My Very First Book....

I have to say thank you to my gurl Niarotica for coming up with this idea and doing so much work to make this happen.

That's right Chocolatezeus' first book has just come to life today. Come on and enjoy heated, ridiculous erotica from the minds of the Mango sensation (Niarotica) and the Chocolate one (Me..LOL). You will be set afire and inspired to do something TRULY adult.

http://www.lulu.com/content/1172386


*tell your friends. Get some as a gift and inspiration for those you know*

IT'S HOT!!!

Revelations

It came to past
that our relationship didn't last
that we out grew our desires

now here we are
in the aftermath
the rapture of what happened

no longer feeling anything
a mirror to understanding

leveled against realizations
came the

Revelations

though we were meant to be
that things lead another way
A path that crippled the rest of things

Revelations
came and showed us
reality

understanding
that we were ending


from the chocolatezeus collection 9/4/07 (c)

Beginning of Celebrating

The week begins and already there is some interesting things going on.

A call I that shocked me because I don't speak to them any more.

Situations that popped up and I have to deal with and answer for.

But I am glad to be going. Getting out of here for a moment just to breathe and make things happen.

Going to try and celebrate my birthday nicely and with a smile on my face.


For next year is almost upon me. And then things will be


Grrrreeatttt!!!!

Our Collab

What Our Love Made

Banging my head against the wall

Tortured by my thoughts of you

Thinking of promises you made to me

You told me that I held your heart

That no other love compared

But I guess people change

A painful realization

As I stand in this empty domicile

That we once shared

Never thought that one day

The decisions of my selfish heart

Would come back to haunt me

Taunt me

The sneers and jeers I hear

Coming from within me

I realize my mistakes now

Hurting because it’s too late

To rectify them or your heart

Rubbing my protruding belly

The seed created by our love

The same love I tarnished

Regret is piercing me

My belly reminding me

Shame is killing me

Won’t you come back to me

I fought so hard
To make my First Born
Give Big Ma something to be proud of

I walked the walk
Always was careful
Seeking the One

Came along and gave my love
My seed permeated everything
Knowing the need to feel everything
To give you what you wanted
without a doubt
no second thinking

Love will never leave
Just want you to be happy
For you to have all that you want and need
Bring something lovely to your life today

I felt your pain
Your need to dispell the barren thinking
Relieve that fight in your mind
That less of a woman thing

Dispelled now is where you are at
Ready to take care of
Love our blessing

Rubbing your belly
Kissing our child's head
feeling the beating of his movement

Mother and Father
no matter what the cost
the situational loss

Loving our product
the love of our loins
Joined by Love's tone

I hear you
don't worry you will never be alone

‘Tis true

For you have dispelled all doubt

Life flows through me

Like a river

Mother and Father we will be

But I want to do this right

You and me

Husband and wife

GOD made this happen for a reason

If this barren field can bloom

Then so can our Love

I have shed myself of my past

I admit it once was a lifeline

That my selfish heart refused to let go

It was the obstacle that kept us apart

The thing that made you walk away

In an effort to help me maintain a happiness

That you never realized I only

Found with you

So I stand before thee

Soul naked and bare

Free from anomaly

This is HIS will

We were meant to be

His will
His Gift
Gifted to us like this
So precious

Yet I cannot lie and say
That this blessing may be in a way that
Will embrace and save your situation

I am an instrument
To bring to your life
Something that you have missed
The only gift to you I could truly give

Our love is pregnant
and will never give birth
for it is eternally seeded

Our child will always be
The fusion of our loving union

Just tell me
Will this fulfill what you want
Do not attempt to replace what you have now
If you have not gave up it's loving

For I will support you no matter what
My love is unconditional
constantly brewing
for you to sup upon and drink


my love for you is the
shhhhhhh

Replacement is not an intention of mine

There is nothing to replace

I am free from the complacent

Life I once lived

Leaving me fully free

To give the love you desire

So let us be

The family that HE intended us to be

Won’t you take my hand…

Holding your hand
I don't doubt your decision
Your conviction
But I know that my love is
More than my own selfishness

With that let us journey
Make the best for our baby
Love's defining
We will give our best

Our Baby's Loves
Deafening caress
As we show nothing less

A Chocolatezeus/Wetkisses collab 6/16/07 ©

Watching The Past

I sat and remembered today. I remember everyday something from the past normally. But lately I have allowed myself to truely analyze what has happened.

My life has turned again and again. Led through moments of failure and times of edification.

I watched love go away. Or at least it did for those that I was with. Letting friends go due to there non commitence to what we were supposed to have.

