ways you hadn’t seen

You fight me

With every bit of grown up angst

Every subversive

Submissive stance

Embrace it

The lust

Need for me to inflict

Peace and release

Upon and within

You

The trust

That tells you I won’t let you

Fall into the pit of despair

Be broken beyond repair

Without me reeling you back in

Whispering melodious in your ear

As your mental and physical aftercare

Bring purpose to

Subspace universe

Life’s mental curse

Each bruise and trophy occurred

You step

We step

Consent

Wills us to purpose

This D/s universe

Is based on only

Our tailor made purpose

So come

Let me show

Explain

Hurt and transform

As we are transfixed upon

The goal that is maintained

Give me your

Lust

Heart

Body

Mind

So I make the insane tame

This relationship

This dynamic

D/s molding

Will never be plain

Together

Our dynamic

Glistens and glows

Insane

Paved upon the ethos

Stellar like

Purple Rain

From the chocolatezeus collection  3/5/16  ©