Tuesday, August 01, 2017
Poetry: Damage Inc.
This is a combination of Damage Control from the marvel comics where they clean up after super hero battles and the aspect of relationships.
Recipient of
Recipient of
My Poly Is NOT your Poly
po·lyg·y·ny
pəˈlijənē/
noun
- polygamy in which a man has more than one wife.
- ZOOLOGYa pattern of mating in which a male animal has more than one female mate.
This is a lifestyle that I chose a long time ago. It is one that is even more in effect currently since becoming a Dominant. It is NOT about fucking a bunch of females or keeping a damn harem or any other bullshit that people concoct.
For me it is about hierarchical relationships with more than one female or woman at a time. This is not easy, nor is it all fun and games. Because it requires a lot of attention to things and dealing with attitudes, moods and bullshit when it happens.
But as I have discussed and seen in group chats and even in person the feminists feel that this is wrong because it is not centered around a female. Well kiss my entire ass! That is not my way and I am not going to become a drone with the rest of the males you have conned into not thinking for themselves.
Another issue for them is that I DO NOT treat their relationships as equal to the relationship and dynamic that they have with me. Because basically it IS NOT equal. As I said it is a hierarchy and not some partnership or equal exchange.
And because their other relations are not seen as equal to me it adds to the factor of I don't have a reason to meet who they are dating or meta whatever things. That is their thing and not mine.
What i do care about is who I am in a relationship and dynamic with. i care about how they are feeling. If they have issues with whoever they are dating and all that then we talk. I am concerned about their well being even with whoever they are with. If they get hurt by these people then I support, care for and help them.
I find that people are so in their judgmental feelings that I do things this way. My way that they have to have their little hissy fits and attitudes that entertain me. Especially the feminists in the black n poly group. Them monkeys always trying to make someone do things their way and it is hilarious as they spout off crap about equality and non judgement and bullshit.
Do what you want to do. It won't bother me one bit.
But don't tell me how and what i am supposed to do.
Because you hold no relevancy over here.
Sunday, July 30, 2017
Adult Poetry: Give Me My Tribute *explicit*
It has been forever since I have seen red and when I do I am just going to try to destroy her and break her in all kinds of sadistic, horny, debauchery style applications.
It is way past time and over due for a part of Beast Mode to be loose again!
No words exchanged
It is way past time and over due for a part of Beast Mode to be loose again!
Give Me My Tribute
No words exchanged
As I look you in the
face
Grip your throat
You see
Feel
Intensity
Strip
Nakedly you stare at
me
Your thoughts lost in
the
Unknown
Open your mouth
As my dick
Slams inside
Making sure to invade
your wind pipe
Coat it
I want your spit
dripping
Off my dick
You worthless bitch
As my strokes turn to
pounding
Your tears form
My eyes follow the
drips
Kneel
As you luck up at me
Mouth dripping with
evidence of
My invasion into your
oral cavity
The rope appears
Box tie
Hog tie
Ladder tie
You revel in the
pleasure
The familiarity and
comfort of
The rope against your
skin
Tossed on the bed
You still look for
something
Something to be said
You are merely here
For my pleasure
My enjoyment
Nothing else
Your hips gripped
Pussy pounded until
You have what I
require
Full swollen pussy
lips
The beatings commense
Paddles
Floggers
Kendo sticks
Beating your body
with
Delicious purpose
Thuddy
Stingy
The cadence
The evidence of my
Beast Mode needs
Grabbing your throat
Bending you backwards
Your ass bouncing
As dick invades
Again and again
Slaps to the face
Evidence of a
worthless whore
A tool for my
Pleasure and
reverence
Every whole invaded
Every whole fucked
into submission
Your mind in sub
space
Your body brutalized
You stay there
floating
As I leave you there
While you attempt to
curl up
Like a kitten
Only to whisper in
your ear
Your payment has not
been received
Your offering is
insufficient
I Am Not Finished
From the
chocolatezeus collection 7/30/17 ©
Saturday, July 29, 2017
Rumble in the Jungle
It has been a rough ride this week.
Gone from so called masters to dealing with attitudes, moods, jealous and all.
Add to that a female that turned out to be flaky and someone that I can't trust. I mean damn if you are having issues and something is going on then say that. I don't know why females have issues doing that. But don't waste my time because you are fucked up.
Time is pushing along at increased speed it seems.
