Poetic Needs: Just Right

I never would have thought I would like redvelvet. Let  alone need a daily fix of it. 

But oh well!

Ce la vie!!

Just Right

In the darkest night

I stumbled upon

Ultimate dessert

Craving

So sweet

Yet spicy

So enticing

But cold as an ice

Entwined minds

Coincided adult responsibilities of life

Creative minds and lives

Intermingled

Joined by chance

By life

A Master Chef

Delectable delight

She feeds me

With sweet curves

Of chocolate royal delight

As I enjoy the cream

Risen to climax

Dipped in divinity

Willy Wonka’s ultimate

Dessert fix

As she feeds me

Through pain and more pain

My sadist explodes

Like a chocolate molten lava cake

Again

Again

And again

Each bite

Land of the cane

Sound of the flogger

Reigns upon my

Carnivorous rage

For I am left

Like an addict

My hunger rages

This lust cannot

Will not

I don’t want to be

Contained

Just like

Mary J said

You are my sweet thing

And this beast

Must feed

For eternity

From the chocolatezeus collection  2/12/16  ©

Poetic Moment: Beyond the Veil

Beyond the Veil

Standing here

Amid the dust and rubble

Blind to anything in front of me

Searching for answers

An application of destiny

Peering to see

Lonely embers

Hanging on against finality

Us

Our

Distant remnants

Of yellow brick road dreams

A supernova

Transmuted into

Lead lined

Black hole of being

I see

No, saw clearly

The possible outlook

Holy Grail to be achieved

But that was just me

The anomaly in this

Unsolved equation

Heart and soul

Laying upon jagged rocks

As jagged edge sings

What should be

I shouldn’t looked behind the curtain

I wouldn’t have seen what I wanted

Never knew this need

As I ride this dead hurricane

Left in the mundane

Catapulted into

Pristine silence

Connected dots

In an unsolved puzzle

A mix of

Irreverent

Irrelevance

Amid the desired

Context and effect

Left here

Blinking and thinking

Bewildered

As wonderment won’t cease

The distance and silence

Paved the way to my

Clabbored feelings

As a heart is sucked up in

Its own black hole

Silently

Reeling

From the chocolatezeus collection  2/12/16  ©

Balance and Protocols

I am out of balance.

It has been this way for a long time. That balance has gotten better recently since I decided to stick with my old school ways and be Super Captain Caveman, once again.

Causes of unbalance:

• Life...being an adult responsible for things out of your damn control is always something
• Lack of Travel...This always helps me. Even if it is merely for a weekend to hang out with my few people in my circle
• Lack of Sex...This is the most dangerous for the humans. Since I am not getting it on any type of regular basis I am prone to some Death Star level activity
• Sadist needs to be fed...He is really pissed off and angry right now. The cage is already broken.

Balance keeps things moving appropriately through the chaos and calamities. But as is life, just have to deal with things and destroy existence another way. 

Either way my balance will be back into play no matter who has to be removed, excommunicated and everything else.

My protocol experience has shown me that I have to be Super Caveman. Because, if you let a sub get an inch they are in another orbit a moment later. I have to make sure every protocol and rule is slapped in the face from inception. Because if you amend things they want to act like you have turned into Dr Kavorkian. But the lesson has been learned. 

Life is lessons and experiences. Right now I am wondering the meaning if any of the current mess. Oh well, enjoy your time and days.

To quote my favorite, Gen. George S Patton in closing.

"In case of doubt, attack."

