Passing Through Cities and Memories

As I pass through RDU and GSO it brought back memories of days gone by. Adventures and things that linger, laugh and rest within my mind.

RDU

Full of budding adventure and my first established home with my wife. The place that I call home still even though I am no longer there. From expensive cook your own meal at the Melting Pot to a super damn delicious birthday cake from the Mad Hatter in Durham. (I super greatly recommend them, even if they are near duke...lol)  My life of joy and happiness started there fully I can say honestly. Through the trials and tribulations the simple constant of comfortable and happy remained steadfast. My family literally began here. People got to know me at harris teeter and rite aid. It is nice when people know your name and face. I realized the appeal of that type of customer service and attention to detail.

GSO

This is the town I attended many a swing party at the Proximity Hotel. And that penthouse presidential suite was gorgeous. I spent many a time there enjoying drink, food and more drink. Even put on a few shows. lol This town is also where I had part of my poly relationship at. She was the superstar of the swing groups and I basically broke and tamed her. My first public displays of dominance occurred with her at parties. *snicker* And it made the males rather upset, jealous and hatred for me. (biyatches!!) The soaked box springs and mattresses of the hotel from our adventures. (still shocked they didn't charge me for those...lol)

This is also where I came to watch the ACC women's basketball tournament for years. To enjoy my baby momma's Dawn Staley and Tora Suber. Watching quality and skilled basketball and enjoying myself. And that is what is going on right now. And I miss it. But there is always next year.


As I sit here and reminisce and skip over the negative things I have to laugh and smile. Truly more examples of Life Unscripted.


Good morning.

Poetic Mentality: Flame Out

Flame Out

Destination set from the beginning

Autopilot and gps double checked

And verified

I kicked the afterburners

Ripped time and the mind

Clearly my mission and goal was defined

Make you mine

Give, hold and feel love

Establish

Relationship Prime

After that brilliant ignition

Seems like the results of the

Last challenger mission

Boom

Boom

Boom

Like the human torch

Engulfed with a dark matter dwarf

Snuffed out

The touch

Beacon of hope

Predestined course

Now

It just seems like

A bad episode of the

Fantastic Four

Here I am

Johnny storm

Dead at love’s

Door

From the chocolatezeus collection  2/29/16  ©

Being Within my Circles

If I allow you in. To be in one of my circles of the personal me. You need to understand the importance and meaning. Especially if I tell you specifically your status. I do not allow anyone in without seriously vetting and wanting them to be there. And the closest circles how the deepest parts and access to me.

It still doesn't mean that you cannot opt out, not accept or be demoted to irrelevancy. But as the Black Sheep said, "The Choice Is Yours."

Message!!!

Poetic Moment: Void: My Anesthetic

Void: My Anesthetic 

Deafening cold

A soul filled with surgical steel

My heart laid frozen on the

Operating room floor

Now I can barely remember

How or what to feel

Here is where I lie

Relationships cryogenically frozen

Left to die

Each experience

Each journey

Built upon and in

This black hole existence

No longer do I seek your companionship

Share love, lust and passion

For and with you

I merely tilt my head a bit

Look blankly at you

Devoid of effect

The aftermath continues

No doctor or surgical team

To fix this relationship

Voodoo

Given into the dynamited rubble

Filled with apathy and nonchalant

The result of

Relationship effigies

Numb

Disconnected receptors

Lasting peace

From the chocolatezeus collection  2/22/16  ©

Poetry Within the Solitude of my Death Star

Within the Solitude of my Death Star

Plumes of smoke waft errantly

Cigar smoke mixed with

Remnants of preposterous things

Crystal clear and faded memories

Electrocute and soothe me

Moments phased in and out of

Eternity

Allied forces turned into

It’s a trap calamities

Strengthened unity

As I look upon the piles of

Pleas and failed attempts

To change me

If only they knew

Understood

Realized I gave them the key

Collapsed white star

Enveloped by my Death star

Creating this thing of beauty

Thoughts lay upon the funeral pyre

As emotions and feelings

Are reduced to

Astral reminders

Here

In this space and place

My claim remains

The quiet, cacophony of

Overthinking

As destruction of all things

Brings birth to

Unparalleled events

Here in solitude I remain

At home in the dark

My solitude a blazing spark

All that remains is

Everything

From the chocolatezeus collection  2/25/16  ©

Wrestling is Funny and Makes Me Horny

I have been watching wrestling for a very long time. From wcw, glow and wwf and all. I like the athletic reenactment of conflicts and drama. Yes, it is a soap opera with more action. lol

Like I watched Fastlane pay per view yesterday and got to laughing about everything along with being in awe of plenty of things. Because even though it is not real they are doing some serious moves and putting their bodies on the line.