Relationships and dynamics have been taxing. You have to choose to fight for them, do nothing or let them go. You can't make others involved choose to fight for it or even be important to them anyway. But that taxing weeds out whether it means something to me or not. I will drop individuals like penny stocks on wallstreet without hesitation. Other times I ride until they decide that they can't take it. And a select time it is a forever ride situation. Fucking choices are up to them to make.
Still in disbelief how hot it has been here and when I went to cali it was cooler there. I remember the brief time I lived out there how hot it was.
Interesting getting to know you times indeed. Very interesting.
Miss the girls. I might see before the end of the year maybe. But that is life.
Still on my quest to get things done and go. But not as bad as it is going to be next year. I still have to find someone to do jamaica with me in november. And still do the other trips that I have planned. Plus make some community events as well. Will have to coordinate these things with one of the girls going at some point. But next year will be really busy in the travel department and I am looking forward to it.
The fortress has grown and been fortified further. Weapons of mass annihilation are in effect. The cold void stands guard over the burning tenderness. As I laugh at what once was, reduced to an ember all because of choices they have made.
Enjoy your weekend. And stop hiding behind your defenses and getting your way and fucking LIVE!!
Gone from so called masters to dealing with attitudes, moods, jealous and all.
Add to that a female that turned out to be flaky and someone that I can't trust. I mean damn if you are having issues and something is going on then say that. I don't know why females have issues doing that. But don't waste my time because you are fucked up.
Time is pushing along at increased speed it seems.
Relationships and dynamics have been taxing. You have to choose to fight for them, do nothing or let them go. You can't make others involved choose to fight for it or even be important to them anyway. But that taxing weeds out whether it means something to me or not. I will drop individuals like penny stocks on wallstreet without hesitation. Other times I ride until they decide that they can't take it. And a select time it is a forever ride situation. Fucking choices are up to them to make.
Still in disbelief how hot it has been here and when I went to cali it was cooler there. I remember the brief time I lived out there how hot it was.
Interesting getting to know you times indeed. Very interesting.
Miss the girls. I might see before the end of the year maybe. But that is life.
Still on my quest to get things done and go. But not as bad as it is going to be next year. I still have to find someone to do jamaica with me in november. And still do the other trips that I have planned. Plus make some community events as well. Will have to coordinate these things with one of the girls going at some point. But next year will be really busy in the travel department and I am looking forward to it.
The fortress has grown and been fortified further. Weapons of mass annihilation are in effect. The cold void stands guard over the burning tenderness. As I laugh at what once was, reduced to an ember all because of choices they have made.
Enjoy your weekend. And stop hiding behind your defenses and getting your way and fucking LIVE!!
Thursday, July 27, 2017
Life Unscripted: Body and Soul
This is going to be a long one I am sure so get your drinks, popcorn, blanket and whatever you need. This ride will be interesting indeed.
So the past two weekends I attended kinky events. They were mostly focused on play but within that came some serious soul and thought stirring activities.
Two weekends ago I went to the baltimore playhouse. It still amazes me that I was recognized and the service, introduction and all that were provided by submissives and slaves. It was truly outstanding. Add to that the whipped cream icing and whipped cream on top of being in the room afterwards with folks as Sir Mythos did an erotic hypnosis scene and our conversations and yeah We Did That!
But the bmore adventure and this last weekend's Sir Strange's kinky bbq wasn't about play. It was about being around each other and just enjoying, learning and fellowship. And it also was about service from submissive and slaves that was seen, experienced and evident. The energy and everything was dynamic and very eye opening.
It really made me want to enjoy being with appropriate folk in the community. And that is what I have decided to do and the next thing I will be attending is the CTX spanksgiving for sure. Because the knowledge that was dropped and the fellowship held some serious power. It definitely was a great part of D/s for me right now.
In the same token these two events shed light on service, submission and dynamics. I saw and was the recipient to some great examples of these. It made me take note and examine the service I require and need along with the proper service and aspects that should be in place. Definitely want and need a stronger and deeper service and dynamic. So there are decisions and work to do. Because My House needs to be in order a whole lot more. So that has been on the mind and in play lately. I may not require or ask for much but when I do then that service is what is expected. Because without the ability, desire to accomplish service then there is a breakdown in the relationship and dynamic. It also showed me that I can only accept the ability they have or don't have when it comes to service and submission or not at all. Either I accept they level even though it is not where I think it should be, work on it with them or let it all go.