I found what I needed unexpectantly. Shocked as I was, it made me incredibly happy.

I am happy to have closed chapters in my life that were destroying me.

Now I am just chilling

allowing blessings to unfold and learning to come to be.

Temperature Check Collection

Lovelessness

When did it come to the point where I felt nothing

Did I reach a crossroads

One that I never passed

Locked here to a point

Lagging times past

The fire and passion

Burned brighter than

The supernova of the sun

Long gone

Replaced by steady thoughts

Removed feelings

Business like musings

For the good of everything

Chances removed

Standard issue

Maintaining less vulnerability

Living life in a shell

Protected from

Dangerous swelling

Loss of more of everything

Who would have thought

I lost that loving feeling

That the well would dry up

It did

Leaving me complacent

Watch me keep it all in range

Stay to the course

No deviation

Trained monkey on a string

No more maiming and stabbing

Blood entrails

Mine to be had and witnessed

Instead here I am

Nice and bland

Safety in mind

Is it wrong to

Not live life

Like you are on fire

A desire burning bright inside

Withering complacency to a

Funeral pyre

Yet there is no loss

When you give not your all

Leaving everything to a formula

Equation to understand it all

You can’t fail

When you don’t take a chance

Allow things to build and blossom

Instead of planning a net

So nothing will apparently fail

You can’t fail

Or have you already failed

Because there is nothing there

From the Chocolatezeus collection 4/21/07 ©

Them Against Us

Inspired by Akon's Song.

Something that realy is a factor in relationships today unfortunately.

Nobody Wants Us To Be Together

Our paths have crossed
Timelines have brought us to this section in time
Crushing blows have been dealt and felt

I know the love you have for me
Even through the dark times I could see
You supported me, brought things for me
Still I was lost in you
Needing my Only Thing

The fights and devastation fully documented
My lament is in
That any of it ever happened
Still I know that we were meant

We are more than just the bad
The good is what we also have had
The trips where we smiled and laughed
The moments where we experienced life’s quietness

No one else was there
There were no eyes but our own to share
The things that have made us bond together and be

Others can say anything
Believe what they believe
Regardless
I love you
And you love me

The scars, bruises and wounds we both have upon us
Our lives affected more than can be truly said
Both of us wondering why did love have to kill us that way
Now the fears and loss of emotions grip our fate
Along with what others will have to say

Friends and those close should support and say their peace
Why do we have to beware of their grief
Why would they leave if they truly were your peeps
Still I support what you feel and believe

No one wants us to be
The hatred and disparity
Attacks and comments from those that know nothing
They called you bitch and me the player
From what they thought I said and meant
From what you told them about what happened

The women that came to you
Telling stories attempt to compare themselves to you
Jealousy in moments that made up me and you
There is power in what we shared between us two

They fear what we have
Fear of a power of two beings
Living in each others lives
Encased in being
Just being

A loving

Couple

Two people that have chosen to
Love, honor and cherish each other
Regardless of all that is in this world

Making it work
Making it mean more than just
A moment in time
Devoid feelings of the heart

Instead we will shine
The example of what they deny
Embracing the rocky and good times
Dedicated to our own vibes

They can deny
Even cause strife to make us fuss and fight
Bring back all that happened

Our choices still remain

To do our own thing
Bless ourselves with a true loving relationship

Or

Succumb to the fact that


NOBODY WANTS US TO BE TOGETHER




From the Chocolatezeus collection 3/6/07 ©

The Assault on Lives

A Bridge Too Far

Reminders like the Normandy invasion
Wave after wave
Forces of nature have made us slaves
To its wants and ways

Frost bitten cold shakes
Complete unrelenting mistakes
Lead to that slaughter of the innocent
As we wage our battle so magnificent

Still it was not our intent
To destroy so many innocents
Even the reason of our battle
Was far from its intent

We sought to join together
To make a bond that meant forever
Allies to one another
Instead of the hatred that we brought upon us

Now that the world war has passed
We come to a place
A treaty signed and sealed
Delivering something that others won’t
Understand, feel or yield

Yet we have come too far
In this journey to turn back now
Crossing bridges that were burning
Demolition charged

Now we have crossed

That Bridge Too Far

Let us take a journey
To a new start

From the Chocolatezeus collection 1/28/07 ©

Reminded of Good Times

Knowing Good

The question came
Do you speak good of me
Or is everything always negativity
For that is all I see

I knew the answer
With strength
Though there was no denying
The catastrophes
Left horrific tastes on the minds

Standing in the aftermaths
Bloodies, battered
Complete wrecks of humanity
Stained by actions and emotional taints