Poetry: Welcome to My Church

Welcome to My Church

Come lay upon my alter

Naked unto me

Fully

Mentally

Spiritually

Physically

Nothing hidden

As I hold covenant

Over your

Past

Present

Future

I see inside you

The delicate delicacy

The strength on top and beneath

With that layer of

Submission locked between

I will sacrifice you

To being free

To letting go of all those things

That you cling to and have to do

Automatically

I am not what you have

Previously encountered or seen

I am tailor made to

Exorcise your stubborn resistance

To elevating to what you

Want, need and seek

This knife carves you deep

Leaving marks

Upon your heart and psyche

Twisting your natural

Literal order to things

You struggle

Yet you remain perched

Calling for rebirth and pain

Here with outstretched hands

My knife gleaming

I have shown you the way

The vision that lies at the end

Your sacrifice is all that I need

And destiny

Will be manifested

Here upon this altar

We will be

Take me to church

For the sins are

Denial of destiny

From the chocolatezeus collection  2/8/16  ©

Jammin Old School, Superbowl, Cigars and All

I have been jammin the past days to DJ L3XX mixes. I think he is an old yokota classmate but I am not for sure. But here is an example of why i am dancing around.

Funky Fresh Fridays Vol.01 - DJ L3XX by Deejayl3xx on Mixcloud

So my Panthers are playing today and could win their first super bowl, which would be off the wall. it is going to be crazy either way. And what a great excuse to get the hell out of the house and enjoy myself while the parental units are here! So it is going to be cigars, pizza, wings, football and alcohol tonight.  Lil Jon YEAH!!

The female parental unit's sister still hasn't died. I haven't seen the female parental unit yet since I got back last night. So I am thankful.

I am debating if i should fix some more bbq chicken but then again I am going to be eating out there so I might just snack.

Therapy Normalcy and Totality (I thought this was posted already smh)

It has been a week of productivity amid sickness and the unforeseen.  Sister probably has this virus that is going around. The oarental units called 47 times. (No I mean literally 47 times in one day)

I had some convo with lil red at her comfort level which was cool. Allowed for talking and laughing. A big change from things lately. And I appreciated the effort.

Sprinkled me with some relationship convos in there. About availability and emotional statuses.

So in therapy today it hit home that in the cigar shop there is alwaus something amd someone crazy coming in. Today was the skrawny entity that was dressed goth. The other crazy introduced what we didn't know was a boy to us. His name was benjamin and he was a masquerade vampire. I was like what the hell! So I sat there watching the show as always. So the he asks benjamin what vampire clan he was from? The masquerade? And I look up at monroe and I am ctfu. He is trying to keep a straight face and I have to look at them crazy and put my head down.

the entertainment is priceless!!

PSSITA and salud

This Weeks Recap

So here is the rundown of how it went down for the last 7 days.

I did check out the show Billions, the expanse and something else that I cannot remember right now. I did enjoy Billions and expanse shocked me with how good they were so I have added to the viewing list of programs.

The subjects that were on the discussion block were compatibility, availability and efforts. There were some lively discussions as well as some interesting ones along with conclusions. But in the aftermath I have had to make some more adjustments and decisions.

oh yeah the female parental units older sister is apparently ready to die in the next couple of days. I am not broken up about her dying or if the parental units can't make it. Either way things would better if they didn't come and everything so there is peace.

outside of that just making decisions and handling business as usual.

Poetic Moment Sweet Results of Affect

Sweet Results of Affect

There is nothing left

When promising turns to something else

When the sun no longer shines

And the grind merely

Corrodes your mind

Heart and soul

Cease to exist

Against a backdrop of

What they use to hold

Expressionless

With crimson drops of

Anti coagulated emotions

Leaving a past left

Circumspect

Fleeting

A homage to impossibility

The layer sediments

Unable to settle into something

Corporeal

This dynamic

Unified indifference

Laid to rest

No ceremony or anything left

A look back at

The death of forward progress

Gone

Leaving

Left

Now there is only

Crimson droplets

Melted into stale chocolate

A decadent dessert

Destroyed

Rendered useless

Such a waste

Sorrowfully encased

Non relevance

From the chocolatezeus collection 1/31/16  ©

The need for travel and the greater good aka Me

I have to travel at least a little bit to feel comfortable during the year. To feel in my proper path I need to leave the country at least once a year to have things in sync.