I have been in this energy flow deep. Of course thinking and acting. Evaluations have been done, things and people have been placed accordingly and the tank is moving forward. The heart, soul and evil all have formed into basically a Gundam. *lol*
I will say this. I love and care about red and little one very deeply for many different reasons. Even though i piss them off and they can get annoyed at how I am about those things and show it. But yeah, I just don't give a fuck and show it anyway!
Well on to the issue that was had Sunday evening.
khrysalis and I decided to play for the first time. Hell, it was the first time we had ever met last weekend. To set up this i will say that she had a hard time with her release from her former master.
Ok, well we decided to do an impact scene. I was hoping she would let me use the kendo stick on her that I tried out on Saturday but dammit she wasn't down. lol So instead it was the tennis balls, flogger and dragon tail. The scene ramped up nicely. We are playing and I hear someone talking loudly about just cum. I am wondering why because we are the only ones playing in the dungeon even though Sir Bear's nubia was watching. I turn to make sure no one was in my way of my throw only to realize it was khrysalis' ex master. Now, I am pissed because it is obviously her fucking with khrysalis and I am irrate. It is dangerous, disrespectful and hazardous. I am trying to figure out how to bring her down without fucking her up at that point. At this point I realize that her crying has changed to sobbing. As I figure out a way to end the scene I am dealing with the anger, concern for her well being and everything. Finish the scene somehow and trying to give her aftercare and she cant' because she just is ready to get out of there and away from the ex. Sir Bear's nubia took her in the house for aftercare.
I couldn't and still can't believe that someone that has been in the lifestyle so long would be this petty, childish and fucked up over someone that has been released. To endanger them like that and disrespect a scene while claiming that she is doing energy play with someone else was really fucked up. And then the bad mouthing of khrysalis and crumb cake after that only added jp4 to the bonfire that was already raging. If you released people like I did then keep it moving and don't give a fuck. Instead of dragging shit on and on and making a mess.
I am still processing the whole thing and glad that khrysalis is alright.
Combined with the things that have gone on with red and little one. The new things and people being experienced. Things have been very adventurous lately. It will be interesting to see what happens with the new situations. And pebbles is moving right along. The Road Warriors will be getting back together in november at least and maybe sooner than that.
Enjoy your adventure to the fullest. Let go of the fears, walls and defenses that you keep up and LIVE!!
So the past two weekends I attended kinky events. They were mostly focused on play but within that came some serious soul and thought stirring activities.
Two weekends ago I went to the baltimore playhouse. It still amazes me that I was recognized and the service, introduction and all that were provided by submissives and slaves. It was truly outstanding. Add to that the whipped cream icing and whipped cream on top of being in the room afterwards with folks as Sir Mythos did an erotic hypnosis scene and our conversations and yeah We Did That!
But the bmore adventure and this last weekend's Sir Strange's kinky bbq wasn't about play. It was about being around each other and just enjoying, learning and fellowship. And it also was about service from submissive and slaves that was seen, experienced and evident. The energy and everything was dynamic and very eye opening.
It really made me want to enjoy being with appropriate folk in the community. And that is what I have decided to do and the next thing I will be attending is the CTX spanksgiving for sure. Because the knowledge that was dropped and the fellowship held some serious power. It definitely was a great part of D/s for me right now.
In the same token these two events shed light on service, submission and dynamics. I saw and was the recipient to some great examples of these. It made me take note and examine the service I require and need along with the proper service and aspects that should be in place. Definitely want and need a stronger and deeper service and dynamic. So there are decisions and work to do. Because My House needs to be in order a whole lot more. So that has been on the mind and in play lately. I may not require or ask for much but when I do then that service is what is expected. Because without the ability, desire to accomplish service then there is a breakdown in the relationship and dynamic. It also showed me that I can only accept the ability they have or don't have when it comes to service and submission or not at all. Either I accept they level even though it is not where I think it should be, work on it with them or let it all go.
I have been in this energy flow deep. Of course thinking and acting. Evaluations have been done, things and people have been placed accordingly and the tank is moving forward. The heart, soul and evil all have formed into basically a Gundam. *lol*
I will say this. I love and care about red and little one very deeply for many different reasons. Even though i piss them off and they can get annoyed at how I am about those things and show it. But yeah, I just don't give a fuck and show it anyway!