Brock lesnar super strong country ass mauling folks. Or the deliverance boys (bray wyatt and the crew), to the reintroduction of the old school wrestlers. There is something always going on. Now their storylines may not always be the best but that is show business.

Hell, even the tna thing had it going on with some serious competition. And I liked the big white girl ODB. She had some great titties!

Which brings me to the change in females in wrestling. We use to have the cheesy GLOW of gorgeous ladies of wrestling. It use to be just a funny, roundhouse of silliness when it came to females wrestling back in the day. And they were not very attractive.

Fast forward to now...

Damn there are some sexy bitches wrestling now. And they are athletic and skilled.

Hell, I would fuck stephanie mcmahon into sub frenzy a few times. She brought some good titties and she kind of thick white chick.

I know I am too damn horny when I find sasha banks little ass sexy and would fuck her and beat her to death.

But I would definitely fuck the naomi chick. Her body reminds me of lil red. Ass and titties and chocolate. Hell, Tamina can get some as long as she has her hair down right now.

I still got my thing for trish stratus. Always wanted to make her a sex slave. And can't forget the other canada connection natalia. The thick, canadian chick with the strength and titties.

So all in all wrestling provides a number of things now unlike it did back in the day. And that is why it is such a big business.

But dammit I need to fuck some of them senseless and torture them as you can see.

Smoking Aces...Revisited

So I joined the group for movie night to get out the house and socialize. One of the movies was Smoking Aces. About a bunch of contract killers all going after this contract on a washed out magician that is tied to the mob.

I hadn't seen this movie in a while and I still love it. Besides how can I not love all the gun play, blade wielding and action. And the desire to fuck Taraji p Henson while she worked the Barrett .50 cal rifle would be purrrfect! And this was the movie I saw that Alicia Keys was thick and got on my fuck her little brains out and leave her for dead list.

So, there is plenty of comedy with the kid that needs his ritalin to the tremor brothers and more. You name your kind of hit man and they are in this movie. lol

And the twist at the end was rather nice and different.

Definitely still enjoying Smoking Aces!!


and wanting to fuck taraji and alicia. lmao

Broken Connections

When Ru said, "sorry, I really wanted things to work out." It finally sunk in. No not anything concerning her. But relations.

She has been with me through it all. Good and bad. And had noticed when my outlook, desire and passion changed. When the wire was breaking and then down to it's last strand.

Feelings are gone. It has brought peace and less stress. But apparently it has become obvious.

As Ru has asked me to show and tell how to compartmentalize and I have of couraed said no. I have watched the transition.

The anti climax of the anti hero arrived!

No worries.

We are back to the Apocalypse program!

Have a wonderful Monday.

Life and times of my Life Unscripted

A number of things have happened over the last six months. Am I still the same Angry Black Man? Yep. But my dealing and outlook has changed.

I can attribute things to Ru, lil red and the experiences.

I have made my first trip to Canada.  Been able toindulge further into my sadistic needs of enjoyment. Enjoyed my first fisting and evolved into even more just me.

Love has changed back to what it was previously with me with the change of available if it is wanted thisbtime. Instead of turned off after inactivity. I still have a tiny bit of a heart, just not that much left.

Relations have been wtf. Life has been a series if unfortunate and weird events. Hell, I date and associate with the weird.  Lol

So I am not feeling much. There isn't that fire, passion and desire like it would have been normally or optimally.  My feelings and heart are not hurt. I am just in the "it is what it is" aspect of existence.

I am looking forward to hopefully being able to enjoy my full sadistic release finally.  It is time to go somewhere to relax, have fun and enjoy. Maybe even relations may grow and be better. As I look at the next stage in my life this year I am ready to move forward even more.

I am here or ok is my standard response. As I wait to see who and what will join me or walk away on this journey I am basically neutral.

And I still need my fucking FIX if you are keeping track. It's been half a year. Maybe I need to just look at the memories and do my Pale Rider reenactment and ride off into the sun.

Well enjoy the beginning of your weekend. Because you cant stay stagnant and let kife walk on by

Mr Wolf Thursday Message

The adventures of Mr Wolf and lil red equal

About why we are so good together. Your crazy matches my crazy. Big time!

courtesy of Wade Wilson

I require the unique to be involved in. The female that can be herself through the storms of life. Thinking and acting outside of the box to stimulate and continue adventure. 

So I need that sexy, lustful, intelligent, witty, stand out type female.

case in point....lil red. I can pick the queen of the weird team for sure. lol

But it is what allows me to have some interest.

Until the next time...chimi  fucking changas!!