So, on my list this year is time with Ru. After all we need to just hang out and do it like we normally do. And damn I havent watched any good entertainment of hers since the cabin trip stuff in 2014. I am overdue and yeah it is not fair as she says, since she doesn't get as many with me. What can I say I am boring. lol

I know I have the Air and Space Museum in Dulles on the list. I need to feed my inner nerd and childhood. Plus there is the Miami auto museum that steve showed me and that is definitely on a must  do list right now. With all the cars, motorcycles, trucks, planes and memorabilia it is a ncecessity. Still waiting to see what the deal is with vegas though. Considering the source I knew that it could be iffy anyway.

Internationally. I still want to go to amsterdam, especially since I didn't get to go last year. Plus going to Venice is still on the to do list. I want my damn masks.So i have found some decent rates for these trips thankfully. But I also want to go back to jamaica. The problem with that is I want to go back to my resort which would require a female to go. Smh, history prevails on the not so good side on this one. And I love the damn resort too. Sucks. But hell, who knows I might go somewhere else in jamaica or finally make it to the DR. Either way the passport will have to be used.

Still don't know when or where the god daugher's graduation is going to be. And I haven't heard from her since like october or november or something. No clue what is going on there. Hope she is alright.

As a former military dependent we have traveling in our blood. So when I don't travel it definitely adds to my unhappy list.

But travel is such a wonderful thing. Damn, I haven't been anywhere in almost 6 months now. Wow, that is depressing.

Well, enjoy yourself and your life.

Poetic Moment: Mission Impossible: Compatibility

Mission Impossible: Compatibility

Impossible acts

Mental and physical traps

This bullshit dance

As I have to be the ultimate

Cryptographer

What the fuck is that

Perched like a gargoyle

Warding off evil spirits

In this trance so that we can

Fight each other

Until we come to the same conclusion

We already felt

And had in our head

Oh well

I guess

It’s

OFF WITH YOUR HEAD

From the chocolatezeus collection  1/30/16  ©

I feel another James Brown moment is needed

I have been listening to James Brown live at the apollo in 1962 and many of the music I like old school. Like Nelly "hot in herre" and Lil Jon. And of course my Rick Kelly "step in the name of love."

I have been laughing, remembering and having flash backs as I dance around in the privacy of my own universe. lol

The weekend that I allude to is one that had me first go to a masquerade ball that my ex big giant head and her monkeys were throwing. I danced for hours that night. It made up for being around big giant head. But wait there's more! lol  The next night the gary ex diva crew had a party going on at the trump casino. So I rolled there and danced some more hours. I was literally a dancing machine. I paid for the folly for many days after the weekend but dammit I had a good time pretending I could dance while I was drinking.

I want to have another weekend like that. Where I got a sexy female and we enjoy ourselves. Dance, drink and have a damn good time. 

and if you missed it up above. My ass CANNOT dance. I can pretend with ultimate energy. But when I am in a good mood and feel like having a good time in the right environment. then it is ON!!

This message what brought to you by The Big Evil, Public Enemy Number One, Just Don't Give a Fuck Angry Black Man.

aka

Me

It's time to blow smoke and get my therapy in.

Enjoy your day. And if you don't either pretend you did or make a statement of dissatisfaction.

Just Rude and Crude

I find these words used when females do not get their way with me. And that is fine. It helps differentiate the the black from the white in decisions.

I am not going to be dictated to or conform to:
Females
Submissives
Or humans that have no rights to do so

If it is a testament of wills then the obvious will be seen. That I stick with just being me.

As the spoiled jockey for position. Comparing me to exes, husbands and past relationships.  Reality will crash down at the end when the curtain is closed. And everything revealed shows evident.

Me...rude and crude?

I am and have been worst things than that.

Lip Sync Battle Inspired Moments of Memory and Laughter

Yes, the evil one watches things that make him laugh that are not horror movies. And I have enjoyed this show. But since I played catch up today on the second season I had to share this one.

This is Channing Tatum and his wife. And His wife fucking destroyed it with this Ginuwine "Pony" performance. That shit was ridiculous. Reminded me of when I am around people I can laugh, give lap dances to and carry on all silly. Damn, I miss those days now!

But enjoy I have watched it a few times and still enjoying. Channing and his heyonce performance was good as well.