Well on to the issue that was had Sunday evening.
khrysalis and I decided to play for the first time. Hell, it was the first time we had ever met last weekend. To set up this i will say that she had a hard time with her release from her former master.
Ok, well we decided to do an impact scene. I was hoping she would let me use the kendo stick on her that I tried out on Saturday but dammit she wasn't down. lol So instead it was the tennis balls, flogger and dragon tail. The scene ramped up nicely. We are playing and I hear someone talking loudly about just cum. I am wondering why because we are the only ones playing in the dungeon even though Sir Bear's nubia was watching. I turn to make sure no one was in my way of my throw only to realize it was khrysalis' ex master. Now, I am pissed because it is obviously her fucking with khrysalis and I am irrate. It is dangerous, disrespectful and hazardous. I am trying to figure out how to bring her down without fucking her up at that point. At this point I realize that her crying has changed to sobbing. As I figure out a way to end the scene I am dealing with the anger, concern for her well being and everything. Finish the scene somehow and trying to give her aftercare and she cant' because she just is ready to get out of there and away from the ex. Sir Bear's nubia took her in the house for aftercare.
I couldn't and still can't believe that someone that has been in the lifestyle so long would be this petty, childish and fucked up over someone that has been released. To endanger them like that and disrespect a scene while claiming that she is doing energy play with someone else was really fucked up. And then the bad mouthing of khrysalis and crumb cake after that only added jp4 to the bonfire that was already raging. If you released people like I did then keep it moving and don't give a fuck. Instead of dragging shit on and on and making a mess.
I am still processing the whole thing and glad that khrysalis is alright.
Combined with the things that have gone on with red and little one. The new things and people being experienced. Things have been very adventurous lately. It will be interesting to see what happens with the new situations. And pebbles is moving right along. The Road Warriors will be getting back together in november at least and maybe sooner than that.
Enjoy your adventure to the fullest. Let go of the fears, walls and defenses that you keep up and LIVE!!
Tuesday, July 18, 2017
My Episode of the Watcher...Zeus Style
I have sat back to observe both red and little one go through their things. Much or most or everything they are dealing with in have no clue about. They have chosen their paths.
So it has been tough love as the old people would say. Just sit back and watch things unfold for them. Not what I would prefer but that is their free will choice.
Things really have been eye opening. Made me learn a lot of things that made me think and place appropriately.
Thankful for red and little one showing me what I needed to assimilate.
So no captain jumping off. Just leave the she ra complex to run it's courses.
So it has been tough love as the old people would say. Just sit back and watch things unfold for them. Not what I would prefer but that is their free will choice.
Things really have been eye opening. Made me learn a lot of things that made me think and place appropriately.
Thankful for red and little one showing me what I needed to assimilate.
So no captain jumping off. Just leave the she ra complex to run it's courses.
Monday, July 17, 2017
Can You Serve Me Really?
It is a serious question in D/s. One that many gloss over, ignore or cannot come to terms with.
I mean can you follow my lead with the understanding that I will make the best decisions for you and me?
Will you be able to listen, comprehend, ask for clarification without your normal beat on your chest and roar attitude in your regular life?
I have experienced that for some they have a mental block from past experiences, attitude, their career and more concerning serving. Even though they claim that is what they want.
Serving is not have it your way! It is not tell me how you need to serve me. And damn sure is not tell me how or what I think.
True serving is a mental thing. And I have witnessed that if you mentally cannot allow yourself to commit to being of service then you are not going to be able to serve.
They come with plans on how I should be with them so they can serve and expect me to do whatever they think, feel and someone else has done with them.
Serving me is easy. If you take away all the interpretations, posturing and other issues. I tell you what I want, need and expect. At that point you know what it takes to serve me. To by my submissive or slave. Even to date me.
But in this era it is prevalent that there has to be some form of control that needs to be kept so they can feel safe and themselves. When in actually releasing that would be even more powerful and more of themselves.
But you can't force the mental understanding or the analysis of self required for this. They either grasp it and can act upon it or they cannot.
I have seen when they can and it is a beautiful thing.
So can you serve or are you keeping one foot in trying to be alpha while alleging that you are a submissive?
I mean can you follow my lead with the understanding that I will make the best decisions for you and me?
Will you be able to listen, comprehend, ask for clarification without your normal beat on your chest and roar attitude in your regular life?
I have experienced that for some they have a mental block from past experiences, attitude, their career and more concerning serving. Even though they claim that is what they want.