Yes I remember
What others can’t

You blessing me
How you blessed me with
A roof over my head
And a bed to lay my head at
Food to keep me fed

Even when you were emotionless
Or an emotional wreck
You showed a loving affect
Your caring effect
Gave me things
That I could never expect

I am encased in many regrets
Memories that darken the past
Never forget
All that happened
Caught in a deep seeded traction
Retraction and reversion is what I am after

Alas that won’t be happening
It simply time to live on
Change everything to a positive plane
Ask for your forgiveness
Hope you understand how my love is this way
That it was simply insane
Caught in its caged misunderstanding

You were good to me
Even when I refused to see
To fight through being angry
Dejected shouldn’t have mattered to me

I gave no chances to what could be
Simply devoured by uncertainty
As you gave me many things
Clouded I couldn’t believe
Fought you every step of the way

So what good things were there to see
You loved me
Gave romance to me that I needed
Whisked me away to new things
Companionship that was unbelieved

You
My comforting relief
Good things could never explain
What you mean to me
The things that link us together
Even in pain

The list goes on
Good things no, no bounds
Just know that I know the good that was done


From the Chocolatezeus collection 1/27/07 ©

You Don’t See?

Can’t you see
That beauty that you are
My compliments are not unbound
I pay homage to your beauty
Because it is the truth without a doubt

There is no lie coming from my mouth
I don’t have to say it to get your body
My mind already got it

Look into the mirror and see
Let go of your insecurities
Enjoy the Aphrodite beauty you see
Not the things that have been told maliciously

Only you can believe
The luscious queen that you be
Otherwise denying compliments given freely

My eyes and mind agree
That your sexy
Your beauty true belief
Sultry subtlety
No false make up needs

Beauty runs shallow and deep
Hands down you get them beat
Just let your spirit free
And you will be able to finally believe
What I already have seen
That you are the one and only
True Beauty Queen


From the Chocolatezeus collection 1/22/07 ©

The Cycle

Round and Round


Time has taken
Rearranged everything
Taken life
Breathed birth
Into our lives

Belonging to
Neither you or I
Simply a part of our lives

Still here we find
A circle reached
Cycle come full presence
Bringing us back to
Just you and me

Is this fate
Some kind of torturous mistake
Or this is something
We manufactured
To seek our own comforting

What turn will we take
Can we immerse ourselves fully
Into what we feel and believe

The question
Our coming actions
The answers we need



From the Chocolatezeus collection 1/11/07 ©

the Entertainer in Me

Why I Dance

I do it for me
When I have loosened up
Had a few drinks
Enjoyed some company

Then I am ready to just be
Have fun
Come laugh with me
Dance with me

Hit the floor
I don’t care
Tonight the entertainment is going to be there

It’s me that they will look at and stare
The hell with posting up
Watching the club

I dance with you
Because I think you are cute
I want to watch your body move
See what skills you can unloose

Two stepping may be what I do
For a minute or two
Or we can go old school
Throw out a prep
A snake or two

But my dance

It’s not for you
I do what I do
Because I am going to enjoy this mood
When I am the entertainer
Gone is my protection attitude

Lets get down
Bust a move
Step in the name of love
Or cha cha slide with you

Once that music
Has gripped me totally
I just want to keep it flowing
Burning up the floor
Heating up and sweating

When you move I move
They watch us two
Laughing and smiling

Now you know why I dance
Why I enjoy that mood
When the attitude
Is gone
Replaced with my gratitude
DJ keep it jumping dude



From the Chocolatezeus collection 12/21/06 ©

Ice Cream Dreams

Dreams Against Dream

Find and you shall see
That is what is said to me
Don’t give up
It will come to me

All I can remember is the
Eternal dreams
Of my wife
My family
That house with us enjoying
What life brings

I scheduled
Worked on
Jumped on
Weaseled it all in
Time and time again

Failure after failure
The only result from things
My efforts wasting

Mistakes made
Love gave
Regrets constantly made
True love though
I refused to forsake

Never surrender, never give up
Became my theme

Fighting against the
Seen and unseen

Marriage continuing to be
High on my list of important things
Even when I denied its meaning
I am just a loving compassionate being
No matter how I attempt to change the scene

Still I look favorably on this marriage thing
Believe in it
Knowing that it is not necessarily happening
Still I must remain positive

For love cannot be predicted
Nothing can be expected
My heart will remain unprotected
At least partially

Marriage
Through the fire and destruction
Still remains

A part of me

Me

Love and Marriage

No need to lie

Just

Me


From the Chocolatezeus collection 12/15/06 ©