Morning Poetry: Another Brick in the Wall

Good morning to you. I hope your are ready for your willy wonka adventure today. So I figured I would drop some poetry at 6 in the morning, policae at my door. fresh addidas sneakers squeaking across the bathroom floor. lol yeah some Ice T early.

enjoy

Another Brick In The Wall

Like a neutron particle accelerator

Two souls collided

Fell

Fallen into a prehistoric tar pit

Unintentional

Unfettered

Uninterested entities

I wasn’t looking for you

You weren’t looking for me

I slapped you directly in the face

Told you what I wanted and saw with you and me

The connection

Unexplained prophesy

And I hate the damn thing

But it has been correct

When it has reared it’s ugly head

As I have felt every

Defensive and offensive projectile

You have hurled at me

From the logical

Weird and emotional

Detached

Each missile fires at me

As I watch the walls rise and fall

Doors open and close

With each mood swing

You don’t understand

How I have already claimed

Without a doubt that

You are for me

An assault on your logic based

Existence at it’s alpha

Beginning

I guess that is why

The wall and distance

Lack of shown interest

Flow like the

Dead Sea

Still I know what

I felt and have seen

That damn connection

Showed me the possible destiny

Still as I look at your wall

Each spackle of mortar and concrete

All I can do is allow

Freedom of mind and will

The manifest destiny

As I continue to get to know bricks

Even more intimately

The fix

The connection

Hasn’t changed

I merely sit here for now

On the

Event Horizon

Prepared

Waiting

For the outcome you choose

Will it be us

Or just you

As Pink Floyd sings

Another Brick in the Wall

From the chocolatezeus collection   2/18/16  ©

Deadpool, Maximum Realization and Semi Chimichangas

So, I finally was ready to see Deadpool on opening night. Thursday at 7 I was in there and I was shocked it was a bit crowded. Man, did I get to laugh and enjoy my damn self.

The movie wasn't some watered down, neutered disney drone bullshit. I was really close to Deadpool in the comic book. The language and outrageous actions and thoughts and words were on point. I have to say ryan reynolds did a good job. This movie was original and is one the best comic book movies ever put on the big screen.

Hell, I was shocked that the numbers blew records for February. I remember talking to bruce at the shop about the movie and him telling me that movies tend to not do well this time of the year and that Deadpool wouldn't get high numbers. Both of us are shocked at this outcome.

on to the next

I have been over thinking and thinking as usual. I sat and realized that I haven't gotten my fix or seen lil red in about 6 months now. This is so unacceptable. Life has been at work and no fucking telling what the hell else.

external outcry

it is so devastating to others that I am this magnificent caveman, that marches upon this separate path that tends to disregard and spit in the face of those that wish to force conformity.  What in the hell am I saying, you ask?  Well, I have been direct about what I want, like and am interested in. And even though people think that I don't give others a chance to be whoever they are and in the role that they are designed for. I do.  This is the same part that allows me to see past the bullshit, posturing, being difficult, defensive and challenging to lay eyes upon what really is there. The part of me that has picked out two people in ,my life and said they are the ONE. And as much as I hated it at first and fought it. I was shown the error of my misplaced denial of that connection. The message is...stop fighting me, the relationship and the feelings. What I want and need is you. END FUCKING MESSAGE!

on to affairs of my stomach and taste buds

Of course after seeing Deadpool I was wanting a chimichanga. lol (you have to have read or heard Deadpool to understand this reference.) But instead went to a place called Flaming Amy's burritos. Ok this was unlike any other restaurant I have been into. stickers and punk rock art, tattoo drawings and everything was everywhere. I had a double bypass burrito which was rather good. Of course they only do chimichangas on Mondays apparently. that sucks

I also tried a sandwich appropriately named the Fat Zeus. It was gyro and cheesesteak with fries, onion rings and vegs on it with taziki sauce on it. It was actually good but needed more taziki sauce. Plus would have been better without the fries on it actually.

Well, I probably will watch Deadpool for the 6th time later on this morning for more laughs. Have a good one. And seize the moments. Because you don't get too many chances in life.

Valentines, Entertainment and Bitter Bitch Syndrome

No excitement, no anticipation, no hatred either. I dont' have anyone for this day and at this point in my life I just don't give a fuck anymore. Even though I love the sentiment, expression and spoiling. I realize how things are with females now. I am good.

Nope, this is not a hate letter to valentine's day or nothing like that. I have had some great and good valentine's days. So I don't have to be jaded about the plight of the world today. lmao

But I do get entertained by the rampant anti valentines, relations and marriage activities that occur on this day. I mean damn it really goes all out! Females mad because they have chosen not to become women and be real. So they are over in the corner spitting their venom.

So the comments, actions and petty shit get's michael jackson "off the wall" type of silly. Over the same thing they detest and don't want anything to do with...real relationships. So it is comical on both ends.

Let me go read some more valentine hate mail so I can laugh some more.

I hope you had a good valentine. Mine was fine. Even though it would have been perfect if a certain someone wanted it to be.

And go see Deadpool! That shit is hilariously funny