Serving is not have it your way! It is not tell me how you need to serve me. And damn sure is not tell me how or what I think.
True serving is a mental thing. And I have witnessed that if you mentally cannot allow yourself to commit to being of service then you are not going to be able to serve.
They come with plans on how I should be with them so they can serve and expect me to do whatever they think, feel and someone else has done with them.
Serving me is easy. If you take away all the interpretations, posturing and other issues. I tell you what I want, need and expect. At that point you know what it takes to serve me. To by my submissive or slave. Even to date me.
But in this era it is prevalent that there has to be some form of control that needs to be kept so they can feel safe and themselves. When in actually releasing that would be even more powerful and more of themselves.
But you can't force the mental understanding or the analysis of self required for this. They either grasp it and can act upon it or they cannot.
I have seen when they can and it is a beautiful thing.
So can you serve or are you keeping one foot in trying to be alpha while alleging that you are a submissive?
Sunday, July 16, 2017
Life Unscripted Oyabun Style
They say it is lonely at the top. It's the best shit ever!
Big Boi
I have been working hard. Trying to manage everything and everyone. It is what I do and have done.
Energy has flown. Discussions have been had. Decisions made. Messages assimilated.
It is what an Oyabun does. Take the heat, issues and everything. Place everything and keep the tactics rolling.
Having discussions about D/s and being submissive. Chopping it up with other Dominants and just growing.
The mood and attitude reflect it all. From the dating stuff to the D/s and life. It's all good.. You let people play and show you their roles and positions.
So I am in a place I have been before some times with some twists.
Sight beyond sight as they would say on the thunder cats.
Sitting at my table. Armored. Receptive. Helping. Caring and rolling.
Time to address things in the ABM spot. You knowhow that a goes.
Hope you had a great weekend. I am ready to get to the nextonenow!
Till then be open. Be yourself and Act!
Oh and I am going to have to drop some horny ass sadistic shit when I get in tonight so you were warned.
Big Boi
I have been working hard. Trying to manage everything and everyone. It is what I do and have done.
Energy has flown. Discussions have been had. Decisions made. Messages assimilated.
It is what an Oyabun does. Take the heat, issues and everything. Place everything and keep the tactics rolling.
Having discussions about D/s and being submissive. Chopping it up with other Dominants and just growing.
The mood and attitude reflect it all. From the dating stuff to the D/s and life. It's all good.. You let people play and show you their roles and positions.
So I am in a place I have been before some times with some twists.
Sight beyond sight as they would say on the thunder cats.
Sitting at my table. Armored. Receptive. Helping. Caring and rolling.
Time to address things in the ABM spot. You knowhow that a goes.
Hope you had a great weekend. I am ready to get to the nextonenow!
Till then be open. Be yourself and Act!
Oh and I am going to have to drop some horny ass sadistic shit when I get in tonight so you were warned.
The Ghost Who Walks...Adventure in Life Unscripted
I made it back today. Hell after this morning and having such a damn good time fellowshiping and everything that it was hard to not want to keep that going. This morning was a priceless classic. Hell it was Epic!
Havoc made his appearance last night at the Baltimore Playhouse. I didn't play but I did learn and observe It was too hot in there for me to play even if the situation was right. But damn everyone was having a good time. And the Sirs were doing their thing. The ladies were sexy and getting their kink on.
And it was priceless when slave kore comes yelling "Lord Havoc?" That and everyone saying hello and recognizing it was me. Especially considering this is the first time they have seen the weilder of the "monkey bitch moniker and name association" as well as the Evil one that is on the calls.
The whole thing made me want to go to more things and continue my involvement in the community.
This mornings hypnosis scene made me want to learn hypnosis to weild it like the Sith on everyone! You better watch out now!
I laughed so hard this morning while being entertained, intrigued and in sadistic delight it was incredible.
In a week that I have been teaching, leading, resolving, managing and put things all in their place. I have to say it has been very interesting indeed.
I had to use my monkey bitch phrase to describe some hack therapists. So that got some of the soft asses diapers in a bunch. Must be some sensitive folk from the all encompassing feminist poly groups that are so non judgemental. lmao But regardless my point was to help the young lady on the call and fuck their feelings and sensitive asses.
Through working with pebbles and cali gal it has given me other opportunities to understand, ,help and see.
This week had me being a loadmaster as well. I made some more unilateral decisions that are not liked. But in being me I do what is required to allow the ones I care about and the very few that I like where they should be for themselves. Yeah that's me public enemy number one. Even to red and little. Ru and Tigger as well. As I told pebbles and even little one and red previously. I will protect, support and everything concerning you even when you are mad at me and hate me. But there have been issues because I don't really disclose feelings or any of that anymore. It's alright. Everything has to be in it's place. And in D/s it is not about a reciprocal relation especially when it comes to this. It has had me look at life, D/s, having submissives, dating and interaction protocols.
Everyone loved the Batman and harley shirt that red had gotten me a couple years ago. Even some older people on the hotel shuttle. lol
Point blank...everything has changed. Whether it is due to what has been shown in ability and capability to handle or not to things that there was no other choice.
The kink experience was real in the last 24 hours for sure and I am thankful.
There will be more but I haven't slept in days and I need to do a few more things.
Enjoy and be yourself...
Havoc made his appearance last night at the Baltimore Playhouse. I didn't play but I did learn and observe It was too hot in there for me to play even if the situation was right. But damn everyone was having a good time. And the Sirs were doing their thing. The ladies were sexy and getting their kink on.
And it was priceless when slave kore comes yelling "Lord Havoc?" That and everyone saying hello and recognizing it was me. Especially considering this is the first time they have seen the weilder of the "monkey bitch moniker and name association" as well as the Evil one that is on the calls.
The whole thing made me want to go to more things and continue my involvement in the community.
This mornings hypnosis scene made me want to learn hypnosis to weild it like the Sith on everyone! You better watch out now!
I laughed so hard this morning while being entertained, intrigued and in sadistic delight it was incredible.
In a week that I have been teaching, leading, resolving, managing and put things all in their place. I have to say it has been very interesting indeed.
I had to use my monkey bitch phrase to describe some hack therapists. So that got some of the soft asses diapers in a bunch. Must be some sensitive folk from the all encompassing feminist poly groups that are so non judgemental. lmao But regardless my point was to help the young lady on the call and fuck their feelings and sensitive asses.
Through working with pebbles and cali gal it has given me other opportunities to understand, ,help and see.
This week had me being a loadmaster as well. I made some more unilateral decisions that are not liked. But in being me I do what is required to allow the ones I care about and the very few that I like where they should be for themselves. Yeah that's me public enemy number one. Even to red and little. Ru and Tigger as well. As I told pebbles and even little one and red previously. I will protect, support and everything concerning you even when you are mad at me and hate me. But there have been issues because I don't really disclose feelings or any of that anymore. It's alright. Everything has to be in it's place. And in D/s it is not about a reciprocal relation especially when it comes to this. It has had me look at life, D/s, having submissives, dating and interaction protocols.
Everyone loved the Batman and harley shirt that red had gotten me a couple years ago. Even some older people on the hotel shuttle. lol
Point blank...everything has changed. Whether it is due to what has been shown in ability and capability to handle or not to things that there was no other choice.
The kink experience was real in the last 24 hours for sure and I am thankful.
There will be more but I haven't slept in days and I need to do a few more things.
Enjoy and be yourself...
Wednesday, July 12, 2017
Royal Rumble Relations
I have watched and observed. How little one and red have been. I leave them to whatever it is that they choose to do.
What I have learned a lot about from them and everyone else is that I can offer help, ,help and support but it is whoever I am offering to choice to be able to accept that and work with it. Doing this goes against how things are important to me but I do not control anyone else's mentality and feelings.
So when I am normally use to fighting for relationships and stuff I have come to an understanding of society today and that I cannot do that. There has to be a desire and effort from those involved. So I wait for them to choose their path.
What I want, need and require are simple. I have stated those things and I stick with them. That does not mean that the only acceptable answer is utopia but it does mean I want as much of the things that are on that list.
I just get tired of putting forth effort with people that are unable to or too scared to do the same.
If I am with you then I am with you. I will support, protect and guide. We will make it through disagreements and errors.
But all these things are choices. And there is that free will thing that tends to mess them up.
Definitely interesting experiences lately.
What I have learned a lot about from them and everyone else is that I can offer help, ,help and support but it is whoever I am offering to choice to be able to accept that and work with it. Doing this goes against how things are important to me but I do not control anyone else's mentality and feelings.
So when I am normally use to fighting for relationships and stuff I have come to an understanding of society today and that I cannot do that. There has to be a desire and effort from those involved. So I wait for them to choose their path.
What I want, need and require are simple. I have stated those things and I stick with them. That does not mean that the only acceptable answer is utopia but it does mean I want as much of the things that are on that list.
I just get tired of putting forth effort with people that are unable to or too scared to do the same.
If I am with you then I am with you. I will support, protect and guide. We will make it through disagreements and errors.
But all these things are choices. And there is that free will thing that tends to mess them up.
Definitely interesting experiences lately.
Soulful Poetry: Soul Hole
Soul Hole
Tears
Drip
Drop
Puddle
Evidence of
Pain
Loneliness
Longing
Just for the mere
moments
To feel peace again
To know the
comforting
You can call it
The Beast tamed
Or handled even
But it is where
things rest
Claim the tranquilty
Among
The turmoil and rage
Emotions
Feelings
Thoughts
The future
All caged
A black hole within a
super nova
With no ending
Hidden in plain sight
As I hold it down
Wear the weight
Upon my shoulders and
soul
Holding
The cold and darkness
Fully
A lost stirring
Of a frozen soul
From the
chocolatezeus collection 7/12/17 ©
Poetic Expression: It Is What It Is
It Is What It Is
There are no words
No utterance
That will express
fully
What is thought, felt
and seen
So instead
I observe
Accept and understand
Telescopic reality
Hubble type
microscopic
Reveal
I look
I see
Clearly
Very clearly
Assimilation
Borg mentality
Welcome to
The unadulterated
It is what it is
Show
From the
chocolatezeus collection 7/12/17 ©
Tuesday, July 11, 2017
A Never Ending Journey
In life and this thing called bdsm there is always something going on. Something to Lear, adapt over come. When you involve other people you have to deal with their past, present and future. Not to mention their personality, experiences, feelings and mentality. Sometimes it is like walking through an unexploded minefield and other times a stroll with less obstacles. Either way the adventure is worth it.
I have made plenty of mistakes in choices and understanding . Some more lasting than others. I stick with being direct to lessen interpretation and misunderstanding. But that creates issues upon issue apparently.
I am just me and that is who I will always be. Kind and caring to those I dee worthy and distant to others.
My bdsm journey is still relevantly new so there has been a lot done in correctly. But I see now choices in who, what and how that will have to be different from this point on. Only experience has lender my understanding in this.
So I will help where and how I can. Whether it is helping pebbles begin her journey or words to a stranger. I have been and seen the errors and will gladly steer others from that path they choose.
In the same token helping and. Accepting help are not givens. Even when asked for my opinion or view. Like General Akbar said "it's a trap.""
So I will continue to stand tall. Carry the weight of the universe upon my being and not waiver in my duties.
Even being public enemy number one, the one you can't stand or the chauvinist to keep others from failing.
Each moment
A tell tale saga
Each interaction
Revealing knowledge
Far from my original plan
Valuable lessons learned
Misalignment of wills
So I stand
Rooted in the arrangement
That was agreed upon
Knowing
Next time none of this will happen
Experience is key
Differentiating
Between what is and what is supposed to be
Eye opening
From the chocolatezeus05 collection. 7/11/17. ©
I have made plenty of mistakes in choices and understanding . Some more lasting than others. I stick with being direct to lessen interpretation and misunderstanding. But that creates issues upon issue apparently.
I am just me and that is who I will always be. Kind and caring to those I dee worthy and distant to others.
My bdsm journey is still relevantly new so there has been a lot done in correctly. But I see now choices in who, what and how that will have to be different from this point on. Only experience has lender my understanding in this.
So I will help where and how I can. Whether it is helping pebbles begin her journey or words to a stranger. I have been and seen the errors and will gladly steer others from that path they choose.
In the same token helping and. Accepting help are not givens. Even when asked for my opinion or view. Like General Akbar said "it's a trap.""
So I will continue to stand tall. Carry the weight of the universe upon my being and not waiver in my duties.
Even being public enemy number one, the one you can't stand or the chauvinist to keep others from failing.
Here and Whenever You Come Back Again
Each moment
A tell tale saga
Each interaction
Revealing knowledge
Far from my original plan
Valuable lessons learned
Misalignment of wills
So I stand
Rooted in the arrangement
That was agreed upon
Knowing
Next time none of this will happen
Experience is key
Differentiating
Between what is and what is supposed to be
Eye opening
From the chocolatezeus05 collection. 7/11/17. ©
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